I've seen you at your worst
But you never doubted luck
Never struck me as the type who could give a single fuck
Before our minds have slipped away
Let's pretend we have a single name
Without your eyes I'm not the same
So I just run away

Your voice won't reach that far
Running out of time
My patience in the form
Of a scar
We changed so much, we lost our touch
Were scared of blood but had none
The memories of what got lost
And was it really that fun?

Not a single thing has changed
In our abnormal game of greed
Oh I know what you need..
The world is not the same
And now nobody wants to see

Not a single thing has changed
In our abnormal game of greed
Oh I know what you need..
The world is not the same
And now nobody wants to see
Is that what you believe?
The time appears so fake
When all you think about is me
Oh I know what you need..
The world is not the same
And everyone's afraid of me
Is that what you believe?
Your voice won't reach that far
Running out of time
My patience in the form
Of a scar
We changed so much, we lost our touch
Were scared of blood but had none
The memories of what got lost
And was it really that fun?

Follow
Oh I know what you are
Follow
Oh I know what you are

Your voice won't reach that far
Running out of time
My patience in the form
Of a scar
We changed so much, we lost our touch
Were scared of blood but had none
The memories of what got lost
And was it really that fun?

Oh I know what you are
Follow
Oh I know what you are

I Know What You Are

Uppbeat Psychotic

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

left right to the face and im left on the ground
I pick myself back up you know I never back down
I hate everyone equally that's left in this town
the voices echo in this room it feels like im gonna drown

I try to make sense of myself im just lost where to go
I've had it up to fucking here but we have nothing to show
were taken chances, make our moves and we get lost in the flow
I always end up in my room, I lock my door be alone

so what do ya say what do ya know you think you get me
I know it's bullshit when I don't understand me
so where will you be, what do ya think no I don't care
your constant nagging has me pulling out my fucking hair

you said you hate me when im not there and then you push me away
can't you see that it's contradicting everything that you say
it's like everyday im walking on eggshells around you
I make a tiny slip up and im always left just confused

stuck with a message in my inbox hating me for my faults
can't you understand that im human yeah so get  fucked
I feel gaslighted by the way that you say that im just messed up
if im like that then you’re the same, a hypocrite, you never change

like a parasite, you leech off my mental state till I break
I never had the courage to speak out the words I wanna say
I cave in forgive me, a broken record on the stage
if im like that we stay the same, we just repeat and curse my name

BABY GOS:

moving closer to the edge but i can’t peak 
I know i’m loved but i still feel like a damn freak 
In my dreams I like to listen to the crows speak 
I miss the way that you would kiss me on my cheek 

I’m exhausted, i can’t breathe, i feel so burnt out 
I feel nauseous sink my teeth into this self doubt 
Always got something to say, shut your damn mouth 
Light a smoke the only thing to ease the pain now 

I be silent, i be creeping, i be surveying your block 
why can’t you be my shorty you can get me through this fog? 
Always on my mind I hear your voice around the clock 
If i wanna make it happen gotta get up from this rock 

talk is something i ain’t tryna do
we pop a tab and enjoy the neon hue
the way i feel don’t think you ever knew 
break me down but i know exactly what to do

The End FT. Baby Gos

FACELIFT NOW AVAILABLE ON ALL STREAMING PLATFORMS

Thank you for always listening, i love you

Cuts Too Deep ft. Rivilin (prod. alexanderbierk)

Lyrics video out now: https://youtu.be/PEyuo49yeno

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released for World Mental Health Day

written when I was at my lowest
released when I'm at the best I've been in as long as I can remember

mental health is a universal human right.
there is strength in vulnerability.
there is always someone to talk to.
you are worth talking about.

resources:
www.findahelpline.com
www.throughlinecare.com

Album artwork: BIG MOTH (https://instagram.com/bigmothonline)
P-line: ℗ NTHN
C-line: © NTHN

The Meaning

Featuring my homie: https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi

Lyrics:

Rivilin:

Like the band of four, leaving your home in the shire
we only had each others friendship, no other desire
except a ring, a burden around your throat
and the more you press on you find the weight chokes

leave your ghost by the bed, this paths not for the weak
hear the screams in the distance they're stabbing at false sheets
pull out your dagger as they pierce you through the cloak
yeah you watch it turn to dust but the struggle you won't be broke

hear the horns in the distance the north is coming close
feel the fear in the boots but the fire you gotta stoke
just to keep your feet going on, keep with the struggle right
you gotta keep on going, sadly there's no end in sight

and when you finally reach it you find you're on your knees
till you think the ones who love you wanna throw you to the fiends
like please get away how did it turn like this
one day i'll be smiling with everyone that i miss

i didn't understand back then whats up,
i'll bite my lip, take a knife through the gut
and when you see me smile please just dont say
i miss the person right here won't you stay

the dark flame came embraced all my face
if i turn yeah i'll see myself yeah replaced
and when you sing i'll try to rise up again
and then we'll see a perfect home through the lens

$lothboi:

I got to bone to pick
I’m tired of the holiness
The higher I be up the flying hit me with the turbulence

Surrounded by thought me
I might’ve had lobotomy
There’s something in my head that ain’t apart of what I want in me

I’m splitting like I’m missing
All the glue up on the leather

I’m hitting like a whippet
When I mix it all together

I’m fitting like a condom on a dick in chilly weather
I be slipping when I’m falling but a spark will make me better

