art credit: @rpsu (irusu)
produced by @ogpichu and a bit by me

//Lyrics

was it something you meant to say to me
i need a break, you on my rank falsely
got em in, run from the jakes, im gonna take what I need
I cannot lose, take another route
I know that soon youll know what im 'bout
you got this room fillin up with doubt

you just wanna take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back and
take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back

im at your home
you're not alone
you shut the door on me
walkin and steppin in clothes
you cant afford, on me
i dont need your advice
only lost when I try
god, my thoughts wanna die I
swear to god if you wont say something
Ive been in the wrong but I wont fake nothing
sinking in style
I was just a child
was it something you meant to say to me
i need a break, you on my rank falsely
got em in, run from the jakes, im gonna take what I need
I cannot lose, take another route
I know that soon youll know what im 'bout
you got this room fillin up with doubt

you just wanna take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back and
take, mine
you never say sumn, feels like we watchin paint, dry
I could just wait time till I know I can make it right
fake, disguise
wait, this time
cause im gonna come back

doubt

doubt [p. pichu]

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/16aPg17al8DKBm8LyMn4eE?si=9f8e74ca0f344527
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/cd-feat-ry-2

guitar by othello
additional production by me and ryan
written and performed by me and ryan
with @rywrrd (show him love please)

i lied i'm sorry next one will be a summer tune <3
thank you for listening always :)

///
a toast,
play your cd
the music brings you peace
alone
so don't mind me
I had a stupid dream again

you thought you had from the start
I don't want have to break your heart
but it broke
and now that cd drowns in static
a sour note
I highly doubt it

your favourite song
your radio I turn it on
we fell in love in your shitty car
with static on your heart
screaming out our favourite part

I made a stupid decision
in my mind, clouded dumb inference
I gave it all that I had
but all I had was indifferent
I'd break my arms off to help you
if it meant that you would listen
I stare and talk to the wall
scratched disc had tarnished the image
I thought I loved you

cd w/ ry

luv u twin soundcloud.com/scrufff

i could b there for u, idc what i do to myself

spotify

scruff - flower journal (sai)

produced by roku
with @heyzeph
cover courtesy of starcat28
this song well over a year old

lyrics - 
[spoder]
this weight all on my shoulders
don't bat your eye
just a second of your time
"don't break these habits"
i know
you've strucken
some gold
like how would i know?
like how would i
grow
dont walk around like you're the star of the show
you've fallen
deep
hoping nobody knows

[zephyr]
And you
Got way too many bad habits
Can’t take this stress, girl this damage
Got me drinking till I pass out
If only you knew the slut that you are
My bad I ain’t mean it I took it too far
But damn all this fussin’ really got me in the fuckin mood

I’m like woah, baby where u tryna go
I could put you on a jet or I could put you on a boat
We got way too much in common to be sitting all alone
Got a man I got a girl but baby they don’t gotta know
You know damn well it’s something bout ya body that’s got me fantasizing about bein wit you

[spoder]
stop if you see the green light better go now
shoot if you shoot it too high itll fall down
life tell me whats life like when you're strung out
knife tell me whats that like when you bleed out
had a couple frens but they lost it
drama queen always love to gossip
watch it fall empty all my pockets
face down bby done w all the harming

chorus

SPOTIFY !

the less i know

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0IHbekaueGek7nFPKpZpbD?si=89260079818e4242
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/desideratum

produced by 8een & arcane
additional production by me
mixed written performed by me
+ thank you eve for mixing advice

frick north york
thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3

///
the more that I try, more that I hide
the more that I try, more that I hide

the past few months I felt like I would die
before I did anything that I loved, oh my
I'll stay strong
eighteen round the corner, how'd I (make it!)
this long
all the pressure makes my head hurt
give it time and it'll get better
and if you hate it well then, know I put in effort :/
I do my best, how dare you say that I don't
still get nervous when there's lumps in my throat

I'm aware no one said it'd be easy
spoke to the teller now everything's clear, see
it all
pretty girl
girl

and if I don't wake up
tell every single person I love
that I put all my heart in
I will be an artist
there'll be people that care and I'll build something honest

go!
don't hide
do you even know who you are?
go!
how'd you even call that shit art? (desideratum)
go back pull your hair out, restart

