recorded on an iphone at a random hotel room in berlin circa 2019

lyrics:
asked can you feel this
the pain stopped ringing in my head
i lost all feeling
the cuts dig deeper in my skin

they heal through seasons
but winters cold
i feel so scared

so can you hear me
now that you're gone
no voice is there
im so scared

im so scared
im so scared
im so
im so scared

--

if you have ever been in a similar headspace
dial 988 (USA)
dial 116 123 (UK)

in loving memory

what is there left to do

made for strangers 24 album- thanks for the beat G.I https://soundcloud.com/stallionsmasterplan

loser + zxtr prod geordie

prod. @catfight1

@catfight1 :
ill hold the warm gun
if you hold the camera
i thought i could do this
but im just an amateur 

jayne: 
if i got some cold hands 
could you be the fire?
i hate when you leave
it adds fuel to the lighter

catfight:
so hold up the cam cord
and tie down my arms 
watch as the tears fall
and wait for the gunshot

jayne:
cause now that your gone
who do i have to hold the camera
got myself in the mirror 
telling me to put my hands up

cause i got a warm gun 
you hate when im violent 
take pictures of me 
ill change with the new lighting
cause you want the old me 
but you hated him too
i wish i could go back 
but the past made a fool

mf toxic 
you think that im clueless?
i been own 
all the time 
i been thru this
i dont wanna talk 
all you do is assume shit
i dont wanna talk 
all you do is assume shit
i been in my room making songs
hella music
if that shit dont hit 
then i wont fucking use it
spent all my money 
on shit im never using
might buy a new bag 
for a bitch i call useless

catfight:
ill hold the warm gun
if you hold the camera
i thought i could do this
but im just an amateur 

jayne: 
if i got some cold hands 
could you be the fire?
i hate when you leave
it adds fuel to the lighter

catfight:
so hold up the cam cord
and tie down my arms 
watch as the tears fall
and wait for the gunshot

jayne:
cause now that your gone
who do i have to hold the camera
got myself in the mirror 
telling me to put my hands up

warm gun ft. cat fight

lifeline 2 [p. dotbeats]

prod quip
guitars by Francesco Gaudio
cover by wsdsgn

w/ great power

(hook)
ion wanna shoot for the stars
id much rather stay right here on earth
baby tryna poke me and prod
ain't a rock or a stone that she'll leave unturned
tryna get my ducks in a row 
arrow nucked in a bow
tryna leave a mark
feelin like im stuck if i stay
so it's up and away
tryna leave this turf  

(verse)
baby you got somewhere to be?
i got something to say but im pleading the fifth
ion rlly fuck with the tree but she finding a way
cuz we bleeding a fifth 
ion rlly know why she stay cuz the ocean
is teaming with plenty of fish
she send me her fit of the day
when she swing by my place 
she up out of that shit 

ain't nobody prod-ing me
no one pulling strings or designing me 
aye
i'll get on top for free
fuck an algo 
ain't no one botting me
aye
this ain't a product 
this is some shit that im tryna be proud of
don't fuck with louis or gucci or prada 
i'm bumping shit in my daily driver 

Verse 2:

Baby could we take it back to where we started 
Ion want you to feel like it's all your fault yeah
You know I'm a back breaker 
Work so hard 
Tunnel vision I keep it pushing to hit my target 

You know I been tryin 
For so long 
So much on my mind
I ain't gonna slow up baby 

You know I been dying 
To show love 
Pushing thru the pains
I been tryna grow up for you


I think I cracked the code
Putting in work 
You would never know 
Keepin it pushing 
Let's set the tone 
Baby you perfect 
From head to toe 
Had to let you know

Breathing in chemicals 
Keeping my shit at 10 and 2 
Don't know where this shits headed to
Can't waste time looking for what's in the sky
That's why i

w/greatpower

idle watching pages turn
hanging onto every word
safe to say i never learn
i've been watching numbers pass
hours that i can't get back
likely they're not mine to grieve
but i won't know unless i see 

i won't know unless i see

Drinking Bubbles

to commemorate a new era 
cover by @jmecx

@imnotvrycreative
there'll be another me 'cause i know it
always in front of me

'cause i know it, there'll be another me, pretend it don't bother me
could save you the talk at least, 'cause i know you know it
pull away, out of reach, everything's mad at me
hate when it latch to me 'cause before you know it
there'll be another me, can't hide that it bothers me
it'll kill me to talk to me, just know that i know it
pull away, out of reach, don't want you mad at me
take out the battery 'cause i think it's broken

@iuniper
you call it paranoia
but i can't shake off the feeling that i just might be right
brush off the fears i told ya
i give a couple of months until you find another guy
so what all do you want from me?
oh, dear love, i'm on my knees
bae, for you i'd do anything
but to you, girl, i'm just not enough

@savpass9
went in the city
autumn night, you could come over, chasing some closure, oh
spent your time with me
picking out a four-leaf clover, gone since october
so what will it take? i'm losing my focus
when all of it's hopeless, feelings unspoken
i thought we were close
but i saw you with another, another me

@imnotvrycreative
'cause i know it, there'll be another me, pretend it don't bother me
could save you the talk at least, 'cause i know you know it
pull away, out of reach, everything's mad at me
hate when it latch to me 'cause before you know it
there'll be another me, can't hide that it bothers me
it'll kill me to talk to me, just know that i know it
pull away, out of reach, don't want you mad at me
take out the battery 'cause i think it's broken

@outxr
you seem to come and go like the color on trees
the way you touched my body felt like a windy breeze
i'll lend you my jacket 'cause i know you will freeze
the seasons come to close like you and me
calling on the phone 'til one, two, it's three a.m
doing what i love 'cause that's just the way i am
disappeared without a trace, you left these marks all on my face
then you came back, so who was i to understand?

@rayweston1
baby, i notice you acting bogus
push me around, kick me down, i'm still open
your head on my shoulder, it feels like a boulder
i guess i'll have it around, causing pain when i'm older
you wanted me to be the one, like your man, guess i can't
you fucked around, leave me out, now i'm gone like the wind
you tried to keep me down, i cannot let it happen
you turned your circle on me, i guess i'm target practice

you're leading me astray
i cannot find another way
i know we got our problems, i don't think we could solve 'em
you know that when the night comes, i'm asking you to call it

@imnotvrycreative
'cause i know it, there'll be another me, i hate that it bothers me
just save me the talk, oh, please, i already know it
i'm all the way out of reach, so sure you're done with me
won't let you latch to me 'cause before i know it
there'll be another me, can't hide that it bothers me
it'll kill me to talk to me, just know that i know it
pull away, out of reach, don't want you mad at me
take out the battery 'cause i think it's broken

no, i know it, i know it, i know it
'cause i know it, i know that you know it
no, i know it, i know it, i know it
'cause i know it, i know that you'll know

I KNOW IT [prod. ZUUBEK]

https://www.beatport.com/release/dublucid-friends-vol-5/5635393

i won't know unless i see

cyba