waiting on a message but she never called 💔 this is a banger, thank you 💙

--wrote this in the beginning of october--

im staying up all night, i cant stop to cry
dont tell me i will get better cus i'll be gone 'fore december
she loves these fucked up eyes
in another life i might be living forever i want someone to remember
the way i felt these days when they called me crazy
give me 16 days and that bitch will hate me
its okay
yea its okay
i'll be okay, she'll be okay :)

december (hateful)

[intro]

Worst days
Worst days
Ooh 
No, no

[chorus] 

So I go
To the same old place that you know
And I wish that I could just hold
You inside my arms, cuz u know, u know, u know

[verse - flesh golem]

I've never felt this safe 
I hope you feel the same 
you wish I wouldn't go 
I know the feeling baby 

everytime that I'm alone 
I start disintegrating 
I can't take this on my own 
could you be my blanket maybe 

its a cold night
really haven't been this frigid in my whole life
baby could you let me in i wanna hold you tight
maybe you could help me get rid of this frostbite

i wanna let you know i got you if it goes bad 
and I'm still gonna love you through every rough patch 
and I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait till I come back to you

[bridge]

Worst days
I really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days, your worst days I’ll love you

[chorus] 

So I go
To the same old place that you know
And I wish that I could just hold
You inside my arms, cuz u know, u know, u know

[bridge]

Worst days
I really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days, your worst days I’ll love you

your worst days (feat. flesh golem)(boyfifty & autrioly)

prod branwenteeayemadeit!

breathing on sorbet
bitch i am gormet
i dig first class flights 
and i dont pay no 
i dont pay no entry price
that bitch is spice
that girl is nice 
yh i wanna fight

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt making sense/cents at all
i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt missing rent to ball
for my moms sake, i wish i could say
i dont miss smoking every night and every day

theres only so much i can say inside a letter cause its pricey as fuck and it wont make u feel better

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

look out my window like who da fuck is dat
i dunno im the queen of the maw
im the queen of the hive
im the queen of this life
baby life is like a combine
shoot that boy between his eyes

sorbettt

teeayemadeit

shoutout to @fleshgolem for the crazy mix & mastr

lyrics

abuse me and hurt me but don’t fuckin love me
it’s what i deserve all this earth does is fuck me
and breaking me down till i’m one with the ground
when i don’t feel like talking that’s me calling her ugly

it’s hard when ur broken 
someone that’s all knowing 
but no way could fix up all of these emotions 
or whatever’s left 
on this trip i’ve been floating the motions are flowing but everything’s slowing me down
but when ur around 
i feel my pulse beating twice as fast and the clocks not making sound

she said do u feel it now 
no but why am i bleeding out
stopped the healing now
oh fuck i can feel it now

oh fuck i can feel it now
im losing my patience now
been taking my time, my whole fucking life and I cannot lose this now

my body is losing its function 
the motor inside isnt pumping 
im losing my care in this high numbered function
ill make everyone think that im something 
so get the fuck out of my way 
ive got too much shit that i held ‘till this day
fucks sake i love u 
this once just believe what I say

i dont wanna move forward
till ive found a new face
been farming ideas now i want the source 8

masochist (whitlen)

prod. Tied For Silver & flesh
Stream "nothin for myself" on all platforms:
https://open.spotify.com/track/5AnGZfuMXdnoRakHN7yl7W?si=3e3ca43d8f87409b
https://youtu.be/i9n_57gX1xA

nothin for myself

lyrics-

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*
im getting sick of all talk
i needa take a walk


cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i wont be around too long if i stay here
say hi to the neighbor while im fried
i know shes pretty, i dont like my life
taking out the trash, while i look into her eyes

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*

sorry that im sorry (prod. secre swallowtail)

@strivemusicau
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(TNS)
It’s hard to find a thousand ways to wake up 
When everything inside my head is a bad thought

Anxiety just fills my head
A thousand ways to just forget 

Ain’t nothing is worth it when your in my bed 
Your stuck in the sky while your in my head 

And I’m still scared when I wake up 
A thousand ways for us to make up 

(strivesad)
I miss the stars and symphonies
My racing heart and pretty things
fell apart into my memories
So can we

taste it all it’s bittersweet
It’s me and her the remedy
it’s me and her that perfectly fit with the way that we’re living

