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Lyrics:
sometimes i feel lonely too

february...

All this liquor in my fucking veins
You said your better 
But you havent changed
Watch my blood flow into the drain
Got these pills to medicate my brain
Im not happy but they keep me sane
And i dont talk because they think im strange
If u dont like me better switch your lane
February is my new name
And im sorry that i let go
I let the cold seep into my bones
I only come alive when it fucking snows
Im sorry but i have to go

YOU WALKED OFF
AND I LOST HOPE
IF YOU LEFT ME
WHERE WOULD I GO

Spotify

sometimes i feel lonely too (fantom)

Lyrics: 
3 years fucking past
And i still haven’t found myself 
Told u id take meds 
So i wouldnt kill myself
Sick of all this fighting i just wish that you would hear me out
Put my phone on vibrate cuz i fucking hate the sound
Of clicks
Fucking texts
Im upset
Thoughts better left unsaid

Im so sorry mom
I just pop another seal
They say it numbs ur pain
So i popped another pill
If thats the fucking case
Then what the fuck i feel
Im tired of the anger
And all the fucking chills


Im depressed 
Im upset 
Thoughts better left unsaid

rooftop freestyle (prod kareo)

Shout out @prodskellington ive always wanted to work with him. This is my favorite song by far. Enjoy <3

cover by fatih

Lyrics:

Rn now im fucked up
I think she is leaving
And that im doing to much
I dont get love
I brake my own damn heart
Just so i can feel some

She says i need to run 
But i dont give a fuck
Im tired of the waiting
Im tired of the lust
I just want someone
Who i can really love
I think i have had enough 

Rn now im fucked up
I think she is leaving
And that im doing to much
I dont get love
I brake my own damn heart
Just so i can feel some

im doing too much (skellington)

cover art by @faetihx
ily <3
prod @emptychest
shout out @imkt

Lyrics:

Heart beat going fast
And im sad now
Everynight everyweek i just black out
She always text never never go out
got a text from my plug holdup gotta go now
Same drugs 
Same weed
I dont really give a fuck
Ghost me
No hugs no kisses
I left that boy in stitches
If he want to fight again
He gonna turn into a digit
Then im gunna kiss his mistress
Gotta stay on track ghost recon 
With the mission
Kt packed the new bowl 
Losing count of the spinich
Im counting up the fucking minutes 
Till i fucking break
Can you stay
I dont want to lose ur face

Heart beat going fast
And im sad now
Everynight everyweek i just black out
She always text never never go out
got a text from my plug holdup gotta go now
Im tired of this shit
And im tired of the pain
All these words in brain
I just posted a new tweet
Why she all up on my page
Why she gotta call 
When she not even my main
im too fucked up

ghost me (prod. emptychest)

Featuring @sinnagacci
Prod @jabari-voss
Mixed by deadboymike

Lyrics: 

Stacking my way to the top
Counting my money and counting my green
People just talk they envying me
I cannot sleep
I cannot eat
Drinking all day i 
Turned to a feign
Im smoking on tree
That calm me down
So im back in a dream
People hating on me
Im living life they
Gon see me succeed 

[sinna]
stackin it up
stay in my lane
 runnin it up
playin no games
 i dont wanna talk
stayin for fame
 givin me brain
im stayin the same
she wanna talk
 but its all the same
runnin it up
 livin for gang
talkin yo shit
best stay in yo lane

Stacking my way to the top
Counting my money and counting my green
People just talk they envying me
I cannot sleep
I cannot eat
Drinking all day i 
Turned to a feign
Im smoking on tree
That calm me down
So im back in a dream
People hating on me
Im living life they
Gon see me succeed 
X2 

Get to this money
Get to that cake
I need it bad
So its fuck what they say
I am not winning
Till i drive a wraith
say what u want
im livin great
Im eating good
Stake on my plate
Fuck what u say
Imma blow up
Imma live great

envy (ft. sinna) [jabarionthebeat x a1 rocky]

ft @jxsephhhh
cover by fatih

lyrics:
[deadboymike]
my demons colliding
i cannot fight it
people im hiding from
just keep coming back 

Got her perfume on my chest
I Told her I wouldnt start falling 
Im filled with regrets
But with her i got options 
We both came from dark paths
Which were filled with toxins
So i dont wana try too much
I promise that i wont give up
i dont wana try too much
I promise that i wont give up
I promise that i wont give up

[jxseph]
my mind is twisted i dont know my way
please dont hurt me im going through this bad way
oh my lord dont leave me hanging
i just realized im too depending
no matter how bad u do i keep defending
I keep pretending that you are not condescending
i got nowhere to go
i guess I stay with you rn
I dont know if i stay with you now
these thoughts in my head wont leave
in this tortured state Forever

[deadboymike]
Got her perfume on my chest
I Told her I wouldnt start falling 
Im filled with regrets
But with her i got options 
We both came from dark paths
Which were filled with toxins
So i dont wana try too much
I promise that i wont give up
i dont wana try too much
I promise that i wont give up
I promise that i wont give up

toxic_love ft. JXSEPHH (prod. farber)

