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Lyrics:
sometimes i feel lonely too

february...

All this liquor in my fucking veins
You said your better 
But you havent changed
Watch my blood flow into the drain
Got these pills to medicate my brain
Im not happy but they keep me sane
And i dont talk because they think im strange
If u dont like me better switch your lane
February is my new name
And im sorry that i let go
I let the cold seep into my bones
I only come alive when it fucking snows
Im sorry but i have to go

YOU WALKED OFF
AND I LOST HOPE
IF YOU LEFT ME
WHERE WOULD I GO

Spotify

sometimes i feel lonely too (fantom)

red cups (idealism)

me and my ex broke apart on our beach trip...

beach trip (nevrfall)

suffering w/ ericgodlow

Lyrics: 
3 years fucking past
And i still haven’t found myself 
Told u id take meds 
So i wouldnt kill myself
Sick of all this fighting i just wish that you would hear me out
Put my phone on vibrate cuz i fucking hate the sound
Of clicks
Fucking texts
Im upset
Thoughts better left unsaid

Im so sorry mom
I just pop another seal
They say it numbs ur pain
So i popped another pill
If thats the fucking case
Then what the fuck i feel
Im tired of the anger
And all the fucking chills


Im depressed 
Im upset 
Thoughts better left unsaid

rooftop freestyle (prod kareo)

caspr inspiration
pic by fatih 
<3

Lyrics:

Break my heart in pieces
I dont know
Think i fell in love with being alone
U can go out
While i stay home
I feel no emotion when i drink alone

I pop two pills
Now im tweakin
I drink all night
Now im leanin
Shawti callin me for the lust
I could really care
But i cant give a fuck

Break my heart in pieces
I dont know
Think i fell in love with being alone
U can go out
While i stay home
I feel no emotion when i drink alone

Yeah she moved on
My heart stoppin
I stay up late
I hear talking
I dont care ab ur music 
Cuz im focused on my projects
If u really cared
You would all just stop talkin

alone [prod. rubbish x chapter]

cover art by @faetihx
ily <3
prod @emptychest
shout out @imkt

Lyrics:

Heart beat going fast
And im sad now
Everynight everyweek i just black out
She always text never never go out
got a text from my plug holdup gotta go now
Same drugs 
Same weed
I dont really give a fuck
Ghost me
No hugs no kisses
I left that boy in stitches
If he want to fight again
He gonna turn into a digit
Then im gunna kiss his mistress
Gotta stay on track ghost recon 
With the mission
Kt packed the new bowl 
Losing count of the spinich
Im counting up the fucking minutes 
Till i fucking break
Can you stay
I dont want to lose ur face

Heart beat going fast
And im sad now
Everynight everyweek i just black out
She always text never never go out
got a text from my plug holdup gotta go now
Im tired of this shit
And im tired of the pain
All these words in brain
I just posted a new tweet
Why she all up on my page
Why she gotta call 
When she not even my main
im too fucked up

ghost me (prod. emptychest)

ft @jxsephhhh
cover by fatih

lyrics:
[deadboymike]
my demons colliding
i cannot fight it
people im hiding from
just keep coming back 

Got her perfume on my chest
I Told her I wouldnt start falling 
Im filled with regrets
But with her i got options 
We both came from dark paths
Which were filled with toxins
So i dont wana try too much
I promise that i wont give up
i dont wana try too much
I promise that i wont give up
I promise that i wont give up

[jxseph]
my mind is twisted i dont know my way
please dont hurt me im going through this bad way
oh my lord dont leave me hanging
i just realized im too depending
no matter how bad u do i keep defending
I keep pretending that you are not condescending
i got nowhere to go
i guess I stay with you rn
I dont know if i stay with you now
these thoughts in my head wont leave
in this tortured state Forever

[deadboymike]
Got her perfume on my chest
I Told her I wouldnt start falling 
Im filled with regrets
But with her i got options 
We both came from dark paths
Which were filled with toxins
So i dont wana try too much
I promise that i wont give up
i dont wana try too much
I promise that i wont give up
I promise that i wont give up

toxic_love ft. JXSEPHH (prod. farber)

*Disclaimer*
you are not alone in your struggles. Its okay to be sad. Its okay to cry. 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 988 <3

lyrics:
And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why im still here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why i hold fear

4 years of music
Why do i still do it
They think that im good
But im still uncertain 

These bottled emotions 
Got me feeling hopeless
Still i waste my time
Writing this music

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why im still here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why i hold fear

Still remember the call
In 2015
As i fell to my knees
And i started to scream

I did this for you
I wish you could see it
I never did judge
Cuz we have our demons
But u were the reason
Why im here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why im still here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why i hold fear

Being mentally ill
I did this to cope
Because i know you wont b there
When i get back home

I cried with u
U were screaming for help
I knew i could tell
You were losing yourself
Now all my memories 
Bring me to hell
I knew u felt worthless
Nobody is perfect
6 years have past
But i am still hurting

