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SpaceManNick (ElectroPop)

thoughtform collective - July 2021

Lockdown Vibes

lyric to cyber bear 
i didn't wanna be with her i might go why, she told me i was gay she told me i like guys, and i said wait i am bi i just switch sides i wanna fuck two sides

Turn up the songs and do the money dance like Im a drunk bear 
I am getting toxic text me like Im tonic
You removed my heart away from you 
I store this songs in the vault now
Im a cyber bear now 3x 

Hit that hit that voice i remember the old times 
when you left me idk why you hate me
I don't want to waste your time tonight 
So if you want to leave i am not controlling you
then you can say you can leave
 im waking up and im a cyber bear now 3x
i burn up 
and say goodbye im a cyber when i feel like dying now x4

is it bad that you did me wrong in the past, and i dont like that bitch we leave that in the past, sorry for the things i did to you in the past, and it's important that we settle things like we did before, i know that i am wrong, i leave that in the past, girl i know that i am wrong, i can make it up today i can make it up soon, i can make it soon, i can make it up today, i just just wan wan be alone, and be-bef-i dont wanna no problem-problems, a-work-cuz-i hate that-hate that-s-top, eh, op, i dont i dont wanna do this no no more

cyber bear w/akiradoves [+saint mike & thislandis]

lyrics to hit that door with the lights!

Girl can you hear me i am run for this monsters
zelda in my head now so if you try to fight 
i will fight my way to her
you don't need to fight girl 

You can fight the feels but i hit that door with this lights and now i am falling for you girl 
Water by the bay the speaker beside us 
and we are playing are songs

you make me feel happy here in this world 
message me to say i miss you i know that 
Girl so i sing this songs for you 
Repost my leaks to people and 
now i replay them later with 
your smile on your face 
Hide and seek outside everyone hates me 
i end this songs with a banger 
but stop the music to message you back 

i need you badly girl my body is hit that trap door and i was trapped in your love falling into water and we are by the beach 
hit that door with this lights 
darkness wanted us to fall 
you know girl we can't fall 
i am wasted on the floor wtf happened 
so i reply this songs again i miss you girl 

hit the door with the lights! w/akiradoves [+johnnyfriend]

wait for you

ft https://soundcloud.com/hoeplessboy 
prod https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCV8-64sUPJNAWOvfDrak4SQ
cover art https://www.instagram.com/iamyxngaj/

8 missed calls w/hoepless (prod. aspect)

daisy chain noose!



eyes bloodshot

ive been crying too much

daisy chain noose- didn't kill me

i feel fucked up

its summer

but i've been feeling colder

no one helped me up when i fell down

im a loner



ive been seeing pretty ghosts again these days

filling me with potions- to keep me awake

i remember i got bullied on the playground

now you tryna pull up in my dms saying "hey now"



wait now!

im not tryna play now

if you tryna hop on me, then stay down

go back to the circus, look like a clown

i rose to the surface, ma looks so proud



eyes bloodshot

ive been crying too much

daisy chain noose- didn't kill me

i feel fucked up

its summer

but i've been feeling colder

no one helped me up when i fell down

im a loner



choking-

on my own breath

i feel so sick

struggles-

i been having 

helped me write this



choking-

on my own breath

think i like it

struggles-

i been having

i think i like this



i've tried practicing sobriety

i guess

2nd week-

my anxiety- kicks in

light a spliff and i take another hit

oh shit

my anxiety kicked in



eyes bloodshot

ive been crying too much

daisy chain noose- didn't kill me

i feel fucked up

its summer

but i've been feeling colder

no one helped me up when i fell down

im a loner

daisy chain noose! (prod. sorrow bringer)

LYRICS:

MELMIGE:
i got a problem, but i won’t stop it
igniting insecurities with the engine of a rocket
and honestly think i got in too deep in my psyche 
to understand my feelings are valid 
every time i walk in front of a mirror i smash it
pick the shards out my hands and think it’s a challenge
to see how many more blows i can through at the wall till my hands broken down can’t be used at all
got my medicine on my desk pills all stacked
orange bottle and white child proof cap
few weeks pass bottle still at max
fuck, i should really start taking that crap
cause an inherited condition always gives me tunnel vision 
blocking rational decisions and i lack a true intention
to go to bed at a reasonable time 
i’m finally alone at 2am let me unwind 

spend my money as soon as i get it
think i have a lot then i gotta pay rent
go to school i always learned an education was important
but unfortunate for me the motivation’s lying dormant 
am i lazy? wait no i’m just depressed
tightness and pain will inhabit my chest
and anxiety will break the ceiling send me into orbit 
and absorb the negative energy like spongebob on i’m porous
at least in a sense that illness permeates through me
the kind in your mind someone pls sedate me
so i can finally get a good nights sleep
where i’m not paralyzed from the neck down let me count sheep
maybe i complain too much, let me introduce myself i’m Mel
i reside in hell with these problems and doom, all of this i deal with and it’s not even noon

