Deleted Kurai Song from 2021
Original Title: heart & mind (4am, kurai)
Original Description: sometimes i wonder why i bother to try cause im right here on my own idk where i reside but i have to decide cause everything taking a toll on my heart & my mind im so hurt healin takes time wish i (incomplete)
Release Date: February 17 2021
Original Cover

Kurai - Heart & Mind (4am & Kurai)

(lyrics)

@snip4rs
now she told me that she never wouldve left me
i was shocked when she denied js to text me
all these dumb fuckn lies, is it to upset me?
i wish yall the worst, was it js to hurt me? :/

@zixdown
u were my only purpose
dnt hurt ur self, im not worth it
girl u make me nervous, ik im not perfect
i cant lie i been learnin, but lately im still hurtn
maybe we can work it? lately ive felt worthless

@zixdown
lately i feel worthlesss, i cant find a purpose
u can tell me was it worth it? all the upsetting for nothing..
i cant lie u make me feel like im nothinggg
me & my bros gonna make it no bluffinggggg

@whyhaze
its been a long ride see u on the other side
had u for a long time, sometimes we have to say goodbye
just know that im proud and always here for u to reach out
i'll be there without a doubt 
im glad ur finally found, maybe we'll meet up in the clouds
maybe it'll be before that
im grateful i'll never forget
hope i never caused u torment 
i found my peace it dont get boring
i did it for u, u dont have no clue
on how much u did for me swear i'll always love u <3

upset me w/ zixdown + whyhaze (negative.creeper)

old song ... (rare..)

Im so scared of it, but it already happened 
i’m so sick of this, think i’ll never be happy 

I’m so stuck and i feel so helpless 
all these drugs but i still feel empty 
I jus wanna shine like my hello kitty necklace 
yea maybe i lied i jus wanna lie in heaven 

im so scared of it, but it already happened 
I’m so sick of this, I think i’ll never be happy 

and im tweaking off the adderall 
they jealous of my swag, understandable 
i don’t check the tags when i’m at the mall 
jus hoping when i die that they’ll dance still 

take a look inside my mind it’s a landfill 
if i take this Percocet will i get cancelled?
in the after life i hit my dance tho 
smoke a blunt b4 i dip? okay then, let’s roll 

im so scared of it 
but it already happened 
i’m so sick of this 
think i’ll never be happy

It already Happened (prod. me)

i know that you wanna get back together

i don't wanna talk nice no more
cus i know you gon do me wrong
i walk in the mall throw 100s up
spend it on you see nothing wrong
i'd give it all to you if you say that
know you don't see it the same way so you'll give it back
spend it on you see nothing wrong

nothing wrong let's pop it off
i just know you'll love it now
throw up in my cup i laugh it off
i see nothing wrong just don't answer no

just don't do it
in my honda cruisin
i love the way you do it
they want me to drop some music
i got no fame so i can't lose it
honestly i'm through it
i guess you know it now
it's been myself im fooling
so now i'm dipping out

nothing wrong let's pop it off
i just know you'll love it now
throw up in my cup i laugh it off
i see nothing wrong just don't answer no

blowing up it won't last for a minute
won't listen to the shit that they sending
i just thought that we could have happy endings
i gotta apologize God i've been sinning
damn this all it just feels so amazing
dance with you girl all the cameras they filming
i ain't do you wrong did it right hope you feel me
if i would gather my worries it'd kill me

spotify

nothing wrong (metis)

thank u @sumther + @pw4prez <33

dnt think this a comeback
jst needed to cope

@zixdown

i tried to help u out,
u said that we'd be good :(
i tried to take u out
but u misunderstood
ur tellin evry1 lies
cant look u in the eye
i dnt wanna talk again 
until the day that i die...

i guess its my fault
i shouldn't have tried helpin u out </3
what i fall?
then whose gnna come n help me out :(
gave it all up 
all so u can hear me scream n shout
your name
i dnt wnt u to come back
youve been goin insane

insane,, put a bullet in my brain
to stop the pain i gain...
are u gnna keep tellin me
how u hate me again? :(
then blame me again
i did it for u
didnt want it to end <3

i guess its my fault
i shouldn't have tried helpin u out </3
what i fall?
then whose gnna come n help me out :(
gave it all up 
all so u can hear me scream n shout
your name
i dnt wnt u to come back
youve been goin insane

i cant even dream,,
i cant even think
cus u been on my mind
i had way 2many drinks //:

it went exactly how i thought
ughh
i knw u would leave
but i forgot
uhh
i cannot believe that ur gone

n i lost what i had
i lost you, my behalf,,
my arms cut in halves
n i cnt leave u in the past
ur gone now im sad :((
its ur fault,, not my bad
my eyes goin black,,
my hearts cut in halff

i dnt wnn hear frm u 
or hear frm anythin i do
u dnt wanna hear the truth,,
everything im tellin u
i dnt wanna talk 2u
for everything u put me thru
i cant evn dream at night
all i see is me & you

