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作詞 . 作曲: 秋田ひろむ (from Amazarashi)
Original performed by Nakashima Mika
cover art: Natz (though I can't draw LOL)
I own nothing save my euheuh-voice and pathetic mixing ;;w;;
m(/////)m
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at first I listened to this, I couldn't think anything else beside NakaMika's voice... it's so 'new' to me >////<;)~ I love it though~ <3
but the second time Ilistened to this, I learned that the lyrics is asdfghjkl!! ;;w;; aaaaaa~ //eh
after that, I listened to Amazarashi's songs and asfghjkl!!! AMG!!
....sorry for rambling ;;w;;
sorry for everything, again, and always
and I dedicated this song for..... my family, my friends,
people who knows me //eh
and people who gave me inspirations ;;w;;
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kanji & translation?

僕が死のうと思ったのは
ウミネコが桟橋で鳴いたから
波の随意に浮かんで消える
過去も啄ばんで飛んでいけ
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
was because sea mews cried at the dock
Even the past that is floating and disappearing on waves’ voluntary
Pick up and fly away

僕が死のうと思ったのは
誕生日に杏の花が咲いたから
その木漏れ日でうたた寝したら
虫の死骸と土になれるかな
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
was because the apricot flowers bloomed on my birth day
If I took a nap in the sunlight filtering through trees
Would I become dirt together with insect’s corpses?

薄荷飴　漁港の灯台
錆びたアーチ橋　捨てた自転車
木造の駅のストーブの前で
どこにも旅立てない心
今日はまるで昨日みたいだ
明日を変えるなら今日を変えなきゃ
分かってる　分かってる　けれど
Pepperment candy, lighthouse of fishing port
Rusty bridge arch, discarded bicycle
In front of the stove of the wooden station
The heart that can’t wander anywhere
Today is like yesterday
If I want to change tomorrow, I have to change this day
I understand it, I understand it, but—

僕が死のうと思ったのは
心が空っぽになったから
満たされないと泣いているのは
きっと満たされたいと願うから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because my heart has became empty
The reason why I’m crying “I can’t get enough”
Must be because I hope of getting fulfilled

僕が死のうと思ったのは
靴紐が解けたから
結びなおすのは苦手なんだよ
人との繋がりもまた然り
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because my shoelaces were loosened
I’m weak at re-tying it
That’s why I take care of the bond with people

僕が死のうと思ったのは
少年が僕を見つめていたから
ベッドの上で土下座してるよ
あの日の僕にごめんなさいと
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because a boy looking at me
I’m kneeling down on the bed
Saying to me of that day, “I’m sorry”

パソコンの薄明かり
上階の部屋の生活音
インターフォンのチャイムの音
耳を塞ぐ鳥かごの少年
見えない敵と戦ってる
六畳一間のドンキホーテ
ゴールはどうせ醜いものさ
Pale light of PC
Sound of life from the room upstairs
Sound of intercom’s chime
The boy in the cage, is blocking his ears
Fighting with invisible enemy
Don Quixote between the six tatami room
His goal is an ugly thing, anyway

僕が死のうと思ったのは
冷たい人と言われたから
愛されたいと泣いているのは
人の温もりを知ってしまったから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because I was told “a cold person”
The reason why I’m crying “I want to be loved”
Was because I have already known of people’s warmth 

僕が死のうと思ったのは
あなたが綺麗に笑うから
死ぬことばかり考えてしまうのは
きっと生きる事に真面目すぎるから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because you’re smiling beautifully
The reason why I tend to wonder only about dying
Must be because I’m too serious about living

僕が死のうと思ったのは
まだあなたに出会ってなかったから
あなたのような人が生まれた
世界を少し好きになったよ
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because I hadn’t met you yet
This world where a person like you was born
I became to like it a little

あなたのような人が生きてる
世界に少し期待するよ
This world where a person like you is living in
I’m expecting at it a little

credit kanji: http://kanpekimusic.wordpress.com/2013/08/30/mika-nakashima-boku-ga-shinou-to-omotta-kashi-pv/
translation: by (lame) natz

[Natz] 僕が死のうと思ったのは .The Reason Why I Thought of Wanting to Die. (Vocal Cover; #pitchchanged)

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Artist: Hayashi Yuki
Genre: Instrumental

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Death Parade OST #5: Memento Mori

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woke up being saved by the bell
and incase you couldn’t tell
i didn’t take it very well
cos this life’s been killing me ever since it begun
and this days not any different from any other one


feels pretty good but it doesnt feel right
theres voices in my head but i just want quiet
i need closure
and every seconds just like the first
I’ve learnt to like and love the hurt
it gets closer


woke up with a rope around my neck
and id rather be dead
than have you wrapped around my head
should’ve listened to that man upon my shoulder
who told me love is pain but pain last longer


feels pretty good but it doesnt feel right
theres voices in my head but i just want quiet
i need closure
and every seconds just like the first
I’ve learnt to like and love the hurt
it gets closer

august

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sayonara

i dont wanna waste my time

// original song (i sampled it): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g5JqPxmYhlo

have a great day/night and i hope you guys enjoy! also, SUMMER IS OVER AHHH

midnight jam sesh

PLEASE NOTE: this is NOT an original song. the link to the cover that i sampled is below.
// original song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ly3C_TxgIJ4
// artwork by: Aenami - https://www.artstation.com/aenamiart

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