let go

5/7

https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/track/to-get-older

to get older

Stream

05

I know you're not alone
Well I know it's all interpretation and correlation
Oh have you seen it
I feel the heat on my skin from the sun
But I can't help but asking

Yeah so 
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever

Well now I've realised
I can't just walk around with closed eyes
Get a grip of yourself
I know you're scared
Let's look at the semantics
I know I'm so pedantic
It's all perspective, it won't ruin my vision
We've gotta stop with all this indecision

I see it all the time (okay)
I can't believe I didn't notice you
And I won't hesitate anymore
Action over reaction
And I won't play pretend anymore

Yeah so 
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever
Why
So now I'm stuck in the desert and
I saw the serpent and the treasure
Now am I stuck here forever

the desert

01

if determinism is true
then what led me here?
i just can't believe that we move without thinking twice about it
amor fati, i'll never lose
even when you move away.

why are you always walking alone?
he said he's building on a world of his own
i see sage when i'm walking alone
why are you always walking alone?
he said he's building on a world of his own
i see sage when i'm walking alone

sage's piano

i guess i'm homesick

⭐️ lyrics:

Lock myself in my room again
When I'm alone I can play pretend
That you're with me, laying in my bed
I guess some things are better left unsaid
You don't know how much I miss you
What more can I do?
I just wanna kiss you again and again, and again

I miss my room, I miss my bed
I guess I'm homesick
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
These demons get into my brain
I'll make a deal with them
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
'Till I can't feel a thing

I miss my room, I miss my bed
I guess I'm (homesi-)
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
These demons get into my brain
I'll make a deal with them
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
'Till I can't feel a thing

But I feel guilty for staying inside on a nice day
Guilty for going outside on a weekday
Gave up, I'm staying in bed for the whole day
Put on a smile even when I'm not okay

But I feel guilty for staying inside on a nice day
Guilty for going outside on a weekday
Gave up, I'm staying in bed for the whole day
Put on a smile even when I'm not okay

I miss my room, I miss my bed
I guess I'm homesick
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
These demons get into my brain
I'll make a deal with them
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
'Til I can't feel a thing

I miss my room, I miss my bed
I guess I'm (homesi-)
Nowhere to hide inside my head (Gotta get used to it)
These demons get into my brain
I'll make a deal with them
I'm taking pills, I'm taking hits
'Til I can't feel a thing

homesick

stream

i just wish i could tell you how i'm feeling lately

nerve

this song means a lot to me thank you for listening
ill get better at music i promise
꧁ ꧂

i couldn't find myself
and life is around the corner
i could probably melt
and now that i am older

i see all my friends hated me
lived a lie just for my fantasy
oblivious in all these situations
but i think i can fix them
i think i can fix them

clovers on my face
im flying so i can't even feel them
you’re my everything
but flowers only bloom every season
i cant feel my breathin
feels like my life does have some meaning
my heart feels empty
but i cant fight with my reason
fight with my reason
(x2)

is it all my fault
i just cant evolve
all these cracks in my vault and
i dont understand at all how

im breaking so easily
my mind is confused
my soul has died lethally
but that isnt news
my temples abused
the angels are teasing me
and they all accuse
that what im saying isnt true

clovers
clovers
its not over til i say its over
gotta pressure on
cant give it the shoulder
clovers
clovers
i gotta overcome this boulder
im not getting in the eye of the holder
this worlds getting colder
but im still wrapped in my clovers
wrapped in my clovers

i thought they were my friends
but they told me to my own face that they werent
i thought that I could trust her
but she threw it all away in the dirt
feeling all these emotions
the anguish
the pain
the atonement
all of my fear
and my hatred
are bolded
my body its coded
but i cant let it control me

false promises were made about me
and my hands were scarred from the thorns
placed around me from all my fears
i can see through my eyes
but my eyelids still act as a blockade around my sea of tears
is this the first act or the finale
for my new life to have past all these years
as my old reality is crushed
i try to look to the future as my mind begins to clear

clovers

WTML
https://open.spotify.com/track/2cfLs1P39B6QV0Hw9N7VFU?si=cb3cc103df074bb3

eternity theory

Reuploaded due to switch in distributor

Written and recorded on February 18th, 2023 in Colchester, VT

Lakehouse

Attempt to disagree

[Intro: (Ethan Justice), (Ryan Hall), han.irl]
"Oh my God, that fucking sounded sick"
"Just, here, here ya go...
There's a different version of us that's also a different person"
"Ah this is so much fun now!
I just put my hydroflask down
And it feels like 20 pounds was just lifted off from my body
She's a runner she's a track star
If I had anything to say to my future self it would
Probably be... uhh fuck money... get bitches"

