process

Prod. Flowers for You

my entire discography: https://open.spotify.com/user/lukeee117/playlist/2gRn7V9QfxZxFaJJdS00EP?si=vUv0Ie1qQc2dhn8mHtwk0w&dl_branch=1

alright, that's fine w/ skele

<3

lyrics:

(cyzun)
Everyone dying got me thinking bout death
I’m only 20 and I think that I’m next
Losing everybody is making me upset
I just wanna grab the gun and put it to my head 
All this paranoia makes me wanna feel it
I don’t think that anyone would care if I was dead
Even if I tried a suicide attempt 
I don’t wanna live my life with regrets
I don’t think I’ll ever understand it
Why do we live just to die and that’s it
All that fucking time thats gonna be wasted
Honestly that thought is making me pissed

(unknxwn.)
I don't wanna talk about the things that I did
I just wanna stop breathing, I'm sick of this shit
Everything I've thought I wanted, I got rid of it
Ain't nothing what it seems in life, can't wait till I'm picked

To die, I don't wanna be alive
But I got so much shit to do with my time
I got things to experience, life is an experiment
And I am a mad scientist, I'm tired of the crying shit

So alone, like where should I go now
I don't know, I think I should slow down
Take it step by step, and don't rush it
Everything that I have felt is all rushing in

(cyzun)
Everyone dying got me thinking bout death
I’m only 20 and I think that I’m next
Losing everybody is making me upset
I just wanna grab the gun and put it to my head 
All this paranoia makes me wanna feel it
I don’t think that anyone would care if I was dead
Even if I tried a suicide attempt 
I don’t wanna live my life with regrets

paranoia w/ unknxwn. (lxvesick)

Shout out @prodskellington ive always wanted to work with him. This is my favorite song by far. Enjoy <3

cover by fatih

Lyrics:

Rn now im fucked up
I think she is leaving
And that im doing to much
I dont get love
I brake my own damn heart
Just so i can feel some

She says i need to run 
But i dont give a fuck
Im tired of the waiting
Im tired of the lust
I just want someone
Who i can really love
I think i have had enough 

Rn now im fucked up
I think she is leaving
And that im doing to much
I dont get love
I brake my own damn heart
Just so i can feel some

im doing too much (skellington)

its not personal, its strictly business
prod. @jolst @irby314

im drunk again
i miss your face
just wish that i 
could replace 
the memories 
that are haunting me 
i miss the simple pleasantries
like sitting with you
staring at the sea 
this sullen panic
slowly surrounds me 

you dont know
you dont know
wat you're doing to me
you dont know 
you dont know 

you never loved me and it shows
it hurts me more than u could ever know
that im not the one you chose...

i wake up, 4 am
staring at the clock
wishing that i was him 
u dont know what your doing to me
baby
thought you were the best
rip my heart 
out of my chest 
i know that you 
would do it all again

i know that youd do it all again
but lets be real 
you're proabably better off with him
you're probably better off with him

you're probably better off...

im drunk again
miss your face
just wish that i
was what you wanted...

Spotify

better off [+irby & jolst]

prod. me

lyrics:
i got a weak heart and wasted time 
I cant run from it so ill hide behind 
I rly wish I could tell u
I know u well but its jus somethin cant do 

rly whats the meanin of this 
im awake but inside im kinda bleedin and shit 
I wanna hide my face, dont wanna talk to u
I wanna run away dont wanna bother u 

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

baby dont scared 
Ima be there anyway dont give a fuck who cares
I dont give fuck im over it
I know im awkward and 
im sorry I cant be who u think I am
are u over me 
it gets hard when u get distant I cant rly see
what the fuck is goin on right in front of me  
im like hows ur day? can u tell me bout it
I feel like im in the way can u get me out of it

will I ever jus feel normal
or am I stuck wit this tmmr 
I dont think I can hold up

