@cherryrizla
<3prods: @freveltrothy x @yunnygoldz
saw u at the party girl, never thought u dance like that
no, never thought u'd dance like that
now that im without u girl, i think i like it more like that
yeah, i think i like it more like that
i think i like it more like that
i think i like ur body more like that
im making money mother, please dont cry
so u can have it when i wanna die

ballin like all the time
like convolk if u hit me, ill hit u right back
getting in my way, I can give u one
money on my hands when comes down the night
take my hands lets get out baby
she said its the alcohol, u don’t like me baby
im not sober when im with u 
and girl im through
its obvious I won’t fight for u :P

saw u at the party girl, never thought u dance like that
no, never thought u'd dance like that
now that im without u girl, i think i like it more like that
yeah, i think i like it more like that

cherry:
(think i like it more, more like that
call u up but u wont call me back
seen u at the party nearly left it
never thought youd dance like that its unexpected)
think i like it more, more like that
call u up but u wont call me back
seen u at the party nearly left it
never thought youd dance like that its unexpected
you look like a star
i dont really dance so ill wait for u by the bar
lets run away come take my hand
can i have this dance?<3

like that w/ cherryrizla (prod. frevel x yunny goldz)

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i press pause & rewind
it all feels like a movie
maybe thats how i kill time
i swear its amusing
i make a victim of myself
& im crying to no one
its a cycle of nature,
and i live in darkness,
no moon & no sun 

i hope this reads like a letter
whenever you hear it
nothing would make me feel better
than knowing u feel it too
this island it paints me blue
sincerely, it’s cause of u
the way the leaves they hold me
it almost feels like u got to know me 

[evan]
wave after wave 
and i’ve been drowning in a sea of my own thoughts
a clear image of everything i’m not 
hold on and hope it’s not a lot

i know this too well 
here reading the same old story 
i’m stuck in this cycle 
all i can do is wonder if 

are you coming to save me 
i’m empty 
pull me out of the shit that’s preventing me
is it too late to get out of this 
draw my name in the sand are you coming to save me 

are you coming to save me 
am i coming to save me
i put it all line 
draw my name in the sand 
are you coming to save me

stream everywhere!

VIII. sincerely (ft. evan carr) [jolst x pekarot]

seconds

04 [bonus]

th_unkown ends up becoming all u kno.

lyrics

picturing the silence in the shallow nights
every time u take a breath antother candle lights
i didnt thin id be here looking at the world this way 
this fragile skin is all what holds this tainted mind x3

/

i carry bagange 
but listen understand this
its not easy always lifting when u dont now what the plan is 

/

i hope i manage 
but heavy hitting damage 
can hit at any moment 
its not all hopefless if I vanish

/

20 fucking years ive hid inside this mud
ive lived this way
i love the way i get told the things that help me fucking hate
the way ive molded taken shape i had a place where I belonged
u look at me like its familiar 
but u wont know this pain

/

the next time i look in the mirror i will shred my fucking face
and i will do the world a favour. someone’ll take my place
and make the most of what they have 
this a toast to all those sad
stuck in the past
a sinking boat
where waters vast

/

just sink the glass
the pressure building i cant push it back
ill leave you behind a pact
trust my words and they will last

soul shredder

soul-shredder [bonus track] (stillvanishing)

Stream "Julia" on all platforms:
https://open.spotify.com/track/5DQhKI2XR8ezLYKSLBP15u?si=4c627046914441e3

Julia prod. tiedforsilver & EPHRAIM

prod. kill breanna x april21 x recyclebin

i dont wanna fight all these battles
i dont care to sweep thru all the rubble
if i want anything its not its double it
most kids dont know lifes too fake and puzzling
i dont wanna fight all these battles
i just wanna know what i know
if i want anything its not its double it
most times i dont know whats important and encompassing
i just hope i know what to say when im malfunctioning
i hope i dont dissapoint you and ruin everything
thats how life is and i dont think that i can get over it
i let myself do the same thing over and over again
i dont learn anything why do you deal with me?
leave me tonight dont cry
i changed but you didnt
torn apart
with a tough love ribbon
different day
same difference
im insane
whats my worth if im not a person?
i hope that i always try to know
sorry you cant wear any of my clothes

i was in marching band once.

