the streets were paved with gold but i didn't want to walk

lofi

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my life in a soundcloud playlist

Follow Your Dreams

Thank you for over 750 followers! This is the first track off my EP. It's to celebrate this milestone and to celebrate life. Hope you all enjoy this, more summer tracks coming!

EP: https://rudemn.bandcamp.com/album/duality-ep

YT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5doMB2RbS4w
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22 Samurai

Here's the 2nd track off the first Side of my new EP!

Coming soon!

YT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gCW5uV9bsig&feature=youtu.be




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Secrets

A free track to celebrate Youth and Life. 

Sample: Endless Love 

 Spotify Album: https://open.spotify.com/album/6STwjBCu3CTEViSxJChKlV
 Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/eternal-youth/id1268684742﻿

Bandcamp: https://rudemn.bandcamp.com/track/eternal-youth




Artwork by "J. Friaça"

J. Friaça: http://imgur.com/a/wbJjN

Eternal Youth

H.E.R. Volume 1

Focus

xxxtentacion Feat. Kin$oul & Killstation - Slipknot (Prod. P.Soul)

Easier said than done </3

Prod. By Nick Mira

Goodbye & Good Riddance

Lucid Dreams

prod. @tomorrow

lyrics:
yeah i see you called back
i cant even check that
need a couple months back
i cant even cop that
pull up then get pushed back
i cant even hate that
tears up on my paycheck
i cant even blame that

falling to the bottom of the things that i regret
ignoring all my problems as the grow
im feeling best with drugs up in my system
cuz my man ive been depressed
ive been hanging tight for as long as i remember

crush a pill
break it down
wrap a bill
walk around
with my crown
on my face
i dont smile
only frown
sad boy until i die
kinda hope it ends tonight
tryna find a better life
my hearts been broken a couple of times
my minds still stuck in a pit that she dug
i still smoke blunts
roll em up, and i tuck
my team give way too much of a fuck
my girl dont really care enough
said i take my life too seriously, but i dont feel the same
thats the only way i know
i guess you think lifes just a game

wish that i could grow some wings
id spread them out and fly away
picking pedals off of flowers 
lay them all across my grave
no one wants to talk about the shit that goes inside your brain
i fill mine up with contradictions 
try and smoke away the pain
im so obsessed with bigger pictures
cant just settle for the life i got
thats what ive taught
thats how i brought
these lessons ive forgot
youd think id learn
but still i make the same mistakes
i guess thats whats so comfortable
so i wont even check my phone

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tears on my paycheck (prod. tomorrow)

prod: @caspr

lyrics:
water down the drain, thats a rain check
wishin on the change, thats a safe bet
i cover up the pain with your blankets
dont put it on my name i wouldnt trust that
lying on the frame that you want back
leaving out the things that ill hold back
ive never been the same since i left that
im counting on your name like i need that

unattached, unappealing
she did that, sick of hearing
all this same fucking shit
bring it right back like our cd mix
sold my time cuz i need my fix
end my life like i wont be missed
she loves good sex in the back of the whip
she loves good weed, good times and my dick
she hangs polaroids of the people she misses
try and take a guess whos next on that list
i write these words with a weight on my wrist
that transcends time and the way we coexsist

water down the drain (prod. caspr)

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

spotify

in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

Follow the man @cpt_sad and the producer @catvlyst
I love you all so much <3

Lyrics- 
Yung van:
you said you'd always have my back
i said we're never going back
fell hard and you held me in your arms
protect me and never do me harm 

now we're fighting and shit
but you cannot help all this pain that I'm in,
knowing your distant, my heart's feeling this distance 
i think i'm better off dead
can't live with the things that you've said
but even in death
i know I'll never be dead

yesterday:
i saw this coming from a far 
she'll say that im so insecure 
don't blame me for the love i give 
you saved me like a burnt out cigarette 
i don't even care what you say 
2 blunts in the back of the lake 
just us, no time in our way 
bring it back to the self centered days 
when id be dying just to see your face 
now its like “can i take that back?” 
like i wrote down something that i hate 
or “do you wanna go back to my place?”

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even when i hold you, i can't feel you w/ yesterday (Prod. catvlyst)

produced by @EmmitFenn
co-produced by @finneasmusic

<3 on HypeM: http://hypem.com/track/2pwsj

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bitches broken hearts

apathy w/ guccihighwaters

don't know how to talk (prod. killedmyself)

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGYyo9hQP70

@blacklunged

one of these days
i hope to be okay
im fixing the things
that felt right out of place
im an addict at best
you can take anything
as long as you stay
babe youll be my everything

i dont wanna bother you
stop hittin me up, were through
im takin it day by day
i dont even know what to say
im just tryna better myself
these bottles right up on the shelf
spent nights with the thoughts in my head
spent days wishin all this would end

no i dont need a friend
just need you to save my life
tried endin it twice
a blunts in my right
im thinkin wouldnt it be nice
to fade to the pavement?
these words on my grave are meant
to drive one last statement
right into the back of your neck

no i wont say sorry
i just want you by me
drive my car to your house
just to die in your arms
by myself

i'd die for you (prod. blacklunged)

I’m sorry for the times I lied. The times I know I made you cry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. 
You gave me life I brought you pain. I’m sorry for the mess I’ve made. Im sorry. I’m sorry. 
I cut you off I pushed you out. I stole your trust. And gave you doubt. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. 

