im sorry i havent dropped ina while but heres me and @k4rson :)
finally dropped a self prod YAY also ty @rewind214 for the mel ily

when i say that im okay, im not
i take another step knowing inside i rot
my tears are falling down but i act like strong
n my only way to cope is thru writing all these songs
(hopin that u sing along)
sometimes i wonder do you even think of me
how could u hurt me i thought we were on a team
was everything in my head, was it make believe?
but now ik not everything is what it seems

and as i struggle to breath
all you do is just watch me
so now im taking my leave
cuz ik u didnt want me
now ik that ur not concerned
my eyes close as i still think of her
how could i not see that this never could of worked
the pain is getting worse i feel a different type of hurt

@k4rson:
i feel a different type of hurt tho
you would never listen to my words
tried to break my heart, you're not the first ho
you ripped me apart, don't know why it hurts 

cuz i thought i was used to it
but i can't do this without you
i can't get used to this 
you can cry, you're allowed to 
so overwhelmed that i can't breathe 
i need new eyes so i can see

me:
and as i struggle to breath
all you do is just watch me
so now im taking my leave
cuz ik u didnt want me
now ik that ur not concerned
my eyes close as i still think of her
how could i not see that this never could of worked
the pain is getting worse i feel a different type of hurt

struggle to breathe +karson (rewind, akura)

feels so good to be back i missed this
prod me and @makemeapromise featuring @remiliaxd

me :

oh, i know im not like before
words can’t reach me anymore
and I’m tired of feeling like a corpse
like a corpse

i just need space
and i cant relate
is this all for them or me?
i cant tell anymore

i cant do it
lets just drop this
i cant stop this
everything is calling
calling me now
and I don’t know how
i can stop my path
from going south

@remiliaxd :

i can't hear you calling
why can't i stop myself from falling down
idk what's left tonight
beware my love, don't hold me tight

let it go
so alone
lost control
but i don't know where to go
oh, but i don't know where to go
gotta find another light, gotta find you love

me :

oh, i know im not like before
words can’t reach me anymore
and I’m tired of feeling like a corpse
like a corpse

i just need space
and i cant relate
is this all for them or me?
i cant tell anymore

i cant do it
lets just drop this
i cant stop this
everything is calling
calling me now
and I don’t know how
i can stop my path
from going south

spiraling + remilia (me + surgeon)

@decago
something a little different.. but i like it 
track w/ @xo in 2 weeks xoxoxo

go and take my head to rest
and change all that i know
and my presence purgatory holding everything before
eviscerate my soul just like you did before
and i cant help thinking about you baby
all i want is more

so break me down
and rearrange my soul
cause im nothng without u girll 
and it hurts to see you home

so break me down
change everything i know
swear im bleeding wout u 
baby please just come and take me home

as i decay here around u is there anything to say
when i cross that bridge i ask you if theres any other way
were lying to ourselves but we cant prove its all the same
well im wrapped around your finger baby trapped inside ur game

break me downn ,, (decago)

soundcloud.com/xternalz x soundcloud.com/mental

cover art also by me

[soundcloud.com/clay0127]
i dont want it taking over
lately its been getting hard to stay sober
got nobody who can hold me any closer
i fear youll see me ending up on a poster

ive been running after shadows of a dream i had
the silhouette fading doesnt make me feel less bad
i put my faith in somebody who aint had my back
bleeding in the rain, wont even face the past

waited on this for ages and it wasnt that
the future i was so patient for, it didnt last
ive spent some time away from you and im regretting that
it hurts when i open my eyes see you aint at my pad

three thousand miles away from my only one

my words cant do it justice
these pictures aint enough
i really think youll love it
if you stay here a month

[soundcloud.com/mental]
life keeps changing but my feelings never did
i've tripped over shit
i've cried like a bitch
i've dreamt of meeting with a kiss
i keep making these mistakes im just a kid
you know how to twist
my heart into bits
and pieces of love that i still miss
things have changed a lot
last year i was afraid of us
not quite your touch but the state of love
nothing like touching and making up
nothing like running away from stuff
nothing like holding your hand and face til
we saw the sun and the moon switch their places
holes in my heart and you're the explanation
i lost my mind trying to fill up the spaces

Three Thousand Miles w/ Mental [xternalz]

credits://
@antag01
@rewind/hazel

lyrics://
i cant say too much
i cant lie that you been in my head too much
and i cant get myself up out of bed so what
and i think that i would rather be dead so what
be, be dead so what
x2

ive been sick sick 
grab that shit like pick six
talkin wit the devil contemplating triple six six
hit em wit that treble he wont even kno what hit him
you aint even on my level so stop askin how i did this
like whats ur business why u always trippin
get yo wick split start from the beginning
we some misfits push it to the limits 
why you acting like u never went n did it...