prod. skrwd

If we’re being honest I still wonder what youre up to
Heartbeats stay in tempo 8 to 5 on 1-2
All in one take no breaks, call that shit a run through 
Just drop a sign if you want me to hit you up soon
We dont gotta talk at all if you dont want to
Everything about this I wish I could undo
I know it might mean nothing now but I need you to know that  I want u

i want u
i want u
i know i shouldnt but i want to
i want u
i want u
i fucking hate that i want u

in an all black fit
Imma talk my shit
simply tapped in dawg I only make hits
On that make you wanna call your one ex that you never got over to reminisce tip
That one you aint talked to in a while and you dont really know where you stand
No matter if I get the answers or just raise more questions, screwed's what the fuck I am
Wiz tech in my pants like I live out on waverly
zord goin 80 and im feeling wavy
Brain blast on the beat, boy genius
Shorty so bad, zetus lapetus
Imma take you to the Louis store cause I know you got expensive taste
Apple bottom waist
Addicted to all of the ways you was saying my name
Damn what a sh- (hold up)

This is not some shit about being hurt by no girl
The songs come to life in their own little world
Im mostly joking when I say its lore
Cause the truth of it all is completely ignored
stuck in the suburbs, its truly a bore
Almost as much as my life is a chore
Clocks hitting zero so I gotta score
Like a catchy pop song from 02
Id walk a thousand miles just to show you
you are defined by the after and not just by all of the shit that you had to go through
Never exactly where I want to be
Theres a hunger Inside I just cant seem to feed
Oh what a gift it is to be simple
But honest to god I just wanna be free
And even with hope and the promise of living, the sameness and nothing is all its been giving
Ill be alone out in my secret city
Where no matter what happens, you are still with me
drills been in circles and I gotta bust
Fence been up too long, of course theres some rust
Anyone that I knew has left me in the dust
Should take a second to check and adjust

want u

phases

phases interlude (jabarionthebeat)

far off memories; scattered dreams

listen to "watch u sleep":
ffm.to/bradenrosskh

listen to my music:
linktr.ee/bradenrossisfake

merch:
www.bradenrossisfake.com

lyrics:

[intro]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[verse 1]
got your hopes up just to watch me let you down
a better shot you’d have if i’m not around, my love
i tried to be your hero
but I’m too cold for you now
so i’ll keep my all from you
until i’m dead in the ground
risen up from hell
kiss and never tell
broken as i fell
a happy story sells
living as a shell
killed my former self
no way you could help
so baby try not to dwell

[chorus 1]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[verse 2]
day in
day out
spending my life tryna break out
was focused too much on the payout
lost faith now
ain’t no doubt
left all of the homies on read
not getting sleep cause i’m working instead
working to make sure my family’s fed
if i can’t protect her i’d rather be dead
so
took a risk and now i’m paying with my life
it’s kinda funny making money off of lies
i try my best but even then, will it suffice?
in keeping everyone that’s close to me alive and well
guess time will tell
my minds confined and tied to hell
i’m sorry
i want you to eat, so i’ll stay starving
i’d much rather bleed than leave you falling
than leave you falling apart
make no mistakes where i’m going, i should have known from the start
it takes a break down to know who you are
it’s time to
to wake now i’m marked to restart again

[chorus 2]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[outro]
stay awake to watch you
stomach aches as knees go weak

watch u sleep

Alternative version of the first track of this album. The track talks about American lifestyle as seen by the eyes of a white redneck and racist guy who thinks being white and American is the best thing in the world and that anyone who isn't like him is beneath him.
DISCLAIMER:  The lyrics represent the opposite of my personal beliefs. I hate those kinda guys.

Unbreakable Strength

White & American (Alternative Version)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-bad-kid-toy-orchestra-lyrics

drums performed by noah walker

Julia prod. tiedforsilver & EPHRAIM

Danny Adventure

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