i need some water, my throat is getting dry again
hard to keep my attention when i'm off of a xan
bad bitch shit, bet you're new to it
i told you not to talk to me don't wanna hear that stupid shit you gotta say
digging up a shallow grave 
(honestly!)

LAX to NYC
All designer brands on me
Fuck that! (ohhh)
I'm just tryna get a big bag!
They keep asking if I'm (upppppppp)
Bitch I been that

I think I'm becoming selfish
And I don't think I wanna change regardless
of what I've been on
moving in silence i'm moving alone
labels keep texting me shit that i don't understand but i'm getting my check and I'm gone
bringing him into my whip i'mma hit it and dip i could never show him some respect
i done lost so many friends, but they all crawling back now they know that I'm next up

and I'm stressed and they want my life and I don't know why

Yeah my life is filled with 
dog tags
prada bags
fake bitches
jetlag

rolling up
counting up
popping beans and getting st- stuck

cherry fanta
pop a bus
redbull
(throw it up)

face down
asphalt
Don't know when I've had enough

bad bitch shit p. billsburyjoeboi x ria

mental anguish

prod slicky

@oldcollin

luv u niz

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/instigate
https://open.spotify.com/track/75TBDR2qvO0UOR8TNCa3ej?si=c0801757b7d74861/

picture taken by @luckiwitch on instagram

instigate (p slicky)

prod
@1hallow
@suyuki
mixed by @janeremover
[lyrics]
im starting realize that its my fault
cause i dont know where i woke up 
or what we did last night
she tell her mama that im awful
heard he was talking, left his body
where it wont see the light
its 2am, i feel my nose sting 
fuck, i heard my phone ring
i promise ima call you back
too intoxicated, keep it lowkey
please dont say you know me
cause no one ever had my back

all to say, where i've been,
is a mouthful
i cant blame, what you said,
cause im awful
we're on and off like every second
say "i love you" and regret it
cant stay off the pharmaceutics 
all the shit, that you said, 
is a mouthful
say im dumb and misled
guess im awful
you tried your hardest to forget it 
you still call me when your stressing
blame it on the pharmaceutics

i know
that even when you're with him 
you feel alone
and i wish i could help you, but it's
too late now, the sun's gone down
and its cold, its so cold
and when the withdrawls kick, and you feel so sick
well just know
you're still home

all to say, where i've been,
is a mouthful
i cant blame, what you said,
cause im awful
we're on and off like every second
say "i love you" and regret it
cant stay off the pharmaceutics 
all the shit, that you said, 
is a mouthful
say im dumb and misled
guess im awful
you tried your hardest to forget it 
you still call me when your stressing
blame it on the pharmaceutics

awful (hallow + suyuki)

prod: @anem0s
Mix & Master: Musa
Cover Art by Brandon Graser

see you insides 👁️

Lyrics

Chorus:
Go waste your time
Enjoy yourself 
Don’t get me wrong 
See you insides
I say you will
Open your eyes
You did me wrong 
adore you still
Keep that in mind 
Baby I lie
You know the deal
One thousand eyes 

—
Verse:

Am I vicious 
I couldn’t tell you no,
Talkin about it till I bit my tongue 
I swear that I’m kidding 
Baby I hate it how you’re just no fun 

But i think that I kinda like it when you cut me off 
Attention so undivided, kinda feels so wrong 
I don’t know where to hide, I think I might get lost 
I could see it was wrong
I can see it  
—-
Bridge:
Memorizing, perfect timing
And you look half dead half the time
Wanna drain you, replicate you 
Like machines do, perfect design

insides (prod.anem0s)

i think that this'll haunt me for the rest of my life

prod. sudbath

i'm friends with a ghost
that doesn't mind my behavior
he's out of control
but i don't wanna be savior
are you ready to roll?
i ain't ready to face it
i can't do this alone
yeah i can't deal with the fake shit (x2)

so tell me why it's inside out
did the battle begin?
i'm stuck at home without a weapon
let my guard down again

baby this is god's fight now
and i'm over my head
there's a ghost on the bed
think i'm already dead

the way it all began
maybe i don't need you, baby.. who u think i am?
u don't treat me like an equal cus i don't think that u can
and we lost it all, don't even worry bout it
it's just a trust fall

i'm friends with a ghost
that doesn't mind my behavior
he's out of control
but i don't wanna be savior
are you ready to roll?
i ain't ready to face it
i can't do this alone
yeah i can't deal with the fake shit (x2)

where you want me, and where's my mind
i got a halo on me to bide my time
where you want me, where's my mind
i think that this'll haunt me for the rest of my life

the way it all began
maybe i don't need you, baby.. who u think i am?
u don't treat me like an equal cus i don't think that u can
and we lost it all, don't even worry bout it
it's just a trust fall

wanna be a friend to u
but u lost yourself
u don't want no help, (so okay with hell)
i just hate to leave you out

in the thick of it all, must be sick of it all
if i crash, ima f-

where you want me, and where's my mind
i got a halo on me to bide my time
where you want me, where's my mind
i think that this'll haunt me for the rest of my life

i'm friends with a ghost

ghost

produced and written by me :)
mastered by @wubz
you can just calle me when you want 
i'll say exactly what you need to hear 
so baby don't put up a front 
i promise it won't make it easier 



she said
come over 
this isn't over
lock my eyes
and there's plenty i can show ya
 time flies 
you can blink and then it's over 
you should get to knowin me



prechorus

and every time i close my eyes
feel like i closed the distance
ain't slept the whole damn night 
i feel like something's missin
know you feel it to
won't believe it tho
so please just know that 

chorus

you can just calle me when you want 
i'll say exactly what you need to hear 
so baby don't put up a front 
i promise it won't make it easier 


i know i can't turn th clock back 
so i'll tic away the seconds with you babe
i never would've thought that 
this was something that i even had to mention to you baby 
 
me and you we got involved 
off the bat we had it all
didn't know what i was supposed to do
fucked it up it was my fault but 

 you stood by me through it all and 
i'll make it up baby you know that 
got my back up off the wall and 
it's makin a difference i'll show you that so

next time when you come over 
i'll let you know all the 
things i miss about you 


next time when you come over 
i'll let you know all the 
things i love about you

callmewhenyouwant

out of service

xoxo

wouldufallinlove

wow i have been so behind and my lifes been falling apart
i love you all thank you so much for the constant support this truly keeps me going and gives me a reason to wake up everyday. its sum different but i hope u all like it.

insides (prod.anem0s)

4cf