B - Charlotte

Dedicated to women throughout history and today, oppressed in the name of culture and religion.

Written, performed, and produced by Finn Eces 
Additional vocals by my niece Jena O'Connell

I Am My Voice

I am sorry for being absent for so long, as I have been dealing with a great deal of loss, emotional abuse, and having to move around a lot. My circumstances have made me feel very unsettled, to say the least, but on the flip side, I have quit drinking completely (not that I was drinking every day, but it was enough to warrant concern), cut a number of toxic people out of my life, and reconnected with loved ones whom I had strayed from due to mental health issues. I just wanted to say that I really do appreciate the community here. I love you all dearly, and it's wonderful to see that most of you are still creating. With that being said, moving forward, I will make art my main focus. I have a book of poetry, philosophy, and my inner monologue in the works, as well as fresh ideas for music. I may even finish my film script at some point.

In closing, I would greatly appreciate it if you followed me on Bandcamp or any of the other platforms I have linked to in my profile. If we follow each other on here, please message me privately with your outside links so that I can support you as well.

God bless <3

A long-lost vocal demo I recovered thanks to IPG1, aka LOU - read desc.

Creating this piece was like "Dawn" itself. Starting slow with a misty feeling. Then the sun rises with a slightly faster piano melody. Accompanied with some background strings and cello. Getting a discovering/emerging mood. What is your feeling with it?

Dawn

YouTube link: https://youtu.be/9XOpZ8O32S0 

Upływ czasu jest nieunikniony i dlatego warto dobrze wykorzystywać każdą chwilę ❤️ The passage of time is inevitable and therefore it is worth making good use of every moment ❤️ El paso del tiempo es inevitable y por ello merece la pena aprovechar bien cada momento.

Time Lapse

This one's a co-write with the excellent @thepannacottaarmy, who you should definitely go and follow if you don't already!

LYRICS:

Our love isn’t what it used to be
Our love, it’s become a travesty
And there’s no turning back
On this dead-end track
No, our love feels like history

No time to figure out what we should do
No time, I can’t even talk to you
Another door slams shut
Death by a thousand cuts
No, our love will always be blue

Because our love will never be good enough
Oh, our love was never built to last
You know our love, will always be a part of us
But now our love is only in the past

No need for us to part as enemies
No need for all this animosity
‘Cause in a year or two
When you’re with someone new
Our love will be whispers on the breeze

Because our love will never be good enough
Oh, our love was never built to last
You know our love, will always be a part of us
But now our love is only in the past

Only in the past…

Our Love

Just a snack/intermezzo (perhaps I'll start a cafeteria). An experiment from the kitchen, finding new recipes.

Backingtrackish

Screaming From Within

The melody and chord pattern were dreamed up in 1998, but the song has since undergone a rescue effort in 2024.

The song was originally called "Suzy Suicide," and I must admit it was a serious lyric missfire.  The title was also a little flippant.  I'm a mental health nurse these days, and upon re-visiting this I felt a strong need to change the lyric altogether. It does however still refer to something in a potentially similar vein, in my wanting to stay at least a little close to where the song was originally, with respect being high up, with a potential drop on the cards.  The first line is the only line from the original 1998 lyric.

In any case the original story was about someone leaping from the top of a building, only to change their mind halfway down, but is now about the activities of people like James Kingston, and other free climbers. The new lyric also takes some inspiration from Phillipe Petit in the same regard, thinking about some of the things he said about his harness-free tight rope walk atop the Twin Towers (World Trade Centre), effectively saying that such a passing, due to a fall from the wire, were it to have occurred, would have been a beautiful last moment of life.

In any case the lyric is pulling from those people, I suppose individuals who don't feel their cogs moving unless they're amid rather extreme experiences, without which, I suppose, they don't particularly feel connected to life. Such things turn my stomach, but I suppose, for some people, being on the brink of something like that makes them feel alive.

Anyway, that's what I was shooting at, however, it's quite esoteric, as far as lyrics go, and could easily mean some other odd thing to someone else.

Seems it took me 26 years to finish this one! 🤣

Lyrics

Climbing up the staircase
A few floors left to go
Time to end the chase
Feels like I’m nearly home
When I get to the top
I’ll find some space and time
I’ll step into a portal
Reach the other side

I feel the earth, it’s pull
It’s lure feels stronger than a fire in the cold, yeah
won’t cover too much distance,
if I glide below
If I slipped it might feel like dreaming
And give me some new lifetime
Within a few short seconds
I might feel some kind of lifeline

There’s nothing here inside
No signals just my vital signs of life
Signs I don’t recognise
Nothing is clear behind these darkened eyes
But signs of life below
Some sign of other worlds that I could know
If just inside my mind
Some sign of light to brighten up these eyes
Some sign of life

I didn’t miss the news
But seems I’m none the wiser
It suits my tranquil solitude
The drum of nonsurvivors
They say don’t look down
But that just blunts emotion
I’m petrified but energised
Life could be over, just that notion!

I’m captured by an epic view
my gorgeous guiding spirit
The lights all twinkle down below
Their sparkle so explicit
I feel a surge beneath my feet
A foot forward, but I'm stable
I’m gonna trust the air I feel
I’m slipping free from all my labels

There’s nothing here inside
No signals just my vital signs of life
Signs I don’t recognise
Nothing is clear behind these darkened eyes
But signs of life below
Some sign of other worlds that I could know
If just inside my mind
Some sign of light to brighten up these eyes
Some sign of life

Signs Of Life (1998 / 2024)

Bell Arp

Under the beech tree II

This song is dedicated to a very special person

Sunshine In My Life

Half-British, half-Japanese, South London-based singer-songwriter and producer. Indie pop, rock and blues. Thank you for listening!

Our Love

david taro

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