Grey Skies Ft. Connekdead Prod. VICEBEATS

SERIOUS DEMONS Ft. Jupiluxe

Connekdead - Challenge Complete II [feat. THEULTRAVIOLETCROW] (prod. SMEbeats)

Honestly just sick of the bullshit in life, asking myself so many questions, like “how can I be enlightened if I’m feeling stalled?” How does that work?
Is everything about who I think I am false?
Is it an idea?
I’m just tired of all these questions with no answers
So I said fuck it, took shrooms and ran to my problems to figure out what the fuck is the answer.
More questions come up yet at least some are becoming resolved.
This song acts as my time capsule for when I started to try to understand and love my problematic ego instead of hating myself.

In other words;
Just a swaggy flow on a swaggy track man 🤙🤣

Problematic

With so much continuing to pile up all at once;
With people showing true colours;
People trying to hurt me.
I've come to realize;
God is taking away all that has been holding me back..
Creating space for what will assist in my growth and evolution.
I prayed for true colour to be revealed, and the strength to be able to make the right decisions.
Yet my mind is all over the place;
Filled with rage and confusion; I want to attack yet even when examining what's going on I can't help but understand.
Its frustrating;
I WANT to talk;
Yet there is no point to talk with someone who can't ever see their own wrong doings.
Misunderstandings or not, there are ways to handle things.
Clearly the value for me isn't the same.
I'm done, I'm done trying to help and love this person who can effortlessly bash me behind my back and in public.
I want to answer your calls man I really do, yet I have nothing more to say; my trust is broken and I have no intentions on rebuilding it with someone who thinks sleeping with their friends girlfriends/exes behind their backs is cool and or ok.
My absence in your life should cause you more pain than yours in mine.
You've made your decisions...
It's time for me to make mine…

To Everything I've Ever Lost; Thank You For Setting Me Free

FACE Prod. Redhimura

Recently I’ve been in a position in life where I feel stuck.
Stuck between the old and the coming of the new.
Almost overwhelmed by my head trying to predict the new with the patterns of old.
I remind myself that even my mind can be a valley of the shadow of death if I am not careful.
Unlimited potential limited by only being able to choose one.
What choice do you make?
Do you let nature take its course?
Or do you take action?

Shadows & Valleys

Bro honestly I woke up today in a weird mood,
I think due to the events that occurred during my show (yesterday upon writing this) plus trying to choose sobriety today probably wasn't helping 😅

I was thinking of how someone I have love for betrayed my trust for no reason and then showed up at the show to talk with me, yet left when they had opportunity to talk w me.
I still don’t understand.
I was upset at first;
Then I took a good look at those who are still around me, those who still love and respect me; and I was like "MAAAAANNNNNEEEE why TF am I stressing over someone who CLEARLY doesn't give a SHIT about me or how I feel?"
Then after the emotions went through I was like 'Fuck.. this still sucks tho."

So instead of just sitting on that sucky feeling, I did a workout, then after that work out I got mad inspired to get the remaining energy out in a creative way.
I wanted to alchemize my feelings into something completely different, creating almost a new reality for myself within this song.
I heard the beat and was thinking back to Mike Jack and that one Tory Lanez album and was like YEOOOOOO 😤😤 Caught a groove right-the-fuck-away and freestyled this whole song 😅
Shit amazes me, have to give glory to God cause ain’t no way I made this on my phone in two hours on my own 🙏🙏🙏

Depending on how this one does I might have to make a disco album gang! 
This shit was so fun to make fr! 🤣 
I might just say fuck it and make one anyways 😤

Got the feeling I needed to get out, out  and I was able to dance and vibe the whole time while doing it.
Thank you for listening I hope you enjoy as much as I did/do 🤣
I was gonna schedule this for a later release but nah man yall gotta hear this 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

Who?

I've spent majority of my life feeling a faithful Numbness, a unique feeling, my own personal hell.
After spending years comfortably in my own hell, God sent someone my way to change my perspective of life.
And changing my perspective they are.
For the first time in a long time I can FEEL.
Im terrified to lose the ability to FEEL again;
I like this person;
Yet I'd be a fool to not admit my feelings;
I am not going to lose another person I love and care about because fear made me unable to talk..
I will push through;
Yet these are complex and deep feelings that I still don't quite know how to express;
Which is why it seems like almost a complete genre change.
Im trying to express something new..
Love..

Lost In You…

THE MENACE - ProdbyDistro

“If God is for you it doesn’t matter who isn’t.”
I am the shadow you must confront

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To Everything I've Ever Lost; Thank You For Setting Me Free

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