prod hiraeth

i run away from everyone that i know 
its like a nightmare i be stuck in my home
i got no where to go im lossing my soul
so baby i be running until i cant go

i run away from everyone that i know 
its like a nightmare i be stuck in my home
i got no where to go im lossing soul
so baby i be running until i cant go

give me reason thinking that i need yo but im dreaming
but baby i know you leaving
cause i been her with this treament
and i know just how it feels to be alone and by the waste side
always wanna be her but i never wanna waste time

down rough down bad but you know that
dont care dont ask just to show that

a million different reasons and i never wanna face mine
i wish i coulda told u all i wanna do is facetime

tell me if you love me cause im borderline insane now
im pulling out my hair i swear i never wanna break now 
tell me if u want me but i know u havent changed now
i really want my life to be the way its always stayed now

i could never mean it why u keeping secrets
tell me that you love me then y d fuck u meet him 
while u think im dreaming he fuck u till ur screaming
tell me that you love me to my face while i was sleeping

i run away from everyone that i know 
its like a nightmare i be stuck in my home
i got no where to go im lossing soul
so baby i be running until i cant go

i run away from everyone that i know 
its like a nightmare i be stuck in my home
i got no where to go im lossing soul
so baby i be running until i cant go

down bad

Lyrics:

i could kill a fucking heart expressing how i felt
solitary with these thoughts is an existential hell
i'm only visiting i won't be here for long
preach good decisions while i rip another hit out of this bong
i can see right past ur face into ur mind 
if i send this fucking message i swear it's suicide  
i'll ask you every single option that i have
to make it right
and then in desperation complete the cycle and the questline

so what i'm just a monster with a mop
earning 12.50 an hour 9-5 upon the dot
it's me the janitor you know so very well
i just vented every thought of mine through songs to break my shell
and i
haven't made those in a week
and i'm getting so scared that this could be the end of my
career and it worsens my fear 
so i contemplate
all of the things that i'll never find
days turn to weeks
then to months then to years
could this project ever get done in time
pushed it back twice 
and the rush is a lie
n i'm sitting here stuck on a fucking line
i was a sight seer
i spent the night here
hang on a lease
while i ruin my teeth
and make sense of some things that should never rhyme

and i

and i hide my fucking feelings 
from my friends
and raise my walls
they can see a couple cracks
but they've not seen a thing at all
cement breaks
it's tempting
to breakdown
and lay waste

janitor pt. II

Lyrics:

this shit is fuckin targeted
so ill say it as i mean it
i'm so sick of all the paragraphs
but i feel like you need them
all the years of gearing up
unsheathing swords and fighting demons
never thought i'd die to you
a pretty girl who sent me reeling

this shit is fuckin targeted
so ill say it as i mean it
i'm so sick of all the paragraphs
but i feel like you need them
all the years of gearing up
unsheathing swords and fighting demons
never thought i'd die to you
a pretty girl who sent me reeling
honestly in many ways i think i'm really missing you
i've still thought of coming back but i don't think we'd change our views
thought i knew all that i wanted i assumed that you did too
looking back i'm fucking stupid
fixing shit that wasn't strewn
so i guess it's an apology for feeling all my feelings
for looking this far into things that held no fucking meaning
but knowing you
you'd get me quick
for why i acted on a weakness
and i don't think it's what i want
so please 
i need a single reason

i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you

-

you couldn't know what it's like.
you couldn't know what it's like
don't u dare pretend u get this
don't u dare pretend u get this.
it's a unique pain
it's a unique pain
it's a unique pain
yea somehow this shit don't feel the same.

a dragonslayer's weakness (sadtxnshi)

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @splashgvng & @overthro
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
You said this was for the best and I'd
Feel better once I got some rest
You lied
I thought that sobriety would bring me peace of mind
It's not

I couldn't be more wrong
Turns out I need a crutch to lean on
Without it I'm too fucked up
Despite my pride
I know I need help
Surely I'm too young to die
I'm too traumatized to think rationally
Like why do bad things always happen to me
You cut ties and turned your back to leave
I really thought that it'd be hard for you

(sendflowrs)
I'll be honest really thought that it'd be hard for you 
I even stopped my friends smoking in my car for you
I know you hate it when I'm faded
That's the shit I lean on
And I'm sippin' care plus until my blood turns neon 

Never thought that it would happen to me
You just told me I'm a fool and stabbed my back and then leave
And I don't wanna hear your voice no more just close your teeth
And I been feelin' hella wavy so just get off me 

You make it seem so easy
Turning your back on me

Listen on Spotify!

