Livestream 1.11

[+] popping these pills cuz im dead inside
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LYRICS:

I just need to go get my bread
but u wanna fuck with my head, right?
Bitch I got hands, who you textin right
I want you all in my bed tonight
I wanna know what the sex is like
Poppin these pills cause I'm dead inside
Don't gotta tell me, I'm never right
I'm never right, I'm never, I'm never...

How the fuck you think I ain't notice?
Bitch I been focused on my path
and that's a fact but I know you laugh
the most when you're just really sad
that's the pain that I should have
when you're not here..
when you're not here to give it back

Tell me you want this don't wanna fuck it up uh
I wanna bitch now, I wanna bitch I could love
I don't really know who to trust now
You took my heart it's a showdown
Thinking of you on the road now,
but I really think I should go now, I should go now

Baby ion got much time left
Lemme see u in that sundress oh
Take ya time girl I'm up next
See the future... but it's all red

I keep falling, you can't keep calling me
I do this often, but you be haunting me
I wasn't ballin, now I got bands on me
I do this often, I swear she don't want me

dead inside

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dead inside (prod. scottyplash)

Cxldface - Paranoid 
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Paranoid

i keep my head down thru town
walk a straight line
cause ain’t nobody tryna see you break down
in the daytime

so im drinking in the moonlight
i might need a full glass
ain’t right, but i’d die just to go back
won’t fight, i’d lie for a whole night
don’t wanna be lonely anymore

and my imaginary friend
don’t come around and play pretend
no more, no more

someday far across the ocean
i’ll be out there coping
tryna find my way back home to you
no way, i’m barely even floating
drowning in slow motion
caught a case of not so over you

not so over you, i’m not so over you
not so over you, i’m not so over you

fool around, you’d take me back when it was easier
now you’re gone, don’t know exactly what you see in her
smoke until i’m numb it got me floating with the meteors
gave you everything and ever since you’ve gotten greedier

i knew that it was over, started fights without a reason
if you leave you’ll take the only part of me that’s decent
i won’t admit i love to hear you call me when i’m leaving
playing with my heart and over time it seems to weaken

hold on, hard to approach me
go on, let you provoke me
dosing, fixing my mental
hoping i keep it simple
 
someday far across the ocean
i’ll be out there coping
tryna find my way back home to you
no way, i’m barely even floating
drowning in slow motion
caught a case of not so over you

not so over you, i’m not so over you
not so over you

available everywhere

not so over u (wurlishmouk)

he said it, i'm too damaged

w/ @scapexgoat


i'm trying my best 
i swear i am 
tryna show you i need you 
i wanna hold your hand 
i've been hurt so fucking badly i forget who i am 
this was never part of the plan 
so can you promise you won't run from me 
cause i'm so scared i'm fucking shaking
it gets hard to breathe
n i'm not used to someone wanting me 
god, it feels so fucking comforting

so pour me a drink
and i'll sing you to sleep 
n he said it
i'm too damaged 
bleed through the bandages
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him
n just to go sleep
have to be off fucking sedatives
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him

[scapegoat] 
i was in the backseat 
looking at my phone
why you never text me
i feel so alone
i just wanted you to stay 
tell me when the fuck you're coming back
i know i'm so bad
hate to see you like that
tell me why the fuck it hurts so bad
i wish i could save you but i know i can't
how the fuck can i help you,
i can't help myself

bleed through the bandages (w/ scapegoat)

lyrics:

Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze my tired form emaciates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 
If the horse dies then the foal does too
I don’t wanna ever live my life without you
Independence begs me to overlook truth so I do
Myself is a word I use around u
I just gotta a lot of pain in my chest woah woah
I cannot be like him but ill do my best woah woah
Lately I think I lost the fear of death woah woah
Baby I can’t be saved just save ur breath oh no

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

Take my body and feed it to the typhoon
Better than having say that strange goodbye soon
Baby I would never treat u same as u treated urself
I admire ur soul cause it is see thru
 late at night I drink and i fill myself up
Poison pours into my open mouth and I
Mean it when I say I miss how we was
This the game we chose to play with our love and I know
But Where’s your honour
I can see pain flow fast into her mold
So She left me cornered
But suffering like this bring me home that’s all that I know
As Toronto gets warmer 
I can come alive in a way that I never knew
Pour it up into my soda 
I started rolling up purple every time im feeling blue
Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
and In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze the sweat on me evaporates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

these nights are urs (splashgvng)

this song is about someone only seeing you as the bad guy, making you analyze everything you do. you start to compare yourself to people in different situations and realize there really are evil people in this world, including the people who paint you like the villain. are you actually the bad guy?

