outside looking in
i find myself stuck 
stuck in the same routine
now im gone

oh what a thrill 
weight lifted apathy
oh such bliss
see colours in my eyes

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it’s warmer and brighter and nicer this march
than it ever was last may
and i think that the world is slowly ending
but i think the world is better off that way

if we truly are just dust from space
if we go or stay, it doesn’t really matter
but if we’re something more and we f*cked up this bad
well, i think that might just make me sadder

it’s a cute little form of nihilism
where my mind has finally found it’s home
wandering the streets of late stage capitalism
well, i guess there are worse streets to roam

it’s colder and sadder who are we pretending
why we joke oh i cannot say
and i think that the world is finally ending
but i think the world is better off that way

but i think the world is better off that way

sad song

I keep falling asleep
In the middle of the day

To get rid of this pit
That’s eating me away

I keep eating the plum
Along with the pit of it
Too guilty to discard

I swallow the pain
Let it sit for days
Allowing it
To succumb
I don’t know
What else to do
This is the only way
So I let it deteriorate 

I’m the one to blame
I’m the one to blame 
I’m the one to blame
I’m the one to blame

Plum Pit

Took the personality test
Results say INFJ
What does that even mean? 
Apparently I’m sensitive and defensive

Why don’t I know who I am
When I’m the one in my body
Wish I could be an angel and
Forgive everybody 

Sometimes I get so mad
Even surprising myself
Tears won’t stop soaking my sleeve
Swollen eyes like I had surgery

Why don’t I know who I am
When I’m the one in my body
Wish I could be an angel and
Forgive everybody 

I need to stop crying
I keep hurting them

Why don’t I know who I am
When I’m the one in my body
Wish I could be an angel and
Forgive everybody

INFJ

Walked the trail alone today
Saw a squirrel run away
“Hey, let’s go together”

Danced around in my room
Saw myself in braids
“Hey, let’s dance together”

When I hear them sing
I picture myself on the stage
Then I open my eyes and
No one’s listening

Called my dad today
No response for several days
“Hey, what’s going on”

And it’s like this every day
Not things just for today
“Hey, it’s daily”

When I hear them sing
I picture myself on the stage
Then I open my eyes and
No one’s listening

No one
No one’s listening
No one
No one’s listening
No one
No one’s listening

Daily

I wanna kiss someone
In the hallway
Like it doesn’t mean anything
Dance with all the lights off
With your breath on my skin
My brain would definitely disapprove of this
But I’m home alone
Imagining this scene
Should I go out more
If I really want him

I’m still a child
That makes faces
When I see love
I say consistency is key
To have it all
And this girl said to me
I’m too innocent
Does innocence mean
I can’t have anything

Maybe it’s because I’m an only child
I don’t know how to love anyone
And I want a family sticker on our van one day
And listen to the songs you play in it
I wanna kiss you and feel everything
Don’t want my brain to disapprove of me

Learn how to love love
With you the most
And tell the girl I finally found you

Lovelove (demo)

a song I wrote about preventing yourself from liking someone because you know it won't ever work out

lyrics:

I get so nervous 
every time I leave my house
because I know that I'll see you tonight

you'll be right there smiling
helping me when I fall
but I can't fall in love
with you

how do I know?
I feel it in my stomach
24/7
what do I do?
I'll hide from your sight
when I feel your eyes

even though we want to
it wouldn't work
trust me 
we both know

from now on I'll avoid you
escape from your mind

don't come to me anymore
or I'll want to be yours
so don't come to me anymore
I can't be yours
don't come to me anymore
I'll never be yours

no more (demo)

too bright

I did not know that you would choose
To leave me so, having the blues;
And as these news I softly muse,
I did not know that we could lose.

I did not know that you, so smart,
Would choose, so clear, to let us part;
And, as you dream a brand new start,
I did not know you'd break my heart.

I did not know I'd think of you
After all this time, which so fast flew;
I did not see - I wish I knew
How fragile be what's real and true.

I did not know that, dearest Muse,
I did not pick up on your clues;
And, as I tremble at the news,
I did not know that we would lose.

I Did Not Know

the children have followed the footsteps of their father they're stuck in his evil trail

if only they heard the word of their kind mother who said when he gets bad, bail

he has studied greatly yet has never learned a smidgen of a single thing

they had met when they were younger but now are far gone as she she morphs into a frail being


his presence always trampled what was he was surrounding and she let him trample down

now her daughter tramples flowers as internal screaming grows into eternal frowns

nails on a chalkboard filling up the dreams of what she once had used to love

but when she wakes in a cold sweat she forgets bout what she was even dreaming of 


he takes her to the backyard before the sun rises, she stares down a loaded gun

she’s saddened but she’s not surprised as she tries to break down the old barn door and run

but when old door opens she's met with the feeling that she'll never come around

she lays upon her lover’s feet and decides to just rest and let him trample down

Daily

Christina Shin

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