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POV: I Wish My Life Stopped

thoughtform collective - May 2021

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The Upload 20

storm clouds n blue skys

The Upload

Underground

New single "Homesick (feat. not home.)”
shoutout not home. for featuring on this track! check out his amazing music

(Lyrics)
The hardest part wasn’t falling in love with you
It was falling out of it 
The hardest part isn’t that I’m missing you 
It’s that I’m feeling homesick 

Feels like I’m missing part of me lately 
Even if you kinda drove me crazy 
I could turn around and you’d be there
Felt like you would always care 
Now I turn around to nothing 
Am I holding onto something?
Or was everything empty words
Let it sink in Let it hurt 

(not home.)
Damn, I really thought you gave a fuck about me
Soaking in the darkness that surround me
I’ve been getting higher then a pine tree
Car race, side streets going 90, (90)
Curly hair in my eyes
I don’t care if you’re alive
Quit wasting my time
Can’t stand but I think I’ll be fine 

The hardest part wasn’t falling in love with you
It was falling out of it 
The hardest part isn’t that I’m missing you 
It’s that I’m feeling homesick 

Why am I feeling homesick
It’s not like I didn’t learn my lesson
Everyday I’ve been broken 
I can’t stop this hurting 
I wonder where you’re at
If you’re coming back 
In my chest It feels like a heart attack 
And I wonder,  I wonder 
If I’ll ever, feel okay 

The hardest part wasn’t falling in love with you
It was falling out of it 
The hardest part isn’t that I’m missing you 
It’s that I’m feeling homesick 

mixed by yago beats
prod by Nate2Timez

Stream on Spotify!

Homesick (feat. not home.) [Prod. Nate2Timez]

carousel! w/ @its_bri_c

tired (+xmichaelwarren)

Feat: https://soundcloud.com/hazenova

Prod: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxaOkiKd0n_Ufvbq6gEnSow

hey i miss you w/hazenova (prod. AKAMII)

Really happy with how this one turned out, expect more in this style in the future!
Special thanks to Anthony Sidoti for his amazing feature!
Produced by nateonthetrack x Gavin Hadley

Follow My Twitter: twitter.com/DreamsYokai
Follow Anthony: https://soundcloud.com/anthonysidoti
Stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yokaidreams/lighthouse-feat-anthony-sidoti

Lyrics:
{Yokai Dreams}

Shipwrecks
On grey nights
If I take your hand
Will you take mine?
Through stormy skies
And high tide
If we skip the plan
Will we be alright?

No I don't
Wanna wake up right now
I just need to lie down
Til I get through this week
Those harsh words
Break these glass walls right down
I can't find a lighthouse
Soon enough I'm beached

{Anthony Sidoti}

This is not the life that you wanted 
Turned bad now and your running
Don’t look back it’ll be just fine 

Yeah right, now I’m just Down bad 
Every time you start a fight you want a new man 
So why do you say that you love me 

This was never easy 
You wanted more 
But need me? 

Well this ain’t right 
You gotta leave tonight 

We'll sail off into a dream 
I know when your with him 
your stuck thinking of me 
Oh no
What we used to be 
Was so damn bad 
Now its history

{Yokai Dreams}

No I don't
Wanna wake up right now
I just need to lie down
Til I get through this week
Those harsh words
Break these glass walls right down
I can't find a lighthouse
Soon enough I'm beached




Love u

Lighthouse (feat. Anthony Sidoti)

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Lyrics
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[Hook: Gothboisoldier]
Don't you tell me that it's over now 
Didn't mean to let you down
Why you tell me that you love me now?
Swear to God I didn't let you down (Oh, yeah)
Run up my flow, and I run up my bands up
I told that bitch, that there is no chance now
I'm too busy chasing bands now
You got me sad, you got a man down
Drinking liquor till' I fall down (Till' I fall down)
Yeah, I think I had enough now (Yeah, I think I had enough now)

