calm

underground female artists 🖤

yabubu

🧸🌪

G R I L Z

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🖤🩸🖤🩸🖤🩸🖤🩸🖤🩸🖤🩸🖤🩸🖤🩸🖤🩸
[Prod. @diamoonofnhg]

Lyrics:
Im lost here and im so confused
I Cant find the fucking truth
Blood pour out my fuckin wounds
I got nothing left to lose

Help me im being consumed
Tell me what it means to you
Touch me and you leave a bruise
Someone tell me what to do


Doubt that they would ever choose me
What would you do if you lose me
Love me, i may let you use me
Make me feel like i cant breathe

Cant sleep
Coffee
Headaches
Exhausting
Go hard, never stopping
Cause its all still haunting me

Everyday i feel emotionless
I think i might just crash the whip
Baby you dont know whats happening
Everything was so passionate

Where do feelings go when they die
I cant really do relationships
It started with you just gone tonight
Sometimes i feel it real close again


Im lost here and im so confused
I Cant find the fucking truth
Blood pour out my fuckin wounds
I got nothing left to lose

Help me im being consumed
Tell me what it means to you
Touch me and you leave a bruise
Someone tell me what to do
Help me im being consumed
Tell me what it means to you
Touch me and you leave a bruise
Someone tell me what to do

Help me im being consumed
Tell me what it means to you
Touch me and you leave a bruise
Someone tell me what to do

CAN'T BREATHE, CAN'T SLEEP (Prod. Diamoon)

Produced by https://soundcloud.com/sketchmyname and https://soundcloud.com/hxrxkiller

lyrics:
When I'm nothing more 
than a memory 
I hope that you'll remember me 
and when I'm nothing more 
then a girl inside a picture frame 
I hope that you'll still know my name 
It gets so dark inside my mind 
I need a flashlight I need a sign 
can someone just tell me that I'll be fine 
It's okay you can lie 
nothing new seen it a thousand times 
just tell me that I'll be fine 

I hope I hope and I hope 
that you'll remember me 
but you probably won't 
I'm pretty forgettable 
It's understandable 
I don't have that shine in my eyes 
I have nothing special to offer
I probably don't even cross your mind 
I feel so stupid sitting here 
singing this fucking rhyme 
that doesn't even rhyme 
but you know it's fine 
right? 
It's fine

just a memory (prod. sketchmyname & HXRXKILLER)

i really should 

https://soundcloud.com/prodmichael

Lyrics:

(babyKanine)
I should probably go to sleep, I don't wanna tho 
Girl I know you're hating me, you don’t gotta tho 
I'll pretend it's make believe, cause I'm on my own 
Baby you don't gotta leave, you don't gotta go 

And if I saw you again, I don't know what I’d do to you 
After what you did, I got nothing left to prove to you 
Girl you rip my heart out my chest, like it’s food for you 
I can hardly get out my bed, is this news to you?


And I’ve been fairly upset 
Should probably get looked at 
And I know imma reject 
Look like it but I promise, I’m not dead yet 

Said that I don't wanna fall asleep 
I guess you play for fun I play for keeps 
I lose my head you know I'll make a scene 
I never opened up you stole the key 

Baby you’re so imbedded 
I just don't think you get it 
I am not fine alone, no 
I am not independent 

But I've been riding solo 
I don’t where I'm headed 
I'm going thru the photos 
I'm sorry that I said it 

There's a lotta drugs on the nightstand 
Everytime we touch, it’s shortening my lifespan 
I could look forever, never find it
I like your attention, when its undivided 


I should probably go to sleep, I don't wanna tho 
Girl I know you're hating me, you don’t gotta tho 
I'll pretend it's make believe, cause I'm on my own 
Baby you don't gotta leave, you don't gotta go 

And if I saw you again, I don't know what I’d do to you 
After what you did, I got nothing left to prove to you 
Girl you rip my heart out my chest, like it’s food for you 
I can hardly get out my bed, is this news to you?

ishouldprobablygotosleep (prod. xmichaelwarren)