Lyrics

chorus:
i promise you do not know me
stop tryna make it right
put yourself below me
that'll solve it in a night
are you fucking joking
getting sick of pointless fights
promise you don't know me
get up out my life
i'm sick of waiting for the day where everything gonna change
i'm sick of spilling alcohol up on my shirt so it stains
i'm sick of making ten mistakes and saying that it's okay
i'm sick of letting girls fuck without any foreplay
i deserve better and i know it
but i can never show it
i care about emotions
prevention from overflowing
suspended like where i'm going
if it's soon then i'm settling
if i die tomorrow i regret being the better man

verse 1:
but people take advantage like it's worth it
get a girl drunk with her friend think it's perfect
homie hit the three what a flex man you earned it
now they waking up with regrets but they'll never let you see it on the surface
now it's baggage
selfish in the moment
you had to have it
now they carry it around almost all the time though
seeing vivid pictures they can't keep they eyes closed

chorus:
i promise you do not know me
stop tryna make it right
put yourself below me
that'll solve it in a night
are you fucking joking
getting sick of pointless fights
promise you don't know me
so get up out my life
i'm sick of waiting for the day where everything gonna change
i'm sick of spilling alcohol up on my shirt so it stains
i'm sick of making ten mistakes and saying that it's okay
i'm sick of letting girls fuck without any foreplay
i deserve better and i know it
but i can never show it
i care about emotions
prevention from overflowing
suspended like where i'm going
if it's soon then i'm settling
if i die tomorrow i regret being the better man

@sorrow - somehow i'm still the bad guy (prod. con)

prod. by: https://soundcloud.com/recyclexbin

lyrics:
daylight shining through the windows
i sigh under the night sky
when i'm below
our time
where did all of it go?
and i sigh 
under any sky that i'm below
that i'm below

below (recyclebin)

Vibes

Young

YOUNG

out now on all platforms. 
art by: https://www.instagram.com/organict3a/

i wrote this at 2am while u slept beside me (prod. tundra beats)

be you x

Prod. by POPPA

Lyrics: IVOXYGEN & brandon rabbitskin

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I wish I had a home (Prod. POPPA)

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Lyrics
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(Robstar)
And she said that she's breakin' down tonight
Baby if I'm there I would hold you tight
And I know I can never ever make things right
But baby let me wipe the tears from your lil' sad eyes

And you're deservin' better than a guy like me
Tellin' her I love her when I'm on my knees
And we're staying together only in my dreams
But this is a nightmare, please don't leave
And I don't wanna fight this no more
Screamin' that I love you 'till I'm on the floor
Baby if you leave don't close the door
I don't wanna hear you cry, cry no more

(Heylog)
stay
im lonely
crave
u want me
babe
im crying
hey
i hate me
i rip all my heart out of my chest again
go ahead take it dont mind u crushing it
but pretty soon ill need it back again
but she teasing me im not a fan of it
oh man im crying now im pissed again
im still learning how to calm my temper less
this fire finna burn out from my chest
i dont know how to talk and im sick of it

(Robstar)
And she said that she's breakin' down tonight
Baby if I'm there I would hold you tight
And I know I can never ever make things right
But baby let me wipe the tears from your lil' sad eyes

Cry No More Ft. Heylog

Cry No More Ft. Heylog [Prod. Too Late]

just another day (2k6)

Pretender (Feat. RazeGod, Glitch)(Prod. TennisPlayer)

And I swear it's not fair
It's not right
How you tell me all these fucking lies
Every night
I've been feeling like i might die
I'm traumatized
Kiss me kiss me I go braindead
Every time
She told me I'm no good
But that's fine
Now I know I'm always in her mind
Getting to bands
I can't worry bout you
Every time you come around me it's always bad news

Left me fucking cursed
Lonely with a bad mood
Laying in the dirt
Trynna find my loose screws
I be on my own got no one to turn to
Every time you come around me it's always bad news
Left me fucking cursed
Lonely with a bad mood
Laying in the dirt
Trynna find my loose screws
I be on my own got no one to turn to

