is there something that you want
Made a choice that I should have from the start (meow)
Heard a voice that is callings from the dark 
So scared I can feel it in my heart 
So hurt but there's nothing that I... 

Could've went through 
Made this song just to talk about my issues 
"I'm wrong" isn't something that I'm into 
When I fall I just hope I can forget you 

And I know I just went and made a choice I gata focus 
Everyday I always look you never notice 
Forget why I cried but I knew when
Wrote that I'm sorry but it won't send 

I feel so alone I think I need a friend 
Wake up in this pain I guess it never ends 
I wish there was something for us left to mend 
When it's over I won't even leave.. 

Even when I'm hungry I won't take a bite 
If I pass away just lead me to the light 
You can't live in fear you can't live that life 
You can take my hand I can be your sight 
Just give me a sword I can make this right 
I think people still forget that they can do whatever 
Let me live inside your headphone, like a tether 
I just put my blood in this letter..  

choices

ty @reflem for doing vox on this even tho u stole my bar

prod/master by me ofc, reflem mixed his own vox but i touched them up a lil

you said you cared abt it
but you really didn't
you fuckin with my feelings
like you forgot abt it
i just wanna be with you
can we make that happen now
or
are
we gonna let it fall out

i dont want it to be this way anymore
i cant cope with this my hearts very sore
please just stop with all that torment
im breakin down and you didn't even notice

please...just stop
torment...wont stop
fell...too hard
heart...all scarred
gone...too soon
love...no room
dead...to you
i still miss you

driftin slow in a world you'll never know
i got 2k kojis on my feet u not me tho
white tank baggy jeans hearts on my sleeve
cold hands late nights no time to grieve

reflem - notice @soreu_u

individual trax on all other platformz <3
-
0:00 - keep u close
1:58 - every part of me
3:28 - hollow
-
lyrix:
(keep u close)
no matter how it is
ill always keepUclose2Me
I fall and drown in an abyss
im needing you right beside me
been so long since i had someone I like
if it was really worth it
would you bring me down with you?
like i said you'd do
i know that theres someone out there
that likes the same stuff that i pursue
but it never comes thru

i think bout when i was a kid and how i grew
before my innocence and was stripped
put me together with glue
wake up, make a song, and smoke up in my room
theres nothing that i can do without all of you

i rise and fall
theres highs
theres lows
i died so long ago
my soul is gone
feel like a drone

(every part of me)
sorry sometimes im toxic
at least i keep it honest
my minds so cold and rotten
dont think you can save me
js take me away
i showed you every part of me
you left me feeling so empty
my heart torn up and so heavy
i hate the fact that you dread me
its alright, thats js a lie
i kept on trying for us
it wasn't right
my lifes so dry so i get high
swear i had enuff
get u out of my sight

i cry
just another shitty day
shitty week that pass by
dont try to lie
c it in ur face everything u wanna hide
so focused on all of the right things i cant keep struggling with
im so exhausted but at least i got some life experience

I showed you every part of me
you left me feeling so empty
my heart torn up and so heavy
i hate the fact that you dread me
its alright, thats js a lie
i kept on trying for us
it wasn't right
my lifes so dry so i get high
swear i had enuff
get u out of my sight

(hollow)
im never fine
couple moments that were alright
but its life
swear im wrong but bby yk that im right
a bond between us that cant break
forever tied
crazy how it ended were both alone

rain is falling down again
im standing drenched in torment
(im standing in im standing in the raaaain)
gonna fry my brain again
why cant i ever js forget
(tryna heal, im tryna heal this pain)

im hollow
cant follow 2 ur bullshit
its a chore
im a bore
im so shallow
but somehow u thought i was different than what i c in myself all the time
everything was alright
recently its been on my mind
looking for love all my life
moving on took so much time i cant lie
sometimes i miss how it was but theres been bettr timezz :)

fall & drown in an abyss

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fall & drown in an abyss (blackwinterwells) *EP*

art by instagram.com/botoxchan
prod me

lyrics:

(@corpsekittyy)
i never want it to be like this
all these cuts on my neck i had to ice it
hate myself im w the violence
cant change this feeling
fuck
i js cant fight it

dripping blood when we pull up to the function
bitch i dont do touch that shit disgusting 
can’t contain myself with all this bloodlust
shut up
don’t wanna talk js wan get fucked up

pour up blood in that cup make it hella dirty
fuck boy drop his lo he already murdered
dirty 30s in my paws we pull up n serve it
smoking toxins in the truck 
violet pull up swerving

spark that blunt like a broken circuit
watch me stacking up these funds just to fuckin burn it
spray my name up on the walls like it’s fuckin cursive
vampire gang in this bitch
yuh we put the work in

bloodlust

prod by @corpsekittyy

lyrics:
i might be a long lost soul until my grave
like what a shame this life’s a waste
somebody please take my place
all that’s left of my heart is a space
idk if imma be okay
i fear it’s always been this way
this life wasn’t made for me
no..

i could never back down u wouldn’t get it
nightmares taunt my soul every night and day
all alone in my cold room dying 
behind black out blinds where i hide away
i wish that i could at least be crying
that’s why tears fall from the mask i’ve made
no i’m never okay i was lying
lying.. lying..