Lyrics:
you should know, that i know, im a fuckin waste
got some Henny in the glass spill all over the place
im a wreck, hit the deck, aint even got a taste
im fucked up mess you could watch while i break

you could catch me on the side, just preparing for a breakdown
the only one i loved, is the only one i hate now
i could give a fuck, cause im numb to the pain now
only think of you everytime that it rain now

get lit, smoke until im snoring
only hear the thunder every time that it be pourin
flip side, catch you in the morning
but i never woke up and it hit you without warning

why is HK always talkin bout death
i just wanna get some dumb fuckin rest
fuck all this shit i really gave my best
life is like school but i failed the test

i got a few things i should get off my chest
the scars on my arm that i never addressed
the panic attacks that keep me in distress
the thoughts in my mind that im keeping repressed

you could watch while i break
(im a waste too)
(i take it all back now)

I'm A Waste

im a waste

well at least I got 2 feel u in my arms one last time (another old song but mood)

prod. @thersx

close 2 u

Lyrics

Don't give me your love cause I really do not want it
Bitch I'm not enough, I'm not a fuckboy I'm just honest
Baby I'm just being honest
May be out my mind I put my faith into an onyx

I don't fuck with god, he declined when I called
How much pain I'm in? A lot, ain't no pill gone turn it off
Know one day that I'ma rot but till then I'ma rock
You not what I'm tryna find, baby girl I'm not lost

But you are cause you keep tryna call, I don't like it
Nah I don't see no fucking light inside my iris
Law, fuck the law, why you care bout shit that I did?
I did some wrong and honestly I liked it

Under the weather I become detmer
Thoughts in my head now my fucking head hurts
She's in my bed now but I'll forget her
Or maybe I won't, then I'll just make a better

Song for the ones got some shit going on
Can't feel shit, bitch I'm numb, been like this for too long
At the tip of my tongue words that may just be wrong
Fuck that shit, fuck it all, I'ma say what I want

I don't like rules, I don't like tools, I don't like you
Might choose not the right move if I like to
I do only of the things that I say so
Make some money, spend it all and then I make more

Hearts in parts and pieces
I need a new reason
Fuck life, I might leave it
Fuck that, I'ma fuck life till it's screaming

Shut the fuck up, yo two cents? Don't need it
Died? Shit I must of, I don't think I'm breathing
I had enough of holding off my demon
Come here get a close up, honestly he decent

Don't give me your love cause I really do not want it
Bitch I'm not enough, I'm not a fuckboy I'm just honest
Baby I'm just being honest
May be out my mind I put my faith into an onyx

spotify.

iris! | Produced by ERLAX

turn off your tv.

project infinite.

shirts: lofiprophet.bandcamp.com/merch

witheyesclosed (prod. by coldnights)

Tourist - We Stayed Up All Night feat Ardyn 

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We Stayed Up All Night - Single

We Stayed Up All Night (feat. Ardyn)

Untitled

Prod.VILE vilemgmt@gmail.com
Mix/Master @falinee

i love u thank u

I GOTTA VISION
IM FINALLY LIVING
SIT DOWN AND LISTEN
IMA STAY HIDDEN
IM FUKIN driven [lord barnaby]
WHY YOU SO DISTANT?

I WAS TRAPPED IN YOUR CAGE
I COULDN'T SHAKE THESE CHAINS
PULLING AT YOUR VEINS
NOW IM JUST STARING AT YOUR BLOODY REMAINS

DON'T NEED YOUR SHIT
I DON'T GOT THE TIME
I GOT WHAT I WANT
AND WHAT I WANT IS MINE
WATCH WHAT YOU SAY
DON'T YOU DARE
LOOK AT ME
THAT FUCKING WAY
CAUSE I AINT HERE
TO MAKE NO FRIENDS
AND I DON'T REALLY CARE
ABOUT MAKING AMENDS

