credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked 

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

BRAINSOUP!

All fucked up now
I’m lying on the ground 
Gone without a sound 
I’ll take my life no doubt 
Hate myself now 
I’m lying on the ground 
No point in trying now 
I’ll end my life life no doubt 

It’s been like this forever 
I want to fucking die
It’s never gotten better 
Don’t have the balls to try
Shoot me with a shotgun 
Drain my fucking life 
I don’t even care anymore 
Fuck my fucking life

No Doubt

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getting fucked up every day
brains in a state of decay
tried to change my ways but i said fuck that
been alive for way too long
i dont think anybody will care when im dead and gone

never getting better
ill be fucked forever
got no friends dont leave my home 
i guess that i am dying alone

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

crashed my car into a wall
no one really cares at all
life has got me by the balls i really fucked up
wake up every fucking day
dont know why its all the same 
i dont like living this way

i really fucked myself
now im stuck in hell
i fucking hate everyone
so i dont care about anything anymore

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

FOR THE HELL OF IT (ft. DethTech)

They Speak Through The Screens (Bad Takes Only Cover)

Pop-Phlodge x Chadpilled

Lyrics:
It's been a bummer for a while
I hardly ever smile
why does living feel so vile
cold heart like a reptile
and I got this dry ass phone
no text, no one, no hoes
wish I'd crash out on the road
and rot and die alone

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

you keep blowing up my phone
with pics of you giving dome
so I'll take the benz out to the road
crash into the lake
and drown there cold
as the water feels my lungs
I'll feel the bliss of a 1000 suns
just how the schizos speak in tongues
cause ill know my shitty life is done

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

I'm killing myself tonight I'll be dead by morning
and all of this fucking time I was shouting out warnings
I was crying for help from you guys and you fucking ignored me
so I'm killing myself tonight that's the end of the story

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

Oh God Why (Feat. Cameron Phlodge & Chadpilled)

Credit to @𓃬 for saving this song.

This was not on Penguinband's Soundcloud at the time he deleted it.

This Is It - Penguinband

song with @edgemaster42
we've been married seven times
in my head
just wait till i get the courage
to picture you in my bed
love or not its plain to see
youre just not the girl for me
my true match is a loaded gun
pointed straight at my head
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you 
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you

Why did i fall for your atupud grace
You clearly have no horse in this dumb race
Theres no continuity in emotional promiscuity
I can guarantee that

when
i realize 
im not an object
you
fall apart
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
you fuckin hate my 
fuckin hate my guts

h8te my guts (with edgemaster42)

Im so afraid to speak, im scared of everything
everyones watching me, they know that im a freak
im staring at the floor, what am i living for?
i want to be normal, why cant i be normal?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

im staying home again, i dont have any friends
afraid of what they'll think, i shrivel up and shrink
they know im low iq, they know i failed at school
i am a fucking joke, why am i such a joke?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

Too Neurotic

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Pop - Phlodge
Lyrics:

I’ve got no damn plans
I’m just like Chris Chan 
My life’s in the can 
I’ll never be a man
on my own I can’t stand 
I need a helping hand
my life never began
cause im just like Chris Chan

I'm smelly overweight
I'll never procreate
I'm an incel filled with hate
My life began too late (x2)

I’ve got no damn plans
I’m just like Chris Chan
My life’s in the can 
I’ll never be a man
on my own I can’t stand 
I need a helping hand
my life never began
cause im just like Chris Chan

I'm smelly overweight
I'll never procreate
I'm an incel filled with hate
My life began too late (x2)

Chris Chan

i really hated how you said goodbye
you fucking left me and without a reason why
you cut all contact and abandoned me
when all i wanted was some female company

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i dont want you anymore

i lie awake at night cuz i cant sleep
i think of you and i cant help but feel weak
its so sadistic how you showed your love
i wanted you but you didnt want me

worthless you make me feel like i am worthless
no purpose when you up and left me deserted
curses cursing out your name i dont deserve this
i hate you go fuck yourself

BRAINSOUP!

crustsox