@1anvii
@raegun240
and also a line from emmaly
additional production from anvii

(anvii)
i know u wont come back
cuz all i see is that blue sea
there is no going back, no

(raegun)
the smell of asphalt fills my lungs
the burns on your neck take shape on my tongue 
burnt cigarettes on my back
you slipped and fell through the cracks 
we’ll never get that time back

marigold w/ anvii + raegun

Avaliable on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5f8wXeQdrJBWStxqVC26KD?si=adcccc72fb194708

me on the guitar


[Verse 1]
You'll say it hurts for me to leave
i dont think thats true at all
the pain that you will feel is less
when u got friends to talk to
i retreat
i guess im beat
i retreat
guess im defeated

youll draw art for him and he'll like it
and i'll take the hint while im crying
i guess its a sin this shit im typing
though im feeling pissed i should 
keep these feelings to myself

[Bridge]
wasnt smart
for me to invest my health
into someone
i dont really want

[Chorus]
am i petty for wanting ur energy
i give it all to u but
this is not reciprocal
ik u care for me but its entropy when
ur not living up

am i petty for wanting ur energy
i give it all to u but
this is not reciprocal
ik u care for me but its entropy when
ur not living up

[Verse 2]
ull say it hurts for me to leave
i dont think thats true at all
the pain that you will feel is less
when u got friends to talk to
i retreat
i guess im beat
i retreat
guess im defeated

[Beat change]
You give me the
backhand of your love
you take me for granted
theres no trust
feeling all my senses
go to shit
now im lost, nothings there
I'm stuck with this

[Chorus]
am i petty for wanting ur energy
i give it all to u but
this is not reciprocal
ik u care for me but its entropy when
ur not living up

am i petty for wanting ur energy
i give it all to u but
this is not reciprocal
ik u care for me but its entropy when
ur not living up

[End]
ull say it hurts for me to leave
i dont think thats true at all
the pain that you will feel is less
when u got friends to talk to
i retreat
i guess im beat
i retreat
guess im defeated

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Petty

road trip log 1: the start of big mouth's downward spiral, i think... :/

@wishlane

doom signal

stream

doom signal w/ wishlane

8/23

lyrics:
you only call me when you're drunk
you only text me when you're high & all alone
and after all these years i'm stuck
and i'll come over with the message from my phone
cause you told me
it's not what it seems
but it could be
you're pulling the strings to control me
just a puppet and the master
and i'm wrapped around your fingers
is it obvious, i'm falling for you
need no audience to tell you the truth
i'd do anything just to make you mine
oh, this time
oh, this time
and it's obvious i live in a dream
where everything is not what it seems
and i'd do anything just to make you mine
oh, this time
oh, this time
oh, this time
oh, this time
you told me
it's not what it seems
but it could be
you're pulling the strings to control me
just a puppet and the master
and i'm wrapped around your fingers

puppet master

he had a thing for dual titles earlier in his work, grew out of it though

i remember that night on christmas eve, we had almost called the police department after he'd been missing for 2 days, but he came back to the house around 3am. Mom and dad interrogated the hell out of the poor kid as to where he'd been but he wouldn't let up. Locked himself in his room all night and i'm assuming recorded this (judging by the dates from the folder), but i wasn't awake. Zion never seemed the type to get into substances, and he didn't display signs indicative of it anyway, but it had to have been something significant. He didn't talk for a good few months afterwards. I just wish he would've opened up to me, but being the youngest sibling i was generally disregarded. I try not to hold it against him, but it's more difficult than i'd like to admit sometimes.

treading the marish

I hold the brume close to me, but her body’s not like mine 
Plaiting the cordage  
run my hands through the fireweed 
haled out in flume

two eyes, four legs, white scales, sharp fangs,
pitching, dorsal, ivory, rippling 
sleighting, subsumed

when she breached the water
I knew I’d seen something that shouldn't be
but when she breached the water
I felt real

choice_scarf//breach♕♖♗♘♚♛♜♝♞♟dec2011.wav

https://ffm.to/basalt 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

everything is different now
_______________________________________________

blood it crusts the mantle, sequence in stairs

tephra crests the marrow, applique if she cared

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me i won't open wide
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

and i told you that day, and the rust fell that may,
and the ash coned and the steel groaned saw your visage through the smoke one last time
now it's unrequited, wasn't your onus, thank god you were honest
I'll hull to the harbor i won't surrender what i had promised, won't embed it against you
but nothing can change the fact that i trust you
and nothing can change the fact that i love you

stare at the asphalt, refuse to bloom

won't cherish the basalt, a pyrrhic sige there 
backstitch the petiole, oblique she's the heir 

wading through traft bullaces solely reverie

can't rathe to rue it's ellipsis, who are we?

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me magma hit my eyes
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

faltered all at once the walls i'd woven pylons corrallings,

the fumaroles atoned it billowed oxidized recoiled on hem, i'm still terrified

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me whither watch it writhe
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me whither watch it writhe
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

vain to scrape the tungsten, abjured alloy, but I'm just like them, no I'm just like them




contains vocal samples by https://www.youtube.com/@SouliaSora

basalt

a self feature :p streaming soon!

lyrics
4cf:
context
being honest with you is a process
know u know i love u aint no contest
told a good lie to fuck around, the weight is on me
no pressure come around when u feel like cold weather
baby idgaf about yo man
everytime that ***** come around Its weighing on me heavy
id love u more if u really let me
u been adored since the day u met me
i cant afford to treat u like my bestie
if i was sure it wouldnt be so messy
fuck around know u well (gibberish)
baby idgaf about yo man
i dont even really wanna love again
(second verse yet to be transcribed)

me:
cuz i know that i talk too much
but i dont think that we talk enough
don't try to change up your statements
girl you know that i hate it

girl i think you lost your mind
down up on my knees like oh my god what the fuck like nah
baby i got a plan
its heavy so im hoping that u understand

reckless behavior be changing every which way of you
i want u in my heart, but you nothing when i think about it

i dont wanna talk too much
cuz im tired of really givin a fuck
baby i got a plan
its heavy so im hoping that u understand

samples:
4cf - jade
cybertrash - play pretend

dissoluted.wav :'/ + 4cf, tsuyunoshi

lil birthday gift

full song out now https://soundcloud.com/azaleabettigole/for-you-until-im-gone

lyrics:

And I can't stand to reason with 
The things that you've been speaking about me
About me
And I can't stand to listen to 
Whatever you were telling me to change
Its all the same

Cause' I heard it
As you called me
And I told you
I was lonely
And it sounded
So insulting
But I swear that it was nothing
Now I'm not there
When you need me
And its hard when you can't see me
Its all my fault

Its all my fault

Emotions on a string
Tied in a gordian knot 
For the thoughts that I will cull
It made me dull
And I can't shake the feeling 
that I won't be missed at all

And my blood pressure keeps rising
Through every step I take
Its not enough to kill me
But I think I might just faint
And I'm sorry that you're watching
With nothing you can do
How can I be there for myself
When I can't be there for you

When I can't be there for you
You
When I can't be there for you

for u (demo)

I Don't Even Need

laced up but it's just my voice

CHANGED (Prod.SOLevi)

dumping ground for random shit i make
you are legally obligated to follow my main @disphing

laced up but it's just my voice

disphing 2 the squeakquel