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A Soul Collection: Songs of the week (Vol. I)

digidays

songs that people made using my free youtube beats :)
http://youtube.com/aquaedit

prod. cobalt

ｃｎｔ ｃｏｍｐａｒｅ ｔｏ ｈｉｍ． (Prod. Cobalt)

tragic (prod. cobalt)

[Chorus]
Getting so bored, it's the same every day
I just cant watch while it falls into place
trapped in my mind while my body decays
Said, "I switched up", why the fuck would I change?
Getting so bored, it's the same every day
I just cant watch while it falls into place
trapped in my mind while my body decays
Said, "I switched up", why the fuck would I change?

[Verse]
I know I'm not perfect
I didn't deserve this
the purpose you gave me has all been forgot

You act in reaction
surprised when it happened
The passion that was. it was all just a front

You're not the same person
who took all my burdens
turning and twisting them all into dust

Your holding the matches that led to these ashes
the gas in your actions, a knife to the gut

[Chorus]
Getting so bored, it's the same every day
I just cant watch while it falls into place
trapped in my mind while my body decays
Said, "I switched up", why the fuck would I change?
Getting so bored, it's the same every day
i just can't watch while it falls into place
trapped in my mind while my body decays
Said, "I switched up", why the fuck would I change?

Decay (prod. Cobalt)

lyrics:
one day i will 
get drunk and txt you 
and i’ll say 
and i’ll say 
that i want you 
lets get coffee 
when you’re down 
when you’re down 
yeah you scare me 
the nicest person 
i will wait 
i will wait 
dali said that 
you want me also 
will you say 
will you say 

i thought no one would think about me 
but it’s not surprising that 
you thought about me 
i thought 
you’d feel like an ocean all reactive 
and lucid in emotion why’d you think 
about me

salvia palth - girl

music video: https://youtu.be/WLmP3M_SIoI

lyrics:

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

twinkle twinkle twinkle you know im a fuckin star
twinkle twinkle twinkle you dont know just what you are
gotta find my way back home i think its getting dark
but home is where your heart is and you know that i dont got a heart

keyblade on my back i never need a strap
bankai on my lap im always on attack
flexin all these bands you know that shit is wack
tired of this shit im boutta take a nap

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

im a waste of space yea all i ever do is lie
i dont understand why you give me your fuckin time
blowin up my phone they know i wont ever reply
pls just leave me alone im just a waste of time

darkness stands alone i know the light will guide us home
but i cant help but feel like ima fuckin die alone
if you fuck w me hold me down like a dialtone
youre the reason why i always stay up on my phone

stay up on my phone
please just take me home
youre the reason why i always stay up on my phone
stay up on my phone
i feel so alone
youre the reason why i never can put down my phone

i got angels hovering above my fuckin head
i got heart eyes for this lil shawty in my head
wake up every morning thinkin that im fuckin dead
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed

stay inside my bed
this never fuckin ends
makes me wonder why i dont just stay inside my bed
stay inside my bed
im inside her head
makes me wonder why id rather talk to you instead

sea salt ice cream (✿◠‿◠) [visual in desc.]

not a remix, this is how the song was originally intended to be <3 im so happy we made it happen. shout out lbc for being a great artist and a great human.

w 
https://soundcloud.com/lilbootycall
https://soundcloud.com/saysooo

mixed by 
https://soundcloud.com/lilpolearm

lyrics: 
Gasp -
1 2 
123 
I just need u here w me 
I just hope that we can make 
so let’s lay here 
and wish on stars (x2)
I just sit and look at the waves
Seen serenity and beauty when I look at ur face 
Dancing thru reflections remind me of adolescence and I don’t know what I’m feeling but the feeling is great 
Ay u just remind me of Summer
Like I been thinking baby maybe u could come be my lover 
And we could spend time w each other 
watching fireflies glide thru the sky up above us 
Ur my dearly beloved and I could never ever ever see my self w another 
We could fall in love w each other , I feel the watercolors comin from the sky up above us 
We can dance on the beach, and motion of the tide will coincide w the beat 
Honestly u all that I see that moonlight shine as u smile at me 
I hear that  1 2 3  thats my heart beat 
And we can wish on stars that will make it far 
And we can sleep away all the rainy days
 And I just feel so safe when ur here w me 
lilbootycall-
oh man i’m sick and tired of all this hate 
sometimes i just wanna drive far away 
get up out my mind for a minute 
i been feeling trapped feel like imma die while i’m living 
ah damn 
man i ain’t shit to no one 
i’m a bitch? it takes one to know one 
lately i been on my shit 
tell them cloning mothafuckas they can suck my dick 
cause they b on it more than my girl 
who make me wanna kill myself 
yeah the whole world 
who make me wanna love myself 
yeah the gold things 
cause i usually don’t when 
i think of old things 