[Verse: JeremyMaq]
Yeah I fill it up to the brim , drinking it all down and ill do it again
(Do it again, do it again)
So I'm boutta die, so I can just live
But I'm holding on tight, and I'm loosing my grip (Grip-grip-grip)
(Oh I'm loosing my grip)
So come here, let's see what happens to me
I'm trynna live fast and die young, what's happened to me?
Oh my broken heart and broken soul
Never got a chance to even let go
So u think it's all right but I think it's a nightmare
You said that is for the best, but I'm not feeling right here
So I'm conflicted, and I got no one to call
And I'm addicted, and I got no where to fall

[Bridge: JeremyMaq & Gothboisoldier]
Yeah I fill it up to the brim (Oh, nah), drinking it all down and ill do it again
(Do it again, do it again)
So I'm boutta die, so I can just live
But I'm holding on tight, and I'm loosing my grip (Grip-grip-grip)
(Oh I'm loosing my grip)

[Hook: Gothboisoldier]
Don't you tell me that it's over now 
Didn't mean to let you down
Why you tell me that you love me now?
Swear to God I didn't let you down (Oh, yeah)
Run up my flow, and I run up my bands up
I told that bitch, that there is no chance now
I'm too busy chasing bands now
You got me sad, you got a man down
Drinking liquor till' I fall down (Till' I fall down)
Yeah, I think I had enough now (Yeah, I think I had enough now)

Let You Down

let you down ft. JeremyMaq [+ Jody & Jkei]

-produced by me
-featuring:https://soundcloud.com/salemavenue

Lyrics: 

hazenova:
lifes hard when youre not really living
last night had to make a decision
had to take that knife away from my throat
(from my throat)
I just really wanna go sometimes
yeah i really like the cold sometimes
it gets hard to cope sometimes
i wanna grab the rope sometimes

lifes hard when youre in the wrong body
i dont ever sleep, so im walking like a zombie

i dont know where i belong
so i cry and write my songs

i hurt myself
because i hate my reflection
tears keep on falling
im sick of rejeciton

salem avenue:
i don't see what i can be
i don't want to find myself 
all alone at all 
i don't see what the world could be
when i find myself
all alone at all

turn the lights out
i feel safe now
i want to hide away from the world
turn the lights out
i feel safe know
let me hide away from the world
for all time

sometimes (feat. salem avenue)

prod https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCDJbJhZuEFF8X-npl1tPUrQ

backseat (Prod. IOF)

sendflowrs - way back home (rocstarzen cover) (prod. irby x dead spyro)

3 Percs (Fallin Away)

prod. me

lyrics

im like whered u go
i see footprints in the snow
i do not know what to do
to prevent me from being alone

every word that i say
just seems to drive you away
ignoring my texts on your phone
so i guess ill just rot in my home

drinking away my feelings
directing my eyes to the ceiling
as they roll back in my head
hear you utter some words so revealing

you say you never loved me
thats okay neither did i
you look at me, starting to cry
i look down, i cant meet your eyes

dont take it so personally

where'd u go? (sampleix)

Lyrics
she so sad but she makes it look so good
take a shot and a drink like i knew she would
she so mad so she pout just like she should
take a puff in the cold while she walk through the hood

break it down now its xannies on the dance floor
waking up got evicted by the landlord
take no shit she believe in what she stand for
change the world if she only werent so damn poor

thats what she tells herself
thats what she tells herself

she light the blunt in her room, gettin high while we dance
cause i look into her eyes, and she put me in a trance
i been feeling like im gone, gettin lost in the romance
when we wake up in the morning tell me do we got a chance

shes a, sad girl in a, mad world with a, big heart and a blunt she can burn
gotta bottle full of henny empty bottle of the jack, we forget about our past but it's always coming back

blowin smoke up in the moonlight
sippin whiskey its a new fight
baby i just wanna do right
ask me if i gotta new light

know we hurt yeah cause baby we're the same
feel your heart baby i can feel your pain
fuck our past we dont wanna hear their name
staying lit so i never feel the pain

thats what i tell myself
thats what i tell myself

she light the blunt in her room, gettin high while we dance
cause i look into her eyes, and she put me in a trance
i been feeling like im gone, gettin lost in the romance
when we wake up in the morning tell me do we got a chance

shes a, sad girl in a, mad world with a, big heart and a blunt she can burn
gotta bottle full of henny empty bottle of the jack, we forget about our past but it's always coming back

