my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i press pause & rewind
it all feels like a movie
maybe thats how i kill time
i swear its amusing
i make a victim of myself
& im crying to no one
its a cycle of nature,
and i live in darkness,
no moon & no sun 

i hope this reads like a letter
whenever you hear it
nothing would make me feel better
than knowing u feel it too
this island it paints me blue
sincerely, it’s cause of u
the way the leaves they hold me
it almost feels like u got to know me 

[evan]
wave after wave 
and i’ve been drowning in a sea of my own thoughts
a clear image of everything i’m not 
hold on and hope it’s not a lot

i know this too well 
here reading the same old story 
i’m stuck in this cycle 
all i can do is wonder if 

are you coming to save me 
i’m empty 
pull me out of the shit that’s preventing me
is it too late to get out of this 
draw my name in the sand are you coming to save me 

are you coming to save me 
am i coming to save me
i put it all line 
draw my name in the sand 
are you coming to save me

stream everywhere!

VIII. sincerely (ft. evan carr) [jolst x pekarot]

seconds

04 [bonus]

th_unkown ends up becoming all u kno.

lyrics

picturing the silence in the shallow nights
every time u take a breath antother candle lights
i didnt thin id be here looking at the world this way 
this fragile skin is all what holds this tainted mind x3

/

i carry bagange 
but listen understand this
its not easy always lifting when u dont now what the plan is 

/

i hope i manage 
but heavy hitting damage 
can hit at any moment 
its not all hopefless if I vanish

/

20 fucking years ive hid inside this mud
ive lived this way
i love the way i get told the things that help me fucking hate
the way ive molded taken shape i had a place where I belonged
u look at me like its familiar 
but u wont know this pain

/

the next time i look in the mirror i will shred my fucking face
and i will do the world a favour. someone’ll take my place
and make the most of what they have 
this a toast to all those sad
stuck in the past
a sinking boat
where waters vast

/

just sink the glass
the pressure building i cant push it back
ill leave you behind a pact
trust my words and they will last

soul shredder

soul-shredder [bonus track] (stillvanishing)

Stream "Julia" on all platforms:
https://open.spotify.com/track/5DQhKI2XR8ezLYKSLBP15u?si=4c627046914441e3

i just just hate you

i’m worthy of nothing and i made that clear
can’t find no happiness around here
i act like i’m strong but i can’t persevere
Everyone leaves and that's my biggest fear

All we know to be alone
I can not love someone anymore
Take your hand i’ll let it go
Julia your on your own

You were sitting in the hallway
On the floor next to the door
It will never be the same as before
Remember all the time passed
Exactly what i ignored
You said you’d do anything for me
But you haven't done anything at all

but all we know to be alone
I can not love someone anymore
Take your hand i’ll let it go
Julia your on your own
but all we know to be alone
I can not love someone anymore
Take your hand i’ll let it go
Julia your on your own

No where did you go
Yeah yeah
Where did you go
No where did you go
Yeah	
Where did you go

Look at that
Your back
Your the girl that i never could have
Julia i’m mad
Hate your friends i just wanna relax
Talk bad lil girl you bad
This aint no balled
but you still know i’m sad
Love when i circle back

but all we know to be alone
I can not love someone anymore
Take your hand i’ll let it go
Julia your on your own

No where did you go
Yeah yeah
Where did you go
No where did you go
Yeah
Where did you go

Julia prod. tiedforsilver & EPHRAIM

i was in marching band once.

prod. skrwd

If we’re being honest I still wonder what youre up to
Heartbeats stay in tempo 8 to 5 on 1-2
All in one take no breaks, call that shit a run through 
Just drop a sign if you want me to hit you up soon
We dont gotta talk at all if you dont want to
Everything about this I wish I could undo
I know it might mean nothing now but I need you to know that  I want u

i want u
i want u
i know i shouldnt but i want to
i want u
i want u
i fucking hate that i want u

in an all black fit
Imma talk my shit
simply tapped in dawg I only make hits
On that make you wanna call your one ex that you never got over to reminisce tip
That one you aint talked to in a while and you dont really know where you stand
No matter if I get the answers or just raise more questions, screwed's what the fuck I am
Wiz tech in my pants like I live out on waverly
zord goin 80 and im feeling wavy
Brain blast on the beat, boy genius
Shorty so bad, zetus lapetus
Imma take you to the Louis store cause I know you got expensive taste
Apple bottom waist
Addicted to all of the ways you was saying my name
Damn what a sh- (hold up)

This is not some shit about being hurt by no girl
The songs come to life in their own little world
Im mostly joking when I say its lore
Cause the truth of it all is completely ignored
stuck in the suburbs, its truly a bore
Almost as much as my life is a chore
Clocks hitting zero so I gotta score
Like a catchy pop song from 02
Id walk a thousand miles just to show you
you are defined by the after and not just by all of the shit that you had to go through
Never exactly where I want to be
Theres a hunger Inside I just cant seem to feed
Oh what a gift it is to be simple
But honest to god I just wanna be free
And even with hope and the promise of living, the sameness and nothing is all its been giving
Ill be alone out in my secret city
Where no matter what happens, you are still with me
drills been in circles and I gotta bust
Fence been up too long, of course theres some rust
Anyone that I knew has left me in the dust
Should take a second to check and adjust

want u

phases

phases interlude (jabarionthebeat)

Welcome to the Breakdown

[Verse 1]
Born into ruin, a world upside down
Carrying the weight, but I won’t break down
Shadows whisper lessons, carved into stone
Every scar reminds me I’m not alone

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t know who you are, but I need you near
In a world full of monsters, you cut through the fear

[Chorus]
I’m holding onto hope, it’s all I can afford
Not enough yet, but I’m reaching for more
I’m stronger than before, every step, every fall
Stronger than before, I can rise through it all

[Verse 2]
Echoes of legends, voices through time
Teach me to fight with a fire that’s mine
Steel in my spirit, I sharpen my will
Even when I stumble, I climb higher still

[Pre-Chorus]
The night is closing in, but I won’t lose sight
If the darkness surrounds me, I’ll still choose the fight

[Chorus]
I’m holding onto hope, it’s all I can afford
Not enough yet, but I’m reaching for more
I’m stronger than before, every wound, every scar
Stronger than before, that’s the proof of who we are

[Bridge]
Face to face with evil, I won’t back down
Fear claws my chest, but I won’t hit the ground
Through the silence, I hear a voice say:
“Stronger tomorrow than you were today”

[Final Chorus / Outro]
I’m holding onto hope, it’s all I can afford
Not enough yet, but I’m reaching for more
I’m stronger than before, every loss, every war
Stronger than before… and I’m ready for more

Proof of Who We Are (Mega Man X Song)

Fighting My Demon

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-bad-kid-toy-orchestra-lyrics

drums performed by noah walker

Julia prod. tiedforsilver & EPHRAIM

Danny Adventure

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