ah man 
man look at my shoes 
and they off white bitch 
and they are brand new 
and i got zip ties 
around my old neck
i gotta end my old self if i want next on god

an ocean of stars couldn't keep us apart *:･ﾟ✧╰(◡‿◡✿╰) w/lilbootycall (prod sayso! x kavv)

2 blessed 2 be depressed freestyle :-)

@adny-disgraci

lyrics:
black and white is comfortable cuz the grey is always a silver lining
i'm used to watching the cars pass and seeing my life flash by behind me
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now

[adny]
stab me in the back now
i'm workin' hard but they keep tellin' me to back down
every step, every move i make they always crack down
they say you'll never make it till you make it out of that town
every day is rain i just feel like king cyrus
everywhere i go i always feel like there's a bias
i'm thinking this'll never go away like a virus
and i'm still feeling blue like my iris
no i'm not syre
i don't smoke so i'm not gettin' higher
i've been feeling low talkin' flat like a tire
you told me you love me but i know that you're a liar
i hope this comes back to haunt you
for consolation yeah i still want you 
but every time i speak about you i'm still gonna taunt you
baiting, berating, i'm stuck here decaying at 16
i think i should start medicating, i hate it

black and white is comfortable cuz the grey is always a silver lining
i'm used to watching the cars pass and seeing my life flash by behind me
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now (x2)

silver lining w/ adny

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@ihateshinigami

Slow Buzz

Dripping

how you do that? w/ savagega$p (prod eris)

shoutout kais for making this with me 
follow him: @https://soundcloud.com/ripkais

lonely eyes (w/ kais) (prod. caspr)

This is a re-upload of a song that was deleted by vivant and he gave me permission to re-upload it! Yay!

get me out my head w/ schwarzie (prod. vivant)

prod. jakkyboí 
https://soundcloud.com/jakkyboi
lately everything has been about u bb ):

💙 yung scuff X jakkyboí 💖 - U DO U

This dread we live in. Produced by lullabyboy and @ghxstkid

Lyrics:

Verse 1

I don’t really want to let go,
Walking over graves of people I have never known.
Yeah I know I’m nothing,
Much,
To look at,
But,
I love you more than,
I seem to act back.
You’re wasting all your time on me,
You know that I appreciate you more than I appreciate myself...
You know that I appreciate you more than I appreciate myself

Chorus:

Won’t you stay
This dread
I’m shaking

I’m shaking x2

This dread I’m shaking

Verse 2

I just need your company,
Help me get out of bed,
I hope I’ll be alright, 
I’m showing signs of losing time.
How easy my heart breaks,
Don’t want to wake up
Yeah wake up
Yeah wake up 
For a while...
This dread I take,
I can’t erase...
But I’m hoping for better days,
I hope this goes my way...

Dread

SPOTIFY LINK

Dread.

i rlly love this song and i’ve always wanted to cover it and i finally had the opportunity to so here it is. i mess up a lil bit but it’s alright yknow every one makes mistakes 🦦 i hope u guys like it , love everyone of y’all 💖(i didn’t do the outro btw i’m sorry😔and sorry the intro so long LOL)

blondie by current joys (btt cover)

