dltzk - the party i never had [archived]

cover / prod / mixed / mastered by me
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ur so funny when u speak 
i disappear when i turn weak
it's all just fake just like me
do u remember what u mean?
i tried to u make u mine
i waste all my time on this
computer
i'll find another way 
get tired of these games 
i'll just stay away
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on this computer everyday
watch me erase
watch me decay
what would u say?
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i'm tired of looking at the screen 
my eyes are turning weak
why would u like me?

computer

decided that im famous
get this out ur playlist
why u so abrasive

stopp making that big face !!

quit makin assumptions
thought that it was something
it was rlly nothing

i waste my gas bc i miss the feeling
knew it wouldnt last but i dismissed the reason
im lookin back at the christmas season
was i rlly feelin bad or was it...?

CL-1, my love! save me cloudlifterrrr

bluueyezzzz

thank u for (late) 333 followers :D
music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zv_qmAi8-m0

-lyrics-
I promised that i'd leave it all behind
2020-something, i was way out of my mind
You won't get it right
Why are you so obsessed with someone you wont fucking be?
Why are you obsessed with her?
Bro just come to me
I told my friends, “You won’t see me today”
They ain’t even complain
I'd be mad at me too that's okay
Say it to my face
I can’t blink, whats my age again???
Saying we’re the same?
I'm sorry man i cannot save you

When I catch your boy, 
He’ll disappear like what just happened?
We don’t play with toys
I put the knife into my hands, yeah
Margiela store
Bought everything, you thought they packed off
Been through this before
I’ve seen some things that you can’t fathom
Poppin Ecstasy
I see a 10, he makes me hurt again
Go right back to back to back to back to back to hell again
Thought you knew me bro
I make the DJ kill himself again
Might just put a spell on you
I’ll haunt you in your dreams again

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If that's wrong
It's all bad
I can't be gone yet
That's not fair
You said you love me now
I don't trust you
You'd probably hate on me
When i'm up yeah

If that's wrong
It's all bad
Can't trust no one no more
You're wishing on a star, I won't get one

Everything Will Haunt You

fun y2k-esque song that means a lil bit of nothing

prod @ssoh
everything else me!!!

"girl don't take a stab at it!!!"
i hit it and i miss: tragic ><
take a picture, use your fucking OldView
can't live in the moment, like i ain't love you </3333

she don't talk to me
i'm unimportant
move away, move to amsterdamn
DRUG IT ALL AWAY IM TALKING:
Night clubs, Dancing, Snorting in the bathroom
What's in my nose? 
Girl I wish I could tell youuuuu

(uh) yeah I live for this shit
Ayahausca in my cup while I go for a sniff~~
of that good good, that good blow!!
sometimes i think i just miss home...  :<<<<

let go... x4
let go
roam free
see what the world can offer~~~

"girl don't take a stab at it!!!" 
i hit it and i miss: tragic ><
take a picture, use your fucking OldView
can't live in the moment, like i ain't love you </3333

like i ain't x2
like i ain't love you
(x4)

oneMoreTime @ssoh

prod me 07/9/24

the clearest picture i ever saw in front of me
not some leaves in a basket a willow tree
i took some hits from the branches before they fell
deep rooted in the ground but it won’t prevail
not a twig or a branch seeds failed at the chance
things live then they pass i know all it was was a mask
and it troubles me that
i won’t see everything grow old

why u telling me it’s fine
sense disturbance in the vines
date back tree’s inside my mind
i don’t see them anymore
got attached and intertwined
now it’s not there the willow died
i tried to make it all alright
but what is gone is twenty fold
you say don’t focus on the trees that are gone
why cry over fallen moss
all i have is rotten logs
early mornings remember looking at fog
you would look and it’s gone
it did not want to talk to you

inst1-willow

all i can give is a smile :)
vocal help from @outfed - dota
shoutout @sounddesignday always <33
cover: @zzoos youre the best

initiate it

im all for it
im all for it

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

im saying you don't know at all
you hate the way i talk
why do you hate it all?
i'm out of it, lost
you say there's something off with me, i can't even respond
so baby do you hate me
do you think im pretty oh god
bitch i hate it
i want you to save me
i know you want to take it
you won't get a taste
saying that i'm dangerous
but you won't see me break

yeah see me break
i know how you feel, and it makes me ache
they all wanted me but i can't be taken
can't be taken
give or take, i'll still end up dead

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

We Have Nothing

fun song for fun times
original https://soundcloud.com/lyn_u/deathwish
produced by me

lyrics:
im longing for the end, i dont wanna breathe ur air
and if i have to make a sacrifice dont sit & stare

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight

u kept ur friends and stayed the same i wonder what its like
i been holding onto nothing i just wanna feel alive
screaming at myself he wont answer when i cry
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i dont need a reason bitch i been moving reckless
everyday i wake up with a target on my chest
they tell me its just a phase they tell me that ill regret this
i dont need a reason move like i got a deathwish
i look in the mirror i see a stranger
if i lost control of myself would it even change ya
eyes blacked out i got too used to the danger
if i tap out would they just write off my anger

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

deathwish /​fun mix​\

clickycamera

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three dimensional 2025
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computer

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