Nightmares (corpsekitty)

XD Y'all scared asf

PROD J1PPY

filtered lyrics 'cause soundcloud sucks:

@bubblegum-shawty-640224132

thought you hella slick but we swept you like a broom stick 
bitch i pop shit while you're running out of options, talk shit 
all this for a pedo, bitch you ain't shit 
talking bout my crew bitch we go fucking ape shit 
valentine you fantasize about me and jp
what the fuck is wrong with you, should be on a watch list 
why you tryna lie, what you tryna twist
(tell dekoda being Christian doesn't fix shit)
must've gotten mixed up with that mother fuckers Chris chan
if you're under 18 you gotta keep your fucking distance 
cause dekoda and valentines been on the loose
go get a noose, what's the point of running from the truth 
server like a day care, you can vent but they do not care, they got school tomorrow while your ass been watching minors 
 ,i thinks that shits crazy, bitch you're 32 so stop
JP tell em whats the deal 'cause we not done

@j1pee

Tryna pass the pedo label up to bro 
You projecting ass bitch 
Still live with his mom he’s broke 
32 years of age and dating a 19 year old 
It’s not illegal but I know you want her 2 more years below 
Ah
Cloud
Who tf are you kid? 
All your music’s shit 
Fuck it ima get to pissin
How you making demon summonings when you are christian (take your shit music down)
Soundin like a f## fuck it might as well js be trans
You’re a victim of the daycare
You fucking clown 
Dropped a song and no one fucking cared 
Valentine at this point just say you’re fucking scared 
I’d be 2 if my music made people’s ears impaired
Sayin we got stream bots not my fault that you get no plays
Delete all your songs don’t come back you gon get played
Not my fault your parents found out that you’re fucking (happy_) 
They wanna disown you but they won’t say

@remington-51043651

Shoutout JP 
Cooked this beat up in a second just to teach ur ass a lesson
You on the track sounding like ru Paul man that shit really pathetic
I almost feel bad about this one
It's like bullying a sped kid
But fuck it if the boy wants beef then his f##### ass gon get it
He said sneak diss? 
Bro check the title of the fucking song
Here's a pro tip
Catholics and f#####s do not get along
val you're tripping
Tried to apologize but the gloves are off
Careful defending Dakota he gon try to suck you off
You want a verse?
Leviticus 18:22 That shit applies to you
Dakota said you can be gay and Christian that shit Is NOT true
If a n#### says Jesus loves f##s that nigga prolly a jew
Making AI songs AI think we just killed your entire crew
I know JPs 14 well I'm 88 n#### let's get it
Really can't help themselves always talking about fucking ch######
What you say?
Corny ass talking bout some last word?
Bro your song really plopped like a fat turd

@maikotrueromance
All up on my DMs like bro YOU AIN'T TUFF...
You trying to apologize, like that'll change anything¬_¬
You're a fuckin bitch, and a pedo, AND a CUCK
You're defending Dekoda, can you be any slower ? ? ?
"HI MY NAME IS VALENTINE, I'M A FUCKIN DUMBASS !!!"
"I'M SO FUCKING FAT, STEALING FOOD STRAIGHT FROM DOORDASHH!!!!"
"MY NAME'S CLOUD9, AND MY SONG IS SOO ASSSS"
FUCKIN FACTSSS
YOU WISH YOU WERE LIKE US, WE NEVER LACKK
i can sing retarded and i'm STILL BETTER than you (yuh)
Look at what ya started, now you acting like a fool XDDD (huh?, YUH, WHOO)
How can someone be so fuckin stupid ? ? ?
Always when they're exposed, they're so clueless ¬_¬
HaaHAAAA you're so DUMMMMB
HaaHAAAA you'll be gone..
You can't make better songss
Kill yourself like a fawn

ya FUCK Dekoda, FUCK Valentine, FUCK cloud9
They can't make shit, They're FUCKING ASSSS
We make better music than em
And oh, AND THEY'RE PEDOFILES TOOO !!!
FUCK EM.

apeshit CYPHER (FUCK PEDOS LMAO)_

prod by me<3

lyrics:
my body's a maze
legs like a spider
cut me into pieces
multiply divide her
show me all ur entrails
let me get inside her
losing myself
one day i hope to find her
x2

find her-
yeah
find her-
everyday is a reminder
lost in outer space
hyper-fem ghost rider
whatever it takes
i'll achieve my desires

Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted
i'm Haunted, Haunted
Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted

show me all ur scars
where did they divide u?
tearing us apart
one day i will find u
nobody is safe
everything is haunted
one with the stars
all i ever wanted to be

Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted
Haunted, Haunted
Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted

Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted
Haunted, Haunted
Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted

my body's a maze
legs like a spider
cut me into pieces
multiply divide her
show me all ur entrails
let me get inside her
losing myself
one day i hope to find her

find her-
yeah
find her-
everyday is a reminder
lost in outer space
hyper-fem ghost rider
whatever it takes-
my body's a maze

where did they divide- divide u?
one day i will find u- find u
everything is Haunted- Haunted

Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted
Haunted, Haunted
Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted

Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted
Haunted, Haunted
Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted

Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted
I'm Haunted, Haunted
Ha- Ha- Haunted, Haunted

where did they divide- divide u?
one day i will find u- find u
everything is Haunted- Haunted

Haunted

@blackwinterwells #doeboyz2k17
feeling like issac bitchh im crying in my basement :(

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@corpsekittyy
lay my body on the floor of ur bedroom
too barred out i dont know what the fuck to do
who the fuck are you
stay away i cant fw u
vampire gang kitty wrist slit drug crew

i regret all this wasted time
want to kill myself just to see u smile
fuck my life
rail another fucking line
hurt myself know i never could survive

need a doctor im running out of options
let my life decay im so disgusted
hate everything want my soul to fade away
never want to feel this way

@cloudiiscape
all the colors looking greyed out
why does every single day
just look the same now?
doesn’t matter who i’m with or what we talk about
cause in my memory their face is always blurred out
aphantasia can’t see nothing
like the lights are out
only feeling like myself 
when no one else around
living life like it’s roulette
and i’m the gun now
roll the dice
inflicting pain like i’m a sadist

let the past decay as i fall within
only choice i have til i meet my grave
who do i run from?
who do i save?