Ive thought back to those moments  one million times. I wish I could go back and just hit rewind. But I can’t. No I can’t. 

Please forgive me for my childish ways. 
For all those days. That I didn’t come home. 
I know your love for me is way to strong, to let me go. So I’ll let you know. I’m sorry
Please forgive me for my childish ways. 
For all those days. That I didn’t come home. 
I know your love for me is way to strong, to let me go. So I’ll let you know. I’m sorry.

im sorry

get away (feat. Roddy) (prod. Nothingleft)

miss you dad

every time I go to bed and i shut my eyes. see your face in my mind and i start to cry. don’t know if your hearin me up in the sky. but i hate that you are gone and sometimes i wonder why.  

i miss you. yeah I miss you. man i really hated when I said goodbye. don’t know how to live with all this hurt inside. i miss you. 

 i remember all the things that you told me. i remember you would sit and hold me. i got nothing here now just a memory.  it’s good but it stills hurts and it is daunting. i see you like a ghost man you haunt me. 
i see you in my dreams now constantly. i miss you.

every time i go to bed and i shut my eyes. see your face in my mind and i start to cry. don’t know if your hearing me up in the sky. but i hate that you’re gone and sometimes i wonder why.  

i miss you. yeah I miss you. man i really hated when I said goodbye. don’t know how to live with all this hurt inside. i miss you. 

i don’t know. how to live without out you. i am so cold. feels black inside my heart. my feelings unfold. in violent mutilation. that is untold.  
i'm tired of feeling down. It’s raining all around. i'm living in this cloud trying to get out. yeah i miss you.

i miss you

it all comes back to love...


LYRICS :

I don’t know why we even tried this in the first place
But it all comes back to love 
Yea it all comes back to love 
I been tryna do my best in the worst way 
Cuz it all comes back to love 
Yea it all comes back to love

Met back in our twentys 
Ex wife wanted money
You still wanted me 
Back then but now you do not love me 
No affection 
No respect 
It's been too long since a check 
Came my way 
Not the same 
Ever since my fathers death 
No excuses yea I know 
I been tryin I been trying 
June I'm fine kids I'm fine 
I been lyin I been lyin 
So much pressure I can't sleep 
Everything about me aching 
It's so hard to accept my kid bringing home the bacon
I'm at fault I'm a loser best believe I've heard it all 
From the girl of my dreams that I married in the fall 
And I get it your resentment yea it's justified 
But I've had enough of arguing I've had enough of crying 
I know that you're mad but you were mad when I was paid too
I'm feeling helpless I just hope our love saves you 
It's been over twenty years recognize our blessings 
Even tho that we can barely co exist for more than 20 seconds 

I don’t know why we even tried this in the first place
But it all comes back to love 
Yea it all comes back to love 
I been tryna do my best in the worst way 
Cuz it all comes back to love 
Yea it all comes back to love

I love you Jim the way you grin the way you make me laugh
The way you helped me raise 3 angels
Wouldn't take it back 
I think you're a genius 
That's why I be stressing you 
CEO CEO I expect nothing less from you 
That's a compliment 
I know that I should show more 
gratitude for you 
I know my attitudes been so poor 
But so have we 
But this is deeper than a bank account 
I know that I got pent up shit 
I know I need to work it out 
Russell takes me traveling 
He just does our balancing  
He knows that you're strong
Meanwhile he knows that I'm unraveling 
He's not taking sides
Trust me he says that you're right 
He's just tryna help us both 
He don't wanna see us fight 
It rained when we got married 
And you know I love the sun 
I know I blame you for things outta your control but you're the one that I love 
(I’m sorry, I love you)

I don’t know why we even tried this in the first place
But it all comes back to love 
Yea it all comes back to love 
I been tryna do my best in the worst way 
Cuz it all comes back to love 
Yea it all comes back to love

September 16 (Prod. Russ)

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan x @kaiyko
Mix & Master: @QAWIKAMRI
Production: @Xtravulous
Cover art: @itsyungvan x @GQHargis

Lyrics-

(Intro)

Yung van-

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

Kaiyko-

It's so hard to imagine it
both of us hand in hand hanging by a thread
And I dont wanna go home 
cuz im scared of the thoughts that come crawling when im all alone 
but everything leads back to you 
Why can't I unravel the truth? 
Can we just go back to the beginning 
Give me a reason why I can't leave things off like this 

I'm sorry I just seem to over complicate things
No I don't wanna let it die like this
Something beautiful is fading into the mist x2

Yung van x Kaiyko-

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

(outro)

Ashes and Chandeliers

OUT ON SPOTIFY NOW!!!!

ashes and chandeliers w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Xtravulous)

https://soundcloud.com/gloom3
https://soundcloud.com/gloom3
https://soundcloud.com/gloom3

prod. cloudhighcomeup

im sorry that i even tried (feat. gloomE)

everyone else seems fine

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