‘Apologies’ - 26.11.21
Pre-save: https://push.fm/ps/nthn-apologies 

You can call this one an intro
'Cause I've been gone for some time
You might have seen me around
But something's been missing for a while

REINTRODUCTION
To the ones who've been with me so far
And if it's the first time that you're hearing me
I promise you that this is just the start

A couple times I've thought about giving it up
I'd be lying if I said I've never considered it
Especially when you're giving so much
And it feels like no one's listening

But I don't do it for the pay
'Cause I barely make a penny from it
Not for the plays
'Cause I don't get too many of them
But this is my way of saying what I've felt for too long
For too long I used to think I'd never need to

Had to find a way to express it so began with Awake
And now it sounds like I'm back in my old ways

Two years later, it was Paths, a story across ten tracks
But still had too much to say

Another year down the line
I decided that I'd had enough of hiding and that's when I wrote Tides

And Delta had the most honest tracks I've ever put out
But still I find myself with so much more to talk about

I spent a year locked inside these walls and my mind
Watching the world through a Skylight

Thinking 'bout my life and every compromise I've made
Only to find myself wishing that I'd stayed

More true to the values that I once had
To the version of myself that I once was

But when I look back to those days, I guess I'm kinda glad
That I left some of those qualities behind because

I never really used to care for myself
I was never the type to put myself first

Giving everything I could, with no appreciation
Often at the expense of my self-worth

That's why I wanna say the words I wish I'd heard at my lowest
To share the parts of me I used to never wanna show

So I'm never stopping as long as I've got something to say 
Now I'm back and this time I'm here to stay

This is my REINTRODUCTION.

Artwork by BIG MOTH (@bigmothonline)
© & ℗ NTHN / eighteenSAINT 2021

REINTRODUCTION

Menma - Just A Phantom Ft. Notions (Prod. Septfree)

Prod by: https://soundcloud.com/jontbeats

Paradoxx: https://soundcloud.com/realparadoxx

Lyrics:

[Scar$]
(Chorus)
Fuck this hole in my chest
Triple 6 on my crest
No this bitch ain't impressed, gonna leave her depressed, gonna blame that I'm stressed
Maybe I am possessed?

I don't want nothin' but love, you see?
Soon I'll be flying above, you'll see
I wish I could have been better
Now all I can do is forget her

(Hook)
You don't wanna see me so I'll bury me inside
Cover up my face so no one looks me in the eyes
You don't wanna talk at all 'cause all you hear is lies
And I can't really talk at all 'cause I will not survive

Nah you don't wanna see me, I don't even wanna be me
Hood strapped tight, how the fuck am I dreamy?
I can not believe me, how can I redeem me when I am yet to free me?
Shit...

[Paradoxx]
(Verse)
And I keep fucking up *my bad*
Once's not enough
Lost her trust *shiiii*
Just another thing I fucked up
Add it to the list of things to make up
I ruined her makeup
She was crying , now she's gone
Long gone

Now she's far away looking for a fix for the pain
Lil baby, drugs won't take the pain away

You know I'm sorry did I ever tell ya'
But you're the one who fell in love with a failure

[Scar$]
(Verse 2)
I'm fuckin' southside trash, need a warning
Pills just to sleep so I crash every morning
Need it taped on my face just to say that I'm mourning
You can tell every motherfucker I'm ignoring

I don't need to be patient
But I am so fucking complacent
I hate this, I'm anxious
I'm trapped in myself but I'll lie in the bed that I made bitch

I feel like an alien, struggle with communication
I can't find my own population
Soon I'll blow my brain out with no hesitation
My final act of desperation

[Scar$]
(Chorus)
Fuck this hole in my chest
Triple 6 on my crest
No this bitch ain't impressed, gonna leave her depressed, gonna blame that I'm stressed
Maybe I am possessed?

I don't want nothin' but love, you see?
Soon I'll be flying above, you'll see
I wish I could have been better
Now all I can do is forget her

(Hook)
You don't wanna see me so I'll bury me inside
Cover up my face so no one looks me in the eyes
You don't wanna talk at all 'cause all you hear is lies
And I can't really talk at all 'cause I will not survive

Nah you don't wanna see me, I don't even wanna be me
Hood strapped tight, how the fuck am I dreamy?
I can not believe me, how can I redeem me when I am yet to free me?
Shit...