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

weak heart

spotify

I wrote this before I knew what mastering or a de-esser was lmao

lyrics

all that I could ever see myself being
is a deadweight, a nightmare, 
vicious rapture born a heathen
and the marks upon my flesh 
are rendered old yet evident 
there's an illness in my head
ok hold up, hold up, hold up

can I have a little bit of time to rewind?
try to calibrate and focus up my mind?
keep my cool and try to straighten out my spine
while shes with other guys 
and she's telling me lies
so I called it quits and went to kick back with the guys for the night
Suicidal u can see it in our eyes its alright
we just trying not to die for the night 
so we poison the sprite
and we let our hearts die

what the jesus-fuckin-christ is this?
I tried to write this song 3 times I said I knew my shit
it's crawling up my walls this illness lies inside my head
but I could not not be bothered 
no this life I still resent 
all the wasted time
Could've made it mine
I know u ain't really fuckin with this voice of mine
I call it a paradigm 
I'm not a prodigy 
it's just a part of me
I tried therapy but I guess I just hate to breathe 
I cannot change the past
these years move lightning fast
I cannot deal with this shit in my head anymore 
look at the blood
oh the blood on the floor
Good god

I cannot change the past
these years move lighting fast
I wonder if I'll last
I'm guessing not 
just judging by my past

l05t 1n 7h3 54uce (jolst x cherry)

<3
prod me

lyrics:

I try to pick the pieces up like I used to be able to.
I needa stop givin a fuck and honestly u do too
bc its pointless
this never ending fucking conflict its like poison to us
its killin us both and I cant fuckin wait to change
and face it on my own 
but u gon stay the same?
okay.. i guess I'm back alone

when my world turn grey 
I look for some answers 
and all that they say is 
come home

babe are u serious 
we cant hold a convo thats serious…
so distant 

what if I wake up and everyone hates well maybe they already do
cant help but tread past feelings I detached I feel a ghost sometimes 

“do u wanna talk about it?”
they treat me like bitch so I kinda highly doubt it.
I hope that all my brothers and girl dont flake cus im rly kinda fucked up and I cant find my place in this 

ghosttown 
I wish woulda knew what I know now
goin down
the spiral that im used to I know now

u told me u want me to stay away 
well maybe I will u 
cut my lips

cut my lips

cut my lips.

midnight freestyle (puhf x tennis player)

bit thanks @carlby and @oni_boy for hopping these track and of course shoutout to @eric-godlow

thanks for listening <3

idle hands (ft oni boy) [prod eric godlow]

paintings (ft carlby) [prod eric godlow]

Produced, Mixed, Mastered, & Written by me :)

Lyrics:
It's 4AM
How did I get here?
Stare at the moonlight I fear she won't wake up now ...
She's blacked out on the curbside
We're lost cause my phone died
I'm locked out my own ride
~
Vomit and blood
I'm high off the bud
She was too faded to notice I'm anxious
Patiently waiting
Derealization
My ego is fading
I'm hoping we'll make it out
~
Oh no It's catching up again ... 
The monster lurking from inside me when I'm caving in
I think that I can run away when I just smoke that potent 
But that just makes things worse
I cannot live inside the moment

lyrics
--------
i've been ridin thru the city in the dark while it's lifeless
inside this car is where i found my fucking light switch
stopped doing stupid shit like knife hits
this life isn't priceless
y'all back home the reason imma write this
you a lame lame
it's a shame shame
you took your picture
outta the frame frame
i thought you changed changed
you playin games games
i hardly know you
we ain't the same same
you tryna blame blame
oh what a claim claim
who is the person
that you became came
couldn't relate late
my path is paved paved
so i just packed up & got away way

a-okay
yeah i'm smiling with the sun in my face  
i said wait okay
now the rains pickin up tryna put me in my place
i said wait wait okay kay
borrowed time till im in a grave grave
gonna dig dig and they gon take take
the same ones attending my wake wake 

