prod me, written in spring 2025.

LYRICS:
i dont work alone  
wont it just fall apart like it always did
always six deep everywhere i fuckin go
know i said im sorry im not sorry when i split

gotta try so fkin hard to exist  
i was poppin pharma shit i couldnt resist
i cant really swim without you in the fkin mix
tired of opiates tired of waking up sick

really tired of that really sick of this
i cannot go back, i just really miss 
want it so bad, want it like a fix
feel like this forever, i need always bliss

want it to be over i want it to end
i dont wanna write i just wanna go to bed
really really try but i cant make us connect
laying in the dark reminiscing in my head

six deep

steps {bloodcryY + togepi}

instagram.com/melodramalovestory
ft and prod @rewind214

feeling I can't let go 
waiting, say so say so
i've been all on my own 
you can fix up my soul

the sun thru the clouds reminds me of you
you got my heart in full bloom 
so girl just tell me its true 
i'd rewrite the stars
but I cannot say what you mean to me 
to meee

stuck since I laid eyes on you 
tell me what am I from your point of view 
yeah idc I just wanna be next to you
I want it forever like a tattoo 
hope you don't got plans I wanna 
stay out make out I can be what you want rn
my hearts made of clay mold me 
so I can be the one of your dreams 

you can tell what you wanna do
start anew I can be with you 
baby all we gotta do is walk around 
headphones music playing too loud 
yeah you know that your my favorite topic 
you can talk to me about nothing 
every single second with you 
is so blissful to me never waste of my time

breathe thru me my love 
rest your weary head on me
what's this feeling so strange 
like i met you in a dream

i just want you and i
keep you safe by my side
wipe your tears if you cry
i dont want any other girl
i would give my whole heart, i would give my whole world to you
just to be by your side
youre my angel
see your halo
as the days go by,
hope you stay close
feels so safe when youre next to me
youre my drug, youre my ecstasy
i just want you and i

Spotify

together in harmony~ interwoven +rewind

prod @rubbishrubbish

lyrics:
aye im so fucked aye
she draw blood aye
nother bad day
let it roll aye
i like gettin paid
geeked up outer space
dont een know my name
make it go away

we aint on broadway
we on broad aye
we in philly aye
i dont be okay
i be lonely
shawty bad tho
scene like boxxy

molly roxy 
geeked up out my body
walkin round the toy store off a fuckin oxy
crawling thru the dark web do it thru a proxy
funny how they hate me but they never block me

rollin like a trolley
nobody can stop me
suddenly im popping
yea the fans they stop me
i stay hella sleepy
i jus love the feeling
shawty wanna keep me
she a cute lil scene queen

i be feelin bad yuh
i be sad yuh
u so mad yuh
im so back yuh
cut me slack yuh
get on track yuh
fuck up bad yuh
im so last yuh

blowin gas yuh
got some rax yuh
goin fast yuh
she so bad yuh
im a fag yuh
gettin cash yuh
u get passed yuh
u so trash yuh

broad street broadway prod. rubbish

I watched you from my car and saw you crawl upon her body in that dirty fucking room and boy i swear it drove me crazy
Biting on my lip to try and cut away the sound, yeah i know i fucked around but i swear im still ur baby
I know im stuck inside your vision when you fuck her, u wish that u could just forget and rip my stains out of ur covers
Do you ever stop to wonder if you make this shit too easy when you trick another pretty little bitch to think you love her

Im insecure every time i see a mirror
While ur telling me this shit im fucking holding back the tears
Wanna rip apart my body everytime i see you with her
Im a stupid little slut, and i should really dissapear
I could tell you everything you wanna hear
I could whisper all the stupid fkn bullshit in ur ear
Make you think a little, just enough to make u feel the fear
Think u wanna stay close? Couldnt even come near

You think that she"ll replace me? Huh
Talking shit but u still wanna date me
My hands are shaky, i could make u hate me
Break myself again really hoping you would praise me

I dont think ur ever gonna find her
U cant look away im the doll on ur grindr
You just wanna fuck me i see in eyes 
Im so sick of all the hiding, wanna feel alive 