Dont Look Me In The Eyes (feat. Paradoxx)

Scar$ & Jon T - Don't Look Me In The Eyes (feat. Paradoxx)

MUSIC VIDEO -> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyx8XtNTqu0

v6 dreams ( in 'just in time v4 switching lines') - v6 cut intro chorus, added tom fill + no izo on chorus vox

DREAMS (PROD. RAZEGOD)

music video: https://youtu.be/iguGRu3jTF8?si=xQ4enUop-bX5uOXS
https://soundcloud.com/ytd40oz
prod CRCL

lyrics

Love suggested
For divine ascension
Time requested
For the mental restless

Hate detested
But I feel infested
Boy my heart congested
Cuz my mind is tested

All of these people pushing my brain
Belief is to love but my fist swinging hate
Dualities gate
Loving the pain
Create to survive, I’m deciding my fate

Huhh
In my head I gotta lay low
Lonely day I feel the pain hoe
Sinking me I got a weight load
Feeling low low low low

Ghouls out for the wicked ones
Filthy cult gon fill ur lungs
With empty souls from down below
Its 10 below and its freezing cold

Dropping u off at the river styx
An im rowing the boat to the endless abyss 
With the blood in my eye with a terrible cyst
With the seasonal drift disappear in the mist

Yea im just another weirdo
An im trap in here 
Im trapped in here 
Yea trapped in here 
Oooohh wait living the wrong way

Huhh
In my head I gotta lay low
Lonely day I feel the pain hoe
Sinking me I got a weight load
Feeling low low low low

Watched him buy a weapon
Employee think I’m stealing
Smoke up foggy dash cam
Stab me when I asked em

Watched him buy a weapon
Employee think I’m stealing
Smoke up foggy dash cam
Stab me when I asked em

Wavelow

BANKAI! [prod. Undead Ronin]

Relief

mutual v6 shorter, with initial outro, plus slight 1.08db master squeeze

mutual (burgos x razegod x withinu)

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

Halloween is my fave time of year for this reason, that and the fuckin horror vibes on crack

I dont have anything new to share, so im uploading this track I made a few months ago but forgot to upload. I will dig up the lyrics.

Hope you guys have a great halloween, got a few more things up my sleeve this year

YEAH SCRIPTZ

HOME AWAY FROM HOME (PROD. SORROW BRINGER)

SOUL SOCIETY FT. BLACKWILL (PROD. SAURXN)

prod. @unordinarybeats

Lyrics:
I just hopped off the jet, I'm trippin' don't know where to go
And I been on my own I'm smoking heavy, hit the road
I used to wanna die but now there's peace when I'm alone
I'm making friends with the voices inside my head don't hit my phone

All that money ain’t gone get you what you want
You been bitch while I been high, I been sippin' while you rot
Love my life but wanna die, it’s all temporary highs
Russian roulette to the head, I'm tryna feel like I’m alive
So watch me go;
Watch hit that shit, go ghost
I'm stacking bricks up, rolling dope
I wanna fuck so bitch come over, come bend over, gimme throat
I been fucked up since a kid but now I'm flipping money and hoes
I used to stomp out kicking down doors
I used to rock out jugging with poles
I used to fuck on all of these hoes
But that shit played out, now I need gold
Now I'm tinted out cant see, no
I been rolling off beans and blow
I been bugging out thinking I'm fucking up thinking I'm running out my on my goals
Money, fashion, drugs and clothes
All I need bitch, I cant fold
All on me, I float alone
Y'all cant see this, I can feel it, I can see when comatose
While I turn my bitch up,
While you turn my shit up,
I got sticks, huh
I got bricks, huh
Count my digits up,
Fuck my city up,
See bitch ima dog, you just watch me run it up

I just hopped off the jet, I'm trippin' don't know where to go
And I been on my own I'm smoking heavy, hit the road
I used to wanna die but now there's peace when I'm alone

pandora’s misery (prod. unordinarybeats & mercykill)

CLOUDED NORTH ☁️
UK Cloud/Emo Rap Artist & Producer