Sad Girl

Scars

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Addictions/Nothing +Cypression (Metlast)

@qawikamri
@psychoticprophet

Lyrics:-
QAWI KAMRI
imma laz' round, lets kick back
imma beat it off on my big mac
i'd be aiming forward no zigzag
she gon' steal my heart imma take it back

send a text, she ignored
imma die all alone
how dafuq 
u threw it all
i dont want it
anymore 

'i' come first, you'd be after like carly
where's the type of bro thats loyal like marley
2 face bih they'd be thinking they miley
she just wants to blow up my brain riley

sleeping with the lights on
a text with no reply oh
happens all the time thou
shit gon' make me psycho

SWANZ
she gon' make my psycho, shoot me with a  malfoy
got me writing haiku, feels like in hokkaido
got no baked cheese tart, i guess that's okay
take it all off now, bae is that okay?

radio is stereo like house aint even called a home
push me like i'm dominos, cos you're lactose intolerant
u said "wont you let it go?", i said "you're a frozen hoe"
i cant deal with you, got my hands i'm going solo 

she be sending K's with the dot, high power
used to wanna hang, but you're now a wallflower
you were such a saccharine, i might just go diabetic
risked my life for you, damn, i feel so pathetic

BIG MAC (feat. Swanz)

My Time (OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS)(Prod. By dxnnydior x alexbrazy)

Puerto Rico

prod https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxFiJWixhdVMDn2TtN0L8rQ and https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCDJbJhZuEFF8X-npl1tPUrQ

feature https://soundcloud.com/hazenova <3

suffer in silence w/hazenova (prod. smokerose & iof)

all I had left 

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Check out kais on #SoundCloud
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all i had left (feat. kais)

Maxed Out

boiscry - Maxed Out(prod.starboyrob)

BLIND

She Likes Girls (Prod Splashgvng & King Theta)
Key F Major
Bpm 170

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She Likes Girls

blackout

Thank you Hk <3
Cover art: @pytn.d on instagram

Lyrics- 

I don't really care
you were never there
Said you had my back
you just never cared
Said I never loved but that shit ain't fair

claiming that you love me but you don't mean shit 
Claiming that you had me but you never did yeah x2
Always wanted somewhere there but you pushed me away
You want me in your bed but I don't want to stay x2

pretty heartbroken


You hit my line,
We're just wasting time
Always on your phone, 
You were never mine
Talking bout your ex almost all the time,
Yeah talking bout your ex he was on your mind

ON SPOTIFY <3

I waited on you, you never came. (Prod. HKfiftyone)

thank you @cozyboycries for letting me remix this already amazing song <333 had a lot of fun making this :) btw kid friendly title haha

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cøzybøy - i swear this søng is abøut eating my best friend’s cøøkie (hateful remix)

original song: racoon racoon - our loves funeral

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i think i'm done with you.

TEENAGE RAGE

lyrics:

we should get together not no coffee
I guess I jus gotta say im sorry
I could see I know u getting salty
all the shit im thinkin sort of harm me
all this shit I know n im still comin to the party

I pop out emotion n u rob me
lay me down n do not do it softly
we should get together not no coffee
I guess I jus gotta say im sorry
I could see I know u getting salty
all the shit im thinkin sort of harm me
all this shit I know n im still comin to the party

she got the lime out with bacardi
fail to put it down she sip it up like it was barley
I know he don't like me I know he about to mark me
I could barely care n when I do I stress it hardly
I walk in the door I got the bands out
gucci louis fendi I wont hesitate to ball out
came thru in a foreign glossy brown that bitch in park now
ion like attention only comin if its dark out

only comin if its dark out
I jus killed the roach I hit the snow n put the spark out
when im on my own it seem that non this shit is hard now
I jus put some percs inside my drink n now im far out