Im your dirty little secret
Yeah u have ur reasons
Hiding me in public
God i feel i stinging
I think im needy
Twitching from the feeling
Cover up my mouth when you start to hear me breathing
I start to whimper biting back my tongue
Youre such a fucking mess when ur begging me to cum
Youre like a monster lappin up my blood
I dont wanna share, want u deep inside my lungs

insecure [darko]

vialit-
i know im not the one
u chose another thats alright
not a secnd spent with u i consider wasted time
how u feel abt me
u cn change ur mind
but i hope u know right now that i am dying
forgive me
right now im just trying to forget u
how cld i forget u
how cld i jus pretend like u dont exist when ur perfect for me?
if i ask u nicely wld u leae ur purpose for me
jus stay with me please stay is iit not worth it for me
is it not?
is it not worth it tell me pls is it not?
are u not certain i am and this is love?
r u god u may think u are but ur not
r u lost the way home u have not forgot

nosgov-
and now you're mad
that you can no longer wear me down
as i reroute
feel free to believe the words u said, outloud
im so over the past
how'd i think it would last
couldn't come to my sense

but i know
i'll be alright
like an arrow to my knee, i ripped it out
didn't know it could get any better, how suprising
to find out, it was all a lie & playing for time
i'm not blind
but i'm done
i walked out
never looking back

if i ask u nicely w/nosgov (heartshapedbed)

Pozdrawiam Słuchaczy 🙌

Thank you for 500 followers on soundcloud and 1K on ig
You are the reason im still going 
Shout out doeboyz and my friend Ethan aka 99k

Dive /Shine/AreWeArc

prod @wannakillyourselfwithme

lyrics:

Rip it all apart
Tear me down just to restart
Why can't I just do my part?
I won't make it very far
If you don't wind my clockwork heart
I know sloth is a sin but I'm so tired
I need to take medicine just to feel wired
Don't want to do anything just want to lie here
Just want to lay in the grass think I could die here

We could burn that bridge when we get there
I always try my best but I can't get there
I still remember how we met that winter
I still remember what you said in that whisper
I think I feel like myself when it's cold
What's the point of being rich when you're alone?
Lie in the grass and I look up at the crows
A new trail leaving footprints in the snow
Will you follow me?
Will you walk with me?

"Have you heard of the finger maidens?
Offering guidance and aid to the tarnished
But you I am afraid are maidenless"

Rip it all apart
Tear me down just to restart
Why can't I just do my part?
I won't make it very far
If you don't wind my clockwork heart
I know sloth is a sin but I'm so tired
I need to take medicine just to feel wired
Don't want to do anything just want to lie here
Just want to lay in the grass think I could die here

I tried to tell you you should stay away
You tried to tell me I've been MIA
Why can't you see I'm tryna stay that way?
Why can't you see I'll turn your colors into gray
No matter what you always stay with me
When I fall down you always lay with me
Reach out your hand and catch the falling leaves
Look at the sky and feel the autumn breeze

maiden (locket)

www.instagram.com/888psych/
Through fear and sadness, I found god through god I found Ariel 
Thank you, Ariel. Praise Ariel

you could of just said sorry but here we are

you could of just said sorry but here we are w/ oryx wells  (lexycatt dani kiyoko)

pave (prod. sochi)

@corpsekittyy
lay my body on the floor of ur bedroom
too barred out i dont know what the fuck to do
who the fuck are you
stay away i cant fw u
vampire gang kitty wrist slit drug crew

i regret all this wasted time
want to kill myself just to see u smile
fuck my life
rail another fucking line
hurt myself know i never could survive

need a doctor im running out of options
let my life decay im so disgusted
hate everything want my soul to fade away
never want to feel this way

@cloudiiscape
all the colors looking greyed out
why does every single day
just look the same now?
doesn’t matter who i’m with or what we talk about
cause in my memory their face is always blurred out
aphantasia can’t see nothing
like the lights are out
only feeling like myself 
when no one else around
living life like it’s roulette
and i’m the gun now
roll the dice
inflicting pain like i’m a sadist

let the past decay as i fall within
only choice i have til i meet my grave
who do i run from?
who do i save?

apparition + cloudii (cloudii + corpsekitty)

corpsekitty