Ericdoa x Glaive dance with the devil [snippet]

this one took a lot out of me to make. i love you guys, and i hope you liked the ep <3

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worst case scenarios get painted in my head 
clocks shine in early light, i just can't get no rest 
stare at an open project file, i'm filled with dread
and i can't fight, my life's a mess 
i hope one day i make it 
it's been too long, i feel myself getting inpatient 
inside my mind i'm keeping up, but im complacent 
my friends don't ever say a thing, my thoughts are racing, 
my inner demons i've been facing 
i feel 

colder than the winter snow, 
i would give it up but i don't know 
summer nights alone are making me go crazy
life it feels monotonous lately
downers never ease the pain 
i'm still standing in the falling rain 
spring into a time where i would i have a reason 
i'm defeated, just going through the seasons

this inconsistency 
i swear will never pass 
try to impress friends 
with all these shitty drafts
feel incomparable, this pain is so unbearable 
i wanna run away from everything
and few anything at all 
i hope they know i'm faking 
i try so hard to keep intact i know i'm breaking 
i know it's bad but i keep seeking validation 
and i can't help the fact that i wanna be just like them 
but it feels like every day i fight them 
cause they've felt
colder than the winter snow, 
they would give me up but i don't know 
summer nights alone are making me go crazy
life it feels monotonous lately
downers never ease the pain 
they've still left me in the falling rain 
spring into a time where i would i have a reason 
i'm defeated, just going through the seasons

rumination

seasons

comprehend

Red String

this song came about so naturally and beautifully, and i hope she knows that <3

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i had a dream the other night that made me think 
where you saw past my flaws and all my different things
where you were mine and i was yours 
key in hand, unlocked the door 
and now my head is spinning, you're all i want and more 
i saw you dancing in the mulch of your front yard 
was where it started didn't think i'd fall this hard 
passing glances, i'm a mess
you looked so lovely in that dress 
the way you twirled and stepped and made my heart a wreck
don't stand a chance 
there's so many other guys here
within your trance 
i wish you'd whispered into my ear 
and said these hands are yours to hold 
meant to last not meant to fold 
i got no plans of moving on, the feelings grow 

caught up in you, i got no clue 
it's almost 2 do you miss me 
i hope that it's true, you feel the way you do 
this songs for you, hope you're listening 
we play a tune, the stars in view 
i always hoped you had wished me 
when you're 22, the beauty's shining through 
you're all i want, you don't have to convince me

can i ask u some questions?

20two

@bonddot is so cracked i'm so glad you were able to tell this story with me <3

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ruined everything, i'm a shell of who i once was 
because i gave you all of me, wasted my time, left in the dust 
i try and try again, i can never forget 
falling in love, oh i couldn't pretend that this 
was something special, you had went and broken all of my trust
i think about the night, late call, didn't think it would end 
couldn't have said it any clearer, to the day i can still hear what you said 
you said that i had been the problem, and you didn't feel like solving a thing
leave my life, out of sight while you leave me to drink away the sorrow, hope i die before tomorrow again

don't get me wrong, 
i don't even give a fuck about the shit that you're on 
even though i'm steady trying to forget all of the songs 
i don't think you ever cared, i know you put up a front
but now you've given it up

december feels like forever ago 
remember nights where i felt so alone 
bad weather, thought you would never be cold 
you've got me, i'm so controlled 
this trauma makes it much harder to grow 
don't wanna take to the bottle and fold 
take me away cause you're gone i suppose 
i still miss you more than you know 

it’s been two years since we ended
i never thought once we were friends since then
and you were always on the fence
last time you hit me up, i was burying a friend, yeah
you said we’re still friends and you act like you don’t know me
when we were together i still felt like it was lonely
i’ve been moving on, i know i don’t need ya
thought you left a sorry, you still walk around my head like athena
and i’ve been waiting for this wound to heal but i know it won’t 
your words cut me deep, cut me straight to the bone
i’m in a better space without you, yeah i did it on my own

december feels like forever ago 
remember nights where i felt so alone 
bad weather, thought you would never be cold 
you've got me, i'm so controlled 
this trauma makes it much harder to grow 
don't wanna take to the bottle and fold 
take me away cause you're gone i suppose 
i still miss you more than you know

trauma (feat. bond.)

trauma (w. bond.)

produced by me

lyrics:
yeah ur listening to me right now but are u really hearing it?
i was speaking to the void and unaware that it got serious
oh i could avoid my problems but then i'm not feeling it
if u can't face it head on ur delirious 

oh i can barely look inside the mirror
fuck the angel that said i was in the clear
recently i'm only used to drowning in my tears
life is only complicated when u overcome ur fears

is it wrong if i say that i hope u die?
haven't rlly despised someone in a while
nobody really being nice so why should i smile?
is it wrong if i admit that i never tried?
i was busy picturing u with another guy
why why
i guess i gave up after all
i was sitting round waiting for a call
u don't understand a thing about me it's alright
i'll be waiting up all night

wrong

me and simon have once did it again 
shoutout goat @simonpopdiva ily<33

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i broke the pattern but i didnt know the loop would repeat
i cant remember anything but it still bothers me 
no truth to set us free
it was nice spending time with you but i wasnt me 
but youre not2blame
youre not2blame

i think ill start this fire on my own
i dont need ur help ive been all alone
and i just didnt even need to ask for a hand
ive spent the past few months working on one big plan

understand my pain
amphetamines
theyre not good4me
and i hope you see x2

understand my pain
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theyre not good4me
and i hope you see

not2blame (simon)

She just wanna kiss n touch 
she wanna get that physical touch
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/ydkm/kiss-n-touch

wrong

claude