Too Young to Die w/ sendflowrs (Prod. Splashgvng & overthro)

@homesick + @memoryroseishere
art, mix, & master by me
enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh whats the use
dont have a clue
u look for something, you’ll find nothing
lucky u
i’m painted blue, uh
you’re killing two
birds with one stone & now alone
is how im movin, ur clueless

its all just faultless progression
you move in countless directions
& im confused
just see it through
you lost all credit, regretting
whats now just severed, forget it
i know it too
u blew that fuse

and i just
wish that time would pass so i could forget
repeat myself i’m not that crazy i bet
you cool it down to take a bite yet again
just fucking figure it out, i’m not ur friend
it ain’t a conflict of interest
we’re both just hopeless; addicted
hope i just die to be
honest if brutally
u ruin all that u touch
i just hope it hurt you enough
to make up for all of me
‘cause love its killing me

tight jaw, long nights
present lost if i’m off right
set off, fog lights
i can’t see if i’m alright
was i supposed to wait for u? i couldn’t tell ya baby
truth be told i never knew, thats how i’m feelin lately

and if i can’t love right
then what am i good for?
watch the floodlight
as i step in the downpour
show me hatred
as i did to you cold
feed me anger
so i know what you know

its all just faultless progression
you move in countless directions
& im confused
just see it through
you lost all credit, regretting
whats now just severed, forget it
i know it too
u blew that fuse

oh whats the use
dont have a clue
u look for something, you’ll find nothing
lucky u
i’m painted blue, uh
you’re killing two
birds with one stone & now alone
is how im movin, ur clueless

fuse

fuse [homesick x memoryrose]

spotify n apple :P

prod. sunshowers

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else?! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away!, stay away!,
theres something thats been off today..
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days.
i cant see any how else
no way.. !
people tell me how else

i know this isn't, and i know youre kidding
you took!,-
damn near everything i had to barely call myself
i cant stand myself! <3
drowning in myself! < / 3
I DONT NEED NO HELP!
thats what i told myse-e-elf. . ...

ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ǝɯ llǝʇ ǝsɐǝld
ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ʎuɐ ǝǝs ʇuɐɔ ᴉ
to get out of this mess,
to get out of my head,
i think i just need rest..

i cant see any how else
...
people tell me how else
...
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week. .

yh, yh,
get away, GET AWAY,
I really fucking h*te this place!
im changing up my day today,
and i know it wont change anything at all♡..
i try, i guess, but who am i?
fuck all the complications,
read the text, now my heart's racing!
hideaway, hideaway, yh :c
its time to question everything, yh!! ;c
dont turn back now,
you can slow down,
smoke that roach now,
blow that smoke out,
to clear my mind drought,
set the sun out..

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away, stay away,
theres something thats been off today
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days
no, way..

last week

Spotify Will Have The HQ Version / Wav
Spotify Here - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xelfiy/nightlights-2

Part 1: https://soundcloud.com/xelfiy/nightlights

Lyrics:

My guess is you expect this 
On my streetlight ride to my home stead 
We’re my friends dead and see no light 
Please Tell him I miss him n I’m still alone 
Tell them I’m in bliss an I’m still in my home 
still in my home 
still in my home 
I tried to look at the nightlights on my walk home 
but I got lost ya 
Tried to heal my self but what’s the cause ya
Sick of all this shit that got me fucked up

It feels as if I’m still on the ground in my grandmas home
an im looking round for someone to break my fall
someone to break my fall

My guess is you expect this 
On my streetlight ride to my home stead 
We’re my friends dead and see no light 
Please Tell him I miss him n I’m still alone 
Tell them I’m in bliss an I’m still in

My guess is you expect this 
On my streetlight ride to my home stead 
We’re my friends dead and see no light 
Please Tell him I miss him n I’m still alone 
Tell them I’m in bliss an I’m still in my home 
blue shit in my drink but its got vodka
I tried to look at the nightlights on my walk home 
but I got lost ya 
Tried to heal my self but what’s the cause ya
Sick of all this shit that got me fucked up

PLEASE TELL HIM I MISS HIM N IM STILL ALONE
TELL THEM IM IN BLISS AN IM STILL IN MY HOME

Nightlights 2

SPOTIFY

Nightlights 2 (prod. THERSX)

