featuring @h3artch3rades
circa — October 2021

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

Two steps ahead, that's how I'm feeling
Thinking about me all night got you dreaming
And I believe everything happens for a reason
I want to feel like your air is what I'm breathing
I know it's hard for you
Just believe in yourself, we can make it through
You know I will always try for you
If you believe in me, let's make an attempt to push through

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

It's so weird when you're innocent, but your heart hurts
You're trying to say what you're not worth
Not meant to spite you
But instead to inspire you
To step outside of your comfort zone
We've been on the phone
Going back and forth it seems
Arguing the same things
But it's never getting anywhere
And I don't wanna see you disappear
Even if I wasn't your first choice
I'm happy being at least one of your considerations
But I can't help but feeling the way that I feel
It's okay, it's just rain, I'll dry up
One day you'll make your mind up
I hate to say I told you so
I hate to say I told you so

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

You're the only one that makes me feel alright
I said you're the only one that makes me feel alright
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

Attempt (feat. h3artch3rades)

"the guide to finding your home" 
aka; A hello to something new <3

Produced by Serena Liars
Vocals by sebstixns
Mixed and Mastered by Serena Liars
Started January 19th 2025 - Finished March 26th 2025 
140bpm Dmaj
Cover art done by Serena Liars and akuenstars

this was supposed to be a novel submission but they paused submissions at the time so I figured why not finish it LMAO

Lyrics:

sebastixns:
can you help me,
get out of here,
I'm losing, my sanity,
everything's weird

cause you're the most gorgeous person I've met in my life,
wanna be better for you I wanna be alright
I wish everything was different.
and we could go back in time
like yesterday

lost,
in time
the stars,
allign

I just wanna be better

was it a mistake
something I did
were going insane,
but I wanna live

the guide to finding your home (with sebstixns)

@trisonline

dont even have any words
say what u want idc if it hurts
make no sense im just vomiting words
im feeling sick ive been vomiting

youre almost everything id ever want 
somehow youre still nothing
youre almost everything id ever ask for 
somehow youre still nothing

they see a problem they run like athletics
they like to talk but not back it up
and they say that were pathetic
they never look at whos speaking up

give me an offer ill take it up
i think im using up most my luck
taking my time got no need to rush
minutes they turn into hours

minutes they turn into hours
im waiting for may and the flowers
im waiting for things that i may never discover
i dont know why but i hope that i never recover

minutes they turn into hours
i dont really mess with the others
i never move i just hover
i dont think that ill ever get better
i dont think that ill ever get better

minutes turn to hours prod me n tris

too good to put on @drgnlr lmao
og  https://soundcloud.com/iamhxmesick/threat
@iamhxmesick

threat cover

so happy about this one
crazy what having a goated ass beat does for a song
@imyzuli
@1dxn
@aisle-4

pressure + dan (p.imyzuli)

prod @zeromandia30414 + @idks3lfish

lyrics:
@me
u know i dont fw ur team 
got louis vuitton and margelia on me 
the silence is swallowing me 
its getting too loud i dont want it to be 
u told me that u had to leave 
its getting annoying ur playing w me 
n its getting harder to breathe 
cant tell left from right cuz i cant even see
i been going down u cant leave me hurting now
even if were falling out its way too loud in this crowd
im not going now u cant leave me falling down 
everything is burning now its way too loud in this crowd

@trustt
im the hero of a story that never happened
im a court jester in a mansion 
ima laugh when im passing
they wanna be me so bad
just tell me what u want
im hiding behind my mask
so dont take it serious
youre my drug music for fun
lifes a joke are you having fun?
youre my drug music for fun
life is a joke thats why i dont take it serious

serious ft trustt (zeromandia + idks3lfish)

prod me

theres some snakes up in that grass
go and test ur luck promise u wont last
yea they always tryna bite me - stalk my past
tryna fight me like id let u walk that path
talk behind my back but i hear it back
came a long way from crying in my drafts
came a long way i had to detach
yea u prob think u know me its a fucking mask

im where its at but they dont know
wish i could tell them but i stay low
bitch u never knew me u knew my fucking clones
i went offline i got in my zone
they all say they fw me but i still feel alone
wish i could tell them but i stay low
bitch u never knew me u knew my fucking clones
i went offline i got in my zone

i dont believe shit
my idols arent real they only tweet shit
dont talk to me sweet it dont mean shit
get up off yo ass Stop subtweeting 🖕
whine about somebody then delete it by the evening
would u rather live or die for ur demons ?
u want a reaction ok. heres a reason
i dont owe a damn thing to u boy u leechin
i said my piece i go on ghost mode 

but they dont know
wish i could tell them but i stay low
bitch u never knew me u knew my fucking clones
i went offline i got in my zone
they all say they fw me but i still feel alone
wish i could tell them but i stay low
bitch u never knew me u knew my fucking clones
i went offline i got in my zone
they all say they fw me but i still feel alone

Test.Ur.Luck

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/65gWW5syaM2h3Zb1LfYoYP?si=YIWNap8uSDiuc4yx0F49dg

artwork by me, @camdenn and @aellzis
s//o @trustt and @hiisero for big inspo

lyrics:
i sacrificed every moment to be, just like you
and ive been way too dishonest to seem, just like you
i know i wont last long but i want to change
watch how the meaning gets lost, when i say ''okay''

(pre-drop)
oh, but i know, its true
i could never be like you
well i fell for you
biting more than i can chew
but i know, its true
i can never be like you
what a shattered view
tell me we wont split in 2

its been far too long
and fat too late
i like to stay alone
its okay, its okay
if more hours pass
imma go insane
just wanna fade away, its okay, its okay

cuz ive been acting too toxic
ive been way too annoying
tell me now its the time i say goodbye
ive been begging for something
in the end i got nothing
walk away with the fact i couldve died

how to become somebody else

closer (coprod tris)

real crzy

위 곡은 유료 AI를 활용하여 작,편곡 및 제작되었으므로 무단 사용 및 배포를 금지합니다. (보컬리스트 모집)
The song above was arranged and produced using paid AI, so unauthorized use and distribution are prohibited. (Looking for a vocalist)

Closer than before

"Hiraeth (and The Things that Bind Us Together)" is out now. <3

@rosesatyourtombstone 

@gavemyallforyou on discord

the guide to finding your home (with sebstixns)

Serena Liars

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