2/16/24

Claude💛

LÆLI - Caught up

produced by me
guitar loop by @93feetofsmoke

lyrics:
why'd you have to call, what was so important?
fuck
i don't wanna hear ur voice at all
i knew i was bound to fall
stackin up the paper like it's nothing
posted with the vapor yeah u know i'm always stunting
i got plenty scratches and they're lining my face
i might disappear to ashes i got too much on my plate

do u remember when u told me that u were fine?
i guess that shit was a lie
i guess i'm on fucking shit suicide
how am i over it they want me to die

well i guess that's that
i've been smoking on a pack
it got stuck inside my throat and now i'm choking on the ash

bound 2 fall

produced by @johnnyfriend

featuring @rouri404

my favorite view ft. rouri404 (johnnyfriend)

produced by @dercept

lyrics:
i done tried to speak my heart a thousand times and it gets nowhere
i thought i could change myself for the better instead i say it's not fair 
my enemies reach out to me they like it when i tear
i tried being humble think i did that for the last time
sitting in my bubble tryna figure out my past lives
like did i ever get it right?
have i changed in the slightest?
i promise i don't bite

i don't think u really get it 
wake up feeling double headed
two headaches need double the medicine
two pm so i hop out of bed
empty stomach my health in the red
i still been trippin over what u said
seventeen feet under and i can not catch a breath
maybe i'm holding on to u cuz i don't got anything left
if i let go it's for the best i don't want us to be dead
i don't want us to be dead (x2)

i dnt want us 2 b dead (dercept)

Can You Break All My Bones And Show Me How To Be Happy?

prod. @tvlen &  @nikofromjapan

i was so f*cking mad!

fucking mad - Single

fucking mad

Stream

now it's the end of the line :/
- the most massive thank you to @dezforman for helping me tell this story and to @bonddot for the mixing <3 love you guys fr

~ never been the type for confrontation 
i lost all my power, i can't even fake it
so complacent, no 
the way you worked your magic is so amazing 
i lost who i was, i got out of your gaze and now i'm saving me 
the odds had kept me from breathing 
i never tried to get even 
write about how i'm feeling 
to clear my mind, yeah im drawing the line 
stare at your likes and a view count 
all of our issues you drew out 
and i don't know what to do now
guess i gotta speak out 

i didn't mean to you love you 
i guess i kinda like the way that you would run to me 
i always hoped you come through
you kinda led me on and watched me drown in oceans deep
should have listened to all my friends 
cause you were using me for gain and i would play pretend, you were mine 
should have payed attention to the signs
now it's the end of the line 

thought about the night i left the station 
got off that train and left you all alone
oh how much did you grow?
the way you slipped back in, and got me again
i can't even shake you off
lost what i wanted, can't move all this weight, i failed in saving me 
is what we had really worth it?i
no need in tryna preserve it 
i know we're both probably hurting 
but it's easy sometimes, if you just drew the line 
fuck all the likes and the view counts
it's you and me that should figure it out 
and i don't know what to do now
guess i gotta stand my ground 

i didn't mean to you love you 
i guess i kinda like the way that you would run to me 
i always hoped you come through
you kinda led me on and watched me drown in oceans deep
should have listened to all my friends 
cause you were using me for gain and i would play pretend, you were mine 
should have payed attention to the signs
now it's the end of the line 

i didn't mean to love you 
in fact i never tried to 
but here we are, here we are ~

terminus

produced by @p-guda

lyrics:
step back and let me analyze
it's their bad and my loss, i'm just crushed inside
just let me go, please just let me go
nothing left for u to know
i'm just sick of only keeping to myself on the low
i guess soon it will be over
3 steps back, guess ill never get closure

am i even speaking?
do u hear me?
i just get ignored and i'm never taken seriously
guide me
just acknowledge that i love u and i'm trying
really don't wanna go back home, probably shouldn’t say it i might come off as an asshole
(fuck you)
time stalling, i was taking backroads
i'm falling deep into a trash load

was it worth it?
(no)
i know i can not be perfect
u said it was part of the learning
now i’m too scared to talk
can either of u open up ur arms when i start to feel lost?
i guess not (yeah i guess not)
i guess soon it will be over
3 steps back, guess i'll never get closure

am i even speaking?
do u hear me?
i just get ignored and i'm never taken seriously
guide me
just acknowledge that i love u and i'm trying
really don't wanna go back home, probably shouldn’t say it i might come off as an asshole
(fuck you)
time stalling, i was taking backroads
i'm falling deep into a trash load

backroads (guda)

The Poison's The Weather

produced by @ilychrxme x se7en

featuring @victxrw

lyrics:
(claude)
please don't be afraid
i'll stay out the way
i wanna touch ur fangs
i would never ruin what we made
now she go to sleep when i wake up 
it's not easy to leave i need ur love
i watched u from above
she only wanted a hug
but got a taste of my blood
ur never taking enough
wouldn't erase what you've done

(victxrw)
cause we go thru everything u nd me,
would u feel the same ways abt me?
tell me something so i can finally breathe
tell me something just-

u got me feeling so sick
im fucking tired of this
i hate when we reminisce
i miss the taste of ur lips
u got me feeling so sick
i'm fucking tired of this
i just want to live in bliss
why does it feel endless?

(claude)
please don't be afraid
i'll stay out the way
i wanna touch ur fangs
i would never ruin what we made
now she go to sleep when i wake up 
it's not easy to leave i need ur love
i watched u from above
she only wanted a hug
but got a taste of my blood
ur never taking enough
wouldn't erase what you've done

when i wake up ft. victxrw (dec se7en)

produced by @bazington x @1wasterr

lyrics:
gave up on u
tell me to be brave, i don't want to
watch em all fade when i walk thru
i just wanna leave a trace ion know what to do
i'd do anything if u could crawl back towards me
i know u've been by urself don't worry
i'll be there swear it's alright
why y'all talkin shit? they gon be scared when it's on sight
i been acting like i fucking care now i'm all tight

there's nothing left that's here for me
everything i kept u took away
hate it when u say that it's not that hard
always wish u'd stay but it's not that far
said they wanted me to change and it left me scarred
they all putting me to shame i just played my part
hate it when u break and it's on my shards
don't know how much u can take when ur my safeguard (3x)

do anything for u
i think of u every day it's just cuz i adore u
give more than i can afford to
u tell me i'm lying but it's all true

gave up on u
tell me to be brave, i don't want to
watch em all fade when i walk thru
i just wanna leave a trace ion know what to do
i'd do anything if u could crawl back towards me
i know u've been by urself don't worry
i'll be there swear it's alright
why y'all talkin shit? they gon be scared when it's on sight
i been acting like i fucking care now i'm all tight