i love this song like this is literally my favourite song rn

expect to see a whole lot of me in the analytics for this song

part of me js knows i wud kill to be somebody u spill to when youd rather be aloneeeee

hey beautiful soul, please make sure to repent from sin because jesus is coming soon, and I would like to see you up there. prepare, have a great day.

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0IHbekaueGek7nFPKpZpbD?si=89260079818e4242
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/desideratum

produced by 8een & arcane
additional production by me
mixed written performed by me
+ thank you eve for mixing advice

frick north york
thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3

///
the more that I try, more that I hide
the more that I try, more that I hide

the past few months I felt like I would die
before I did anything that I loved, oh my
I'll stay strong
eighteen round the corner, how'd I (make it!)
this long
all the pressure makes my head hurt
give it time and it'll get better
and if you hate it well then, know I put in effort :/
I do my best, how dare you say that I don't
still get nervous when there's lumps in my throat

I'm aware no one said it'd be easy
spoke to the teller now everything's clear, see
it all
pretty girl
girl

and if I don't wake up
tell every single person I love
that I put all my heart in
I will be an artist
there'll be people that care and I'll build something honest

go!
don't hide
do you even know who you are?
go!
how'd you even call that shit art? (desideratum)
go back pull your hair out, restart

I can't focus well my darling
got a stutter when I'm talking
you broke the news as I was walking
news when I was promised

desideratum

no one!

mix and master by anem0s and patrick o’neill
with vocals from oldcollin and wishlane

We don’t like to talk much 
You just know me so well 
Get high in the cold months 
ur so beautiful 
And we confide in no one 
It’s just our little thing
You know you can’t trust no one 
We could be alone for the next few months I think 

And you to me 
It’s personal 
We got along for a while
Come around
And it’s clinical 
Like I don’t wanna miss at all
Gotchu lighting up my room full time 

Then I miss your call
Then you piss me off 
Don’t worry bout it 
I’m tryna talk
You tryna talk 
We both get silent 

——
[gibberish in the form of a chorus]
—-
Oh I doubt it
We blowing up 
Ain’t no way around it 
You’re so in love, drunk
Think about it 
I don’t want nobody 
no 
You did me wrong last time
I let it slide, just to let you know 

Big Lie
Cut y’a role 
Fuck whatchu kno
sleeping all inside of my clothes
You can keep for the road 
I think about you all the time
I never let you know
you tryna tell me shit is fine 
you must think you cold

no one (prod.kbl)

All Platforms: https://lnkfi.re/onlock

Vocals:
@rans0m
@altvevo

Additional vocal contribution:
www.instagram.com/thisissully_/ as Manager

Produced/Mixed/Composed by Simon M*****

b) The protagonist, now with a clear goal in mind and the taste of success still fresh on his tongue, decides to chase his dream with more greed than he had ever previously felt. He listens to his manager's requests while rebelling in increments. He tries too hard. He fails.

onlock [with rans0m, alt!]

self prod + main guitar by @scrobaby

i dont know why it says one download still fuck

(you're so emotional, so emotional)

sit back
you wont believe me if i told you's what you said
boy im gone, now
and i hope that ill be doin way better than i was just yesterday, oh
i dont know what people like, every song i make is different
im inactive on my socials and no one even knows it, and i know you're dead

(fuck)

but its you that i want, i want you to come back
i know its only been a year, but you're leaving so soon
just a little fuzzy guy, didnt get past two yet
and you're not even gone, i just get that feeling a lot

theres a shift in the air and its pointing to you mm
(its pointing to me, yeah)
and i wouldnt be surprised if i ended up dead in my room

last time that i cried was a little bit ago
im not crying, yeah im not cryin
last couple of nights was a fucking funeral
now it's quiet, too quiet

lay down to my
lay down to my heart
lay down to my
(lay down to my)
lay down to my heart
lay down to my
lay down to my heart
lay down to my
(lay down to my)
lay down to my heart

i've been dying to feel alive
make my eyes roll back in my spine
im possessed and i dont know why
i just wanna spill my guts out

but its you that i want, i want you to come back
i know its only been a year, but you're leaving so soon
just a little fuzzy guy, didnt get past two yet
and you're not even gone, i just get that feeling a lot

theres a shift in the air and its pointing to you mm
(its pointing to me, yeah)
and i wouldnt be surprised if i ended up dead in my room

shift

if you ever feel like you are not enough
dial 988 (USA)
dial 116 123 (UK)

heroes

crossfire

produced by @fortuneswan
additional production: @fordis
photography by lance

--

lyrics:
im so damn pissed
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because
everything i was
isn’t everything i am
got some bad luck
you might think i give a
damn

please can we get into that
you got me caught in the crossfire
and you didn’t know how to act

called you
please do not take your time
you know that i want you
wanted to make you mine
but you didn’t know me
and that’s not your fault
please can you hold me
and never let go

im so damn pissed
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because

im so damn pissed
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because
everything i was
isn’t everything i am
got some bad luck
you might think i give a
damn

please can we get into that
you got me caught in the crossfire
and you didn’t know how to act
—

crossfire

prod. Joeboi, anem0s, KBL, bbyazul, Sherif XR, dramatrial, reef), wishlane, 31sentinel, KARI

feat: patrick o'neill, raegun, joeboi, reefuh, oxydecay, scottryan, 4cf, ashton heights, sully, corefish, old collin, dpf, alkyl, sherif xr, drama trial, aftrr, 31sentinel cricket, anem0s, markit, wishlane

Niztopia Birthday 3

armory 
so hard to see your self assured and tested iron mail
know it can’t be helped
a scarred achilles heel 
it’s limping along
hurt as you feel
it’s patient love and knowing you can heal 
that’s heart forreal
i know that im selfish
you know i can’t help it when im without you still
(part of me just knows i would kill to be somebody you spill to when you’d rather be alone)
guarded to the bone
childish and alone
but your love is real
know i love you more than i can deal

armory (KBL)

Tension

prod me :) ft. @alkylartist 
guitars by @notdiscxrdia

jig is up
jury's out
ill pass away before i figure out
who to trust
who to doubt
were in the dark
i tore the curtains down

baby u always on my mind so obsessively 
i know ur body and ur time sold separately 
u always hit me up when life is gettin me down
ill skip the freakout 
survive on my own volition

this shit always happen when i open up
we ran it back round 2 bc im close enough
n i dont wanna let u down i know ur hopes are up
this case is open, shut
a four leafed clover still aint got the luck i need baby

*alkyl*
Cause how do I bridge the gap between?
What I want and what you see in me, baby?

Just had to let off some steam
It gets crazier the more you have to talk to me
Why’d expectations arise past the ones that we set?
Cause god, always leave me shameful
Playing it careful

Yeah, I swear shit gets painful
When you talk you me
Tried to align my ideals to meet your strategy
You earned my trust just to fuse it with your fallacies
Why can’t you take a plea?
Guess I’ll just sow myself up
“Court adjourned”, baby

armory (KBL)

4cf

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