07  [interlude]

grow until u reach the mold

lyrics

i hate it here, i love this town x4

/

i can feel the world burning motherland 

i can feel that it needs a helping hand

i can see the worst right across from me

in a lake that hurts and a lake that bleeds
/
i hate it here, i love this town

we have no choice either red or brown

old revelations interlude

old revelations interlude (empty roads)

i know the mix is horrible, but just uhhh pretend like it sounds good idk 
also yes it's all pitched down slightly i was self conscious <3

shoutout freestyling hooks

lyrics:
she say put the lime in
ion know what the time is
i be staying silent
find me in here crying
told me keep it simple
whip crash like a rental
crackin wraps 2 reassemble
cant get u out the mental

overseas
flow like fit so lysterine
pop out white tee no mr clean
my pyt bitch we shootin scenes
nigga who u fooling
steady boolin
wrists look like to do list
opposite of living i put my bullet in n shoot it at me
settle mind poundin dread, fill it out w/ lead
MIA in my head, think im better dead
fuck it up off the drugs so i write instead
try run away, just to stay inside of my bed
stuck inside the cold, ion really go out
every song abt me because im always alone now
loud dissociating till my bowl within the background
jus a fuck up lil bitch guess u found out

she say put the lime in
ion know what the time is
i be staying silent
find me in here crying
told me keep it simple
whip crash like a rental
crackin wraps 2 reassemble
cant get u out the mental

rental_2003 (travis xantana)

s/o my brother https://soundcloud.com/breckenford

lyrics

i never been smart
dont worry bout me bae u got a good heart
i kno i will love u till my times gone
n no we dont got time to think about the time lost

buckle up ur my overdrive
i feel myself spiral to a downward dive
n if u leave me in the end i can say that i tried
ill take the long way home
got shit to think ab
i had to teach myself to "not fall when u looking down"
spent a long time looking for myself
something different that i found
n i dont like it

im seeing violence when i close my eyelids
n we may struggle towards the end but death is silent
n she love asking why im drinking like a pirate
but when its all broken down
its just a science

(ford)
give me guidence
everyday im breaking down in the quiet
will it ever go away im steady crying
when u lie u overtaking got me dying
so indecisive
said im priceless then u say im violent
girl im trying
i dont gotta hide it
perfect timing
still wont stop the whining
so im reliant on the pain thru all the shining
but it make sense
all the times u broke me down n made me reset
made me realize all the cries were never silent
everything u ever said was only pretend
for no reason
i did my best to make sure u knew that i felt
every feeling in the world when i fell down
ill move away
go to town
find a new crowd
youd see what love was all about if u stick around
i know the truth now
it was over from the start
u a rebound
u could never reach my heart
such a let down
why is life so gd hard is this even allowed
is this even allowed

buckle up ur my overdrive
i feel myself spiral to a downward dive
n if u leave me in the end i can say that i tried
ill take the long way home
got shit to think ab
i had to teach myself to "not fall when u looking down"
spent a long time looking for myself
something different that i found
n i dont like it

death is silent w/ brecken (jacob vallen)

w/ @xelfiy @20ofive @scottysplash @prodbysxda

[deadboymike]
If she send a text i wont hit her up
Pour another drink
I dont give a fuck
Everybody fake
I could never trust
I pop another pill
Just to feel a rush
Sad inside 
Suicide on my mind 
Pop a pill slow it down
Take your time 
Better buckle up
If you’re down for the ride
She just sent a text come and chill
Come and slide

[xelfiy]
phone is blowing up shes 
tryina get me to come in side
but i got shit to do and it will probably 
will just keep me up all night
an i probably will cuz im mentally ill 
an i dont ever let my heart out 
enough to let it go spill
gotta lot of work to do 
and it dont mater how he feel
we still gotta chop away 
until we gotta enough to pay the bills
and they act like they care 
that your mentally ill 
but it wont mater till your spines 
is all ripped up ina field
i couldn't let go of the pain
i fear nothing is the same
an im the one to blame 
i dont feel the same

[deadboymike]
If she send a text i wont hit her up
Pour another drink
I dont give a fuck
Everybody fake
I could never trust
I pop another pill
Just to feel a rush
Sad inside 
Suicide on my mind 
Pop a pill slow it down
Take your time 
Better buckle up
If you’re down for the ride
She just sent a text come and chill
Come and slide

[20ofive]
walls red its a fuckin mess
all this is fucking with my head
migraines im wishing i was dead
maybe i just need a little rest

met the reaper late inside my dreams yeah
hes not as bad as he always seems though
youre worse cause you a mother fuckin fiend hoe
we both becoming freinds so let me know just how your dreams go

eyes red mind bends
ive been fucking blinded
go back to that lair you decid that you reside in
flying dying 
cause i fucking crashed
turn back to youre past and imma burn it down to ash

yeah youre probly thinking that im crazy
im just eavesdropping on your daydreams
mind reading screaming fucking shady
tell me stop it but ill prolly think about it maybe

SLIDE w/ xelfiy, 20ofive (scottysplash x woahsxda)

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