prod. mixed, and mastered by me 
shoutout @prodbyaustyn for the co-prod on this one :)
also @t3rmes for the songwriting on the hook when my brain hurted <3

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20 now, this isn't how 
i thought it would work out 
breaking vows, might take a bow 
because i'm tired of feeling down 
put all my anger into a microphone 
it's no ones fault but my own please just let me be alone 
all my friends they were plastic, and i'm was silicone 
fit into molds, now watch me grow 
i won't see it through, to twenty two 
i thought i had nothing to lose 
maybe views, or my muse 
i hope these thoughts i have the chance to defuse 
buts it's looking that i might just have to give it up 
stay at the bottom while all my friends, they live it up 
i've got potential i guess i just gotta pick it up 
im getting up, i've had enough

falling out of touch with who i am 
revolving, my mind a door, it's turning 
am i deserving? 
stalling all the opportunities at hand 
to hear them applauding, is all that i want, but i'm so exhausted 

i've been so exhausted 
i feel like a hostage
in my brain, i've lost it, 
wilt away watch my friends all blossom
sun don't shine, upon me 
petals they're all falling 
in my head, it's daunting, 
being left behind in the dawning 

the sun never gon shine when i'm stuck all alone 
the stars won't align, when i'm left in the cold
the thought are benign, but they're taking a toll 
the sun never gon shine when i'm stuck all alone 
the stars won't align, when i'm left in the cold
a flower dead in the night, out of sight, decomposed

rumination

zinnia

prod me<3
@byjaimejaime
OUT NOW ON ALL PLATS

werewolf (w/ jaime jaime)

2much (plxce + starboyrob)

swimthendrown

god prod by @denji-sucks
lov from @r1tro
experimented with a glaive beat love the outcome <3
(oi is that glav?)

all my friends r dead
she wasn't lying when she said she was 6 FOOT '10
n i cant take this stress, everythings a mess

i wasn't really joking that i said i was mad
every single thing u did to me was all in the past
all that shit u talk about me never seemed to last
ur a narcissistic masochist that drove me mad

(im just so fucking done)

i wasn't really lying when i say that ur ded 2 me
having all the traumas that u gave now ur ded 2 me
wasting all the nights for a text for me 
now ur dead 2 me
laughed at me 
hugged wid me
fucked wid me
ending me

x2

she took my heart away
she knew i fell for the lie she wore on her face 
she couldnt ruin her face
she couldnt ruin her face

all her friends are dead x4

i wasn't really joking that i said i was mad
every single thing u did to me was all in the past
all that shit u talk about me never seemed to last
ur a narcissistic masochist that drove me mad

i wasn't really lying when i say that ur ded 2 me
having all the traumas that u gave now ur ded 2 me
wasting all the nights for a text for me 
now ur dead 2 me
laughed at me 

i wasn't really joking that i said i was mad
every single thing u did to me was all in the past
all that shit u talk about me never seemed to last

dead2m3 (denji)

produced by @threedimensionsapart

lyrics:
i never wanted to waste ur time
gave u everything like it was never even mine
i don’t wanna look into a screen any longer
that boy looked at me the wrong way he got slaughtered 
ain’t nobody taking my offer and now all my scars hurt more than they did before
i don’t know what i’m waiting for (x2)

i don’t wanna talk
i’m dying i swear to god
ever since i met u we been on and off
ever since i met u i forgot how to stand tall
i think that i’ve had enough
i’m fucking tired of love
how come i’m still not tough
like what the fuck

enough (tda)

claude