honest

a little gift i guess. i love yall. all of these songs r either unreleased or just unfinished ideas i will probably never finish.

frog (31sentinel billsburyjoeboi)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0IHbekaueGek7nFPKpZpbD?si=89260079818e4242
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/desideratum

produced by 8een & arcane
additional production by me
mixed written performed by me
+ thank you eve for mixing advice

frick north york
thank you for listening, i hope you enjoy <3

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the more that I try, more that I hide
the more that I try, more that I hide

the past few months I felt like I would die
before I did anything that I loved, oh my
I'll stay strong
eighteen round the corner, how'd I (make it!)
this long
all the pressure makes my head hurt
give it time and it'll get better
and if you hate it well then, know I put in effort :/
I do my best, how dare you say that I don't
still get nervous when there's lumps in my throat

I'm aware no one said it'd be easy
spoke to the teller now everything's clear, see
it all
pretty girl
girl

and if I don't wake up
tell every single person I love
that I put all my heart in
I will be an artist
there'll be people that care and I'll build something honest

go!
don't hide
do you even know who you are?
go!
how'd you even call that shit art? (desideratum)
go back pull your hair out, restart

I can't focus well my darling
got a stutter when I'm talking
you broke the news as I was walking
news when I was promised

desideratum

crossfire

-

im so damn pissed
pissed huh
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because
everything i was
isn’t everything i am
got some bad luck
you might think i give a
damn

please can we get into that
you got me caught in the crossfire
and you didn’t know how to act

called you
please do not take your time
you know that i want you
wanted to make you mine
but you didn’t know me
and that’s not your fault
please can you hold me
and never let go

im so damn pissed
pissed huh
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because

im so damn pissed
pissed huh
pissed off
did some dumb shit
expect me to give a fuck

everywhere i look
reminds me of who i was
everything you took
you could keep it just because
everything i was
isn’t everything i am
got some bad luck
you might think i give a
damn

please can we get into that
you got me caught in the crossfire
and you didn’t know how to act
—

crossfire

demo 2

i don't know how to say it
if it keeps on i'll be emaciated
another product of harming
crash, fall
i don't wanna be here at all
don't catch me if i fall down
another product of harming
crash, fall
i can't seem to find it, it's lost
the boy i was before
why have grown disheartened
crash, fall

mind my mind you
pick my fights
hand my life over
i rest my soul down been at it since october
don't lie to yourself you're not a toler
you barely know her
think she a showman
petty scars all over
you should've known then
it gets too heavy to breathe
i'm pleading down on my-
i stay up grinding my teeth
my flesh is ready to eat

i don't know how to say it
if it keeps on i'll be emaciated
another product of harming
crash, fall
i don't wanna be here at all
don't catch me if i fall down
another product of harming
crash, fall
i can't seem to find it, it's lost
the boy i was before
why have grown disheartened
crash, fall

product of harm

out on all platforms 

https://open.spotify.com/album/690ROHhErsz0miOJW49LxF?si=mwg72MuCRH6Yp9y8geSpLQ

(prod. RFM beats and ‪beatsbyshvrs‬)

(mumbling)
(yeah x1 trillion)

yeah , tell me im the worst
baby idk if thats a gift or its a curse
cuz you never wanna make this work out
now all i do is fucking hurt now
yeah
baby do you ever need me ?
yeah yeah
put my issues in a damn shell
they like jayne why tf
do you even need some damn help
baby im just struggling
tryna pour my heart out
and you never listen to me anyways ..

oh oh oh
i been trying so hard
you look the other way
when im even in your arms
i feel like ill never be enough for u
baby i been struggling to love you
oh yeah
throw my life away
they be listening to my songs
but dont know what i say
sometimes i hate my voice
i cant really help it
i only care abt my self
im so fucking selfish

one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?
one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?

look the other way
i dont wanna be seen right now uh
i thought that i lost myself
and then you came and found me out
i just really hope
that you dont ever let me down
then i was so fucking sad
and you turned me upside
upside down

uh yeah
miss the days when you
left marks on my body yeah
miss the day when you
said that you “fuckin love” me yeah
miss the day when you
would look in my eyes
oooh my
god damn think i fell in love twice
god damn think you look so nice
god damn will you be my wife
(wait thats a little bit too fast)
like do you need a hug?
ik that these other guys just wanna
come and fuck
like baby i can treat you right
ik that you want love
like baby i can be someone that you trust.

