Friends

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

I feel your jaws start to wrap around my neck
so disgusted with how I left
I feel the anguish in my bones, watch them snap I turn to stone
try to ignore the pain

I see the flesh around my heart rotted with hate
this wooden home, it screams my name
no grand design above the sky 
skin is burning with the lie watch me embrace the void

im a waste, im a vermin, a piece of shit, hurting
doesn't matter if I stay I’m always just lurking
the ghost between us, the floorboards and concrete
it doesn't matter now when you don't amount to something

To people that you thought just really cared
but they leave you on the ground when you’re choking, not coping
And now you're embraced by the emptiness you never loved
and you’re watching as he consumes everything you came to trust

down the alleys where you grew up and you never understood
what it means to just care, what it means to just stare
with the blank eyes when someone’s just falling
to suicidal tendencies, they always get the best of me

so tell me why you’re never fucking calling
never checking on me until you need something to waste your time
just leave me the fuck alone
cus id rather be dead to you than something

Yeah depression hits me up, says he loves who you are now
I want nothing to do with you
invade my dreams and give me nothing, no I couldn't see you bluffing
find a lover, feel disgusted from you


feel my consciousness hit my stomach, weighs a ton it's dragging me down
I got nothing to give to you
you took the best then left me stranded, filled with hate then reprimanded
come tomorrow empty-handed from you


so bury me out the back where I can't hear a thing
I don’t want to be something more than a dream
but you know that’s not fair how you're always in mine
always plaguing my thoughts waking up and your gone

my friends say that it doesn't get better than this
is being tormented just some form of a bliss
these glass walls that I construct just seem to crack
and like a puppet I just always come back

yeah so it always turns this way when your friends turn fake
and you don’t have a lover to remember your name
so you crumble at the fear when you don't know yourself
pills from a psychiatrist, yeah it sucks they couldn't help  

with the constant torment knowing that you never will belong
with the piercing stares from family where they love to prove you wrong
like what you do for work yeah your looking half alive
yeah I swear I have been on repeat since I nearly died

say you wanna understand but you can't, I never said I wanna be alive long
it feels like im not living in my body
like who am I to you, am I just a joke of someone that I used to be
use me, abuse me until you leave again, im sick of living like I want to kill myself

Visionary

Menma - Just A Phantom Ft. Notions (Prod. Septfree)

Observer

Stream On Spotify

VENFEX & VALI$BEATS - INSANITY

Dreaming

IDLEGLANCE x Chief Kelly x RiverKinn x Kasper Fell

Yates XV: @yates-xv
B Murph: @b_murph
Kasper Fell: @kasperfell

Watch on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SfVc5z1BI_s

Lyrics:
I THOUGHT
MAYBE YOU COULD LOVE ME LIKE YOU USED TO
EVEN THOUGH I'M
DIFFERENT

I'VE BEEN REALLY HATING YOUR TOUCH
THESE FEELINGS I'M HAVING GOT ME SO F*CKED UP

AND I'M SIPPING ON SOME
GIN AND TONIC WITH A CIGARETTE BUTT

SPENT A FEW YEARS IN A BAD PLACE
LOST TIME TO THE PAIN THAT I MISTRACED
BLEEDING HEART FOR A GIRL THAT I MISPLACED
SO F*CKED UP ON THE PILLS THAT I MISTAKE

AND I CAN'T GET MY HEAD RIGHT
SO I'M SMOKING ON THAT LOUD PACK
5 SHOTS TO THE DOME, THROW THEM ALL BACK
YOU CALL MY LINE, YEAH, YOU KNOW I GET A HEART ATTACK
YEAH
AND I MIGHT RELAPSE
GOTTA POP A COUPLE PILLS SO I CAN RELAX
HEARD YOU TALKING ON MY NAME I DON'T NEED THAT
BUT IF YOU NEED ME BABY, YOU KNOW I COME RIGHT BACK

AND SLEEPING ALONE
GETS HARDER WHEN IT'S COLD
COULD YOU HIT MY PHONE
SO I KNOW YOU GOT HOME

I WANNA KNOW? I NEED YOU RIGHT HERE
I GOTTA GO, I DON'T WANT YOU MY DEARLY

I DON'T WANT YOU
I DON'T NEED YOU
I WON'T WAIT UP
I DON'T FEEL YOU
I WON'T STAY UP
I WON'T LEAVE YOU NOW

IMMA NEED YOU TO LET YOU GO
WANT TO RUN IT BACK OR LEAVE YOU OUT IN THE COLD
IMMA LEAVE YOU ON YOUR OWN
EVEN AFTER HOPE, I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO YEAH

I'VE BEEN REALLY HATING YOUR TOUCH
THESE FEELINGS I'M HAVING GOT ME SO F*CKED UP

AND I'M SIPPING ON SOME
GIN AND TONIC WITH A CIGARETTE BUTT

SPENT A FEW YEARS IN A BAD PLACE
LOST TIME TO THE PAIN THAT I MISTRACED
BLEEDING HEART FOR A GIRL THAT I MISPLACED
SO F*CKED UP ON THE PILLS THAT I MISTAKE

YOU'RE NEVER GONNA GIVE UP ON ME
ARE YOU?

Yates XV x B Murph x Kasper Fell - Wasted Love

Kiss The Pavement

EXIT LIFE

Original version: https://soundcloud.com/cloudsampling/nature

Lyrics:

Here I go again
Every now and then I need a way to decompress
Desensitised, every time I feel a little less
Searching for a new sensation so I do it in excess
Guess I never learned my lesson, it's hard to admit
Old coping mechanisms I'm trying to resist
Weighing heavy on my conscience I should probably quit
But right now it's the only thing that's taking me away from it

Fix me for today
I'll pay for it tomorrow
Consequences of my actions are a bitter pill to swallow
With a half empty glass, knock it back until I'm hollow
Probably best you don't follow

Running from my problems, I never needed a
chaser
Wake up in the afternoon and wonder where the day went
I'm not doing well and you can tell from my behaviour
I know that I should ask for help but that's not in my nature, nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature

Over and over again
Can't break the habit, no matter the damage I know that I'll only regret
Goes hand in hand with helping me manage the memories I wanna forget
Never gets easier, seems like the further I come, the harder it gets
Always appealing when I'm at my lowest, I know that it does me no good
Mistaking the feeling for something that's real, never stop when I know that I should
Cause I never learn, I'm far too concerned with escaping until I feel numb
I know in the morning I'm gonna be wishing to take it all back if I could

Fix me for today
I'll pay for it tomorrow
Consequences of my actions are a bitter pill to swallow
With a half empty glass, knock it back, until I'm hollow
Probably best you don't follow

Running from my problems I never needed a
chaser
Wake up in the afternoon and wonder where the day went
I'm not doing well and you can tell from my behaviour
I know that I should ask for help but that's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature

Nature

Nature (Acoustic Version)

Katy Rose x Kobenz- Sour Lemon (02/17/21)
2004 Billboard hit "Lemon" revisited (from the major motion picture Thirteen)

Official collaboration between Katy Rose, Kim Bullard, and Kobenz.

(Prod. by Kim Bullard & Luckykmusic)

Sour Lemon

CLOUDED NORTH ☁️
UK Cloud/Emo Rap Artist & Producer

Nature (Acoustic Version)

NTHN