lmk if you need youtube placement <3 I make amv's for the lows

old track i thought i had lost but found!!!
thank u 2 @decksmusic for hopping on this and @soberblu for producing it!!!!

NESS (feat. decks) (+sxberblu)

trust me w/ cavasoul (prod. eric godlow)

follow those involved <33

(me)
twitter.com/whywewish
instagram.com/whywewish/

(kanashi)
@kanashisadface
instagram.com/kanashisadface/
twitter.com/kanashisadface

(jolst)
@jolst
www.instagram.com/prodjolst/
https://twitter.com/prodjolst

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/track/1LZOQcw0hTIlpUCZ0mhYXl?si=5b430952a2174ab2

(p. jolst)

~lyrics~

(hook)
ill be okay, ill be okay..
i might as well just get it tatted on my face
but that wont change things 
ill still be waiting 
for the day this smile aint a masquerade
cuz i been waiting, for a new thing 
since the day that u walked away
but this shit aint the same
im fuckin done playing these games

(verse 1)
another day spent alone 
woke up 5pm, not a text on my phone
gettin too high, cuz ive never felt this low
swear i wanna x myself, but i dont know how to go
when u tell him u love him, u better mean it
no one deserves this same negative treatment 
if u hate me, then baby just say how ur feeling
ill scream ur name whilst i hang from my ceiling 

(hook)
ill be okay, ill be okay..
i might as well just get it tatted on my face
but that wont change things 
ill still be waiting 
for the day this smile aint a masquerade
cuz i been waiting, for a new thing 
since the day that u walked away
but this shit aint the same
im fuckin done playing these games

(verse 2) [kanashi]
hold on wait, baby i dont wanna say it 
like omg ur always fuckin playin
i been trapped inside of my own head
layin on what used to be ur side of the bed
its okay, its alright, dont need you.. ill be fine
its okay, its alright, ill move on this time

(hook)
ill be okay, ill be okay..
i might as well just get it tatted on my face
but that wont change things 
ill still be waiting 
for the day this smile aint a masquerade
cuz i been waiting, for a new thing 
since the day that u walked away
but this shit aint the same
im fuckin done playing these games

spotify

"i'll be okay" w/ kanashī

ᴡʀɪᴛᴛᴇɴ ʙʏ - kii
ᴘʀᴏᴅᴜᴄᴇᴅ ʙʏ - @sadboiforever & @jolst
ᴍᴀꜱᴛᴇʀᴇᴅ ʙʏ kii
ᴍɪxᴇᴅ ʙʏ - kii
ᴄᴏᴠᴇʀ ʙʏ - kii
MADE DECEMBER 2021

shakes when you wake me up

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

Spotify

myfault. [+metlast & 5head]

@karnmp3
Beat produced by Saylo Beats
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TIME CHANGE (ft. Karn)

Spotify link-

https://open.spotify.com/album/4ykkGMsGj8AIjBR0dKIvY4?si=S3NODJyGSRaYlOME-pl-BA

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Deja Vu w/ Yokai Dreams

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

beat prod by: breakupbreakdown
written and performed by: popularreject x fernn
mixed and mastered by: p0wder x fernn
lyrics;
like
Like 
LIKE 
I got pages full of songs 
That you don’t like 
Right?
Right.
OH 
hey 
Hi 
Don’t think that I’ve seen you
Since I lost my mind
like 
Like
LIKE 
You hangout with people
I don’t like 
Right?
Right.

Fessing 
Stressing 
Wrestling 
At the bottom 
Didn’t 
Want 
Those pills 
But I still bought em
I 
Don’t 
Love my life
that’s awesome 

FUCK YEA
Hadn’t had enough yet
You say my musics trash
Yours sounds like two dudes 
Having but seggs 
I’m so fuckin hungry like 
I didn’t eat my lunch yet 
He think that it’s funny 
Till I leave his family upset 

like
Like 
LIKE 
I got pages full of songs 
That you don’t like 
Right?
Right.
OH 
hey 
Hi 
Don’t think that I’ve seen you
Since I lost my mind
like 
Like
LIKE 
You hangout with people
I don’t like 
Right?
Right.

Fessing 
Stressing 
Wrestling 
At the bottom 
Didn’t 
Want 
Those pills 
But I still bought em
I 
Don’t 
Love my life
that’s awesome 

watch this girl strip her shit like varnish
swear to god that im tarnished
antisocial to the point that it's alarming
all these hoes are interaction farming

watch me hit on a bih
nobody fucking with me
wanna get a release
when i hit the concrete
omg you act so sweet
but it's always full of deceit
thought you were being indiscreet
bitch you like a dog in heat

FUCK YEA
Hadn’t had enough yet
You say my musics trash
Yours sounds like two dudes 
Having butt seggs 
I’m so fuckin hungry like 
I didn’t eat my lunch yet 
FUCK YEA

like
Like 
LIKE 
I got pages full of songs 
That you don’t like 
Right?
Right.
OH 
hey 
Hi 
Don’t think that I’ve seen you
Since I lost my mind
like 
Like
LIKE 
You hangout with people
I don’t like 
Right?
Right.

but secs +1fern (p. breakupbreakdown)

@strivemusicau
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(TNS)
It’s hard to find a thousand ways to wake up 
When everything inside my head is a bad thought

Anxiety just fills my head
A thousand ways to just forget 

Ain’t nothing is worth it when your in my bed 
Your stuck in the sky while your in my head 

And I’m still scared when I wake up 
A thousand ways for us to make up 

(strivesad)
I miss the stars and symphonies
My racing heart and pretty things
fell apart into my memories
So can we

taste it all it’s bittersweet
It’s me and her the remedy
it’s me and her that perfectly fit with the way that we’re living

The weak sleeps as she weeps through the wasted mental
state of mind while I’m wasting time it’s either now or the afterlife
and there’s a thousand ways of saying that I really tried 
I keep to myself almost every night 

I thought that you would notice
from the fake smiles on my photos
lack of seretonin I hope it comes back so I can focus on
the things I knew that got away
The pain my mind is suffering
I wish to see more better days
and focus on recovering

I’m holding onto to hope and
All the things that help me cope with
all the stress will keep me smoking
bacco cause the stress has got me going
flowing back into my old habits
I hate the fact I’m slowly sink into my old mattress

(TNS)
It’s hard to find a thousand ways to wake up 
When everything inside my head is a bad thought

Anxiety just fills my head
A thousand ways to just forget 

Ain’t nothing is worth it when your in my bed 
Your stuck in the sky while your in my head 

And I’m still scared when I wake up 
A thousand ways for us to make up

NESS (feat. decks) (+sxberblu)

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