Sorry that the song is so short, file corrupted....
thanks for all the recent love <3
@prodskellington

darkness_ (skellington)

*Disclaimer*
you are not alone in your struggles. Its okay to be sad. Its okay to cry. 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 988 <3

lyrics:
And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why im still here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why i hold fear

4 years of music
Why do i still do it
They think that im good
But im still uncertain 

These bottled emotions 
Got me feeling hopeless
Still i waste my time
Writing this music

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why im still here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why i hold fear

Still remember the call
In 2015
As i fell to my knees
And i started to scream

I did this for you
I wish you could see it
I never did judge
Cuz we have our demons
But u were the reason
Why im here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why im still here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why i hold fear

Being mentally ill
I did this to cope
Because i know you wont b there
When i get back home

I cried with u
U were screaming for help
I knew i could tell
You were losing yourself
Now all my memories 
Bring me to hell
I knew u felt worthless
Nobody is perfect
6 years have past
But i am still hurting

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why im still here

And i dont know
I dont know
I dont know
Why i hold fear

art by fatih

i dont know why im still here (unlucky)

when im all alone i swear you're always near (drag)

People they tell me im worth it 
I do not think that im perfect 
Knowing they love me back then
Knowing they love me right now and i know

This aint what it ment to be
Passed out why they dead to me
I cannot think sippin hennesy
I was caught lurkin in the background 
Why does everyone target me
Our love was dead from the start
I stayed up in the dark
Thinking of texts that i sent
Maybe those words were best if unsaid

Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Maybe those words were best if unsaid

My emotions change by the minute 
Said i was done but i cannot finish
Off the feelings you left
I keep asking god why im a mess
And i know

This aint what it ment to be
Passed out why they dead to me
I cannot think sippin hennesy
I was caught lurkin in the background 
Why does everyone target me
Our love was dead from the start
I stayed up in the dark
Thinking of texts that i sent

Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Thinking of texts that i sent
Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Why am i such a fuckin mess
Why am i such a fuckin mess

dark nights (jewelryboy)

Hazel in her eyes but its surrounded by deep blue

your smile always fixes the bad days (jewelry boy)

sedatives (jewelryboy)

options - snippet

ily <3

Im sorry that we didnt last
I just want all this pain in the past
Our pictures still intact with the frame
Life wont ever feel like the same 
Oh no
Oh no

Depressed when i wake up
You ask that we make up
U cheat then we break up
Its toxic
And i dont want to be an option 
Oh no

And im so sorry that i couldnt change
You look at my face and im one to blame
You say that you love me
You say that you hate me
I dont care anymore 
Im sorry…

Im sorry that we didnt last
I just want all this pain in the past
Our pictures still intact with the frame
Life wont ever feel like the same 
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no

I know
I know

Prod @jeweler737

its the same feeling every night and i hate it... (jewelryboy)

Shout out @not-a-fucking-hero

<3

Neck tied
Ill be dead by the morning 
Meet ends 
But im still fucking boring
Lights out i dont sleep
But ur snoring 
Another night
Drunk im still pouring
I dont like fact that im not dead
Smoke a blut till the stub
And im noxious 
Time flies when u fill ur mind
With nonsense 
Send her home
Im alone on the weekend

neck t!ed (prod hero)

Prod @wisssery <3

These past few months
Gave me cuts on my face
And every day i make the same mistakes
Pushed away my friends 
Cuz i hate how ive changed
She made me worse
And im not the same
I hate myself
I just need some space 
Im tired of holding in all my pain

Should i stay here
Or am i lying to myself
visions not clear
And i dont need your help
Should i stay here
Or am i lying to myself
visions not clear
And i dont need your help

Please let me go and watch me fall
Didnt think our relationship would change it all
I cant even rest when im alone
Waiting for a message on phone

apologies on the mixing, my pop filter broke and im using a different one. will make sure the next song isnt as bad <3

not/clear (@wisssery)

a freestyle i made a few weeks ago, lmk if u want more on it, or if u just like the raw vocals. love you, have a great day <3

face_shiift (raw vocals) [iof]

b4ck_roads ft maesk (jewelryboy)

face_shift_@turnvandal_remix

original by: @sewerperson 

lyrics:

It’s been 10 months, can we speak now?
I’m not hurt, I need closure
I’m happy you had found a new partner

Breakaway from the predetermined life 
I’m okay, I just can't seem to get sleep at night 
You could see it in the photos from our posts
I was dealing with addiction in like most of those

I put time into our partnership for bullet holes
I drive home on summer nights and play our videos
I play playlists you had made and then forgot about
No one else is in my brain when I sleep at home

Time again
To pass up on our options
I need a friend 
To tell me what was wanted

2 years with this brain rot
I cant think of u gone
Got my image twisted 
I swear im that same guy
My minds time bomb
Smokin till my lungs pop
Shell with no thoughts 
Never get a day off

Breakaway from the predetermined life 
I’m okay, I just can't seem to get sleep at night 
You could see it in the photos from our posts
I was dealing with addiction in like most of those