took a lot to recharge me
I pop out emotion n u rob me
lay me down n do not do it softly
we should get together not no coffee
I guess I jus gotta say im sorry
I could see I know u getting salty
all the shit im thinkin sort of harm me
all this shit I know n im still comin to the party

took a lot to recharge me
I pop out emotion n u rob me
lay me down n do not do it softly
we should get together not no coffee
I guess I jus gotta say im sorry
I could see I know u getting salty
all the shit im thinkin sort of harm me
all this shit I know n im still comin to the party

she got the lime out with bacardi
fail to put it down she sip it up like it was barley
I know he don't like me I know he about to mark me
I could barely care n when I do I stress it hardly
I walk in the door I got the bands out
gucci louis fendi I wont hesitate to ball out
came thru in a foreign glossy brown that bitch in park now
ion like attention only comin if its dark out

rsvp (jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

ok got a vixen in the backseat
220 on the dash like can u catch me
if she post a picture dont attach me
dis shit gon turn right into a taxi
mix the drank up wit the kush and now im sideways
i poke her on the velvet down at my space
think i smoke too much my mouth had had a dry taste
baby take a sip of this and tell me how the lime taste

can u feel it when i press up on ur body
feel the pills had resurrect me like a zombie
shopping tom ford from shopping abercrombie
flying private shit from flying in economy
i put all the petty shit behind me
if u got a problem then u know jus where to find me
in the y in the king street lobby
ion got a puck but i been icing like its hockey

one bloor in a penthouse room
i just look out onto yonge and see the view
i guess all these wishes coming true
i just hope this life had come with u girl
diamonds on my neck look like a pool
got so many cards in here this shit look like a duel
got so many cars in here this shit look like a dealership
i been burnin rubber u would think i work at michelin

i see the fireworks lightning up the back of my house
i look like a pipe burst dripped up right to the mouth
she can see im on and now she always tryna up and go out
ion think the line work i hang up the phone and put it down
i cant find the right words i think im too faded for the evening
ion even like percs still i take a half and now im cheesing
pale matte lime vert i just hit my exit and im speeding
u aint even die first how u tellin me what to believe in

ok got a vixen in the backseat
220 on the dash like can u catch me
if she post a picture dont attach me
dis shit gon turn right into a taxi
mix the drank up wit the kush and now im sideways
i poke her on the velvet down at my space
think i smoke too much my mouth had had a dry taste
baby take a sip of this and tell me how the lime taste

ok got a vixen in the backseat
220 on the dash like can u catch me
if she post a picture dont attach me
dis shit gon turn right into a taxi
mix the drank up wit the kush and now im sideways
i poke her on the velvet down at my space
think i smoke too much my mouth had had a dry taste
baby take a sip of this and tell me how the lime taste

220 (vitals x jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

xo got me loosened 
baby watchu doin
i got some opps thats viewing
i gotta keep it movin
drop a blue in
and now my vision zoomin
when she going thru it
i gotta keep it movin

im too cold in this bitch
i set the tone in this bitch
i got a 750 special of patrón in this bitch
im poppin percs in this shit
whats going on in this bitch
she started singing 40 minutes going long in this bitch
im blowin bands on my shit
its green and red on the stitch
i got a royal oak piguet with two tones on my wrist
designer boxers tom ford leopard printed silk on my dick
i worked too hard to go ahead with staying humble bout this shit

im in the back of the party baby im barely alive
i know i shouldve of made it but fuck it im loving the vibe
trashin the back of the lamb im takin this shit for a ride
i did u wrong and im sorry but i cant let go of my pride
its tragic
im pullin up and the doors open up when they fly up the side
its magic
ion like photos but she takin these shots of my shit when i drive
its candid
dont try to play my baby i know it the second u lie
its tactics
ill never be gone and my shit gon live on from the second i die

im too cold in this bitch
i set the tone in this bitch
i got a 750 special of patrón in this bitch
im poppin percs in this shit
whats going on in this bitch
she started singing 40 minutes going long in this bitch
im blowin bands on my shit
its green and red on the stitch
i got a royal oak piguet with two tones on my wrist
designer boxers tom ford leopard printed silk on my dick
i worked too hard to go ahead with staying humble bout this shit

humble (vitals x jabarionthebeat)

