im becoming numb

Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/youngburial
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(Lyrics)
stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

she just wanna see me when I’m down 
questioning what are we I just frown 
getting messages from other people
can I ask are you evil?
and I just wanna set the mood to winter 

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

and every time we hanging out you don’t speak 
you question all the love you have for me I can see
I can see through this facade protecting me 
Hurting me give me more 

she was out too much 
she would stab me in my back
I know you didn’t care about me 
and I just wish you could love me 
the way I want you to 
and it’s been aching me

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

on your way your back that is not true 
you said that you care but that’s all lies
girl I miss you 
you know that I’m selfish girl 
I just wanna settle down 
I just wanna stay around 

and I just need a second to breathe 
I just wanna live here in peace 
no one fucking bothering me 
and I just need a second to breathe 
so please don’t go 

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this

what are we (fats'e)

beat produced by lil nightshift 
- https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCb4KSyiaqbe_4UTYHZZEXOg

"help me", i said "what for"
she crawls away on the wet floor
i said "it's over" and "i'm not sure if i'll forgive you at all"

knife to the back how you feelin bout that
that's how you treat everyone all the time
life goes fast as it flashes through your eyes
i'll stand and watch and complain about mine
you're so sad i can't stand you
everyone around has abandoned you too
that's cause no one can handle
all the misery you put them through

so goodbye now
guess your time ran out
keep it quiet now
for you there's no way out

she told me i'm crazy, like yeah i know
i'm helping you out cause you gotta go
you're insane, told you long ago
time to leave this place you dumb girl

she tries to attack but it sets her right back
tears are flooding out of her eyes
this shouldn't even be too much to unpack
i smile and laugh over her cries
she's so scared, and no ones here for her
all the noise just turns into a whisper
she's so unprepared, won't know what hits her
and hopefully things can just go back to how they once were

she cried "it's not fair"
wait, why are you not self aware
you've done so much shit that you cannot repair
ruined lives and you don't even care

"help me", i said "what for"
she crawls away on the wet floor
i said "it's over" and "i'm not sure if i'll forgive you at all"

blood covers the pavement 
now i hear sirens wailing 
stained clothes got no time to change them
so i'll stay here and wait then
bite marks on both of my knees
covered in marks and bruises
in my head i'm replaying your screams
never met someone so useless

sirens (lil nightshift)

RAHHHHHHHH!!

lyrics

a fuckin waster
hiding in broad daylight 
every risk i take feels like a tazer
help me meet my maker
just please give me a taster 
the reflection to ur face 
know that u cannot be replaced

again yeah ive been thinking about my lake life
i just wanna hold u so tight
and stay up these late nights
fate dies every time im with u but i hate lies 
snake eyes stare at me they push and pull to break ties

a beaten stowaway no im not going back
to that cold place but know that im back on track 
to my old ways vision fades to black
its those dark days im not going back

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waster
im a waste of life

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waste of breathe
im a waste of time

a waster
just me and my ego oh it push and pulls
face it 
u had never been responsible

list of own rules
this drink so toxic ima cave
tonight i dont wanna be saved
jus feel love, 
love the pain

lights r out its dark
mayb its just me
id o my best to carry weight but this shit aint normal

fucking waster im just fucking wasting time
wasting breathe
i been here, been on 10
somehow almost 25
thought by then wouldnt be alive 
so ima just take it night by night
just wanna feel love tonight
baby its jus me and u tonight 
i want u to take my breathe tonight

wastrrr

wastrrr (branwen)

cracks in the pavement w/ decks & brecken  [irby]

don't wanna stay (prod. boyfifty)

baby i been chilling inside the cave on the east
from here i see the future so they treat me like a beast
they say i swear i never knew it or the place that its lost in
seld esteem within the walls ive been giving up on my concious

tryna find a reason it hurts every time i breathe
different battle with the seasons, fuck the cold and the heat
they say nothing i connect with but surprised i wanna leave
everything resentful an enigmas what ill be 

im just there
im a statue crumbling im not here
im all intrinsic so i guess i dont care 
they all ignore, or mayb im too aware
i do this 4 me, and everyone i love will get the share