when the bass hit bass hit
i went back to basics
scrapped another album
i ain't working on no lame shit
genre clashing all the time but i ain't ever lane switch
some of you just play the role while i've been on the same shit
seven in the morning i'm just tryna start my day shit
whippin to the coffee shop the soundtrack on my playlist
horror film apparel chrismas carols on my feet though
peril sent the beat & i just hit it like a cheat code
flipped through all the pages read a story bout a hero
thought i could relate cause at one point he was a zero
time will tell my story if my time is one to borrow
live it how you want cause you might never wake tomorrow

never wake tomorrow all that's left is your achievements
fillin up my cup in hell along with all your grievance
-is it kinda funny how my death changed your perception
was it all coincidence or was it my intention?
deafening to most but some will understand the story
i don't want it all but i want outta purgatory
so it wrote a song or two in hopes that i could reach it
found another key inside my soul i'm playing defense
with it cause i gotta i don't wanna lose control
cause the weight of all the words excused sit still inside my soul
i'm mistreated by my friends sometimes so i stand all alone
i don't fuck with anybody it's a waste of what i know

i don't really think i know you you're a undeveloped mold
it's the people you hold close to you that treat you fucking cold
they stay plotting on the kid & take a bid on when i'll fold
then they wonder why i'm distant and so hard to get ahold
of the people in your life how many gotchu till the grave
probably one or two be honest with yourself and not ashamed
yeah the good ones hard to come across but when you do it's great
life is beautiful in solitude i really can't complain

borrowed time (prod. peril x suli x gwapmane)

lyrics:

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

I could do it all perfect and they’d still need more
I already quit once I won’t hide no more
Its lonely in ur head and I need the bottle to survive here
There are no fucking breaks I chose the path and ill die here
Oh u miss my pain well here’s the pain now clap
This shit feel the same as on that bridge when I had snapped
Eat ur fucking food u better enjoy it it cost souls
Im sitting in my room at 2am just drunk and stoned
Of course were all a bit fucked up that’s how it goes
But my job relies on being fucked up to go gold
The stress destroys me quickly but they love it so I stomach it
Abusing all this shit inside my body im in love with it
I cant hold relationships cause my body doesn’t work right
She touch me on my chest her hand went numb and she got frostbite
I been broken forever so u can treat me how u deem right
Vomit on my sweater Im throwing up because it feel nice
Its only right I give my wounds time to heal yea yea
I thought 150mg of Zoloft pills might help
I was wrong I was cursed from my birth I swear
This aint shit to fix with cigarettes and dyeing hair
I been out my mind since I got back on my meds
I cant even fuck or feel emotions in my head
I feel so alone inside this home that I built
This shit been my life every day it dont feel real

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love
Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

i start to rust (eric godlow)

prod @eric-godlow
I just want give a shout out to Eric for always believing in me from the beginning, i am nowhere close to where i want to be with my sound. Without Eric and my friends i dont think i would have kept making music so thank you <3

p.s. cover art by Fatih

lexapro // brain zaps freestyle (ericgodlow)

forgiveness (prod. taurs)

i can forgive but i won't forget
all the shitty things that u have said
i can make peace and i'll go to bed
i can forgive but i won't forget

i see the shit that u talk about me
trust me
i know- that these niggas doubt me
i dont need friends and i dont need love
being alone,
i find good enough

closed all the doors and swallowed the key
i swear that these fuckers are after me
what did i do to get all this hate?
i'll prove 'em wrong
and i just cant wait

all ur insults,
i have heard before
dont try to spin this- like im a whore
i'll take my love and i'll slam the door
you wanna reaction?
i say "no more"

i can forgive but i won't forget
all the shitty things that u have said
i can make peace and i'll go to bed
i can forgive but i won't forget

i can forgive but i won't forget
all the shitty things that u have said
i can make peace and i'll go to bed
i can forgive but i won't forget

closed all the doors and swallowed the key
i swear that these fuckers are after me
what did i do to get all this hate?
i'll prove 'em wrong
and i just cant wait

forgiveness (prod. taurs)

prod @taurs and @jolst

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy babe they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

is this true love 
gonna throw up
if u repeat that phrase
those 3 words make me go numb 
need to get up
been laying here all month
and this weight it holds me down
but the weed help me get up 

and thats ur man, is it?
hes kinda handsome,
well compared to me ur a muhfuckin damsel
think I got 2 greedy follow bread like im Hansel 
I fuckin hate this place and ur friends I cant stand
i can’t stand em 
x2

