out on all platforms

the moment felt familiar when we walked to that lake
had my hand grasped to yours tight, in spite of your dismay
the leaves started falling, you averted your gaze
why the face?

why the face

and i'm losing my hair over someone who don't care about me
hiding frustration the emotions fall out of me and i can barely take it
signs clear can't mistake it
it comes to a barrier that i couldn't even break if i tried

just lay down and hide
you never gave a fuck about my health in the first place, the first place
so fuck off with your standards, get outta my face and just
take your
hands off my neck and you'll
learn a bit of some fucking respect, i'm so
nervous, an emotional wreck
not again
not again, not again

if you
say so
i'd just
lay low
take time
die slow
take time
die slow

running round in circles, such a fucking hypocrite, a little liquor, never hurts me as long as i forget about, youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

as long as i forget about you

1st Place

1st Place (prod. Pekarot)

prod. dercept x jolst

im lost in my thoughts
i got you involved
in case you forget
youre my only muse, oh
im working on me
i pray you see that
im prone to relapse
i miss what we had

and patiently ill be here waiting
i just hope you dont blame me
all alone im fading 
aint no coping baby
this time i wont lose myself
and i want you to know
that i still wish you well

ill find you in the next life
if this isnt right
if its not our time 
dont stress it babe
you always say
i cant fake my face
my shoulders gain weight
when i hear your
name
love like this is hard to find 
i cant get you off my mind 
so ill
swallow my pride
wipe my tears from my eyes
and yell to the sky

impatiently ill be here waiting
i just hope you dont blame me
all alone im fading 
aint no coping baby
this time i wont lose myself
and i want you to know
that i still wish you well

if u c this I miss u haha

wish you well

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

spotify

hazel w/ heylog

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i know i'll find another way
to feel like a whole person
i need a thousand extra days
to conjure some encouragement
size me up for now
i think i'm fiending for some sentiment
could you show me how
to make good impressions so no one forgets?

you don't wanna see me when i can't get the words out
i push away the people that i care the most about
i don't even mean the shit that comes out of my mouth
i can't help but feel like everyone is out to get me
wreck me
people love to test me
acting like i'm not worth the dog shit that they stepped in
i really hate all the people who never listen
the ones that talk a lot of shit then just act like a victim
you think i'm flirting, i'm not
i got a head full of thoughts
i'm sweating bullets and i'm starting to develop a cough
i waste away in my room
bite at my skin 'cause of you
i'm better now, but honestly, that shit was just fucking rude
how could you leave it like that?
no care for who you attract
you oughta thank your false god that these teeth can retract
i'll sink them into your knee
destroy support underneath
because i'm going for the jugular, i'm never at ease

i'm never at ease...

stop
wait 'til i'm gone
i know you're aching for something you've lost
preaching to some
get through to none
what is the point of explaining myself
when everyone listens to somebody else?
wasting my breath on the anger you held
it's all my fault and i reap what i sow
you fooled me once now that's twice in a row

knee

produced by logan

words:
this poison make my veins stick out my skin
what kills me is the circle that i wit
i dont speak just so you couldnt wish
wish to get up on my business
i wonder what it is that youre on
in front of me is nothing but fog
im here for a sec then im gone
this cunt thinkin that he know it all
you dont know anything at all
i hear you hiss and i see you crawlin

if you could say one thing
what would it be
what would it be
what would it be
what would it be

another day of scrappin many songs
they say bro deleted so much sauce
90% of my disc. is trash
how you even listen? my shits ass
should i just keep this one in the vault
or should i just firm it on the alt
i guess youll never know just where youll see this
maybe someones gonna leak it

wild boar

prod. vain
all vox by vain

[<3]

crash, crash
crash, crash
crash, crash
crash, crash
let it crash, let it burn (oh yeah)
set me in the dirt
it hurts, it hurts (oh yeah)
baby, it hurts (oh yeah)
in a flash, let it burn (oh yeah)  
set me in the dirt
it hurts, it hurts (oh yeah)
baby, it hurts (oh yeah)
let it crash
(don't, don't, don't, don't)
(don't, don't, don't, don't)
(don't, don't, don't, don't)
(don't, don't, don't, don't)
let it crash (oh yeah)
(don't, don't, don't, don't)
(don't, don't, don't, don't)
(don't, don't, don't, don't)
(don't, don't, don't, don't)
let it crash (oh yeah)
I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't
I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't
I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't
I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't
(yeah)
I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't
I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't
let it crash (yeah)
(I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't)
(I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't)
let it crash (yeah)
(I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't)
(I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't)
let it crash (yeah)
(I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't)
(I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't)
let it crash (yeah)
(I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't)
(I know something that you don't, I know something that you don't)
let it crash (yeah)

crash, crash
crash, crash

[v]

crash

thank you for listening

Lyrics:

Tongue tied when I called your name
How could have I forgot about it
Time flies when you waste away
But I know you don’t see it
Because you build me up
Just to tear me down
All that time spent waiting for something
Because it’s all I know
Now I’m letting go
Of all that time we wasted

Who am I to you?
Just different shades of blue
Your perfect colorway
A gradient of me
You painted above you
And what am I to say?
When all the color fades
A perfect shade of gray
That turned into nothing
And faded above you

So where do we go
Now that I’m all alone just staring down at my feet
Overthinking how they got me where I’ve come to be now
Sleeping on the floor again
And wondering when the f*ck this ends
Spinning around my head
While I just keep on asking myself

Who am I to you?
Just different shades of blue
Your perfect colorway
A gradient of me
You painted above you
And what am I to say
When all the color fades
A perfect shade of gray
That turned into nothing
And faded above you
Above you…

Days to Waste

gradient

sad to grow

Beautiful Celtic ballad. In memory of Zegretti Elena.

HEAVEN

Trapped in the cage between heaven and hell, she prays the next breath is her last in purgatory. a fragile hope that when her eyes finally open, it’s to light… not fire.