KYOKOSGARDEN:
I'm not having a good time right now but that's okay I can't complain
so kid you only live once, so don't go being sad every day
it's not all bad
it's not all the same
so here's to a day in the life of fucked up kids
who have hard times
they get through the day saying i'm fine
yeah that's a lie

MELMIGE:
hold up a minute now i have your attention did i mention that i have good qualities too?
think i’m nice to friends know they got good intent, wait fuck, what if they hate me too?
sorry lost track but i’m back relax try to laugh
when i want so i don’t appear rude
promise that i’m enjoying myself, sometimes i space out and forget that i’m in a good mood
cause i’m not here to complain just try to explain my brain 
and maybe someone out there listening can relate to my pain
feels the same, worry is proportionate to the problems and strain
all the things i do seemingly toxic and destructive 
are the product of a human who doesn’t know how to function 
verbalizing how i feel is sometimes kinda difficult 
and i find that making music can sometimes resemble 

a form of therapy in a way tangled in a web i didn’t even know had been made
but the spider isn’t here think it’s gone for the day
so i’ll sit and wait as i slowly decay
cause that’s what depression really is
struggle with no progress you’re just trying to live
daily tasks that seem so easy to do 
makes you feel so pathetic and pitiful too
brush your teeth fold your clothes put your food in the trash
take those 10 water bottles off your desk do the math
if i’m productive for an hour can i take a bath
and soak in the water and try to relax 
but i cry and whine online to friends that i’ve had
for years but only seen their face on a snapchat
or twitter thread discord or instagram missing them 

but how can you miss someone you’ve never met?

a day in the life (ft KYOKOSGARDEN) [prod. pieper]

fade away feat. likelybarking (prod by sneezii x Jkei)

thank you @likelybarking I appreciate your work my g 

I dont really care bitch feat. likelybarking (prod. saint mike)

pleased 2 meet u! + sadghost (prod. sorrow bringer)

prod.https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTKma1YyLMKZof7g10Iltsw

hate u more than i hate my dad (prod. arey)

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/honeynugs
prod by: https://soundcloud.com/irby314

nuisance (feat. honey nugs) (prod. irby)

produced by @jolst and @irby314

LYRICS:
 I can't believe it's come to this 
I'm wasting my life away 
spending every day just to exist with a minimum amount of pain 

get home and stare at the ceiling 
maybe if I close my eyes, this time 
my soul will rise above the rooftops 
and I'll slip away 

'cause I'm so tired of feeling like I'm doing something wrong 
27 years and I'm bled down to the bone 
and after all this time I still have nothing to call my own 

'cause back when you were sixteen 
with the world stretched out at your feet
you had all these ideas 
and all the plans for where you would go 

I'm sorry I failed you
I swear I didn't mean to 
it's just time goes by so fast
and these paths are harder than you'd expect 

so next time around
I hope that you get the chance 
to live before you're dead. 

I can't believe it's come to this 
I'm wasting my life away 
spending every day just to exist with a minimum amount of pain 

and I can't go on feeling this way 
so I stare at the ceiling and dream of escape 
maybe when I open my eyes 
I'll find a place without any pain.

Exist (p. Jolst x Irby)

being my own enemy feat zion (prod dead spyro)

every day-
i fall more in love with you
my teeth decay
you're sweet like cotton candy too
our worlds kaleid- oscope
i pray, i wish, and i hope-
you'll say you love me the most one day

cause i'll lie awake- and wait for you to text good night
and thinking you'd say good bye- it makes me wanna cry
so i beg and plead that maybe you'll stay with me
i'm tryna my best to believe in love

oranges smell much better with you
and having a picnic's hard, if there isnt two
so i beg and plead that maybe you'll stay with me
i'm tryna my best to believe in love

u make the heartache feel like it was worth it
and i know you don't agree but babe, you're perfect
our worlds kaleid- oscope
i pray, i wish, and i hope-
you'll say you love me the most one day

our worlds kaleid- oscope
i pray, i wish, and i hope-
you'll say you love me the most one day

kaleidoscope (prod. frevel & pekarot)

unbound (prod yung spoiler)

Co-produced by Lemon. and Tay Lewis (https://soundcloud.com/prodtaylewis).

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Here For

New Friend

Bipolar

Spiders (prod Taurs)

when i met you

when i met you (feat. Sean Leon)

lyrics
broke the fourth wall when I get my angels on this songs 
I have my baby voice you're not evil girl please text my number 
I am risking my life when I sing songs yeah yeah 
let me know when your down to hang out 

I am getting toxic  now
when you're dropping your life on the lines like youre gonna hate me
like why you gonna hate my clique?
im hellbound in the darkness for you 
I am on the slide to the end of this lifeline my heart is for you

but you're killing me with your eyes
people can talk shit 
i don't care i am with you 
hit my head i know I am not like other guys 
i am in this shit
Like i gamed, do you not like me now?
I am a misfit like 
I repeat my songs for you girl

hate u more than i hate my dad (prod. arey)

Cypression