[Verse 1: Atlas in Motion]
You remind me of the sunrise
Only ever see you on a bad night
Interrupt my blue with your bright light
Creep in through my window
Everything’s alright
Gonna be just fine everything’s alright

[Chorus: Atlas in Motion & han.irl]
(Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up)
(Thought it was kinda fun but it fucked me up)
(Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up)

[Interlude: (Ryan Hall) & han.irl]
"I'll take a video I'll take a video for you for later"
"han what the fuck..."
"where'd the music go, wait?"

[Refrain: han.irl]
Shit how'd another summer end?
Can you hit me up I'm running out of patience?
Shit, maybe we could try again?
And I'll call instead of looking through your playlist

[Verse 2: han.irl]
Wait-wait–
How'd we fade out so fast?
Didn't think you'd leave me in the dark like that
Had me flying so high now my ego crashed
Staying up listening to Call Me Back
Thought it'd be fun, but it fucked me up
Now I'm running out of time
Running out of luck, but it's alright
Everything's alright... Everything's alright?
Alright? alright? al- al-

[Chorus: han.irl]
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up

[Refrain: han.irl & Atlas in Motion]
Shit how'd another summer end?
Can you hit me up I'm running out
Running out of patience?
Shit, maybe we could try again?
And I'll call instead of looking through your playlists?
Shit how'd another summer end?
Can you hit me up I'm running out of pavement?
Shit, maybe we could try again?
And I'll call instead of looking through your playlists?


[Outro: (Ryan Hall) & han.irl]
"This is crazy"
"This is so weird cause like I can imagine myself in the future pressing play on this voice memo to listen to it and hearing myself say the exact things that i'm saying right now in sequence of the way that i'm saying them in this second. So if you really think about it" "Woah this is really pretty""The past and the present and the future are all like... the same thing... 'dude this isssss' maybe not, maybe it's just..."

fmuuu (with atlas in motion)

https://open.spotify.com/track/1s0XvMyOhnv5mY8sT4xm3o

(I) 
I’ve been blind 
To you
But if I take time 
Will I quit lying? 
Will I be 

All up in my mind 
Till I waste nights 
I been hearing lies
Through the grapevine 
(I could tell) 
I could tell lies 
Like a quicktime

(Maybe I) 
I could take time
Like I want to 
(Maybe I)
I can break ties 
If I have to
I can make time 
For the things I wanna do

I do 
Am I too much for you?
(Much for you)
No I do
Am I too much for you?
(Much for you)

You don’t know 
That I’m too much for you
(Much for you)
Yeah, I know 
It’s too much for you
(Much for you) 
Yes I do

(Much for you, much for you) 
(I’m too much for you, much for you)
(I’m too much for you, much for you)
(I’m too much for-)

I’ve been online, need a clear mind
Staying up way too late again
Write another song and play pretend 
Maybe I’m insane or hard to bend I can say

I’m just sick of love for the meantime
I can say lies for the peace signs
I can make time for the things I wanna do

Still I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you
Much for you 
I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you
Much for you 
I’m too much for you
Much for you
I’m too much for you

Atlas

IG - @perishmentt
Lyrics, Mixing, Engineering by Me

lose her again (bonus)

something blue (feat. with love)

thank you to @dobimusic for help with this. 

i am moving forward with my music, trying new things. stay tuned for more projects in the future. they may be very different :)

how will i know?

Grimes-IDORU (slowed + reverb)

I mourn what I wasn't to make room for what I am.
I remember myself as the master that I am, the master I have always been.

Be grateful, be humble, stay blessed.

Sincerely,
Châu Mai Hứa

how will i know?

clearlew

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