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why im still here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why i hold fear

art by fatih

i dont know why im still here (unlucky)

Hazel in her eyes but its surrounded by deep blue

your smile always fixes the bad days (jewelry boy)

sedatives (jewelryboy)

floating.rrarebear

options - snippet (PROD MTCHLR)

ily <3

Im sorry that we didnt last
I just want all this pain in the past
Our pictures still intact with the frame
Life wont ever feel like the same 
Oh no
Oh no

Depressed when i wake up
You ask that we make up
U cheat then we break up
Its toxic
And i dont want to be an option 
Oh no

And im so sorry that i couldnt change
You look at my face and im one to blame
You say that you love me
You say that you hate me
I dont care anymore 
Im sorry…

Im sorry that we didnt last
I just want all this pain in the past
Our pictures still intact with the frame
Life wont ever feel like the same 
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no

I know
I know

Prod @jeweler737

its the same feeling every night and i hate it... (jewelryboy)

Prod @wisssery <3

These past few months
Gave me cuts on my face
And every day i make the same mistakes
Pushed away my friends 
Cuz i hate how ive changed
She made me worse
And im not the same
I hate myself
I just need some space 
Im tired of holding in all my pain

Should i stay here
Or am i lying to myself
visions not clear
And i dont need your help
Should i stay here
Or am i lying to myself
visions not clear
And i dont need your help

Please let me go and watch me fall
Didnt think our relationship would change it all
I cant even rest when im alone
Waiting for a message on phone

apologies on the mixing, my pop filter broke and im using a different one. will make sure the next song isnt as bad <3

not/clear (@wisssery)

a freestyle i made a few weeks ago, lmk if u want more on it, or if u just like the raw vocals. love you, have a great day <3

face_shiift (raw vocals) [iof]

b4ck_roads ft maesk (jewelryboy)

original by: @sewerperson 

lyrics:

It’s been 10 months, can we speak now?
I’m not hurt, I need closure
I’m happy you had found a new partner

Breakaway from the predetermined life 
I’m okay, I just can't seem to get sleep at night 
You could see it in the photos from our posts
I was dealing with addiction in like most of those

I put time into our partnership for bullet holes
I drive home on summer nights and play our videos
I play playlists you had made and then forgot about
No one else is in my brain when I sleep at home

Time again
To pass up on our options
I need a friend 
To tell me what was wanted

2 years with this brain rot
I cant think of u gone
Got my image twisted 
I swear im that same guy
My minds time bomb
Smokin till my lungs pop
Shell with no thoughts 
Never get a day off

Breakaway from the predetermined life 
I’m okay, I just can't seem to get sleep at night 
You could see it in the photos from our posts
I was dealing with addiction in like most of those

I put time into our partnership for bullet holes
I drive home on summer nights and play our videos
I play playlists you had made and then forgot about
No one else is in my brain when I sleep at home

curtain_caller(jewelryboy)

She a lil freak
Lick her teeth
While she bite in

Sent my location 
I know that she sliding 

Poppin champagne 
Off the roof
In the silence 

I stayed away
I dont like to get violent 

Latey i feel like i been all alone
Getting texts like why i havent shown
Honestly thats just how it goes
I been busy gettin to the dough
Stackin green, fucking, gettin dome
No one asked, you probably didn’t know 
Too busy for my calls, and now u broke
Honestly thats just how it goes

She a lil freak
Lick her teeth
While she bite in

Sent my location 
I know that she sliding 

Poppin champagne 
Off the roof
In the silence 

I stayed away
I dont like to get violent

_silence (bruks)

detachh (prod. outtaspace x cv x deucesrk)

w/ @xelfiy @20ofive @scottysplash @prodbysxda

[deadboymike]
If she send a text i wont hit her up
Pour another drink
I dont give a fuck
Everybody fake
I could never trust
I pop another pill
Just to feel a rush
Sad inside 
Suicide on my mind 
Pop a pill slow it down
Take your time 
Better buckle up
If you’re down for the ride
She just sent a text come and chill
Come and slide

[xelfiy]
phone is blowing up shes 
tryina get me to come in side
but i got shit to do and it will probably 
will just keep me up all night
an i probably will cuz im mentally ill 
an i dont ever let my heart out 
enough to let it go spill
gotta lot of work to do 
and it dont mater how he feel
we still gotta chop away 
until we gotta enough to pay the bills
and they act like they care 
that your mentally ill 
but it wont mater till your spines 
is all ripped up ina field
i couldn't let go of the pain
i fear nothing is the same
an im the one to blame 
i dont feel the same

[deadboymike]
If she send a text i wont hit her up
Pour another drink
I dont give a fuck
Everybody fake
I could never trust
I pop another pill
Just to feel a rush
Sad inside 
Suicide on my mind 
Pop a pill slow it down
Take your time 
Better buckle up
If you’re down for the ride
She just sent a text come and chill
Come and slide

