I was caught lurkin in the baackground <3

Slowly starting to fall in love with you LMAO

People they tell me im worth it 
I do not think that im perfect 
Knowing they love me back then
Knowing they love me right now and i know

This aint what it ment to be
Passed out why they dead to me
I cannot think sippin hennesy
I was caught lurkin in the background 
Why does everyone target me
Our love was dead from the start
I stayed up in the dark
Thinking of texts that i sent
Maybe those words were best if unsaid

Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Maybe those words were best if unsaid

My emotions change by the minute 
Said i was done but i cannot finish
Off the feelings you left
I keep asking god why im a mess
And i know

This aint what it ment to be
Passed out why they dead to me
I cannot think sippin hennesy
I was caught lurkin in the background 
Why does everyone target me
Our love was dead from the start
I stayed up in the dark
Thinking of texts that i sent

Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Thinking of texts that i sent
Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Maybe those words were best if unsaid
Why am i such a fuckin mess
Why am i such a fuckin mess

dark nights (jewelryboy)

Lyrics:
deadtomorrow:
standing on the ledge 
hopefully I don’t fall
10 stories high 
hopefully I don’t die 
oh please don’t cry
i just wanna fly
I’ve wanted this for life 
I’ve wanted this for life 
thoughts of suicide 
they’re runnin in my mind 
Runnin in my head 
sayin you should be dead 
really scared to die
I’m not gonna lie 
talk bout it all the time 
but I’m fuckin terrified 

let me go
i wanna go
don’t wanna stay
let go of
my fuckin waist
i wanna fly 
I wanna die 
think it’s my time 
think it’s my time 
no one can save
 a damn life
many have tried 
i already died 
on the inside 
loved you too much
wanted you in my life 

standing on the ledge 
hopefully I don’t fall
10 stories high 
hopefully I don’t die 
oh please don’t cry
i just wanna fly
I’ve wanted this for life 
I’ve wanted this for life 
thoughts of suicide 
they’re runnin in my mind 
Runnin in my head 
sayin you should be dead 
really scared to die
I’m not gonna lie 
talk bout it all the time 
but I’m fuckin terrified 

seejayxo: I don't wanna let you go but
I know I can stay
I been in my room since thursday
Riding through the city with the top down
i just really want to get some top now
i think she want me back cuz im a rockstar
and i just put her in that brand new chrome hart
heard he talkin shit well i dont know him
if you wanna see me try then ima show em

scared to die ft. seejayxo (thersx)

EPITOME:

i-i-i-i-i try to forget the past 
but it just keep bringing me back
n-n-n-no we didn’t  know how this would last
is it funny to you to see my life shatter like glass
t-t-t-the world around me left me broken and scarred
don’t be surprised when i’m dead in the dark
these lonely feelings that i can’t shake

oh god
when will i break

(epitome & casperrr)

all of these feelings 
what is the meaning
i struggle every day to keep on living and breathing 
at this point i’ll be dead hanging from the ceiling 

i’ve been so alone
got no where to go
not even a home
walking down this lonely road
no hands to hold
i’m really on my own
it haunts me to know 
that i can’t let 

c-c-cant let
GO
of the past

it haunts me to know 
it haunts me to know

CASPERRR:

u keep haunting me in my sleep
n u keep haunting in my dream
i thought u were mine to keep 
but nothings really what it seems 
everything is black and white 
so much shit that i can fix
the only coloured thing is lean

dirty sprite makes me feel fine
all this buzz man am so high
did i lose weight i feel light
do you still remember thst night

it haunts me to know w/ casperrr (cl6udy x yunny goldz)

produced by killedmyself

completely non profit 

lyrics

stary nights without the complexes
walking bout the mountains tryna fill up all our pockets
with cigarette butts 
crave a nicotine buzz
wasnt on no bud
just dumb tryna prove my love
i was feeling quite a misfit
what a bitch

ur life is over just as its begun
she found the sun inside anothers arms
and to a brother that had sworn no harm
i think ill stay inside long until the weathers calm
she got a humble cause
tearing u in half
tryna mend ur heart
she wanna leave some scars
head
whats going on in ur head babe
eyes are feeling like an xray
honestly i think im too dazed
feeling like its been 2 days
caught up in all of my blue days
that is not worthy of news page
so how r u liking my new face
ripped the skin off of my mainframe
rolled it around in an ashtray
stapled it back onto my veins

its alright
its alright
its alright
its alright

stary nights without the complexes
walking bout the mountains tryna fill up all our pockets
with cigarette butts 
crave a nicotine buzz
wasnt on no bud
just dumb tryna prove my love
i was feeling quite a misfit
what a bitch

poetry from a diary i found buried by my headstone (killedmyself)

tell me who i am
i don't understand 
i can hear their screams inside the walls and i cant stand it
i just wanna live, just take me away
blood inside my mouth, i'm filling mud up to my face
tell me who i am
i don't understand 
i can hear their screams inside the walls and i cant stand it
i just wanna live, just take me away
blood inside my mouth, i'm filling mud up to my face


when i'm 20 something, i'll fucking die
sitting high up above with the satellites 
wish that i wasn't a mess like every fucking night
blow my trees just to see if i'm still alive

