Cinematic Album

AD9Keys Music showcase for 5.23.25 Fest, visit and support the artist on https://soundcloud.com/csilloalexandra

AD9Keys 5.23.25 Dream Pop - Indie - Folk Emo Set

Gaslight

I  Hate You, Don't Leave Me is an original composition about Borderline Personality Disorder and the thoughts that go through their mind. It's an interesting song, as Csillo Alexandra wanted to illustrate the struggle while having some faith in it. She decided to take inspiration from Demi Lovato's song as she explores this as well.
lyrics
I feel like I'm falling through space,
No one to catch me, I'm losing my place,
One minute I love you, the next it's a fight,
I can't control it, can't make it right.

Pushing you close, then pushing away,
I need you to stay, can't make you stay,
A heart that's broke, still beating fast,
Caught in a moment, that I know won't last.

I hate you. don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, but you're all I've got.
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm lost in this fight.

I'm lost in this fight.

I see you walking, I'm pulling you near,
Then in a heartbeat, I'm drowning in fear.
My heads a hurricane, spinning around,
One day I'm floating, the next I'm going down.

Loving you's like, chasing a ghost
I'm afraid of the things, that I want the most
I push to protect, what I don't want to lose
Caught in the battle, I never got to choose

I hate you. don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, but you're all I've got.
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm lost in this fight.

I'm lost in this fight.

Can't trust my own mind, it's a prison, a lie,
I need you to love me, just don't ask me why,
I'm fire and rain, I'm love and I'm pain,
I swear I'll get better, just don't walk away.

I hate you, don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, you're all I've got,
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me.

I hate you don't leave me, I'm scared to be free,
I love you; I need you, I don't want to leave,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm afraid to be me,
I love you; I need you, please don't leave me.

Please don't leave me.

I Hate You Don't Leave Me

Eclipsed is my original composition written for an independent film based off of Enders Game. Sadly, the film did not take off but the music I got to keep! :) Hope you guys enjoy it!

Eclipsed (The Cinematic Version)

Western is an original movie soundtrack that I wrote for an independent film. The music was used for the trailer. It is in the style of a spaghetti western. Very fun project!

Western (The Cinematic Version)

Tidal Wave is the first song I ever fully produced on a MacBook air from 2014. I wanted to write a song that sounded like Florence and Machine's Queen of Peace, so this is what I came up with :) Hope you guys enjoy it!

Tidal Wave (The Soundtrack Version)

This is one of my originals inspired by a friend of mine. His music is very jazz and blue's style with a hint of techno. I decided to give it my best and do my own. :)

Exploration (The instrumental Version)

A Mask on the Outside is a track about autism and having to mask.

A Mask on the Outside

Hope the Cinematic Version is a movie score all about needing to find hope and finding the light in the darkest of times. I hope you enjoy. 

Hope (The Cinematic Version)

Finding My Way (The Cinematic Version)

I am a singer-songwriter who loves creating music that is impactful and has a deeper meaning