Braindead baby
Idk what's goin on
You don't know what I'd do
To get inside your arms
I'd go to lengths
That you've never fucking seen
Go to all those places
That you see inside your dreams
Stuck like a tattoo
Don't know what to do
Drowning like a typhoon
Imma die soon
Alone in my room
Wanna see you
Wanna feel you
Wanna kill you
Don't know what's goin on
Don't know what I'm doing wrong
Won't be here for long
Miss me when i'm gone

And I swear it's not fair
It's not right
How you tell me all these fucking lies
Every night
I've been feeling like i might die
I'm traumatized
Kiss me kiss me i go braindead
Every time
She told me i'm no good
But that's fine
Now i know i'm always in her mind
Getting to bands
I can't worry bout you
Every time you come around me it's always bad news

Left me fucking cursed
Lonely with a bad mood
Laying in the dirt
Trynna find my loose screws
I be on my own got no one to turn to

I be on my own got no one to turn to

spotify

braindead w/ loseher (prod. tennis player)

(voices)

i, i lose my breath with every step
my horns will grow no matter what
this tree of life im sapped of all i have to give
i, i lose my breath with every step
my horns will grow no matter what
this tree of life im sapped of all i have to give
i feel possessed and its coming out my chest
i lose each breath with every step
and the gravity takes me down,
and the gravity takes me down
the gravity takes me down
the gravity takes me down
the gravity takes me down
the gravity takes me down

ANXIETY
YTEIXNA

YTEIXNA (rx808)

CHORUS
you were so down
got a bad lil baby so down
oh girl maybe you should slow down
make love when you're feeling so down
so down

you were so down
got a bad lil baby so down
oh girl maybe you should slow down
make love when you're feeling so down
so down

POST CHORUS
oh you were so tied up
oh you were so tied up

DEMXNTIA
whoa
you been moving fast baby me too
tryna get a bag spend it on you
know you got a lot up on your plate babe
i know it's hard to slow down baby

maybe we can kick it for a few days
aint gotta worry about a single word that they say
i'm just tryna see what's up with you and me babe
fall asleep right in my arms while we get paid

CHORUS
you were so down
got a bad lil baby so down
oh girl maybe you should slow down
make love when you're feeling so down
so down

you were so down
got a bad lil baby so down
oh girl maybe you should slow down
make love when you're feeling so down
so down

POST CHORUS
oh you were so tied up
oh you were so tied up

BRIDGE
pussy pop four times a week
out in hollywood
classy girl i'm tryna keep
oh she got me so good

you just got off of work
show me how to love
you going down with me
down on me
down with me
down with me

CHORUS
you were so down
got a bad lil baby so down
oh girl maybe you should slow down
make love when you're feeling so down
so down

you were so down
got a bad lil baby so down
oh girl maybe you should slow down
make love when you're feeling so down
so down

CHORUS
you were so down
got a bad lil baby so down
oh girl maybe you should slow down
make love when you're feeling so down
so down

you were so down
got a bad lil baby so down
oh girl maybe you should slow down
make love when you're feeling so down
so down

spøtify

feeling down (w/ demxntia) [prod. Ox The Moron & cøzy]

I drove all the way here for this? (prod. homesick)

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SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/4eACLjZUXdXNndvlBaqoaT?si=oivpWXY5R_in9PGyBfyavw

BITEKI: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FrbalrV0U0

ty to blue rxse for the cute lil vocal chop @ 2:06 hehe 

i see through the dim lights, oh my 
every time you confide, its alright 
its alright, its alright, its alright 
getting harder to sleep all by myself now 
sorry i won’t catch you when you fall down 
i can’t stand it anymore i won’t come around 
reassuring every instance when i make a sound

chorus:
ima break away 
yeah ima break away 
ima start to fade
yeah ima start to fade 
gotchu in my sights now i see you run away

climbing mountain tops just to try and talk to you
now im at the top and you’re still out of view 
coming down i see the stars start to dim out 
i see the city start to die im on the wrong route
its getting dark 
no end in sight 
will i be lost with tired eyes? 
i start to cry there goes my light 
i think its time to stop the fight

break away (prod. paroxysm)

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

seasonal depression (prod. iof)

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