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy lil bitch they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

dead weight (taurs x jolst)

no consideration
no consideration
for ur future
just look at urself
all consideration
all consideration
for ur past
my nails ill bite fast
i wont ever get a bag
its no wonder im sad
i really didnt choose this
i really didnt
stuck in my room screaming till someday
i finally got what i want someway
slow
slow 
slow ur fuckin roll now
ur getting too caught up 
in the paper that u roll now
you can tell me anything
i promise that ill understand
yeah i know life sucks 
but just hang w me
gotta do so much just to get by
its really hard just to be happy
gotta do so much just to get by
its really hard just to be happy

no consideration (sogimura)

Produced, Mixed + Mastered by FRAN$E

Lyrics:
im sorry if im distant
i try my best
i know im not that consistent
its in my head
lately i been feeling different 
avoiding friends 
i know i do it to myself, a sabotage on my own health
i been distant
i try my best
i know im not that consistent
its in my head
lately i been feeling different 
avoiding friends 
i know i do it to myself, a sabotage on my own health

you could use me? never think twice
only call me when you need me, isnt that right? 
you’re my friend when it suits you
i don’t wanna talk it through but
i know there’s snakes up in my grass but I don’t cut it off
sever heads and lettem roll, I watched the body fall
If I need help I know that there’s nobody I could call
You say you care but when I need you you’re nowhere at all

im sorry if im distant
i try my best
i know im not that consistent
its in my head
lately i been feeling different 
avoiding friends 
i know i do it to myself, a sabotage on my own health
i been distant
i try my best
i know im not that consistent
its in my head
lately i been feeling different 
avoiding friends 
i know i do it to myself, a sabotage on my own health

Try My Best

Try My best

✞ spotify + apple ✞

if this is heaven [irby x recyclebin]

https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson
https://soundcloud.com/brevanti

SEWERPERSON//hook & verse

every day before sun rise
she would make me feel alright
now its just nothing
baby just gimme something
i could only see thru her eyes
now my vision is all mine
girl i know nothing
i was just bluffing
~
every time you call
i can not pick up
ya i see ur name
i just dont give a fuck
put me back in the game
watch me run it up
girl i hear it ring
you should just give it up
blue print
girl i got the plans
i wont give it up
chase me round my mind for days im fast as fuck and wired up
you could never catch what u couldnt see
this power in my soul i call my destiny

WEEPINGS//
 
yeah my destiny
my mind got the best of me
cold december nights she cuddled tight right next to me
now I'm all alone inside my dome a recipe (for disaster)
yes this music my escape; it be my therapy (just ask her)
weed it give me clarity
drowing in that henessey
~
memories - flood into my open eyes
Think about that iris, no I'd rather die
now I'm not the one whose lips carress those thighs

SEWERPERSON//hook

every day before sun rise
she would make me feel alright
now its just nothing
baby just gimme something
i could only see thru her eyes
now my vision is all mine
girl i know nothing
i was just bluffing

WEEPINGS//

Left me for another
baby girl whatchu been up to?
I've been steady drinking all the time
hope that you are fine
now that you 'don't got the time'
rose I sent you let decay
you said that you were mine
~
I've been up inside my mind
let the ocean waves clense my clouded haze
I've been up for 7 days, it's not looking great
yes that shawty said she loved me on the second date
I'm so fucking stupid, let myself think this was fate

let myself think this was fate
walking in the rain no coat just cloudy days
I don't got a brain to cope, a shallow cage
killed it with the grey goose a fit of rage
hate the mental abuse but I would stay
tieing up the 8th noose since saturday
I can't make myself shoot at my own brain
babe I wanna help you, you walked away

girl why did you walk away
I got nothing left to say
I've been trying everyday
but I can't forget that face

process

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