The weak sleeps as she weeps through the wasted mental
state of mind while I’m wasting time it’s either now or the afterlife
and there’s a thousand ways of saying that I really tried 
I keep to myself almost every night 

I thought that you would notice
from the fake smiles on my photos
lack of seretonin I hope it comes back so I can focus on
the things I knew that got away
The pain my mind is suffering
I wish to see more better days
and focus on recovering

I’m holding onto to hope and
All the things that help me cope with
all the stress will keep me smoking
bacco cause the stress has got me going
flowing back into my old habits
I hate the fact I’m slowly sink into my old mattress

(TNS)
It’s hard to find a thousand ways to wake up 
When everything inside my head is a bad thought

Anxiety just fills my head
A thousand ways to just forget 

Ain’t nothing is worth it when your in my bed 
Your stuck in the sky while your in my head 

And I’m still scared when I wake up 
A thousand ways for us to make up

Thousand Ways [+ flesh x pekarot]

the impact of 9tails w/ shizukesa. (S8:E2)

Prod @wisssery <3

These past few months
Gave me cuts on my face
And every day i make the same mistakes
Pushed away my friends 
Cuz i hate how ive changed
She made me worse
And im not the same
I hate myself
I just need some space 
Im tired of holding in all my pain

Should i stay here
Or am i lying to myself
visions not clear
And i dont need your help
Should i stay here
Or am i lying to myself
visions not clear
And i dont need your help

Please let me go and watch me fall
Didnt think our relationship would change it all
I cant even rest when im alone
Waiting for a message on phone

apologies on the mixing, my pop filter broke and im using a different one. will make sure the next song isnt as bad <3

not/clear (@wisssery)

prod. kawaiibeatz

i walk around the issue..
i really kinda miss u
im tryna be who im not, nd it hurts..
that never worked tho,
i was a jerk bro ;/
ill take back what i said!
i dont mean it at all!
and fill my head up with lead!
i hope u know that i-
mean 
this.. ;(
my mind is incompleted 
and my thoughts go one on one-
i cant see me any how else!

(popularreject)

You said you would call back
…
In a minute
… 
Girl I gave you all that 
Now we’re finished 
I’m in a Maybach now I’m sippin 
This is goodbye and good riddance 
… 
I sip Henny 
I get ready
And say good bye my vision 

Good dope all I roll up 
Bitch I’m dope I feel like Yola 
Smoke this dope and bend her over 
Got the force I feel like Yoda 
I got purple in my soda 

Duhh

I got purple in my soda 
In the range and I’m not sober
If it’s foreign rev the motor

Yuhh 
… hahahaa

jerk w/ popularreject

written during the time of meeting @sewerperson

lyrics

i’m wasted force
spent time in the sewers but i wanted more
coz when i left back to reality i felt lost i just needed merly discourse

tell me ur story 
tell me where’s home
show me the future
ik it’s cold but

if i hit 40
u need 2 know
that this was ur doing to which i owe my soul

been here since day 1
i wish it showed
where was this love at 
where did it go omg

u see we’re bonded
but different holes 
that we climbed out of 
i hope ur proud of me

5 yrs of listening 
th dust has settled yeh things r so different
that shit was splifferent
taught me to write my own book and spot out the fiction
put a purpose in som of these bad chapters 
gave me a mission

the track was rusted now tunnel vision 
things r so clear when im zoned in and listening 
life is worth living 
found from within but without u
its missing
especiilay when i miss home

ik ur lost
this wrld can be cruel but u haven’t yet lost…

i saw the bridges then the fire
id stroll so peaceful in the mire
i’ve been so many destinations but no scenes compare to this. i’m not a cryer

but i can’t help but shed a tear
a lot past brought out tnite
to keep it tight th_heavy beers
to stay surreal i kept it light

i’ve put a body 2 a voice
and i wish that i could stop time
i dont know how i got here 
but im not gonna question why
ima live this fuckin moment when u hand me that old mic
sing our fucking lungs out 
forget our sorrowed lives

sewers

_sewers (secre x javiifontan)

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not/clear (@wisssery)

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