@bloomchunes: nothing in this song is sampled, i simply adapted the preset for that one small melody in the song

Love love love .. even though i have heard  before! Coming back and listening to it again it is even better❤️❤️

20 seconds in I know it's what I'm listening for the next month

just a sign [wishlane + to oscar rmx]

the thought of u is so heavy now 

lyrics🎈:

...and i still have their bed
with the little plush toys that come with it
just get out my head
like am i fucking serious?

what a fucking joke,
and to think i could've fucking opened up myself to them
but im so fucking avoidant

it’s been like 6 whole months,
and for some reason i think tomorrow that they'll hit me up
i just dont speak, i hold my tongue, when i should've spoken up 
especially when it means the most
proudly pushing everything, i shouldn't speak, i couldn't keep the peace 
and now i'm on my own

time don't wait for no one, no one
and every time i think of you i frown
yeah my eyes open wide for no one, no one
and the thought of you is so heavy now 

could've been the most
and a part of me wishes everything never happened at all
all the things left unsaid
probably pushed you away
how tf we weren't a thing when you were with me like all the time?
2 months just flying by

it's been like 6 whole months,
and for some reason i think tomorrow that they'll hit me up
i just dont speak, i hold my tongue, when i should've spoken up 
especially when it means the most
proudly pushing everything, i shouldn't speak, i couldn't keep the peace 
and now i'm on my own

yeah it's pretty cruel just slowly fading
yeah u leave me clues can't pick up baby
do u really think i wasn't this way? my mind always hates me
yeah my eyes are open wide but my heart colder than frozen

and i guess it's my fault too?
still have your plants in my living room
water them twice a week
and i tell them nice things
hope u know, despite everything
i'm wishing you well (and if you ask)
yeah im fine just as well

6 whole months,
and for some reason i think tomorrow that they'll hit me up
i just don't speak, i hold my tongue, when i should've spoken up 
especially when it means the most
proudly pushing everything, i shouldn't speak, i couldn't keep the peace 
and now i'm on my own

(...shit)
time don't wait for no one, no one
and every time i think of you i frown
yeah my eyes open wide for no one, no one
and the thought of you is so heavy now 

yeah it's pretty cruel just slowly fading
yeah u leave me clues can't pick up baby
do u really think i wasn't this way? my mind always hates me
yeah my eyes are open wide but my heart colder than frozen

haha


(free acapella/mp3: https://hypeddit.com/prodmusa/texas
pls credit *soundcloud only<3*)

@prodmusa [everywhere]
@soupandreas

freeacapella4remixes<3

hey i'm in texas, do u wanna hang/talk? (prod. soupandreas)

covered some of my favorite songs <3

co-prod. wishlane & soutjay

songs covered:
burbank house - tsubi club
endlessly - bixby
heck - underscores
morris island - soupandreas
rosier/punk2 - brakence
sydney - gabby start
santa monica - aries
peace sounds - james ivy

thank you for the inspiration

songs that keep me sane

co prod gabbyyyyyyyyy

you told me to stay, when i said this town is just another circle of hell
you don’t have to break but you find yourself counting the times you fell
i and was watching all your situations barring the missed occasions with silent regret
when you said you could never love again
too many dark rooms filled with nights to forget

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want

call it what you want

you could never be wrong
cause this night will go on
and the dj keeps playing that stupid drake song

and you said
i’m just so tired of these kids going places to do coke in the bathroom and it’s like nobody wants to have fun and everyone just wants to get fucked up so

maybe i could never love again
in all these dark rooms filled with nights to regret

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want

call it what you want

i’m tired of this aggression
faking love and self obsession
nobody’s got good intentions
where’s the ending

am i lost to find consistent
when people are persistent
in their own twisted way of living
i guess we call it what we want

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want
call it what you want
call it what you want

