Produced by https://soundcloud.com/livingpuffy

lyrics:
I love you but you fucking haunt me 
I don't know why you had to rob me 
I love you but you fucking haunt me 
You stole everything that I ever loved 
Left me with pain never feeling enough 
Why did you do this to me 
Why did you ruin me 
You broke me into tiny little pieces 
But the world would never know 
Because you don't want me to show 

You destroyed me 
Are you happy now
Push me to the ground 
But you seem so damn proud 
Body exhausted and I’m so afraid 
I hate the way you took my life away 

Closed off from the world 
My mind in a constant swirl 
I'm stuck in a drought and i can’t get out 
No one ever hears me when I scream and shout 
Pages filled with so many thoughts 
It hurts so bad and I need it to stop 

I love you but you fucking haunt me 
Ghosts of my past but at least they want me 
They come to my dreams, no they don’t bring peace 
A nightmare it must be 
I was so young I just wanted your love 
I just wanted to be good enough 
Why wasn't I ever good enough

i love you but you haunt me (prod. LIVING PUFF)

Nostalgia (noun) - a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

Nostalgia is something that has always troubled me, as I found that it's difficult to properly put my emotions towards it into words. It's not necessarily, or at least in my opinion, a happy or sad emotion, it's just something that we feel. Remembering a possibly warped perception of the past to focus on because the present seems so grim. Looking back upon my childhood and early teenage years does invoke a sense of melancholy and nostalgia, and I tend to think that things were much more simple back then. Maybe it's because the problems of that time are over now that I am able to look at them so clearly, as the problems of the present are shrouded in fear and uncertainty.

I remember stomping through the woods with my friends, then going home to play my gamecube or gameboy, not really caring or thinking about the world around me. Maybe I get stressed out when thinking about nostalgia because I can't properly explain how it makes me feel, whether it's positive or negative, I'm not sure.

It's like a purple mist that surrounds distant memories, just slightly altering my perception of that time. It's interesting.

Thanks for listening <3

Retro Fantasia [prod. xmichaelwarren]

wayside remix!
featuring @oni_boy
produced by @nevrfall :)
cover art by @ejcarrmusic lmfao
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
[decks]
its 2 in the morning
i dont wanna waste
any second with u
cuz there’s nothing to delay
i been bored and confused
till u made everything
seem a little more in color
i want u to be with me

im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight, oh my

i dont wanna lose u now
i feel so safe in your arms when the moon is out
i lose it when you’re not around
im glad im something special to u

[verse - oni boy]
i feel so dead when you’re not around me
just tell me you love me and touch on my body
cause once i start loving you know there’s no stopping
and inside my head girl you’re the only topic

suffocate me
i wanna fucking choke
consuming all your love
it’s not enough to know
i wanna feel you now
but i can’t replicate
cause all this other love
is feeling fucking fake

cause every day i wake up without you
it’s just not enough to pray to be with you
i’ll hop in the whip and drive past the bay view
the dreams become real it’ll be just us two

i don’t wanna waste my time
i gotta be by your side
and make you mine
but the timings never fucking right
drowning deep inside the tides
lost in the lines 

[pre-chorus]
im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight

[decks]
its 2 in the morning
i dont wanna waste
any second with u
cuz there’s nothing to delay
i been bored and confused
till u made everything
seem a little more in color
i want u to be with me

[decks & oni boy]
im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight, oh my

wayside

wayside w/ oni boy [nevrfall]

regret

your soft breaths remind me that i still love you.

lyrics vvv
yeah
money, materialism 
got the whole world corrupt
the state we live in
the shit we give in
its only profiting them
shit here we go again..

money, materialism 
got the whole world corrupt
the state we live in
the shit we give in
its only profiting them
shit here we go again..

its a cycle that i cant break
but i love it when u call me ur girl
its sad to say but i think ive lost my memories
but you still mean so much to me..
im sorry that its hard..
i think im in love, yeah
sleepless nights and adderall
miss you more than i think i ever have
your soft breaths remind me that i still love you

materialism (wisssery x lavendertxwn)

@chxrryrxzla
@reytee

Lyrics:

tell me what you really really really really need 
cut diamonds on your wrist babes
tell me is you fuckin wit me?

they pull you down they'll drag you down
they want you down 
thats why i got out 

Verse 1:

up all night, all on the grind 
i hate the smoke,in my eyes 
to much shit on timelines 
u should think, spend ur time right 

right babes u want the grey one?
u got the benz i'll take one 
my girls skin clear like avon 
my knife got kills engraved on

im sick of beefing paygons 
i swear on god i hate them
fuck u mean u don't rate my music
the low life ok choose it 

you sip the lean abuse it 
you cant catch me im moving 
catch me flying to munich 
yeah flowrs he gone use it 

Hook:

tell me what you really really really really need 
cut diamonds on your wrist babes
tell me is you fuckin wit me?

they pull you down they'll drag you down
they want you down 
thats why i got out

cherryrizla:

tell me what u need i got it
diamonds on ur wrist so flaunt it
send in directs i caught it
might pull up on ur doorstep
try beef my friends on timeline
fuckboy not in my eyeline
i smoke to keep my mind right
but u sip that lean like white wine

say u don't rate my music
i don't really give a fuck
never made a tune bitch
and we only going up

stop acting stupid
always acting fucking dumb
said he rocks armani
cut ur nose and cut ur tongue

 on the grind at midnight
i should spend my time right
cant catch me im mid-flight
look how the stars shine

Hook:

tell me what you really really really really need 
cut diamonds on your wrist babes
tell me is you fuckin wit me?

they pull you down they'll drag you down
they want you down 
thats why i got out

down and out w/ cherryrizla [reytee]

Remember The Old Times {Prod. Eskimos}

Kiss Me (All I’m Hearing)

Mind games pt3 (final)

Featuring: https://soundcloud.com/hazenova
Produced By: https://soundcloud.com/jolst
Mixed And Mastered By Hazenova

something i never had (feat. hazenova) (prod. jolst)

Cypression