I wair my heart right here on my sleeve!❤️‍🔥🤟

this is killing me I can barely breath no one knows whats inside of me🤟

Mental illness is not an excuse. Those who struggle with Anxiety, Depression, Schizophrenia, PTSD, OCD or any mental disorder are not pretending to suffer just because they are desperate for attention.  * Read more below

Raise your voice with us. Speak out against mental health stigma. If you feel courageous enough, share your story of your fight with mental illness in the comments. You never know who might need to hear it. If you feel like ending it all, do not be afraid to ask for help. Remember, "You will live to tell your story." National Suicide Prevention Lifeline:  1-800-273-8255

Lyrics

Shaking hands, cannot catch my breath,
It’s 3am and I’m scared to death,
My darkest side, has come alive…

Can’t hide the hell I live in every day,
You say its just a phase, I’ll be okay,
What you can’t feel, must not be real…

I wear my heart here on my sleeve,
But you can’t see, no one sees….

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows what is inside of me,
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

Six feet under still no one can hear,
My cry for help falling on deaf ears,
So desperate for, your attention whore…

Tell me why anyone would pretend,
And choose a life they would want to end
And ever feed, this anxiety…

Here on the surface everything seems fine,
But here beneath my skin I’m running out of time…


This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows what is inside of me,
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

Faceless I've been paralyzed, 
But I won’t be silent one more day,
I've come too far to say I'm sorry,
I will live, to tell my story…

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one know, no one knows…
Too late to fit in, don’t you dare pretend,
You know what it’s like, to watch the world outside,
While you’re buried alive…

This is killing me, I can barely breathe,
No one knows, no one knows me…

Buried Alive

On January 27th, 2017, 8-year-old Gabriel Taye hung himself after enduring weeks of relentless bullying at his school. Bullies are cowards that crave attention and social validation. No matter how weak you may feel if you stand up to them, you take their power away.

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Lyrics:

Just another day on the front line
forced to apologize
for being who I am but you better understand
I'm taking back all this wasted time
feeling like a landmine
You know I like it rough
I'm feeling dangerous

I've been hit flip the switch
I'm done swallowing your cyanide
Somethings snapped so watch your step
Now I'm ready to ignite

Maybe I'm a misfit maybe I'm a no one
push me to the dirt ya the one you always spit on
I am not worthless 
I don't deserve this
No I will not take this
Wont be faceless now is the time to say it
You better bite your tongue
I'm about to come undone
Now my moment is here I'm not the only one
Singing maybe I'll fight maybe when I'm older
But if I face you now maybe I'm a soldier

Insecurity personified bully born to run and hide
You take your sticks and stones cut me down to the bone
You better run, run save yourself 
swear I'll be a living hell 
My scarlet letters see, I wear it on my sleeve

Lunatic I'm so sick of your self righteous hypocrisy
I wont run
I wont hide
I wont be a casualty

Maybe I'm a misfit maybe I'm a no one
push me to the dirt ya the one you always spit on
I am not worthless 
I don't deserve this
No I will not take this
Wont be faceless now is the time to say it
You better bite your tongue
I'm about to come undone
Now my moment is here I'm not the only one
Singing maybe I'll fight maybe when I'm older
But if I face you now maybe I'm a soldier

Now I'm breaking my silence
I wont sit here and take this
I'd rather be dead 
Than surrender and live like a tragedy 
I wont be your tragedy
 
Maybe I'm a misfit maybe I'm a no one
push me to the dirt ya the one you always spit on
I am not worthless 
I don't deserve this
No I will not take this
Wont be faceless now is the time to say it
You better bite your tongue
I'm about to come undone
Now my moment is here I'm not the only one
Singing maybe I'll fight maybe when I'm older
But if I face you now maybe I'm a soldier
  
I am an army of one
I am an army of one
I am an army of one
I am an army of one...

Soldier

The #metoo movement has inspired us to share the story of someone we loved and lost in our new song Caroline. It is nearly impossible to explain what it is like to live with PTSD. Nearly 1/4 of women will experience some form of domestic violence in their lives, and we are determined to help them have the courage to speak up. Don't be afraid. You are not alone.

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Lyrics:

She's a light, smothered in endless night. A fading flame, struggling just to survive...

Born into constant betrayal always set up to fail, call me cynical, but I must know, what keeps her alive, what keeps her alive?

She won't open her mouth til we open our eyes and see this cross she has borne all along, will this laughter and scorn turn to hearts ever torn, when she's dead and gone?

How far from heaven, did she fall? With broken wings, she barely crawls, no reasons left to stay alive, If there's a God, where's he tonight? For Caroline 

Every day, a nightmare she must relive, no more love, what she's never known no she never can give

Are we the cuts on her wrist that we cannot forgive, is ignorance bliss? Is ignorance bliss? 

Will we come to the day where we find her alone and there's nothing left of her to save? She just wanted a place and we got in the way, what a shame! 

How far from heaven, did she fall? With broken wings, she barely crawls, no reasons left to stay alive, If there's a God, where's he tonight? For Caroline 

How far from heaven, did she fall? With broken wings, she barely crawls, no reasons left to stay alive, If there's a God, where's he tonight? For Caroline 

If there's a God, where's he tonight? For Caroline
For Caroline
For Caroline
For Caroline
For Caroline

Caroline

After reading so many heartfelt messages from fans over the past few months, we wished we could somehow stand by the side of every single one of them. Unfortunately, that's not possible, so we wrote a song instead.  For those of you who have reached out to us, this is what we wish to say to you.

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All songs on this channel are copyrighted by law. Any use of Citizen Soldier LLC's content is strictly prohibited unless authorized by Citizen Soldier LLC.

Lyrics:

Have you ever felt lost
 like you don’t matter at all
 like you were born just to be scared

All this fear deep inside 
does it burn to the surface leaving you gasping for air

Now you’re walking alone 
it’s all that you’ve ever known 
so sick of being the one betrayed

If you just take one more chance if you just open your eyes you’ll find the purpose in your pain

Oh I know 
there is purpose in your pain

Do you feel already dead 
like you have no reasons left standing on the edge 
and finally looking down

Like a candle in the night 
fighting just to stay alive 
I know you still can’t see 
but hold onto me 
you will be found

Now the pulse of your heart 
is it just way too heavy 
does the way to the world 
hold you down

Is the world celebrating 
while you’re there suffocating 
no shred of sympathy 
to be found

Now your face down in the dirt you think it’s what you deserve but even when this life is cold

You’ve got to be strong somehow rise from the dust 
your story needs to be told

You will be found 
you will be saved
 just hear me now 
I felt the same 
you will be broken 
but never to pieces 
keep holding on 
there’s always a reason

Found

There’s no personal hell quite like being told what you’re feeling isn’t real.

Recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by Sahaj Ticotin in Los Angeles, California.
©2019 Citizen Soldier. All Rights Reserved

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rebel dude 🤘

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