[20ofive]
walls red its a fuckin mess
all this is fucking with my head
migraines im wishing i was dead
maybe i just need a little rest

met the reaper late inside my dreams yeah
hes not as bad as he always seems though
youre worse cause you a mother fuckin fiend hoe
we both becoming freinds so let me know just how your dreams go

eyes red mind bends
ive been fucking blinded
go back to that lair you decide that you reside in
flying dying 
cause i fucking crashed
turn back to youre past and imma burn it down to ash

yeah youre probly thinking that im crazy
im just eavesdropping on your daydreams
mind reading screaming fucking shady
tell me stop it but ill prolly think about it maybe

SLIDE w/ xelfiy, 20ofive (scottysplash x woahsxda)

old track that i proded with my boy donny

I dont wana talk
Unless u say it
People always change on the fake shit
Sit inside the dark and get faded
I dont do a feature without payment 
Why he run his mouth
Pussy boy got fucked up
He got done up
My boy keep that shit tucked

sit inside the dark (deadboymike x cordon)

cuz i been feelin down now
these people say im out now
im never too good
all these people understood
and i fill up when i breathe
i just choke when i just breathe
why cant u just let me bleed
all these people in my dreams
no emotion coming back
i just want to get on track 
people said i wouldnt make it 
look at me and where im at
people wanna switch and change
i dont care what you just say
i dont wanna see u now
i think that i am now okay
i think that im ok-k-k-k-k-k
i think that im okay

lay_me_to_rest_freestyle_caps_ctrl.wav

you watch my life 
from a cracked screen
you dont reach out
theres no talking
only silence
only envy
as we move on
theres no smiling

ah ahhh ahhhhh
ahhh ahhhhh ahh
ah ahhh ahhhhh

YOU WATCH MY LIFE
FROM A CRACKED SCREEN
YOU DONT REACH OUT
THERES NO TALKING
ONLY SILENCE
ONLY ENVY
AS WE MOVE ON
THERES NO SMILING

oooo ooo ooo ooooo
oooo ooo ooo ooooo

from_a_cracked_screen.wav

flatline (deadspyro)

took 2 pills n now im geekin

i will keep reuploading this till death, free me

2022 freestyle

menthol *unfinished*

matrix (unfinished)

old track from 2020 when i was finding my sound, enjoy

01101100 01100101 01100001 01100110 (why_loner)

H<3ART_^_BEAT (BRUKS)

My feelings fade like seasons 
I bite the neck of demons
I watched my ex burn down
You know i had my reasons
I spark the spliff
I bleed it
Flesh is what im eatin
Toxins what i breath in
Dont know what im seeing

Watch my feelings fade
Watch my feelings change
Dont tell me to my face
I walk around in halls
Im walking into fate

walking_thru_halls (jewelryboy)

I cant help but to remember 
All those days in mid December 
Of all those laughs and holding your hand
Do think about me all those memories 
Of waking up to me in ur bed

december

Looking through our photos but i dont even know your name

walking in these circles because nothing really looks the same

If it was just only us do really ever think youd change

I dont really know but i know that im going insane

Circles (iof)

Shout out @swainesworld @swainesworld @swainesworld

Lyrics:

What you say tho
My word spit hella fatal
Burning all these tires
Ice meltin like its fuego
 drippin like im naval
Republic like im plato
Ill Rip your shit apart
I dont need a drako
Ill spray u like its nasal
Puncture like a staple
If you got a verse just leave it on the table
Im servin pretty with it
Triple double 
Bitch you know im winnin
I got nv on the track 
aint i aint talkin envy
Swaine up on the track
And thats just one of many
Save your 2 cents
I dont need your fuckin pennys

deadboymike x swaine - plato (eric godlow)

dont leave me cover <3
original by @i_x_t_a_i_l_s @sewerperson

pls dont leave me (cover) (fantom)

PUSSYBOICLIQUE
@spumlord @spumlord @spumlord
bro yung spum up next 
prod paryo

make em die w/ yung spum  [p. paryo]

The Fog breathe on your window
Baby kiss me with your eyes closed 
My life lives in the shadows
And Im hoping that i die slow

U said we were ment to be
I but think we wernt ment to last
You ran away
Now i want you back
Guess ill stay in the dark
And I ran out of matches
I gave you love
But thats in the past tense 
And If ur here now 
Would u tell me what happened 
(Would you tell me what happened)

Me what happened…

The Fog breathe on your windows
Baby kiss me with your eyes closed 
My life lives in the shadows
And Im hoping that i die slow

I met a girl who said she wouldnt leave
And now thats all left is with her in my dreams
Now all i can see if her face in the past
Why fall like the leaves
Everything drags on
Cuz I couldn’t see the present tense
And im dead inside but no one can really help it

Cuz i got problems on my belt
And i got people to fucking regret
I got things up on my chest that i would never tell anybody
Nobody really fucking cares about anything 
Nobody fucking gives a shit 
So why the fuck should i care.

die slowly (IOF)

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