I GOTTA VISION
FINALLY LIVING
SIT DOWN AND LISTEN

AND IM LEARNING TO LOVE
AND IM LOVING TO LIVE
WHAT DO YOU KNOW
WHAT CAN YOU GIVE X2

IT TOOK ME SOME TIME
TO REALISE 
NO ONE COULD EVER SEE YOU
WITH CLEAR, CLEAR EYES

BUT I SEE THROUGH
ALL YOUR LIES
YOUR SHITTY DISGUISE
DON'T LOOK AT ME 
WITH YOUR SNAKE EYES (WITH YOUR SNAKE EYES) 

AND IM LEARNING TO LOVE
AND IM LOVING TO LIVE
WHAT DO YOU KNOW
WHAT CAN YOU GIVE X2

WAS TOLD THAT IM TOXIC
THAT TIME I LOST IT 
YOUR SO OBNOXIUS 
IM SO ROBOTIC 
YOURE SO DEMONIC 
ITS JUST IRONIC... (ITS JUST IRONIC...)

Instagram

SNAKE EYES (PROD. VILE)

prod/mix/mast - https://soundcloud.com/ashtontraitor

Am I supposed to lie and just say that I don’t miss you
If wishes came true still wouldn’t take back what we been through
I’m stuck between emotions, can’t help but feel resentful 
I pray you move on but I hope you don’t forget too

So why I gotta live with your regrets
Why’m I always cleaning up a mess
Lies & drugs, I can’t tell who’s dead
I got 3 ghosts wandering through my head

I got issues, trusted in you, they all let me down in different ways 
But there’s a pattern and I’m learning it might be my fault at the end of the day 

Am I supposed to lie and just say that I don’t miss you
If wishes came true still wouldn’t take back what we been through
I’m stuck between emotions, can’t help but feel resentful 
I pray you move on but I hope you don’t forget too

So why I gotta live with your regrets
Why’m I always cleaning up a mess
Lies & drugs, I can’t tell who’s dead
I got 3 ghosts wandering through my head

3 Ghosts (prod. Ashton Traitor)

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

I never did
I was just foolish
Looking back
How could I be so clueless
We all die in the end
Know it's useless
Wake up every morning
Why do I do this

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

Call your name in the flames
Wanna hear you
Reach out for my hand
I won't help you
I'll just drag you down
To my hell too
Once you're like me
Nobody can save you

Once you're like me
Nobody can save you
Once you're like me
Everyone will hate you
Might wanna fucking take some drugs to numb the pain too
Become an addict
With some habit's that will hurt you
In the night
Memories will haunt you
There's no telling to the damage that they might do

Ain't no telling to the damage that they might do
How you think I got these issues

Love dies fast
Then your heartbreak steers you
Got your burnt down house
In my rear view
Stuck thinking of the shit
That I went through
Just to realize
That I didn't need you

I never did
I was just foolish
Looking back
How could I be clueless
We all die in the end
Know it's useless
Wake up every morning
Why do I do this

Why do I do this
Torture my own brain

Why do I do this
Drive myself insane

Pile up the stress
I can't take it I'm a mess
Try my best
Just to end up feeling
Permanently depressed

Ever since I lost my soul
Nothing been the same
The weather's getting colder
And I hope it doesn't change
I hope that it rain's
The whole entire day
So I can stay inside
And never see another face

Never see another face

I already know my fate
I'm not meant for living long
Imma burn through life
Till I'm fucking gone
This shit is boring
Feel like moving on

Feel like moving on

Feel like moving on

spotify

love dies fast (prod. spacedtime)

manga for cover art: misu misou

[lyrics]
everything hurts but i gotta keep it moving
dying everyday and i dont know what im doing
days go by never see the sunset
its always night fall wonder am i dead yet?
cant catch a breathe
now i wanna die
balling up a fist
i just wanna feel alive
sick of everybody that wanna be sad
wanna disappear and ill never come back

anxiety clutching my chest
freaking out im just doing my best
paranoid i dont think this is real
confused i dont know how to feel

same dreams same nightmares
dead nights and youre right there
same tears same headaches
dead body so why i feel this heartache?
(x2)

everything hurts and its only getting worse
miss the days that i didnt even feel hurt
but its all gone why do i go recollect?
ima go and snap my neck from reading all these fucking texts
self destructive
its my fault
my head that im stuck in i cant call
but i hope youre doing alright 
can i see you one last time?