I DONT play piano anymore sorry its rough

Lyrics:
 i feel nervous in this house
i think it’s what i can’t remember (that scares me)
but i sit here  all day
waiting for the sun to shine through
 the thin yellow paper covering the windows
hiding me from the birds

and i 
am out 
of tune
but let me sing for you
Let me sing for you
Let me sing you
i 
am out of tune 
but let me try 
let me try
and i 
have a LOT to say
you better listen up
listen up
to my voice riding high 
carrying waves
carrying water to wash away my worrying
i won’t let you down
i won’t let you down 
this time
i won’t let you go away
Don’t leave me alone 
With this paper hiding me from the sung

interlude

(Chorus)
i am holding 
on to the best parts of myself 
while the other pieces fall away
i am gardening 
i am pulling out the weeds
i am what’s left of me
what’s left of me
Give me time 
Give it time


Watch me grow
Through the roof
Into the sky
I see the sunshine now
Its bright its bright its bright
Im not used to the glow
My skin is hot and red
But I wont go 
I wont go


(Chorus)
i am holding 
on to the best parts of myself 
while the other pieces fall away
i am gardening 
i am pulling out the weeds
i am what’s left of me
what’s left of me
Give me time 
Give it time

gardening (2017)  demo

Promoting Sound: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f-u020DJPYU
SauceOnly: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOv0ZidiSbY

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6ONLtSLiz9e2C8kEmSIklX
---
@rarinmusic @kvnny @sydcxx prod @vannydd
mixed/mastered by (@rarinmusic + @Jayavem)

art by @GLXSGXW

Lyrics:
rarin:
i can't sleep right through the night
cuz you got my thoughts up in ties
i can't feel pain
i can't feel life
i don't feel sane
im paralyzed yeah 
baby come back
return to the past
i just really miss you
i don't really want the cash x2
--
kenny:
it’s just the blind leading the blind
but shit it happens all the time nowdon’t know what you got in mind
tryna figure out what’s up in mine nowi feel like a shell of who i once was
i’m so sick and tired of falling into bad love
been to hell but i ain’t never make it back up
i really wish i stayed away from the bad drugswhy’s it so hard to changei been needing a break
but i just can’t get awayi been counting the days
but nothing change but my banki pushed my loved ones away
i think i made a mistakei’ll fucking bend till i break
but i been feeling the strain
--
rarin:i can't sleep right through the night
cuz you got my thoughts up in ties
i can't feel pain
i can't feel life
i don't feel sane
im paralyzed yeah 
baby come back
return to the past
i just really miss you
i don't really want the cash x2--
sydcxx:
feelin better when you’re gone
got a minute to myself now
ill be empty later on
take a breath and let it out nowI used to think that your love would mean something to me
but I can’t feel a thing and I’m dying to sleep
I put my heart on a shelf
don’t wanna help myselftime don’t heal all the things that they say so
sky not clear and I don’t got a raincoat
three more days til I do what I came for
don't be scared I just don’t wanna live no more
--
rarin & sydcxx:
i can't sleep right through the night
cuz you got my thoughts up in ties
i can't feel pain
i can't feel life
i don't feel sane
im paralyzed yeah  
baby come back
return to the past
i just really miss you
i don't really want the cash x2

Paralyzed

Paralyzed (Feat. Kenny & Sydcxx)

SPOTIFY

Paralyzed (Ft. Rarin, Kenny & Sydcxx)

surprise song, had a bit of creativity tonight.

whats the problem go and live a life you hate
loose ties
almost threw up
saw your face
yeah theres memories that keep me far away
but reality it puts me in my place
ive been thinking bout your words
how you say
if you mean it
would you stay
give me a chance 
let me prove
i could do
everything that he could do
what could he do I couldn't do


got a feelin in my stomach
how you say
useless felt like i was in the way
got a history of feeling out of place
but you knew that
said you loved me 
never went out your way just to prove that

x2

what's the problem go and live a life you hate (prod.cobalt)

play dead! w/ kennedyxoxo (prod. cobalt)

threw this together last night, hope you enjoy :)

dichotomy (prod. cobalt)

I see passion in disguise I still hate 2 say goodbye , im goin luv u til I d1e


(yea this off dome but its cool sleep on me)

Luv u til i d1e ;(

- CREDITS -
PRODUCED BY SORROW BRINGER & DYLAN "HOROSHA" HARRIS
LYRICS BY CARL "CARLBY" LODOEN, BABYBLADE & DEEPREST
MIXED & MASTERED BY DYLAN "HOROSHA" HARRIS
LOGO BY DEAD & DETACHED

Listen on Spotify!