I can't focus well my darling
got a stutter when I'm talking
you broke the news as I was walking
news when I was promised

desideratum

end the year right

all plats: ffm.to/redhorse-anecdote

words:

verse
felt like yesterday
that i had all these fucking words to say
i was free and all alone
no one was gettin in my way
keep on punching thru these walls
the clock keeps getting louder
bloody hands all up my face 
jus wanna tell u that im down there

prechorus 
n im wasting my time
putting those thoughts in my head
n i was reading ur texts 
try n feel some typa way
u know ur home to me
but i always pull the plug
from my reality
let you know now

chorus (one of my best)
that im way too fucking done
get me out this rut 
am i just another anecdote
another bit of fun
standing out here in the cold
stood me up with all them missed calls
they all look at me weird now
what am i here for   

break

rap
no eye contact jus mind my business
mantras like dat were drilled into me
not enough for the cool ones like u
not soft enough for the nerds and geeks
odd one out, was a way of life
too hard to make friends thru struggle n strife
sat by the keys practicing bee thoven
before i couldnt say it right
every day i stare down the clock and dread the time ticking
mum tells me that im just being silly
cry on her shoulder im too scared to die
see pitch black it’s the last day of my life
like what would i do then
anything to get out this system
9 to 5 nightmare situation 
n now u fucked me up lets face it
lets face it

bridge
what is life 
when we're drifting apart
what is purpose 
when i cant fall in ur arms
asking all the questions 
what is all your rush
oh u distress meeeee

alt prechorus
and im going insane!
having those thoughts in my head
thought u loved me in those texts
feeling all these kinda ways
u know ur home to mee
but i always pull the plug
from my reality
let you know now

chorus
that im way too fucking DONE
get me out this rut 
am i just another anecdote
another bit of fun
standing out here in the cold
stood me up with all them missed calls
they all look at me weird now
what am i here for
repeat

ty 4 listening, love all of u
also did sum actual non-midi guitar on dis 🫢

anecdote

feat @scrufff
prod aftrr
cover art by aftrr
all plats: https://ffm.to/qrjgp3n

this an old song i finally got around to finishing, hope yall enjoy <3

lyrics:

[hook]
tell me ur problems
no i wont kiss and tell
i wanna be ur last
im by the wishing well
jessie confessing to me
but i got saved by the bell
get money then im gone, capice
aint a thing i cant sell

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[verse @scrufff]
then i leave im fkin headed out
remember when im going up
when im poppin now
ur friends gon know im pulling up
when they not around
ur friends gon know im showing up
when they talkin bout
kiss n tell
asking for help
im under pain
wishing well
when im still
not up to stakes
kiss n tell
asking for help
im under pain
wishing well
what im still
trying to save

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[bridge @scrufff]
change will come and i hate to say
that i wont ever be the same
u just think that loves a case
and mine will never go away

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[outro]
tell me ur problems
no i wont kiss and tell
i wanna be ur last
im by the wishing well
jessie confessing to me
but i got saved by the bell
get money then im gone, capice
aint a thing i cant sell

kiss n tell w/ scruff

@zephyrcove 
out on all plats

guess i always thought i’d be okay
things dont usually happened that way 
i wish i could miss u the way you miss me 
but we don’t have to talk about it 
never thought i’d leave you stranded 
but we knew things wouldn’t be the same 
as they were when we were fifteen 

you know i never found a way to cope 
but i’m glad to know that you never lose hope 
looking back it was never what we planned to be 
going home was what was best for me 

i wish i could miss u the way you miss me 
but we don’t have to talk about it 
never thought i’d leave you stranded 
but we knew things wouldn’t be the same 
as they were when we were fifteen 

fifteen 
never meant much to me 
but as long as you’re around 
i can see it  
i don’t wanna leave you now 
but that’s okay 
that’s okay for now

fifteen

betting with blood 




https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sc0ttryan/heaven

10/15/2023

heaven prod evansasha

i know ur mad at me or something
and talkings just way too damn hard 4 me
but you've really done it this time
but i wanna know
why cant u go?
you're talkin too loud
leave me alone
i want you out
i dont really wanna stay
i dont really wanna stay with you
you dont even wanna know what im doing
i just wanna go home with you off my mind
get online cuz we're playing all night
i can not think straight
(where are you?)
im sorry if i lost my mind
ive really done it this time
now i just want out
why cant u go?
you're talkin too loud
leave me alone
i want you out

desideratum

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