@sumther

always end up in a fight but i cant let you go
ive been searching for my meaning been trying to grow
i want to be by your side
dont care if it isnt right
risk it just to see you smile
youve gotten cold now, tell me why
i feel useless i cant even recognize the signs
im doing everything i could but u dont even try
got no one else ure my only pride
i need you here please dont leave my side

@zixdown

pls jst stay close
i been waiting on ur text
like “how’d your day go?” :(
if u dnt wanna hear from me
u could jst say so…
i think tht ur too good 4me
i feel like @ddayso
to much regrets in my head
i gotta lay low

i regret :( 
& everything u said 
is just spinning in my head //:
it happens once again 
i’m alone once again,,
& i can’t be surprise
this is always how it ends.

help me out ft. sumther [prod. sochi]

twenny tuesday week 5!!! produced by the best @erdo
cover by me 
mix by me 


lyrics 

i ran them rackz, cuz i had 2 
im high, my eyes feel like natu
she look surprised at my tattoo o_O

dont talk, i kno it, i got u
i ran them rackz, cuz i had 2 
im high, my eyes feel like natu
she look surprised at my tattoo o_O
(x2)

im smokin up, im smokin up
i roll a blunt, ill hit u up
all these ppl in my life they be fuckin dumb
i be tokin all night, yea, fuck me up

it dont matter, aint nobody vibe  2 my songs
they be acting hella shy, u a fuckin clone
i dont rly fuckin mind, cuz im not alone
yeah i gotchu by my side, in my cubby zone

dont talk, i kno it, i got u
i ran them rackz, cuz i had 2 
im high, my eyes feel like natu
she look surprised at my tattoo o_O
(x2)

Natu 𓂀 (erdo)★★

lyrics:

so sick of the lies
tell me the truth
don't care if it hurts
got nothing to lose
riding inside my low-level coup 
fighting inside my love for you
I don't wanna leave it 
feel like a demon
when you said that you loved me I couldn't believe it
just close your eyes
(goodbye)
say goodnight
(the light..) [x2]

(bridge)
you only knew the fake me

I was hoping you wouldn't hate me
I feel like a changeling

I was hoping you could change me

(verse)
you never saw what I did for you
every time you'd fall
I would take the pain for you 
what was the purpose of it all
you left me abandoned
you knew I couldn't stand it
demanding
that I let go of your hand and
you always wanted the impossible
and I always wanted to be diabolical 
I
won't answer you're not talking nice
I love your flesh I think I need it by the slice..

im so sick of the lies!
tell me the truth
don't care if it hurts
got nothing to lose
riding inside my low-level coup 
fighting inside my love for you
I don't wanna leave it 
feel like a demon
when you said that you loved me I couldn't believe it
these scars are raised
its not a phase
its not a problem to get you erased

eraser (CORPSEKITTY + VI1E)

Prod me
With @rit_hk
Lyrics: [51five]
You Coud Be tha 1
Come n Pick me Upp
You Coudd Be tha 1
Ur more Than Enoughg
You Coud Be tha 11
but I Knn,ow that i Suck
i Feel like immma Bug
i Nnever been Enough.

What the fuck, feelLike Crashin Out
Cantt face The feeling Feel like Blackinng Out
i Need2 ask u Whattwas That About
But it Dont matter What Come outtMy Mouth
Money up But Im Sadder nNow
I Dont mattewr I Should CloseMy  Mouth
iDont Matter u Should Close Me Out
iDont matter u Shouldd closeMe outt

You Coud Be tha 1
Come n Pick me Upp
You Coudd Be tha 1
Ur more Than Enoughg
You Coud Be tha 11
but I Knn,ow that i Suck
i Feel like immma Bug
i Nnever been Enough.

[Rit]

You can be the one and u could tell me what from me 
I suck at keeping secrets heard a whisper ur the one for me
I just need a reason nd ur keeping me above it
Hard to stop the bleeding if im honest yea i love it

U cud be the one 
Text me when ur gone
Kiss me when u want
Kill me when ur done

U cud be the one 
U cud be the one 
Wanna take u out but i can never see the sun
I know its wrong

Im Getting butterflies to see u when u get home
And I cud cut my arms off and still find a way to hold u close
But wud u hold me close
Tell me things to fill the hole
Cause ive been living as a half and u could make me whole
Still racking lines and passing time its all i ever know
Just kiss me in the snow
last scene of my favorite show 

And when our lips get pulled apart thats when the curtain close
Thats when i feel alone
U cud be the one thats all ive ever known

<3333333333333333333333333333

You Could Be Tha 1 w/ Rit

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