performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

#us #wip
credits:
@haveonlyonechance
@ogpichu

intro from love is war 

[hook]
is it my fault
if u dont care anymore
shes making me blush
and i just stare at the floor
knew it was coming felt it in my core
asked u if u still like me u said not anymore
2x

[verse]
you said i would be hard to forget
you knew a different me, way back then
i cant take back things i said
but i still remember the day that we met
i put my life into you
it was all for nothing
i put my time into you
wish i got away with something

bridge from kaguya as well :P

hook repeat yup

spotify

my fault (tenoji)

@venusiann
@k4nji1004

[coldspades]
and its too easy to see 
what you wanted from me
can't get you out of my head
just wanna go right asleep
i know she want me to stay
yeah she begging me please
but i just think about you
kissing you in my dreams

[venusiann]
maybe i'm crazy
you couldn't save me
this feeling deep down
it hurts but i wont speak out
kiss me slow, oh
i sing you these notes, oh
did you know, oh
i love you the most, oh

dreams ft. venusiann (k4nji)

this is reality

@mental
@jjaholics
@miguelisaneko

[blxty]
wanna see u hop onto the next plane ride
girl how u love and hate me at the same time
she like my songs, baby i'm having a bad time
i'm always open baby u can always be mine
(be mine be mine be mine)
and i'm done
drugs r what i'm on (inhaler)
they help me stay strong
and i'm tired of her singing my songs
but don't get me wrong...

i still love her voice
i still love the thought of
her in my head i'm
getting so nauseous
i fell in the void i
didn't take caution
is my head the problem
i think that i lost it

and now i'm up again
am i my only friend
am i yo only friend... 
i wanna feel ag- 
i wanna feel ugh
u can take off my trueys my g star my ksubis
swear my life a movie she take off ha 2 piece
she feelin my body
shirt off like oddy
her boy tryna stop me
while she tryna top me
heh
if she tryna top me i say na beep sorry

[mental]
ill buy u prada and dolce gabana
she put my fit on and look like a model
step into saks n i left with some bottles
srt go too fast yea it go on full throttle yea
hoppin on a flight
ill see u tonight
ima take this chance
i could take it slow
but i just love living fast
doin magic i turn money to designer pants
ksubi jeans and helmut lang i love to mix the brands up
i kno when they hear this song they gon put their hands up
people love to lie but its never u i cant trust
benji never lies ima just keep counting bands up
thought id never fall for u but i did
stole my heart i cant find it
look at ur face n im blinded
swear ur beauty is the brightest
if u want it ima buy it
if u want to we can try it
anything u want bae
i rly dont mind it

model ft. mental (jj x miguel)

@mental

ive been living fast but im dying so slowly
wishing for a change every day ive been hoping
crying in my bed i think thats how ive been coping
i can barely see with my eyes wide open
ive been feeling worthless, tell me whats my purpose
i feel like a burden, am i even worth it
i cant even hide it, its all on the surface
i cant look you in the eyes cause it always make me nervous

i cant take any more of the sorrow
i dont think i wanna wake up tomorrow
i always lose thats the hardest pill to swallow
keep losing my friends thats why my heart is always hollow

im not ok but i’ll keep playing pretend
its like every time i get up i just fall over again
in the cycle every day, think im gonna go insane
don’t know how much longer my heart can withstand all of this pain

hollow (mental)

SWEEPIN

Mayback2

@1yugenn
@nokiyzu
@mitsooya

notes:
yugen n i are rly proud of dis 1 hope it doesnt flop :3 enjoy!

(lyrics)

[mitsu +yugen]
n i've been goin crzy
just thinking bout the times we had
the times we had
feelings in a bottle
idk wht's happening next
happening next

n i've been trying 2 escape
but i think its not wrking
i've been trying my best
but i don't think its wrking
i got this feeling in my brain
i don't think my hearts beating...

SO JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME

[mitsu]
wht do u want
i'm just a fool
wht do u want from me
i don't hve a clu#e
n i can't take
another1 sip
of dis liquor so i'll just have 2...
run back2u
【x2】

[yugen]
running back 
bby i just want ur love again##
n i been lost all the way i think its till the end
all the times i asked you out
u said it just depends
ppl tell me 2 b happy but i really cant :/

[mitsu +yugen]
n i've been goin crzy
just thinking bout the times we had
the times we had
feelings in a bottle
idk wht's happening next
happening next

n i've been trying 2 escape
but i think its not wrking
i've been trying my best
but i don't think its wrking
i got this feeling in my brain
i don't think my hearts beating...

SO JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME

hook

back2u +yugen (noki)

@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
my head don't feel right 
i see u cry
i don't rlly blame u-
cus we're both having a bad time
they say they don't change
promise i'm not like the last guy
blacked out last night woke up w/ a blackeye

[mental]
i dont wanna talk but they driving me insane
next time we drift apart ima stay away
i dont wanna deal i cant deal with all this pain
fall apart every time u say my name

hope i mean a lot to u
cuz u mean a lot to me
and it seems we're falling thru
but i'll never let u be

said a lot of things
i didnt rly mean
i dont wanna feel
put a pill in my drink
i just want love
ill do like anything
do what u want
u pushed me to the brink

feel ur aura
girl i like it way too much
u make it colder
hope ur just another crush

bad time ft. mental (elias x mental)

@blxty
@15elias

[mental]
you broke my heart its bleeding out
i cry for help i scream and shout
i need ur love i need it now
u broke me all my walls torn down
rip me apart im shattered
make me think i never mattered
i cant deal with all this damage
burn me turn me into ashes

[blxty]
going back to my patterns
im falling in
if u told i mattered
would it b pretend
feel like dolly
tell her that she still miss me
she don't miss me she only miss blxty

lets see how far all these drugs will get me
2d only see the part where u leave
its crazy how everyone wanna be me now
covered up in blood feel like a hound

[mental]
they all wanna be me
i wish i was someone else
live my life on repeat
secrets i can never tell
everybody leaves me
i know that u will as well
i know u dont need me
moving onto someone else
look up at the stars
fall into ur arms im safe
broke into my heart
everything is falling into (place)

dreams ft. venusiann (k4nji)

coldspades

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