(Spark Sound)
(exhale)

Leme hold a bit
Gas so strong
Bouta blow the bitch
Up

(exhale)

Leme roll this shit
Gas so packed
Bouta fold a bit
Yuh

Get a load of this
Man so up
Bouta jump and get stuck

Plan so fucked
Bouta duck
And get bucked

Man no luck
Just refuse
To get stuck

Waterford Ft. $lothboi

Ride or Die

love is conditional when its from you

featuring @heartbreakp
produced by lil chick

[lyrics]
Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You playing the victim because you have to
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms 
But you know me better
I know that nothings forever 
These days I’m stuck in my head like I been changing the weather
See emotions cut off and severed
I don’t wanna change for whoever
Bring it back I need to recenter
Sometimes I won’t lie

I’m sick of fighting so I quit 
I took the drugs I gave you back so I can trip
Pain inside I smile I can’t let you know I slipped
I can’t give the satisfaction poison dripping from my lips 
Conversation left me damaged after all the trust I give 
Maybe it’s been a while 
I’m good with my only child 
My son here my love i’m happy watching him he runs around 
Learn to keep the family close, not my family you bugging out 
You became my only home, can’t be here if you not around


Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You play the victim because you have to 
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms

unconditional

stream

unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

Lost in your pretty eyes
I'd rather hold you in my arms
Lying with the love and scars
That bear the pain
Baby you'll never change 
No one to take it all away 
As I'm turning to a ghost 
And I'm to blame

You say I'm to blame now for all of our problems
 According to you I'm just evil in disguise
Tears in the rain, I got a mind full of sorrow 
Loving is pain
 I gave you my trust
my everything wasn't enough
still high off your drugs
a blurry frame of who I was
a dangerous lust
you're poisonous down to the touch 
Now I'm fading to a ghost, and I'm to blame 

Lost in your pretty eyes
I'd rather hold you in my arms
Lying with the love and scars
That bear the pain
Baby you'll never change 
No one to take it all away 
As I'm turning to a ghost 
And I'm to blame

I've been losing touch with the old you
If we keep losing trust it'll happen again
Better off alone in the bad news
Only time will heal the wounds

Started caving in
And i'm admitting it now
Distant memories are haunting more than doubt
Will it be enough 
All While you're rotting in my head
Like a plague of our regret
Hope I'm the same

lost in your pretty eyes
Don't chase tears waiting on me
Wasting life away
Always because of you
The chains are getting loose

My smile is coming down 
I wanna love you now
Begging to see the sun 
Take me for another round
I need her warm embrace
Before I meet the horizon 
I know only time will heal the wounds

Crown Of Sorrow ft. Luke Mara

Walking on a tightrope in the end
Been looking at the way down from the air
It may be time to ease the pain
Broken stride caught in the rain

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

If I don’t do something right
I may disappear
I’ve been lining up the white
Look in the mirror
I couldn’t see my reflection
My course in need of correction
I’ve been hanging by a thread
Don’t look at me unravel
You’ve been running through my head
I’ve been kicking up gravel
To keep up with you
We made it through the summer
Make no sudden moves
No telling what I might do

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

Ad Nauseam ft. RiverKinn (prod. 52Blu)

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

Check out my homie: https://soundcloud.com/yates-xv

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Lyrics

RIVILIN:


Yeah, separation comes all the time, 
like a book without the pages, im just left hung up in stages
always trying to find ways to mend the spine
you got a collar on my neck with medication just to try and fix my mind

So won’t you paint my shadow on the wall in blood-red
so maybe one day I can look at it and just say that im fine
so won’t you sketch me on your canvas till I’m perfect
until you cover the outlines till im nothing, till im nothing to you

So won’t you, yeah won’t you, yeah just leave me the fuck alone
Cus im better here on my own, because im better here, better here
Cus you know that, yeah you know that, I always welcome you with open arms
It’s time I let go and brace the calm, but you know that it hurts, that it hurts.


remember the time you drove me to the hospital
yeah I try to be a minute but I can’t deal with commitment
yeah everyone needs some help sometimes
yeah but you weren’t helping me you just want to take and leave

like a ghost, in the background, I float around
bouncing from wall to wall I don’t want to be a letdown
always hitting me up on the flip phone
Yeah I never answer cus I don’t wanna be dependent on

YATES XV:

I know it’s off-topic
But I don’t feel nothin
I was at the top now I’m sitting at the bottom
She saying that I’m dark like my hearts gone rotten
I’m in my fuckin head but I’m Steady fucking Poppin
White oxycodone
I don’t open up
These drugs that I’m takin
Make me feel loved
I don’t wanna dream
I just wanna run it up
See me in my past life
Lookin like a god

Man it’s so fuckin funny
All the shit that I’ve done
Say I’ve lived my life
I just sit in the cut
All these drugs that I’m takin
Got me messed up
And I know I’m not happy
But I’m smiling
Just for fun

So tell me that I’m happy
Tell me I’m all good
Explain away my pain
Let me know it’s all good
Fuck I need help
But I’m barely fuckin breathing
I don’t want help
When the pills give me feeling

JUST LET GO FT. YATES XV

CLOUDED NORTH ☁️
UK Cloud/Emo Rap Artist & Producer