[verse 1]
i ain't think that i should make it this far in life
but my music growing big, i think thats a sign
my wallet begging to be filled so i try and shine
and my bros go up without me, ill wait my time

[hook x2]
window watching everybody pass
she tell me i should live every damn day like its my last
i act like no one talks to me but i cant open back
i check the mirror every night and i see broken glass
and thats facts, cause im 

[verse 2]
tired of responsibility
talking to my therapist cause thats just what i need
he tell me i rely on everybody except me
i told him im just tired of seeing myself bleed

[bridge]
and i know that i need help, i just dont know how
and im shooting for marriage but i suck with vows
and i dont control words coming out of my mouth
i need you around, im stuck in my house

[hook x2]

window watching

produced by maxmadethebeat  & aidan han n a little by me

@1kaido
@yoshi

//Lyrics

(scruff)
im on her page like a stalker
stop talking you're a goner
i won't take your offers
24 bottles down, that's not what i taught her
pills sitting, on top of her dresser
i wanna caress her
I showed my diamonds to my mama i'm a flexer
took the call 3 times, knowing you would get hurt
we going up
love how you're not showin up
i tell myself im glowing up
dont tell me how to run this shit
you make wanna throw up

(kaido)

Stalker

stalker w/ kaido & christian blair [p. maxmadethebeat + aidanhan]

5189316

//Lyrics

(hook)
my heart beats when your textin me when you're talkin wit me
when ur next to me when ur walkin wit me
cause i miss you so much
don wanna say that
i miss that aroma
imma find my way back

(chorus)
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
i know im the worst guy
i see it all the time
i dont rlly wanna die
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
yeah im the worst guy

(verse)
what was the first lie, you said, to me
ill be searchin for some answers
can't control my temper
you just wanna rent her
i just need some money on me won't tell u again sir
thought i was over it all, but
i feel like i gave it up
you ain't sayin nun
how am I waitin up
I couldn't let you run
i don't think im saying enough
you ain't sayin nun
how am I waitin up
yeah i'm still thinking bout how

(hook)
my heart beats when your textin me when you're walkin wit me
when ur next to me when ur walkin wit me
cause i miss you so much
don wanna say that
i miss that aroma
imma find my way back

(chorus)
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
i know im the worst guy
i see it all the time
i dont rlly wanna die
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
I know i'm the worst guy
i see it all the time
idrwd

(sauce)

talk2me

talk2me [p. sai]

produced by @saiwai

as always thanks @rpsu for the luh character drawing

//Lyrics

oh oooh ooh.. oh
I swear thats not what im about
you know this aint really love, now
aye call me when you're feelin all, down
yea I dont think we got enough, doubt
I swear thats not what im about
you know this aint really love, now
aye call me when you're feelin all, down
yea I dont think we got enough, doubt
and I dont think I got enough, power
its getting hard to try anymore
after that, nah, i dont wanna lie no more
got my own sh*t, i dont need a ride no more
how you feeeel, behind close doors
stuck witchu when the time gon come
said I feel love, but I fear that someone
gon steal all of my pride when this sh*t done
ooohh
never know whats going on in my head
always some sh*t i cant forget now
you will never get, my 100% now
I ive been stopped
its been off
tryna change me like ive been wrong
tryna stay.. with those eyes im lost
whatchu say when your pride is goone
I swear thats not what im about
you know this aint really love, now
aye call me when you're feelin all, down
yea I dont think we got enough, doubt
I swear thats not what im about
you know this aint really love, now
aye call me when you're feelin all, down
yea I dont think we got enough, doubt
and I dont think I got enough, power
its getting hard to try anymore
after that, nah, i dont wanna lie no more
got my own sh*t, i dont need a ride no more
how you feeeel, behind close doors
stuck witchu when the time gon come
said I feel love, but I fear that someone
gon steal all of my pride when this sh*t done
(oooohhh) oh, oh ooh (ooohh)
oh, oh oohh (oohh oooh)
oh, ooh,, (oooh)
oh ooh, oooh
(oooohhh) oh, oh ooh (ooohh)
oh, oh oohh (oohh oooh)
oh, ooh,, (oooh)
oh ooh, oooh
oooooh (dont, go, away, from me)

Stuck with you

stuck with you [p. sai]

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0IHbekaueGek7nFPKpZpbD?si=89260079818e4242
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/desideratum

produced by 8een & arcane
additional production by me
mixed written performed by me
+ thank you eve for mixing advice

frick north york
thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3

///
the more that I try, more that I hide
the more that I try, more that I hide

the past few months I felt like I would die
before I did anything that I loved, oh my
I'll stay strong
eighteen round the corner, how'd I (make it!)
this long
all the pressure makes my head hurt
give it time and it'll get better
and if you hate it well then, know I put in effort :/
I do my best, how dare you say that I don't
still get nervous when there's lumps in my throat

