process

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lyrics:

(cyzun)
Everyone dying got me thinking bout death
I’m only 20 and I think that I’m next
Losing everybody is making me upset
I just wanna grab the gun and put it to my head 
All this paranoia makes me wanna feel it
I don’t think that anyone would care if I was dead
Even if I tried a suicide attempt 
I don’t wanna live my life with regrets
I don’t think I’ll ever understand it
Why do we live just to die and that’s it
All that fucking time thats gonna be wasted
Honestly that thought is making me pissed

(unknxwn.)
I don't wanna talk about the things that I did
I just wanna stop breathing, I'm sick of this shit
Everything I've thought I wanted, I got rid of it
Ain't nothing what it seems in life, can't wait till I'm picked

To die, I don't wanna be alive
But I got so much shit to do with my time
I got things to experience, life is an experiment
And I am a mad scientist, I'm tired of the crying shit

So alone, like where should I go now
I don't know, I think I should slow down
Take it step by step, and don't rush it
Everything that I have felt is all rushing in

(cyzun)
Everyone dying got me thinking bout death
I’m only 20 and I think that I’m next
Losing everybody is making me upset
I just wanna grab the gun and put it to my head 
All this paranoia makes me wanna feel it
I don’t think that anyone would care if I was dead
Even if I tried a suicide attempt 
I don’t wanna live my life with regrets

paranoia w/ unknxwn. (lxvesick)

Shout out @prodskellington ive always wanted to work with him. This is my favorite song by far. Enjoy <3

cover by fatih

Lyrics:

Rn now im fucked up
I think she is leaving
And that im doing to much
I dont get love
I brake my own damn heart
Just so i can feel some

She says i need to run 
But i dont give a fuck
Im tired of the waiting
Im tired of the lust
I just want someone
Who i can really love
I think i have had enough 

Rn now im fucked up
I think she is leaving
And that im doing to much
I dont get love
I brake my own damn heart
Just so i can feel some

im doing too much (skellington)

prod. me

lyrics:
i got a weak heart and wasted time 
I cant run from it so ill hide behind 
I rly wish I could tell u
I know u well but its jus somethin cant do 

rly whats the meanin of this 
im awake but inside im kinda bleedin and shit 
I wanna hide my face, dont wanna talk to u
I wanna run away dont wanna bother u 

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

baby dont scared 
Ima be there anyway dont give a fuck who cares
I dont give fuck im over it
I know im awkward and 
im sorry I cant be who u think I am
are u over me 
it gets hard when u get distant I cant rly see
what the fuck is goin on right in front of me  
im like hows ur day? can u tell me bout it
I feel like im in the way can u get me out of it

will I ever jus feel normal
or am I stuck wit this tmmr 
I dont think I can hold up

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

weak heart

spotify

midnight freestyle (puhf x tennis player)

lyrics:

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

I could do it all perfect and they’d still need more
I already quit once I won’t hide no more
Its lonely in ur head and I need the bottle to survive here
There are no fucking breaks I chose the path and ill die here
Oh u miss my pain well here’s the pain now clap
This shit feel the same as on that bridge when I had snapped
Eat ur fucking food u better enjoy it it cost souls
Im sitting in my room at 2am just drunk and stoned
Of course were all a bit fucked up that’s how it goes
But my job relies on being fucked up to go gold
The stress destroys me quickly but they love it so I stomach it
Abusing all this shit inside my body im in love with it
I cant hold relationships cause my body doesn’t work right
She touch me on my chest her hand went numb and she got frostbite
I been broken forever so u can treat me how u deem right
Vomit on my sweater Im throwing up because it feel nice
Its only right I give my wounds time to heal yea yea
I thought 150mg of Zoloft pills might help
I was wrong I was cursed from my birth I swear
This aint shit to fix with cigarettes and dyeing hair
I been out my mind since I got back on my meds
I cant even fuck or feel emotions in my head
I feel so alone inside this home that I built
This shit been my life every day it dont feel real

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love
Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

i start to rust (eric godlow)

prod @eric-godlow
I just want give a shout out to Eric for always believing in me from the beginning, i am nowhere close to where i want to be with my sound. Without Eric and my friends i dont think i would have kept making music so thank you <3

p.s. cover art by Fatih

lexapro // brain zaps freestyle (ericgodlow)