(someone that you trust x 10 million)

one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?
one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?

(one plus one thats just me and you and were so stuck like what thats glue youll be there if i need)

ty for everyone who wished me a happy bday :))

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Lyrics:
(Yeah if you wanna see it go and see it in my heart)
(Baby don't let me go)
(Go and tell me what's the meaning cuz you're tearing me apart)
(Baby don't let me go)

Yeah if you wanna see it go and see it in my heart
Go and tell me what's the meaning cuz you're tearing me apart
No you wouldn't wanna be me it'll be the death of us
Oh so tell me what's the meaning that you're tearing me apart
Cuz I know all the times that you're on my mind, you don't do enough for me
Wasting all my time I don't feel alive, can you do what you did to me?

So baby don't let me go
I'm needing you the most
I understand the way you think, the way you
lead me on
You like my personality, the way i turn it on
Yeah all the things I couldn't do, I did it all along
So baby don't let me go
I'm needing you the most
I understand the way you think, the way you
lead me on
You like my personality, the way i turn it on
Yeah all the things I couldn't do, I did it all along

Say the truth
Tell me how you hate it
I'll just do what you do
Just say it
Cuz all my life I've been trying and waiting
Baby I
I've been tryna say it

Yeah if you wanna see it go and see it in my heart
Go and tell me what's the meaning cuz you're tearing me apart
No you wouldn't wanna be me it'll be the death of us
Oh so tell me what's the meaning that you're tearing me apart
Cuz I know all the times that you're on my mind, you don't do enough for me
Wasting all my time I don't feel alive, can you do what you did to me?

So baby don't let me go
I'm needing you the most
I understand the way you think, the way you
lead me on
You like my personality, the way i turn it on
Yeah all the things I couldn't do, I did it all along
So baby don't let me go
I'm needing you the most
I understand the way you think, the way you
lead me on
You like my personality, the way i turn it on
Yeah all the things I couldn't do, I did it all along

Tearing Me Apart

Tearing Me Apart (prod. Black Rose)

i swear

#aftrrLife
prod me and dsi

whenever im wrong i just end up mistaken
i cant do no wrong if its up i cant make it
feed off my energy buddy just face it
u do what i do but the swag aint for taking
find a new method ur pockets outdated
im close to the bread i could almost just taste it
ttd had to take a step back
made em boys proud know i got they back
feel like b miller i gotta spin back
for my brother my woadie its simple as that
flex ona net everybody just cap
and they hating each other no love where im at
nothing to lose ima take what i can
and i know that much true ima push the advance
pushing thru all of this pain fr
i cannot fw no snake fr
look at the world i live in its covered in lies
this shit it aint a surprise
righting my wrongs but im losing my pride 
and they come and they go but i stay on my side
tearing my heart with the music apart with the money inside
im playing my part i would die for this shit
if u took what i felt would u still be alive

remember them days i used to cry bout it
talk down ill die bout it
fake love they lie bout it
head high my mind crowded
headshot the scope mounted
drum rounded
drop dead he dumbfounded
me vs the world im surrounded
keep up the score im counting
my brother told me that ima prevail
i gotta keep going ill never give out
almost let up i done been thru a lot
for the ppl i lost im making it count
spending my money making it back
do it again til my pockets fall out
wash everybody ima put em in a drought
see em all talk im eyeing em out
im getting higher n higher
run me a lap not tired tired
telling my truth no liar liar
im getting higher n higher
run me a lap not tired tired
chasing my trail u desperate dire
turn up the city i broke off the locks
hop in that mazi i skrt off the lot
stick to myself cant fw no thot
follow the plan im the shot caller 
hold me a band u dont know nada

Rehab by Rihanna Cover.
I don’t own any rights to this song.