I'm aware no one said it'd be easy
spoke to the teller now everything's clear, see
it all
pretty girl
girl

and if I don't wake up
tell every single person I love
that I put all my heart in
I will be an artist
there'll be people that care and I'll build something honest

go!
don't hide
do you even know who you are?
go!
how'd you even call that shit art? (desideratum)
go back pull your hair out, restart

I can't focus well my darling
got a stutter when I'm talking
you broke the news as I was walking
news when I was promised

desideratum

feat @scrufff
prod aftrr
all plats: https://ffm.to/qrjgp3n

lyrics:

[hook]
tell me ur problems
no i wont kiss and tell
i wanna be ur last
im by the wishing well
jessie confessing to me
but i got saved by the bell
get money then im gone, capice
aint a thing i cant sell

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[verse @scrufff]
then i leave im fkin headed out
remember when im going up
when im poppin now
ur friends gon know im pulling up
when they not around
ur friends gon know im showing up
when they talkin bout
kiss n tell
asking for help
im under pain
wishing well
when im still
not up to stakes
kiss n tell
asking for help
im under pain
wishing well
what im still
trying to save

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[bridge @scrufff]
change will come and i hate to say
that i wont ever be the same
u just think that loves a case
and mine will never go away

[chorus]
if this money talk then i guess im fluent
ohhyaa
sippin dirty rocks, she like how i do it
ohwwwoah
im mr. put it on, 10 bands on my cuban
ohh
with u im booted up, its u im pursuing
ohh

that girl tryna talk me down
we got history
her boyfriend he dont know about
its a mystery
what we had it was lost and found
playing games, what she want
guess im finding out
i guess im

[outro]
tell me ur problems
no i wont kiss and tell
i wanna be ur last
im by the wishing well
jessie confessing to me
but i got saved by the bell
get money then im gone, capice
aint a thing i cant sell

SPOTIFY !

kiss n tell w/ scruff

one last life
one more try
one last breath
one more cry
is this what love sounds like
show me what love looks like
i ripped out the pages
i lied i threw up
oh the truth, i can't face it
I'll be emanciated
act like i don't recall
what you said about it all
think I'll rest before you call

phone call

prod. kidhoodiee + anh + vnoahh + me

lyrics soon

having fun + playing

guitar by will rhead

when it's all said and done
when i leave home and no one's round
will you save me a seat to the sun?
to somewhere i could never be found
i don't wanna let go
oh i don't wanna leave home
i made my momma cry
i told her i'd call her on the phone
i'll kiss my cats goodbye
i'm sorry i left you all alone
oh i don't wanna leave home
oh i don't wanna leave home
i'll do all the things you taught me
i'll try my best, i'll be a man, won't hate my body
stand on my own two feet
i'll make it through twelve weeks
i'lll make it back with my own hands, i'll make you proud of me

proud

produced by chromecue (n me a little)

cover art drawn by my brother & edited by ilxrrrr

//lyrics 

you been keeping my eyes wide open
you been leading a life im hopin
i can have a part in i chose it
dont know where we started
well, i forgot it but
oh well
dont tell nobody else
i need you to myself, oh
been waiting on a call all week
ill take it like its all on me
just give it up
tied around you and its pitiful
aint been getting much sleep, lately
around 3 terrified of that dream
i swear to god if i dont get sleep, ill
have you running back to me
my tears have only grown old
right here you saw me stone cold
my fears, ive never once shown
dont treat me like a sword in the stone bae if it all
depends on the weather
you cant move on when its said and, done
if you cant get better
dont, come to me with all your letters ill run
till we cross ill be far away from that era
when you fall i wont wanna get back together

like im in a coma
wrapped 'round me like a cobra
dont talk like i aint been in this so long
i got some memories that i could pull up
speaking of
i just wanna talk to you, baby
one stop till it all goes, crazy
dont drop what we all know
I, get a call when its autumn
it says you right there, (f*ck it)
it says you right there
we aint talk in so long
its like i dont even know ya
i dont care cause we're so in
scared and we know it
and i dont wanna give it up
tied around you and its pitiful
you dont act surprised its by design
tell me everything
it alligns i treat it like your medicine
like a crutch telling me it hasnt been, over
we gotta cut it off while we're still young
we'll grow old
its just fun, till your part of my soul now i need to grow up
we've grown cold
dont treat me like a sword in the stone bae if it all
depends on the weather
you cant move on when its said and, done
if you cant get better
dont, come to me with all your letters ill run
till we cross ill be far away from that era
when you fall i wont wanna get back together