instrumental by @emorave
vocals/mix/chops by me 

[ Lyrics ]

SELECT MY HEART
AND TRY TO SEND IT THRU THE SCREEN

ITS LOST WHEN SENT
UR NEVER GETTING WHAT I MEAN

ITS EITHER YOU
OR THOUGHTS OF HARMING ME
THATS FILLING UP MY DREAMS

AND IT NEVER ENDS, I THINK
IM HERE 
JUST WAITING FOR 
THE BLEEDING TO STOP

( Stop )
( I Think )
( Bleeding Never Ends )
( Stop )
( You’re Harming Me )

U SAID U LIKED ME
BUT U DONT 
CUZ IM A PSYCHO

YOU CHANGED YOUR MIND
LIKE WHAT YOU SAID
WAS JUST A TYPO 

IT MAKES SENSE
CUZ I COULD NEVER BE UR TYPE

I TRY TO TELL MYSELF TO STOP
BUT THINK ABOUT U EVERY NIGHT 


IM NOTHING NEW 
U PROBABLY GOT A QUICK REPLACEMENT 

MY WORDS ARE WASTED
YOU FORGET MY FUCKING STATEMENTS

I KNOW THESE THINGS
BUT STILL YOU MAKE ME FEEL ALIVE

AND WHEN U ASK ME WHY I CARE
ITS SOMETHING 
I JUST CANT DESCRIBE

( Im nothing new)
( Im nothing new )
( My words are wasted )
( On you )

[ @spazzteamonline ]

select my heart

art by @snarge <3 prod. artemys

staring at the ceiling i don't know how it's real
baby these ain't secrets girl it's just how i feel
speaking to the devil i think we cut a deal
getting hard to hold on but for you know i will
staring at the ceiling i don't know how it's real
baby these ain't secrets girl it's just how i feel
speaking to the devil i think we cut a deal
getting hard to hold on but for you know i will

seeing all these things they only exist in my dreams
i love it when you smile you're the only one i see
i'd hold you above me if the darkness underneath
i don't wanna hurt you you're the one that's meant for me
i know somethings don't play out the way we want em 
i got racks up in my jeans you know i'll spend it on you
only time i see my future when i'm standing next to you
girl you're my forever no we don't play by the rules
staring at you i get lost inside your eyes
you say i'm bluffing but i tell you all the time
i've been searching for you like all of my life
now i'll never let you outside of my sight

girl it's just how i feel 
(yea it's just how i feel, yea it's just how i feel)
girl it's just how i feel 
(yea it's just how i feel, yea it's just how i feel)

staring at the ceiling i don't know how it's real
baby these ain't secrets girl it's just how i feel
speaking to the devil i think we cut a deal
getting hard to hold on but for you know i will
staring at the ceiling i don't know how it's real
baby these ain't secrets girl it's just how i feel
speaking to the devil i think we cut a deal
getting hard to hold on but for you know i will

(but for you know i will)
(but for you know i will)
(but for you know i will)
(but for you know i will)

For U (artemys)

prod. yamaka
mix by oafy

xx

last nite
feel it now
all i cn remember is the dj sound

it goes down
just how i saw u for the first time
n like everyday after swear i was like 

we were dancing in the dark
everywhere i go looks so haunted now
dreaming in a dream
then i wake up 
like i never fell asleep
but the days gone

i can never seem to take it slow
oh no 
we could do it if we wanted
took a xan
sleepwalking when i walk in

do u wanna come here
hate it wen u go 
like it wen ur near :D

staying up all nite off the molly
i just got a feeling when ur eyes locked on me
n we were going hard to the bassline
n i could’ve sworn we had a good time !!!?

tell me how we lost it like that ;/
if it’s rly real then will u bring it right back?

sleepwalkin' :)

