fantasy

empty

sad:(

neverforevernothingnowhere

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cq6K0hICr0A

music video

poor posture

oilcolor: @oilcolor / @moplush 

it’s  like I’m holding on with broken hands 
i see these lies out the corner of my eye 
when i grow up i wanna be a ghost 
so i can see how you feel when i’m not as close

ill pretend i’m in my old bed
tired eyes, tuck me in, pat me on the head 
construct a world in which i’m safe again 
growing up,
giving up 
i wish i’d never left     


full nelson (n,n. x oilcolor)

wooden home

not my songs.

never,forever deleted all his songs
too good to not be on here.
support him and his other project n,n.
https://soundcloud.com/neverforevermusic
https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic

never,forever. - kerosene

never,forever. - Regards,

demo.

never,forever. - Repairable

i wanted to cry, i wanted to die.

@lilhappylilsad @kuroimetsuyu

yt: https://youtu.be/SLIKZXjkIu8

i thought that i had told myself
not to fucking fall in love
now i fucking find myself
singing to you in my songs

im sure im gonna hurt you girl
so you better stay away
know that youre at loss for words
i just dont know what else to say

i dont wanna be
the reason that you bleed
girl you better leave
yeah im trynna make you see

youre better off alone
at least youll still be free
while im smoking weed
for the scars im trynna heal
x2

while i find myself x3
ill never find myself

find myself (prod. kuroime)

never,forever. - to be you

they can never understand
how i really feel inside
i smoked some weed to feel alright
but look at how it changed me now

for better and for worse at times
it doesnt even get me high
should prolly take a break sometime
i light it up and go offline

yeah i light it up and smoke for now
i dont give a fuck if i break down 
she suck my dick to help me up
her knees are bleeding from the cuts

i know that people really hate me
my phone is blowing up like crazy
if i go no one can replace me
so i stay cause all these women crave me

crave me (prod. kuroime)

god im going crazy kill me
starin out the rope in the ceiling
lately ive been changing, still me
they ask me if im draining, guilty

im feelin lonely i miss u and smoke
girl please just kill me im gone off the dope
x2

im rollin up, hittin the dope
always the same maybe why i feel low
i put my feelings on paper and flow
no one can do it the way that i do

dont wanna stop, never gone go
im always here if u feelin alone
girl if u miss me just call on my phone
im off the dope so my world going slow

im feelin lonely i miss u and smoke
girl please just kill me im gone off the dope

still me (prod. lilhappylilsad)

Spotify / iTunes / Apple Music / etc:
https://fanlink.to/lhls-alone

youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6pvOL6Sd6M

im always on my fucking phone
im always off the fucking dope
i never wanted u to go
i always cry when im alone

im off the dope 
im in my room
im feelin lost n alone
one glass of whiskey i mix that w coke
im doing drugs all alone
im on my own
girl if u need me u got me
just call on my phone
rollin a blunt
i got nothing to lose

I got nothing left to lose, to lose
i gave it up for u, for u
I feel nothing when I'm low, I'm low
my world is always going slow, so slow

Download

alone (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

new album dropping in March!!

stream/dl: https://fanlink.to/lhls-shine

lyrics:

baby where u going don't u love me
fuck all of our problems ur the only
i dont wanna miss u i feel lonely
come here let me kiss u girl I'm sorry
x2

i been working hard 
and I'm balling now
know I'll make it far 
i dont even try
getting what i want
I'm ahead of time
I'm a fucking star
they don't like my shine

they don't like me shining
they wanna stop me
they don't like the grinding
they can't keep up w
10h 7 days of the week
and im stressing so hard
that i smoke like a fiend

shine (prod. lilhappylilsad)

produced, mixed & mastered by @notmorgn
guitar by: @caspr

i feel like shit again
like shit again
my words burn like they sizzling
i can’t take notes i’m scribbling
i ball with bands you dribble
flow so cold it can’t ripple
i got the the slight of hand
flying like im peter pan
waste entire days
can’t find purpose anyway
can’t find shit I’m in a haze
40 oz right to my face
i’m isolated
why they think they famous?
blame it on the numbers
sometimes i can’t take it

you’re like a blast from the past
i’m so temporary baby
feel like this is dying fast
so temporary
i’m so temporary

off that shit again
off that gin again
till i can’t pour it up
till i can’t see my cup
is it fun to treat me like a dub
to treat me like shit
treat me like another one
and what’s the point in love
when you can’t feel a thing?
can’t feel a thing
baby i can’t feel my face
and what’s the point in love
when you can’t feel a thing?
can’t feel a thing
baby i can’t feel my face

you’re like a blast from the past
i’m so temporary baby
feel like this is dying fast
so temporary
i’m so temporary

you’re like a blast from the past
i’m so temporary baby
feel like this is dying fast
so temporary
i’m so temporary

so temporary

Art by Emotional Buu https://soundcloud.com/emotionalbuu
https://twitter.com/emotionalbuu

Lyrics:

Still couldn't say,
Who mothered guilt and delivered the prey?
They roll the credits but I still replay
Over and over, it's over. Ok (again and again)
But I don't know who the enemy was
Reflections show up empty of trust
It was you feelin lost, lookin for rest
I was willing to offer the home in my chest

I made
One beautiful mistake
and I pay for it every single day
Now you hate me in every single way
And I know that'll never ever change

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward
X2

Along for the ride
As we took off I let fate be our guide
But you shook off what I knew wasn't right
Blood on my neck that's a poisonous bite!
But I didn't let this change me
In one week like relapse
I went down in slow steps,
Lost hope like bad romance
Next thing you know I'm in entirely numb
On a dangerous road, say I had a good run

If I could I would take it all back
Not to self save, but to pay my debt
If I could I would take it all back
Not to self save, but to free your head

I made
One beautiful mistake
and I pay for it every single day
Now you hate me in every single way
And I know that'll never ever change

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward
X2

Now the Devil's made his home on both my shoulders
As I get older I yield to the smolder

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward

Shadow

deadbeatteen
artificial creek
nicotine dreams

dbt forever ❤️

solo trappin.

Where's My Reward (prod. ʎpoqou)

Artificial Creek - i thought i wanted this, but i don't.

i know its all my fault
i know its all my fault

I can hardly sleep with all this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in my mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

swear this shit gotta stop
but i like pain a lot
and you like that im fucked
you just wont admit it
i've been biting my tongue
goosebumps up on my arm
i'll just talk to this cup
and forget the issue

I can hardly sleep with this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in the mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

PPL THT I LUV THE MOST

masquerade as heaven, but its hell

special shout outs to @davyjoseph and @stairwellx
for throwing down some beauty on this hook

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

blackheartemoji

spotify

where i belong

if u know, u know.

6/9/20 - found some old shit in some lost folders. enjoy. 
more on @deadbeatforever2