Face First w/ BABYBLADE & deeprest (Prod. sorrow bringer)

I had to speed it up a bit due to copyright issues. normal speed is on my youtube channel, link in bio. <3

thx for the feature https://soundcloud.com/dosteyboi

prod. by: https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997
https://soundcloud.com/shrpnss

cover by: https://soundcloud.com/prodbyacustik and https://soundcloud.com/jjhyphen

All I Want (w/ Dosteyboi)

produced by @fantasycamp
-- lyrics --
Sad in the VIP

I used to have emotions that made me smile
Now they all make me sad
I been goin thru the motions for awhile
And I’m starting to get mad
I been swimming in the ocean for miles
And it won’t let me go back
I been gettin that cash by the pile
And it really don’t change the fact...

(hook)
I’m sad in the VIP section
I’m sad in the VIP
I’m sad in the VIP section
I’m sad in the VIP
I'm sad in the VIP section
Like a phone with no reception
I'm sad in the VIP section
I'm alone with no connections

Except the plug and he gotta great selection
fourth rollie presidential no election
Can’t move one damn muscle wit out flexing
So why im finna take this Fn 
and blow my f’in brains out?
When I can make it rain now?
Why can't i deal wit the pain? wow...
Even my drip so hard I feel drained out
She sliced me down the middle and left me on display now...

I'm sad in the VIP
I wanna leave let me d-i-p
Here's a few racks for the t-i-p
Sure they can drink a little more for free...

(hook)
I’m sad in the VIP section
I’m sad in the VIP
I’m sad in the VIP section
I’m sad in the VIP
I'm sad in the VIP section
Like a phone with no reception
I'm sad in the VIP section
I'm alone with no connections

I used to have emotions that made me smile
Now they all make me sad
I been goin thru the motions for awhile
And I’m starting to get mad
I been swimming in the ocean for miles
And it won’t let me go back
I been gettin that cash by the pile
And it really don’t change the fact...

(background chorus during last hook)
Say what u want I’ll cry if I’m sad
I’m in Saint Laurent my arms covered in tats
I never really cared if they cared about that
I just really really care I’m in VIP and I’m so sad

(hook)
I’m sad in the VIP section
I’m sad in the VIP
I’m sad in the VIP section
I’m sad in the VIP
I'm sad in the VIP section
Like a phone with no reception
I'm sad in the VIP section
I'm alone with no connections

sad in the VIP

sad in the VIP (prod by fantasy camp)

(prod. Rinne)
Lyrics: 
Why does everything that's good always leave 
Consumed in the pain and it's gonna kill me 
Do you even understand anything that I say 
I don't think that you do can you help me dig my grave 

These vivid memories they come every night 
Paralyzed in so much fright 
What the fuck is wrong with me 

So much pain is it my fault
Did i do this to myself 
It’s okay if you wanna put me back on the shelf x2 

Why does everything that's good always leave 
And unlike the leaves on the trees 
You won’t come back oh you wont come back for me 
should of seen long ago that your not who you try to be 
Now I pay the price of all your lies 
With all these stupid fucking tears I cry 

Why does everything that's good always leave 
Consumed in the pain and it's gonna kill me 
Do you even understand anything that I say 
I don't think that you do can you help me dig my grave 
I just need to find a way to ease the pain

vivid memories (prod.Rinne)

Jadū Dala. The Magical Music Outfit.

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/575OuOsM1lkvH0SgszI9MS?si=VS8vx4tsS6Kc3OOuaQHchA

DISCORD: https://discord.gg/abCeqkEnpe

MIRZHA
@mirzhamusic
instagram.com/mirzha_music
twitter.com/mirzhamusic

LUV 3020

Free Download

MIRZHA - LUV 3020 (JADŪ152)

cloak n dagger

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
--------
hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

dichotomy (prod. cobalt)

data ★ star