Produced written and performed by Reserv

lyrics

honey i tried
making up a lie
i'm making up a lie to be true
maybe i'll cry
maybe i'll be fine
but surely i'll be gone without you
oo, and i'm
wasting all my time
i'm wasting all my time
counting a, b, c, d
even if i want and i don't need
it's been a combination of a whole lot of things
that i can't begin to list
or think about for extended periods
cause honey what i want is something clean
and i can't hear a thing you're telling me
sorry that i
become someone else
i try to do something i can't do
i ask you why
you sing, and then you dance
you breathe, and then you can't let out
such simple things
to make a little easier
i might just be immature though
just so you know
i'm wasting all my time
i'm wasting all my time
i'm wasting all my time
i'm wasting all my time 
counting a, b, c, d
even if i want and i don't need
it's been a combination of a whole lot of things
that i can't begin to list
or think about for extended periods
cause honey what i want is something clean
and i can't hear a thing you're telling me

A Whole Lot of Things

prod proz

(lyrics)
I was starting to miss u
I was starting to care
think we're looking for something else
but I really don't wanna lose u (x2)
so can we wake up forget last night
I really wanna try again (x2)
& I know that I've been acting out
but in the morning I know that you'll come around 
your friends might say im toxic
but we'll just laugh and walk away (x2)

care (proz)

@deadat18
its not fair
when ur down
jus kno
im there
dont knoww
deep dwn
imScared
whenusay that im the one now i cry inside

@dreamcache
my head is in my hands
im doin what i can
i cant got thru this again
i need u where i am

life could get so hard but ima get back up
i kno ur the one cuz i cant get enough
stupid shit i said wish i could take it back
if i dont go mia i might b wasting my time

baby with u im tryna run it up
bc of u i gotta level up
i remember the first time that i saw u.

notFair.. +dreamcache [ihateparties]

prod and mix by skoolio 
https://on.soundcloud.com/BwGVuVd38XuhFJzQ7

cover art by @himbeer.ida  instagram

gold [prod. skoolio]

prod neverforever
@valentinesdayblue <33

I stared at the picture
of you this morning
It’s not that i want to
don’t mean to be boring
It’s just that ive curdled
all my thoughts from imploring
It hurts when its hollow
It hurts when you ignore me

I’ve learned to stop saying sorry 
I learned to let go of all the rotting parts of me
Then ill find you
Writing in your book in the park
I’ll think about the way you touched my arm
And completely fall apart

pixie:
tell me you love me so i dont forget 
tell me its beautiful just to exist 
ive known the aching of waking up again 
if i said i dont wanna die id be lying

is it such a crime to want you to get better 
i never
still me and emily sending our love inside letters 
i hate to show my teeth and she kick them in 
i let her
oh jesus, i want peace but i cant keep it like promises

this morning

prod pandrs 
mixed by angelsrent + me .. ♡ 

Feeling the emotions by your side
Finally it feels right
I don’t have to talk you know what’s on my mind
Somehow you end up in everything i write
Popping up in my dreams
As silhouettes on the street
As someone i have yet to meet
All i can do is try to decode the meaning
Internally screaming
Forever fleeting
Pretty baby I’ll hold you close to my heart , do you feel it beating
Do you feel my heart beating

Nevermind all that i went thru to get here
You understand me in every way, that’s not something id replace
Being with you would be my perfect day

on my mind

@winter

art by @carssererere <3

i cnt stand when ur closeby 
i dont want u in my eyesight 
u make me sickk but its alright 
try to avoid u like sunlight
pls dont talk2me 
pls dont bother me
i know u envy me 
u r my enemy
i hate to say it
i think im crazy :(
go out when its rainy
this darkness gives me safety

enemy「prod. winter」

prod. me + @northeastlights

can’t rid of the feeling 
u make it look so easy 
(but it’s rly not) 
staring at the ceiling 
wish I was someone else 

I rly hate it here 
yea it’s nothing new 
I hate this place y’all disgust me 
I rly hate it here 
yea it’s nothing new 
don’t wanna be a part of all this bs 

fuck you.

on my mind

creepybuggirl