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I am Nothing

Get Lit

this is a rather edgy song about intrusive thoughts. i experimented a ton with the vocals and the instrumentals, and overall i’m pleased with how it came out. i hope someone likes it.

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knife.

“you fuckers give me claustrophobia!”

this is one of my favorite songs i’ve ever made!!! i love how this came out, honestly. it’s about being afraid of others getting too close, and living with that fear every day. it’s deeply personal, but i really hope someone can find comfort in this song in a way? idk i like it tho and it was definitely therapeutic to make.

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claustrophobia.

“fall in love with me, i know it’s hard, I know it’s hard.
fall in love with me, i know that it will never be.”

this song is about never finding love, and feeling that you’ll die alone because of your own hang ups. i hope you like this one, it’s deeply personal (all of these are honestly). 

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veil.

this song is pure experimentation and it’s so eerie!! I love it so much :’) i hope you like it too!!

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shade.

Here’s a sad little song about being alone and afraid to show myself to people, and honestly not just being afraid but also just not knowing how. i sing abstract lyrics that don’t really make sense, but i still think it sounds really good, even if it’s not perfect. i hope someone enjoys this little tune.

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the whites of her eyes.

this song was originally supposed to be an instrumental track, but i decided to add vocals since it had a certain vibe with them. the lyrics to this are very random and abstract, but i meant it to be about going against your moral compass and not being sure of what to do with yourself, or what is right. it has a certain vibe that i really like, and i hope others who hear it like it, too.

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breach of contract.

“look into the sky with your bloodshot eyes.
don’t know where to find them when they’re in disguise.
look into the stars, where i’d go so far
if i didn’t fucking have fucking bloodshot eyes.”

this song was something i experimented on a LOT, and honestly i think it came out okay. i really hope it embodies that eerie feel i tried to create, and i do think it does to an extent at least. i hope anyone who reads this will enjoy the song :)

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bloodshot.

this song is quite a bumpy ride! it’s about the voices in your head and the control they have over you. i love how it came out, even if it’s not perfect. I hope you guys like it! :)

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possession.

this is the result of me experimenting with a lot of different harmonies. as for the title of this one, i called it “nyctophilia” as that is the word for a preference of darkness, or a comfort in it. i feel that i am always most comfortable at night, since it is quiet, peaceful, and the most restful part of my day. i can unwind, and i don’t need to deal with the stresses of the everyday world. so, this term resonates with me greatly. anyway, I hope you guys like this little song :’)

much love,

specterose ~~

nyctophilia

this song is so peaceful for me :’) i thought of the line “when the rain subsides” as a line that resembles thinking of when life will get better, and when you’ll stop feeling like you’re waiting to feel joy again after not feeling it for a long time. “rain” in this context is the feeling of depression…

anyway, i hope you guys like this little tune :) i know that i am proud of it!

when the rain subsides

this one is veryyy experimental…honestly i am not sure whether i like this one but at the same time i kinda love it?? idk, but i feel like releasing this one just because. I experimented a ton with the instrumentals and vocals, and idk how it sounds but it’s sort of a bop i guess. i hope someone enjoys this little monstrosity lmao.

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This has to be the most special song I’ve made in a long time. It’s about "drifting" from reality, because you’re so lost inside of your own head…anyway I hope you like it. :’)

drifting ~

I lay on the street 
look up at the clouds
the wires on the utility poles
spread throughout the town

like the thoughts in my mind
passing through like cars
on their evening ride
i wish that they’d stop…

wires tearing me up inside
like the cracks in concrete 
wires fraying in my mind
like the wires strangling me..

I wish I could handle the lights
But they make me want to gauge out my eyes
the energy is too much for me
but I don’t have the energy to scream 

I can’t communicate my pain
My mind has flown too far away
and now the wires disintegrate
and my body slowly dissipates 

wires tearing me up inside
like the cracks in concrete 
wires fraying in my mind
like the wires strangling me..

I am Nothing

Darc Seul