watch it all decay . . .
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lyrics:
[harmtails]
you can say what you want
and i promise it won't hurt me
cause i know i've gone too far
this time

yeah i get scared when it's dark
it's hard to admit it
thought i played all my cards right
well guess i didn't

passed out, backseat of some taxi
let's go, you and me on a trip, no acid
i feel my body collapsing
wake up like wtf happened

sometimes yeah life is not that great
don't know whats real or what is fake
i gotta clean the mess i've made
in time or it'll be too late

texting my friends like i'm okay
don't know what feelings to convey
lie down and watch it all decay
watch it all decay

[shwirl]
i can feel it, must move quickly
whoda thunk it'd be so deadly
feel it creepin all inside me
how the fuck did this happen to me

i've got no where to run away
the blood in my heart makes its way
to my head pounding way too hard
i think by now it's far too late

harmtails & shwirl - decay

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vox by me + @cmten
sound design/samples by @xaev :D
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additional synths/prod by @cmten (the guitar drop at the end was his idea everyone say thank you cmten in the comments)

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Its not that hard.

Art shot and edited by me, and finalized by vai5000

lyrics

I claw and I tear me apart
But theres no sign of wear on my skin
I keep calling it some form of art
Yet I still don't know where to begin

Its not that hard
Its not that hard
Its not that hard
Its not that hard

The dealer, they call out my bluff
And prevent me from playing my hand
And although I don't think its enough
I'm too powerless to make a stand

I'll play my part
I'll play my part
I'll play my part (its not that hard)
I'll play my part (its not that hard)

Oh you're hurtin your hurtin your
Hurtin your hurtin your head 
I don't know how you do it just saying you're fine

And you're getting too comfortable
Lying around on your floor with no thoughts in your head
Only tears in your eyes

And I know that I've got no prescription
That will cure any of my deception
And I can't find some kind of prevention
For this turning into some fixation
So I try 
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try it again

Oh no you wouldn't get it
No you wouldn't get it
No you wouldn't get it

I admit its not really a problem (but it only serves nothing to you)
Even if you can't look at me right (cause you say what you know isn't true)
I can say that it doesn't affect me (but you think of it everyday)
When you call me the person I was 
But that's all that you see (oh but how did you make it this way)
But I look in the mirror and its not really me (so you try and you try it again)
Its counter-productive cause' I can't the words out (but the cycle it just doesn't end)
And just say what I mean 
Its so tiring

So whats all the point of this trying

And it all seems to burden my psyche
So I mask it all at my expense
Still my body deteriorates beside me
And it just doesn't seem to make sense
And the toller knows nothing about it
And it pains me to pay him the fee
The amount of my life that's been wasted and lost in the weeds
Its still just me
No its just me


And its getting too
Getting too
Getting too
Getting too close to the eminent feeling
Like you're gonna die
(but you won't go yet)
(no you won't go yet)
(no you can't go yet)

And now that you are older and
Everything's smaller
Do you start to wonder "where did I go wrong in my life?"

So I lie
Cause I'm fine
No, I'm fine

And I'm so tired
And sick of trying
So why not
So why not


And it all seems to burden my psyche
So I mask it all at my expense
Still my body deteriorates beside me
And it just doesn't seem to make sense
And the toller knows nothing about it
And it pains me to pay him the fee
The amount of my life that's been wasted and lost in the weeds
Its still just me
Its still just me

Body

https://ffm.to/basalt 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

everything is different now
_______________________________________________

blood it crusts the mantle, sequence in stairs

tephra crests the marrow, applique if she cared

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me i won't open wide
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

and i told you that day, and the rust fell that may,
and the ash coned and the steel groaned saw your visage through the smoke one last time
now it's unrequited, wasn't your onus, thank god you were honest
I'll hull to the harbor i won't surrender what i had promised, won't embed it against you
but nothing can change the fact that i trust you
and nothing can change the fact that i love you

stare at the asphalt, refuse to bloom

won't cherish the basalt, a pyrrhic sige there 
backstitch the petiole, oblique she's the heir 

wading through traft bullaces solely reverie

can't rathe to rue it's ellipsis, who are we?

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me magma hit my eyes
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

faltered all at once the walls i'd woven pylons corrallings,

the fumaroles atoned it billowed oxidized recoiled on hem, i'm still terrified

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me whither watch it writhe
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me whither watch it writhe
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

vain to scrape the tungsten, abjured alloy, but I'm just like them, no I'm just like them




contains vocal samples by https://www.youtube.com/@SouliaSora

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@bhproducer
@prodmusa
@wishlane

produced by:
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@leastfavorite
@draf2k

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guitar improv

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