anxiety clutching my chest
freaking out im just doing my best
paranoid i dont think this is real
confused i dont know how to feel

same dreams same nightmares
dead nights and youre right there
same tears same headaches
dead body so why i feel this heartache?
(x4)

too many headaches

merch: https://demxntia.bigcartel.com/product/alive-again-tee

astari: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5srEHn2jjmM
produced by @skress
guitar by me
art by digitalyams

yeah it's getting late 
oh god my mind is wandering off again
baby i'm afraid
of all the pictures painted in my head
tryna find a way
wipe the canvas clean and make amends
baby i'm not okay
i just wanna feel alive again

tell me when i can start my life again
cuz the anchor at the bottom
keeps my ankle in the sand

ion think it's somethin u would understand
i wanna get my shit together
but it never go as planned

i just wanna be enough for you
yeah i just wanna be enough for you
when i'm barely enough for myself

yeah it's getting late 
oh god my mind is wandering off again
baby i'm afraid
of all the pictures painted in my head
tryna find a way
wipe the canvas clean and make amends
baby i'm not okay
i just wanna feel alive again

i just wanna be enough for you
yeah i just wanna be enough for you
when i'm barely enough for myself

alive again

alive again [prod. skress]

Lyrics:

Feeling low (on my own) 
Feeling low 

I heard you say
You never wanna see my face 
You can stop pretending now 
Games are all over now 
x2

I see now, 
You ain’t ever gonna feel my pain 
If you never get inside my brain 
Baby I just went insane 
Keep lights out 
You can’t help but fucking feel me now 
Baby I just wanna hear you out 
But my musics bumping way too loud 
I guess I caught up on my feelings now 
You ain’t ever gonna break me down 

I heard you say
You never wanna see my face 
You can stop pretending now 
Games are all over now 
I don’t wanna hear what 
they gotta say right now 
I just tried to kill my old self in the 
background 
He don’t wanna deal with my mind and the crying, he just wants my body but he doesn’t know my im dying

DEAD END 

Bitter Aura (ft. Dommy)

ghost

GHOST

I don’t really like that
If I broke your heart now
Would you break it right back
Cause I don’t really like that

I don’t really like that
I just wanna fight back
I want you to use me
Mentally abuse me
You’re not really like that
And I don’t really like that

You’re not what I’m used to
I Can’t see through you
I don’t wanna feel
But I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t really like that
No I don’t really like that

I don’t really like that
Nothing but a nerve rack
Why don’t you run from me
Leave me to the train tracks
You’re not really like that
And I don’t wanna like that

You are the shy boy
Praying to the sky boy
I am the bad girl 
just like her dad girl 
Why do you want me
Cause nobody wants me

Did you read the label
I have the baggage
I’ve got depression
And my lungs are ashes
I’m not the package
Not even average

It’s Crazy how my life goes
You don’t know the story though
Boy that I loved 
Stomped on my heart so
I guess I am cold now
At least That’s what I’m told now 

If you wanna love me
You need patience 
You need strength 
And a permanent vacation 
My safe haven
I guess that’s what I’m craving 

There’s a hole in my soul
Where someone used to be and
My anxieties are always watching me
and I need some saving 
Am I what you’re craving

Just Know that I won’t hurt you
If I do It’s not true 
Look me in eyes and
Tell me I don’t want you 
Cause you know I want you
I’m just scared to love you

If I were to love you
There’d be fire
Cities would burn 
And I’d be your sire
Until you get tired

They always get tired

Dont throw me away 
Like I’m one of your toys
And Don’t act too different in front of your boys 
Just fill my void
Will you bring me joy

Hard to love (prod.poppa)

End of the Day,
You say that you feel okay
But inside you know it's fake
Yea u lie straight to their face

End Of The Day (prod. jiyu)

mess 🛏️

this is for any of my fans that struggle with anxiety, depersonalization, derealization and issues with stress. this audio will guide you through progressive relaxation. breathing techniques and reassure your presence in reality. to all i wish good energy and love.

just a memory (prod. sketchmyname & HXRXKILLER)

Cypression