I put time into our partnership for bullet holes
I drive home on summer nights and play our videos
I play playlists you had made and then forgot about
No one else is in my brain when I sleep at home

curtain_caller(jewelryboy)

waves_iof *snippet*

She a lil freak
Lick her teeth
While she bite in

Sent my location 
I know that she sliding 

Poppin champagne 
Off the roof
In the silence 

I stayed away
I dont like to get violent 

Latey i feel like i been all alone
Getting texts like why i havent shown
Honestly thats just how it goes
I been busy gettin to the dough
Stackin green, fucking, gettin dome
No one asked, you probably didn’t know 
Too busy for my calls, and now u broke
Honestly thats just how it goes

She a lil freak
Lick her teeth
While she bite in

Sent my location 
I know that she sliding 

Poppin champagne 
Off the roof
In the silence 

I stayed away
I dont like to get violent

_silence (bruks)

detachh (prod. outtaspace x cv x deucesrk)

w/ @xelfiy @20ofive @scottysplash @prodbysxda

[deadboymike]
If she send a text i wont hit her up
Pour another drink
I dont give a fuck
Everybody fake
I could never trust
I pop another pill
Just to feel a rush
Sad inside 
Suicide on my mind 
Pop a pill slow it down
Take your time 
Better buckle up
If you’re down for the ride
She just sent a text come and chill
Come and slide

[xelfiy]
phone is blowing up shes 
tryina get me to come in side
but i got shit to do and it will probably 
will just keep me up all night
an i probably will cuz im mentally ill 
an i dont ever let my heart out 
enough to let it go spill
gotta lot of work to do 
and it dont mater how he feel
we still gotta chop away 
until we gotta enough to pay the bills
and they act like they care 
that your mentally ill 
but it wont mater till your spines 
is all ripped up ina field
i couldn't let go of the pain
i fear nothing is the same
an im the one to blame 
i dont feel the same

[deadboymike]
If she send a text i wont hit her up
Pour another drink
I dont give a fuck
Everybody fake
I could never trust
I pop another pill
Just to feel a rush
Sad inside 
Suicide on my mind 
Pop a pill slow it down
Take your time 
Better buckle up
If you’re down for the ride
She just sent a text come and chill
Come and slide

[20ofive]
walls red its a fuckin mess
all this is fucking with my head
migraines im wishing i was dead
maybe i just need a little rest

met the reaper late inside my dreams yeah
hes not as bad as he always seems though
youre worse cause you a mother fuckin fiend hoe
we both becoming freinds so let me know just how your dreams go

eyes red mind bends
ive been fucking blinded
go back to that lair you decid that you reside in
flying dying 
cause i fucking crashed
turn back to youre past and imma burn it down to ash

yeah youre probly thinking that im crazy
im just eavesdropping on your daydreams
mind reading screaming fucking shady
tell me stop it but ill prolly think about it maybe

SLIDE w/ xelfiy, 20ofive (scottysplash x woahsxda)

old track that i proded with my boy donny

sit inside the dark (deadboymike x cordon)

cuz i been feelin down now
these people say im out now
im never too good
all these people understood
and i fill up when i breathe
i just choke when i just breathe
why cant u just let me bleed
all these people in my dreams
no emotion coming back
i just want to get on track 
people said i wouldnt make it 
look at me and where im at
people wanna switch and change
i dont care what you just say
i dont wanna see u now
i think that i am now okay
i think that im ok-k-k-k-k-k
i think that im okay

lay_me_to_rest_freestyle_caps_ctrl.wav

you watch my life 
from a cracked screen
you dont reach out
theres no talking
only silence
only envy
as we move on
theres no smiling

ah ahhh ahhhhh
ahhh ahhhhh ahh
ah ahhh ahhhhh

YOU WATCH MY LIFE
FROM A CRACKED SCREEN
YOU DONT REACH OUT
THERES NO TALKING
ONLY SILENCE
ONLY ENVY
AS WE MOVE ON
THERES NO SMILING

oooo ooo ooo ooooo
oooo ooo ooo ooooo

from_a_cracked_screen.wav

i hope you enjoy <3
shout out @sewerperson1
original song: 
https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson/no-one-is-home-ryini

no one is home cover(ryini)

Shout out @swainesworld @swainesworld @swainesworld

Lyrics:

What you say tho
My word spit hella fatal
Burning all these tires
Ice meltin like its fuego
 drippin like im naval
Republic like im plato
Ill Rip your shit apart
I dont need a drako
Ill spray u like its nasal
Puncture like a staple
If you got a verse just leave it on the table
Im servin pretty with it
Triple double 
Bitch you know im winnin
I got nv on the track 
aint i aint talkin envy
Swaine up on the track
And thats just one of many
Save your 2 cents
I dont need your fuckin pennys

deadboymike x swaine - plato (eric godlow)

dont leave me cover <3
original by @i_x_t_a_i_l_s @sewerperson

pls dont leave me (cover) (fantom)

PUSSYBOICLIQUE
@spumlord @spumlord @spumlord
bro yung spum up next 
prod paryo

make em die w/ yung spum  [p. paryo]

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