"𝕤𝕒𝕨 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕚𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕝𝕒𝕪 𝕕𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕟𝕖𝕕"

[chorus]
baby I want you I know that 
I cannot keep my composure 
I really hope there's no closure
i'm anxious as fuck
and i'm falling in love for the first time
lips pursed up against mine
I really want you girl searched all around 
saw that green iris my fears they lay drowned
happiness up in your arms I have found

[verse 1]
I knew from the start
shes like a fine piece of art
staring for hours my heart blossoms.  
flowers them tulips I miss its the truth that
fate has decided our two paths
collide I decide that no matter the weather
i'll be there forever them bad storms ahead 
baby ill be your shelter

[bridge]
I would of never thought that 
I would of find a love that
fits me well and just keeps me distracted
don't wanna fall out when
anxious when shes around him
but i shouldn't worry my mind is abstracted

[chorus]
baby I want you I know that 
I cannot keep my composure 
I really hope there's no closure
i'm anxious as fuck
and falling in love for the first time
lips pursed up against mine
I really want you girl searched all around 
saw that green iris my fears they lay drowned
happiness up in your arms I have found

[verse 2]
up on my phone again i'm missing the sound of your tone again
i'm deathly afraid of attachment
but baby you're perfect i'm latching onto you attracted
no doubt that this ain't just lust
my heart feels like it will combust
if i do not see you I really do need you
I'm sorry if you cannot trust that
baby im wanting your love that
makes me feel some sort of rush 
if this is so perfect it makes me feel worth it
im missing you baby come back fast

Shelter [prod. CapsCtrl]

Lyrics:

Feeling low (on my own) 
Feeling low 

I heard you say
You never wanna see my face 
You can stop pretending now 
Games are all over now 
x2

I see now, 
You ain’t ever gonna feel my pain 
If you never get inside my brain 
Baby I just went insane 
Keep lights out 
You can’t help but fucking feel me now 
Baby I just wanna hear you out 
But my musics bumping way too loud 
I guess I caught up on my feelings now 
You ain’t ever gonna break me down 

I heard you say
You never wanna see my face 
You can stop pretending now 
Games are all over now 
I don’t wanna hear what 
they gotta say right now 
I just tried to kill my old self in the 
background 
He don’t wanna deal with my mind and the crying, he just wants my body but he doesn’t know my im dying

DEAD END 

Bitter Aura (ft. Dommy)

I don’t really like that
If I broke your heart now
Would you break it right back
Cause I don’t really like that

I don’t really like that
I just wanna fight back
I want you to use me
Mentally abuse me
You’re not really like that
And I don’t really like that

You’re not what I’m used to
I Can’t see through you
I don’t wanna feel
But I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t really like that
No I don’t really like that

I don’t really like that
Nothing but a nerve rack
Why don’t you run from me
Leave me to the train tracks
You’re not really like that
And I don’t wanna like that

You are the shy boy
Praying to the sky boy
I am the bad girl 
just like her dad girl 
Why do you want me
Cause nobody wants me

Did you read the label
I have the baggage
I’ve got depression
And my lungs are ashes
I’m not the package
Not even average

It’s Crazy how my life goes
You don’t know the story though
Boy that I loved 
Stomped on my heart so
I guess I am cold now
At least That’s what I’m told now 

If you wanna love me
You need patience 
You need strength 
And a permanent vacation 
My safe haven
I guess that’s what I’m craving 

There’s a hole in my soul
Where someone used to be and
My anxieties are always watching me
and I need some saving 
Am I what you’re craving

Just Know that I won’t hurt you
If I do It’s not true 
Look me in eyes and
Tell me I don’t want you 
Cause you know I want you
I’m just scared to love you

If I were to love you
There’d be fire
Cities would burn 
And I’d be your sire
Until you get tired

They always get tired

Dont throw me away 
Like I’m one of your toys
And Don’t act too different in front of your boys 
Just fill my void
Will you bring me joy