Call it what you want (co p. gabby start)

https://spiritofariel.com

we're all gonna die

10.10.22

we're all gonna die

WAIT UP (with Atlas in Motion)

prod @dramatrial and corefish

I think I'm falling and I can't reach you now
I pray to stall it, don't wanna feed the hound
If I could saddle it all up and take it away
What's to say, you wouldn't give me all of that
Time and space, couldn't wait
Fuck it, here we go again
That's right, you and I are stuck approaching another end

Is it bad enough now to get me out of the first place
I left my will with the crown and now they're tying a hearse
They told me roll with the punches
I said I'm over it now
But I won't bluff when I'm bound
I'll just keep shoving it down
Little fit wasn't worth the time, circumvent my limits
Try to slip in and stupefy, year I spent a witness
Subtle shit just to loop the time in and out incision
Dog enough to let the villain side out to see the vision

I got a problem and it's all my fault
This feel of drama keeps me up all night long
The marijuana frees me from my slump
And maybe if I felt a little better, I could get up and eat
I sob it all into a sweater and then I sever the leash
And we could really get along if we just let off the peace
And if you really think I'm wrong, we could give it a week

I think I'm falling and I can't reach you now
I pray to stall it, don't wanna feed the hound
If I could make up the breakdown a little bit
Shake, rub, and ache out the feeling
Take in the great love revealing
Patience, son, been pain since the ceiling

Now I've got a fear of falling and I wanna let it go
Sick of huffing back a gaseous pack and sitting like a stone
And the trauma gave me honest responses to get it out of me
Circle all the drama and atrophy all the artery

I think I'm falling and I can't reach you now
I pray to stall it, don't wanna feed the hound

Is it bad enough now to get me out of the first place
I left my will with the crown and now they're tying a hearse
They told me roll with the punches
I said I'm over it now
But I won't bluff when I'm bound
I'll just keep shoving it down
Little fit wasn't worth the time, circumvent my limits
Try to slip in and stupefy, year I spent a witness
Subtle shit just to loop the time in and out incision
Dog enough to let the villain side out to see the vision

KITE

i do not want the fame for this shit 

therapy performance video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jEbc1wKL0X0 shot by 4x4shotthat x shesodan


lyrics: 

fuck

I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But if it’s bout the shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
And I’m out here all alone and it's difficult

the shit I'd do for you
god knows I'd move a mountain
if we flipped the point of view
god knows you'd live without it

if you told me that you didn't care I'd believe it
if you asked how I'm doing I'm fine I'm just grieving, yeah

woke up, dreading, maybe I'm losing my head
cold and begging 
fuck your words I'll leave them read

yeah, fuck your words I'll leave them read

these days I been figuring it out on my own
minding my business
don't matter what they think cause when I speak they're listening
I think I just need to pivot to different shit
neither dying or living it could've changed my mind
I held my silence and after it 
you act like you weren't the antagonist
just one talk is enough 
hope my chest don't erupt
cause you realize that I was always someone that you can't love

fuck
I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But if it’s bout the shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
but I’m out here all alone 

and I knew that we wouldn't last but I'm trying not to chalk it up to wasted time
it's not you, it wasn't me, it was our state of minds
who's to say I'm fine?
the lines were crossed, diving us, but intertwine

the shit i'd do for you
god knows i'd move a mountain
if we flipped the point of view
god knows you'd live without it

fuck
I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But when it comes to shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
And I’m out here all alone and it's difficult

if you told me that you didn't care I'd believe it
if you asked how I'm doing I'm fine I'm just grieving, yeah

woke up, dreading, maybe I'm losing my head
cold and begging 
fuck your words I'll leave them read

performance video

spilt milk

https://spiritofariel.com

@gordonsnyder thank you for believing in me

6.6.21

You (w/ Gordon Snyder)

og https://soundcloud.com/ramzoid/there-is-nothing-left-to-lose?si=3b96789c3a3c4524bc143df76cad21d7&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

nothing222lose

https://open.spotify.com/album/58VpJfGC97dnQEbF7AgExF

mixing help from dretty pope and trophytrophy, thank u both

the months surrounding this song have been mixture of pain and countless attempts to recover. but the song itself describes the feeling of escapism whenever i saw her.

recovery

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