Lyrics:
i know im always saying that i wanna die
but what i really mean is i dont wanna cry
if i could go back and manipulate the time
then i could maybe change the way we see our lives

if i could save you id do everything i can
if i could go back to that moment, take a stand
you know i love you so it makes me really mad
that nothing i could do could take away the past

but now im here and we're okay, i promise each and every day
ill keep you right here by my side until our demons fade away
ill always need you next to me because i feel like easy prey
and if i wake up from a nightmare then you make me feel okay

yeah you make me feel okay
x4

i swear i wanna live if you're here by my side
you always wanna hear the thoughts i keep inside
and all the scary corners deep inside my mind
i promise baby that im really doing fine

cause now i know i got a reason to survive
because your smile and your laugh keeps me alive
i wanna get up but i never have the drive
until you look at me and i know im alright

You Make Me Feel OK

you make me feel ok (prod. splashgvng)

https://nfan.link/jolly-wrld
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Sad Chill video - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oRSfLaYdsvk

https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson
https://soundcloud.com/polaven
https://soundcloud.com/s-nset-b-y

Lyrics:

Sewerperson-

Talk about a long night
I was on the phone and even her voice gave me frostbite
I cant feel my face let alone my emotions
I put all my pain into my hands to pour this potion
I was fucked by 9:30
Still I hold a convo
You had done me so dirty
But I kept it confidential
She had tossed me out the window like she was something special
I would hit u back still if it wasn’t for my mental
Give me time
I was one of them I thought I wouldn’t do it
But shit just change abruptly when u going thru it
I still cant believe my dream been more than lucid 
But I just drown the doubts inside these purple fluids
Take me and try to break they never could before
I found a spot to think now up on this meteor
Tell me how I could fix u and I will give it my all
Ill make that my goal until im nothing but a skull

polaven-

What do you want from me
I'm so fucked up, can't you see
I'm so lost in you, but you never lost in me 
What do you want from me
I'm so fucked up, can't you see
I'm so lost in you, but you never lost in me
I know this isn't right, but I put too much time into us
And I will die, if you leave me cuz I'm on the cuff
Of leaving, this earth from breathing
Where will I go? When Im gone? Fuck

Ekeon-

Oh fuck, fuck, fuck
Everywhere I look, I see a ghost
Vision blurry like a nightmare
Oh outta luck, luck, luck
Feelings run deep, like a knife
I could die there
I'm so gone, she's so gone
Take it, I don't wanna leave
But I'm all wasted, I don't wanna die
I just wanna lie, say goodbye to one last night

polaven-

What do you want from me
I'm so fucked up, can't you see
I'm so lost in you, but you never lost in me 
What do you want from me
I'm so fucked up, can't you see
I'm so lost in you, but you never lost in me

Lost in You w/ Sewerperson, polaven & Ekeon (p. JOLLY WRLD x Vesta)

lyrics:


Gimme the quick revive cause my hearts done
When love is the focal point u bun the outcome
Im surprised to see at this function
Cause last time we were close u left my soul numb

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

I heal these wounds with plenty of alcohol
And now im sure I wouldn’t miss u at all on me
Until I think about the nights u were all on me
Oh my god
Alone at 3am in my bed I just miss you
The ghost of u can hit hard
If it weren’t for these drugs Id be gone
I hate that This drink give me courage to push on

Red leaves Fall fast
Us two Won’t last
Friction and Kickback
Good things Will Turn bad
No one had checked on me at my lowest point
So I developed on my own that’s why im to the point yea
Bedbug bites were on my thighs and back oh its bad
Plus people tried to put a price right on top my head

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

tbh (eric godlow)

hi<3

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic v talented prod 

enjoy:)

lyrics:
my necks sore, holding up
weight, from my mental it still brings me down
i cant ignore it, but i cant make it stop
i just cant find a reason to give a fuck

alright, ok, ive had it
waste a new day, damn thats tragic
alright, ok
(alright, ooo)
alright, ok, im not me
i want to leave my body
and really im so sorry, i dont know what to do

my chest sinks, im used to it
i was on the brink, you picked me up, dont mean shit now.
oh you overthink? well so does everyone
now im on the ropes, feel it slip, falling down

i get this feeling makes my head spin
i cant really explain just how its been
im so sorry for the distance
i try my best for everyone who listens

honestly cant show up, nah
too busy in my head, numb
try my best to show love, so
you know im always here
um, i kno that i care, but to me it feels you dont
really understand me

alright, ok

alright, ok (branwen x splashgvng)