(she keep me close just to tell me we not like that)

switched up, really switched up, guess you saw the phone
mix up, just a mix up, i feel so alone
lifeline, you are my lifeline
breathing in your soundwaves
through my phone line
let me switch my tone, i-
i fucking love you, i just met you at the wrong time
we both changed, love
but it's all fine
yeah that's alright
we both know i put my feelings into soundbytes

tell me who i am
i don't understand 
i can hear their screams inside the walls and i cant stand it
i just wanna live, just take me away
blood inside my mouth, i'm filling mud up to my face
tell me who i am
i don't understand 
i can hear their screams inside the walls and i cant stand it
i just wanna live, just take me away
blood inside my mouth, i'm filling mud up to my face

mudmudmud (nevrfall)

Indifferent [+ splashgvng x Saint Tomorrow]

Lyrics:

this shit is fuckin targeted
so ill say it as i mean it
i'm so sick of all the paragraphs
but i feel like you need them
all the years of gearing up
unsheathing swords and fighting demons
never thought i'd die to you
a pretty girl who sent me reeling

this shit is fuckin targeted
so ill say it as i mean it
i'm so sick of all the paragraphs
but i feel like you need them
all the years of gearing up
unsheathing swords and fighting demons
never thought i'd die to you
a pretty girl who sent me reeling
honestly in many ways i think i'm really missing you
i've still thought of coming back but i don't think we'd change our views
thought i knew all that i wanted i assumed that you did too
looking back i'm fucking stupid
fixing shit that wasn't strewn
so i guess it's an apology for feeling all my feelings
for looking this far into things that held no fucking meaning
but knowing you
you'd get me quick
for why i acted on a weakness
and i don't think it's what i want
so please 
i need a single reason

i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you

-

you couldn't know what it's like.
you couldn't know what it's like
don't u dare pretend u get this
don't u dare pretend u get this.
it's a unique pain
it's a unique pain
it's a unique pain
yea somehow this shit don't feel the same.

a dragonslayer's weakness (sadtxnshi)

treacherous *mo beats*

if we died, would our ghosts fw each other?

searching for a pot of gold

spotify

searchin for a pot of gold [p. yunny goldz]

s/o epitomeoffailure and emptychest :))

lyrics
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crack in the oak
mold in my home
lungs fading black
am i dying alone
cry in the snow, let her walk in the snow
while i hide in my coat
winter silent window

oh-oh~ 
raining, it's cold
no~
breaking my bones
midnight, in love with the moonlight
fuck a star sign, shawty looking too bright
(oh, oh
oh no, oh no)

epitome:
oh no i think that my heart stopped
when you walked through the door
making my jaw drop to the floor
and when you left that night
i could barely put a fight
with my fucking self
always going through another hell
all alone
on my own
running to a place i can barley call a home
but that’s not new
had my life in hands of someone that i thought i knew
and i had no clue
that i was being used by you
the entire time
but your plans fell through
and in the end i got what’s mine

empty: 
did you really ever get that far?
blacked out in the back of my car, and i love this shit.
i wouldn't trade it for anything,
except maybe living ;/ 
no!!</3
yeah yeah,
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me, so
i dont have no regrets, no.
yeah yeah yeah,
i know every day counts, and thats why i count em
yeah yeah yeah,
its a pain to wait, its a day away..
and i need something else
and i need a little bit of help
and when your body gives out
don't be sad, no more..
i would never do that to you..
to you.. :(
i love him, but i love me more.
can you stay, tonight?
blame it on me if you have to, just know-
i dont mind.
flying pieces, colliding with you.

shizu:
crack in the oak
mold in my home
lungs fading black
am i dying alone
cry in the snow, let her walk in the snow
while i hide in my coat
winter silent window

snow w/ epitomeoffailure & kill breanna (2001)

prod. @jolst
leftover from this summer
put the finishing touches on it and thought it deserved to be out there
hope y'all enjoy this track has a soft spot in my heart
happy thanksgiving <33

lyrics (maybe):

its never my fault
thats what im hoping at least
i don’t think much
its hard to focus at peace
im a nuisance
i never ask for ur help
if we get thru this
i swear i’ll work on myself

life takes what u want from me
my head’s needing surgery
rewire all the ways i see
transgress all the boundaries
i’ve felt the cold shoulder before
i know better than letting u 
slip into misery
its as simple as counting threes
wish i knew u were next to me

im a burden to myself but i make do
nothing forms inside my head when i face u
stare at crystal eyes forever i dont blame u
for hating my ways, never subject to change
divvy up all the patterns i rinse and repeat
i cant do anything im forgetting to eat
whats a job to a man who incessantly cheap
with his words but his money cant last the whole week
im just tired

next2me [jolst]

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