@deadboymike weird but wtv floats your boat man. good shit though I wasn't tryna talk badly I kust didn't know the numbers and shit was a "language" lol

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/stezzyxl
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(Lyrics)
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[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it 

[Auby]
i came to plead again
please end my suffering 
looks like my hands are tied
in the palm of your hand
let me take solace that youll be here with me
im done with all this constant wondering
cant look you into your eyeshouldnt be very surprised
sorry that im a mess
i promise i tried my best
living in a web of lies
without you i wouldnt survive
no type of medicine could fix what is happening

[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it x2

[Verse]
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe 
and i just wanted you closer 
these lonely thoughts are getting colder 

[Outro]
and i just wanted some closure holding each other till we're warmer 
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
 i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe

breathe w/ auby (stezzyxl)

mastered by @wokely
Lyrics:

[chorus] 

scratching at my dry eyes for the last time
i know, that you despise, when i cry 
so i, try my best to, try my best to lie
so you don’t hate me for the last time

[verse]

slumped on my desk hoping that somebody wakes me up
this ain’t what u want, but that’s okay I always mess it up
haven’t slept for over 5 hours, in 5 years 
maybe it would be better if i could see clear

i been hurting myself for a while
throwing up every single day before a shower
what a disaster, i feel myself losing all of my power
headaches every day cuz i want music louder

hate going in my living room, cuz everybody thinks i wont be living soon
hate my voice so i try my best to cover it up in autotune
hate myself, i hate to loom, when that’s all i know how to do
i hate the way i think, so i hate my attitude 

[verse 2]

going down i know, that you probably hate me
i don’t blame u either, cuz i also hate me
everything i make is garbage and ez
that’s why nobody likes it lately

i been going crazy, i don’t even want to do this anymore it hurts me
yeah, it hurts me, i don’t even want to do this anymore 
it makes me feel weak 
and i can’t even stand this for one more week

it’s really hurting deep
my soul is not cheap, but right now it might be
i really hate this feeling
so can you take it please, can you take it please

[chorus]

scratching at my dry eyes for the last time
i know, that you despise, when i cry 
so i, try my best to, try my best to lie
so you don’t hate me for the last time

dry i's (killedmyself)

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

Mixed/Mastered By Me 
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/prodneverforever
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(Lyrics)
And I just need to think 
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is always hard 
You just need time 
I’ll give you that time 
I’m too persistent 
And I’m so sorry 
And I just wish that 
Things went back to normal 

And I just need to think
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is so fucking hard 

In the basement I drink I’m too wasted 
I try to show you love but you resist it 
And I’ll give you time 
Baby girl I don’t wanna resign 

Waking up it just hurts too much 
I just miss you come back my love 
It’s been a month but I fell in love with you x2

And I just need to think
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is so fucking hard x2

When I saw your green blue eyes 
I fell in love so instantly 
If you have little love for me 
Let’s give that one more chance 
I just know it can work out 
We still love each other you know 

Just one more chance x3

i'll give you the time (neverforever)

--wrote this in the beginning of october--

im staying up all night, i cant stop to cry
dont tell me i will get better cus i'll be gone 'fore december
she loves these fucked up eyes
in another life i might be living forever i want someone to remember
the way i felt these days when they called me crazy
give me 16 days and that bitch will hate me
its okay
yea its okay
i'll be okay, she'll be okay :)

december (hateful)

ily <3

Im sorry that we didnt last
I just want all this pain in the past
Our pictures still intact with the frame
Life wont ever feel like the same 
Oh no
Oh no

Depressed when i wake up
You ask that we make up
U cheat then we break up
Its toxic
And i dont want to be an option 
Oh no

And im so sorry that i couldnt change
You look at my face and im one to blame
You say that you love me
You say that you hate me
I dont care anymore 
Im sorry…

Im sorry that we didnt last
I just want all this pain in the past
Our pictures still intact with the frame
Life wont ever feel like the same 
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no

I know
I know

Prod @jeweler737

its the same feeling every night and i hate it... (jewelryboy)

@x1fern
@navyxower
@northshoremusic
@kuriositylol
@emptychest

War w/ 1fern, NAVYXOWER, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

a breath of fresh air in the middle of october [reuben]

what you'd do

prod. pekarot and jolst 



i gotta go it alone
i need the space to heal 
from the pain thats been caused
and  thoughts that i conceal
just give me a second to breathe 
wish i could fall asleep
two rips from the pipe, ill feel alright
why do i feel the need to apologize?
pretty fucked up, im not gonna lie
it happens every time
i go back to the moment
i dont regret it, i own it
the weight of the world has me feeling like im dope sick 
house set up in flames
so i forced a window to open 
i need to find out just why im so fucked in the head
i bet it’d make more sense if you found me dead
cause thats what you want anyway
my minds got something to say about it all the time
why
why the fuck do i even try? 
it seems that no remedy can suffice
my guilt is starving, watch it eat me alive
so i guess just let me know ill never get it right

i tell u, i do not know! (prod. pekarot x jolst)

**work in progress**

LYRICS:
Is he all that you dreamed of?
Looking, at you on that site
Seeing you’ve chosen a side
I might wanna hold off, now
Before I get out of myself
Rile him up, risking my health  

I know what you’re feeling inside
You’re in too deep now
Too hard to get out
I know what you’re feeling inside

**BREAKDOWN**

This was all I could dream of, now
When does it ever end well?
At least I got out with myself
I might need to stand off now.
You had me taking a knee the last time we fought for a belt.
It’s frightening,
To see one you love strike with lightning
How many times did you say goodbye to me?
Getting out my car to leave, were you counting?

I know what you’re feeling inside
You’re in too deep now
Too hard to get out
I know what you’re feeling inside

**BREAKDOWN**

I put 30,000 on a vision board
And I stuck that next to, “help my mother navigate divorce”
& All I hear is you should try and go out more
You should try and put yourself out more
You should try and move on George 
There’s no time, I’ve got work
I just work, I eat work
Sleep, run work, praying this (works)
I’ve been worse, it all falls down if I don’t work
I pulled the 30 down, cos we went 40+ (in a month)
Get my cheque, put that in cash, I can’t hold it, it’s too much
Got my accountant on my ass, tryna deduct
She saw my phone's and thinks i'm selling drugs
I took her out for dinner, she’s in love
This life is nothing what it once was

I know what you’re feeling inside
You’re in too deep now
Too hard to get out
I know what you’re feeling inside
If he’s your way out
Then why’re you still around?

I’ve lost track it’s been months
It’s cold here in the winter, but last summer you went nuts.

**OUTRO**

INSIDE V6 (prod by. me)

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its the same feeling every night and i hate it... (jewelryboy)

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