hiding in the shadows 
ashamed of my name
ashamed where i come from and 
and im sorry that i came

i hate that i feel these things
when i know what ive achieved
my bloodline watching over like i wish that kid would see
(jus find peace)

put so much effort in to breaking down these walls
all odds against me and im still standing tall
i carry weight that u could never imagine 
so why would i relate when u speak to me at all

its hard to know my worth when i cant picture where i stand
guess im on my own, no suppression when i land
2 decades ive been destined for a confusing life
but im still here ive had no option but to fight

the enigma

the enigma (flesh x jolst)

Let me be a misfit smoking every hour 
Hate me like I’m mizkif ‘ lonely at the top
She be on some witch shit, suck me for hours 
You know that I’m different

Let me be a misfit smoking every hour 
Hate me like I’m mizkif ‘ lonely at the tower 
She be on some witch shit, suck me for hours 
You know that I’m different please give me flowers 

Let me be a misfit smoking every hour 
Hate me like I’m mizkif ‘ lonely at the tower 
She be on some witch shit, suck me for hours 
You know that I’m different please give me flowers 

You know that I’m different just be honest 
I swear that my cries will always be the loudest 
Xanning on the front porch 
What I’m good for 
Did this all to myself 
Internet star 

It’s so hard to say but I gotta go 
Kissing on ur cheek, stepping on ur toes 
Remember Halloween party 2019
What you called me 
Still haunts me 

Is it too late to make amends 
Still feel your hands rubbing on my chest 
still remember all the tears shed 
Yeah I wept but I won’t break 
Tripping over words you say 
Empty thoughts, staying up late 
So alone but I won’t break 

Let me be a misfit smoking outside 
Hate me like mizkif and every other guy 
She be on some witch shit, evil in her eyes 
You that I’m different please let me strive 

Wish it was different let’s be honest 
I swear it’s so hard to try to modest 
Xanning on the front porch 
While it pours 
I did this all to myself 
Fuck a costar

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bones that snap like a branch
i can’t deal with this anguish
freezing cold, no plans
crawling home, i’m stranded
i cannot give it up
i try to give a fuck
i’m abandoned
don’t tell me what it was
i dealt with my own luck
i can’t stand it

i’ll freeze my soul
don’t breathe when im walking alone
hear your voice thru the phone
won’t talk back to you if you call

just leave me on the highway
i decide to run away
i know you hope i’ll change my mind and come to you another day
but imma do it my way
don’t come by my place
if i don’t return by saturday

coming down, i feel fine now
i can’t let anybody find out
on the walk back to my house
time moves slower, it’s frightened

bones that snap like a branch
i can’t deal with this anguish
freezing cold, no plans
crawling home, i’m stranded
i cannot give it up
i try to give a fuck
i’m abandoned
don’t tell me what it was
i dealt with my own luck
i can’t stand it

stranded (santana)

prod. kill breanna x caves x safeatlast

dont try me
im not me 
i dont eat 
i dont sleep
oh
and im still 
looking at the sky
wondering why
and wasting my time
the ninja dude never hit the lightpoles
i always find out where you go
youre enough, i promise baby
no one else could ever save me
i take every step too, and it fucking pains me
and im focused on you, all the time maybe...
i did it all for you and no i dont regret it
i prance over the flowers and it kills them! . .
im sorry that i dont stand up for me, but,
im really not the same as i ever was,
now ill always say what i (truly) want
who are you, and who am i?
dont try me
im not me 
i dont eat 
i dont sleep
oh
and im still 
looking at the sky
wondering why
and wasting my time
the ninja dude never hit the lightpoles
i always find out where you go
youre enough, i promise baby
no one else could ever save me
i take every step too, and it fucking pains me
and im focused on you, all the time maybe...
i did it all for you and no i dont re.. gret.. it
i prance over the flowers and it kills them..
i prance over the flowers and it kills them.. :')
i wish i wasnt him, and such a victim
(i know im not!!)
(i know im not!!!!)
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i!!!
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i-

every step too

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