I know you missed
ive wondered ever since
talkin wit my brothers im confessing all my sins
lost too many people now i gotta represent
keep it to myself now i cant get out of my head

my god i wound be you 
you so damn see through
oh lord
i should need to 
but i think i need you
x2 

i cant say too much
i cant lie that you been in my head too much
and i cant get myself up out of bed so what
and i think that i would rather be dead so what
be, be dead so what

too much.

ill be ur wings 
tell me tht u 
wanna fly tu
wen im up in the sky
u the one i wanna 
sing to
baby ur alright
were on the same tune
when i fall down
let me fall 
into u

ya listen to me talk
lets connect the heartstring ya
never gotta try
ill be there for u
sunlight on my body when i
feel ur love
uaghhh
make me feel a way 
that i can never feel 
with u
tell me were all right 
tell me wots tru
tht i saw u in the dark
at a bonfire tell 
me thats ur heart
itll never work?
gonna tell u thats a lie
tell me tht u love me
plz dun say goodbye
fire to the flame let me 
burn with u

let me fall into you (decago + revert)

call me w/ counter (16kibo)

@gskyo
@sensuku
@tores

gens:
as time flies my heart decays
my only wish is to see your face again
girl im so tired of playing pretend
im tryna see this to the end
ive been lost without you near
and i cope with all the tears that have fallen down
will you hear my shout when i call you out

kishi:
and i hate it
i dont wanna lie, i miss the feeling of your fragrance
let me die in peace, while im dying on the pavement
it feels amazing
still got your voice in my head, i can’t take it
just move on, forget about me
im already dead, psychologically
what the hell is wrong? with you and me
april gang, love my bros, live long without me

and i can’t change
how i think, whats on my mind
i know you’re just wasting my time
few years gone by
hopefully got kids and a wife
thinking bout my future makes me cry
cause i wont be there, to live it all
do you even fucking miss me at all?
no you don’t, it aint fair
i feel so alone
i just wanna go back home

sensuku:
i js wanna go
dont let me seen at all
crying, i cant breathe alone
i know that i shouldve known
time goes by and im alone
time it just wont stop
n now im on my own (my own)
all this time ive lost

and i hate it i dont wanna lie
i miss the feeling of your fragrance
let me die in peace while im dying on the pavement
it feels amazing
n the voice in my head i cant take it

peaceful +gens, sensuku (tores)

Cat-Nip Freestyle (wokluva)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFtkWJiYhsU

*re-released* , soundcloud exclusive 

lyrics

fuck the old me, wasn't nice 2 know ya
i've been growin up', i've been gettin' older
i've been gainin' confidence, been gettin' bolder
she ain't put a stop 2 this, but she said hold up
baby hold up, maybe you should slow up
pretty girl i'm more than ya fuckin' shoulder
she get mad at me give me the cold shoulder
and even when it's hard, girl i'll always show up
always show love 2 ya
always show up 4 ya
always fight 4 ya
spreadin' love 2 ya, 2 yaaa

fuck the old me, wasn't nice 2 know ya
i've been growin up', i've been gettin' older
i've been gainin' confidence, been gettin' bolder
she ain't put a stop 2 this, but she said hold up
baby hold up, maybe you should slow up
pretty girl i'm more than ya fuckin' shoulder
she get mad at me give me the cold shoulder
and even when it's hard, girl i'll always show up
always show love 2 ya
always show up 4 ya
always fight 4 ya
spreadin' love 2 ya, 2 yaaa

sorry bout stress that i cause 2 your mental
pretty girl i know that you've been through it
you don't got 2 talk bout it if you don't wanna
i ain't tryna send pain, girl i'm tryna love ya

tryn love yaaa
girl i'm tryna love on ya
i ain't tryna rush this stuff
sorry if i'm pushy with ya

i'll always show up [p. jkjmetasco]

Not Enüf [faint]

i make whatever genre 

@team_taka

Discord: Eden#8531

call me w/ counter (16kibo)

CounterfeitBoy