ｎｏ　ａｉｒ，　ｂｕｔ　ｓｏｍｅｈｏｗ　ｉ　ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ

prod by my guy @solofttt
fucking love you all.
more on the way
stay strong
take care; drink water
try to get some rest.
thank you for being here

too much
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways

that's the price that i'll pay
not to be overcome by my emotions
a hallow frame, left to be hung on it's own
where nobody'll noticed it's changed
feel that pain of your confusion
and just turn it into music
orchestrations of my patience
retrospective-made illusions

just be cautious not to lose it
'cause some bitch said something stupid
trust me, god i know it hurts
but know your worth and keep on moving
somewhere in the sky
just go outside and raise your head
there's reclusive ways to cleanse yourself
without this constant dread
but this toxin's running deeper
i don't know how long i'll last
i misplaced my faith with hatred
as i'm staring down the glass
i ain't hitting you up like i know you (but i do)
but i'm up a few notches, i'll understand
'cause the past, it haunts you (it does)
i try to reach out, but i got ghost hands

felt too much
now i don't feel enough
felt too much
i may have dove a little deep in the ocean
for my lungs,
couldn't handle the pressure that they had been holding
y'all folding, but i'm focused
honestly i feel omnipotent
only when i get my hands on the potion
or i'm broken, i'm not joking
but maybe if i break daylight, then i'll get shit done
and i'll feel alright
with a tone so stale there was no real cry
on a blood-stained trail, we still bleed overnight
fuck, i bet that you feel it again
incisions embellish your skin
and now you're all alone again
deprived of the people you thought were your friends
i made a couple calls, did they go through?
it ain't fair, i really don't wanna miss you
take care, i'll be blowing on tissues
no air, but, somehow i breathe through
it's 4 in the morning, my guardian's snoring
i'm sorry i lied, i've been sippin away
i'd make me some porridge, but puke it by morning
the cycle is horrid, but i ain't complain

indefinite pain ain't just part of my day
it's been shrouding my brain
like a vulturous gate
this shit's an escape
i'm always afraid
of being locked out of my own mental state
try not to run away just yet, i feel you
breaching my skin, for the meantime

too much 
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways
(anyways)

woodworks [prod. soloft]

guitar by magicDz

love y'all a ton.
thank you for listening
thank you for being here, truly
hope you enjoy

ep postponed, but i got a lot else i've been working on
yea



take me apart
reassemble and recharge what you erased
no regards
zip my lip, i cannot communicate

above every scent they embellish
it's rotten, yet fresh, so i cannot repel it

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

(i don't) i don't wanna feel this bitter
but i don't wanna rock that mask, no
redacting myself from the present when i wanna end it
pelt dust at my mental
cavities build in my dental
skipping toothpaste for the mentos
everything felt so common
i hurt so often; bent like a stencil

caffeination, isolation, what a cycle, what a day
couple people that i talk to; very seldom light the way
i do it myself it seems
shot down like it's belomancy

sat recluse in my room every noon, glued to youtube
if i had somebody special, it'd be them too
won't you settle down and tell me what you're going through
call me up for once, 'cause honestly you never do
so when the clock strikes, i feel the curse so tight
staying up 'till it's twilight
green flash in my eyesight
black cat in the moonlight
waving bye when i'm boutta cry
i hit you up 'cause i had to cry
spirit guide lurkin' hindsight

drill in my head, got a shovel in my chest
but i leave it like that, let it grow like grass
i'm a fucked up kid, can't live in the past
and the moment don't last, break shit when i laugh
no meds and i'm gassed, but deflate real fast
real friends hit back, understand where i'm at?
why you treat 'em like ass though?
do you got a moat for the castle?
been down every ounce, now i'm fragile
she had meant so much, what a hassle
days into weeks, now months
stolen my crutch
fuck it i'll hunch
punching my gut 'till the air flows
cornering stare with an echo
licking the tip of the arrow
wove in a rope like a pharaoh
sooner than late i won't care, no

like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

weak heart

kais

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